within Temptation

Chapter 331 Crazy

Fei Leina is still murmuring, whispering about her love for me.Seeing her falling into her fantasies about love like a demon, I was terrified and worried.

This situation was something I hadn't thought of before coming here.I thought that although Fei Leina loves me deeply, no matter what, it is still within the scope of reason.Even if I reject her love, she should be able to bear it.

Just like Feleina left me back then, although I was in pain and sad, didn't I accept the reality in the end and slowly recover?
However, now I suddenly realize that this may be my wishful thinking.Fei Leina's dedication to love may not be as simple as she loves me.Here, there are things I hadn't thought of before.

That is, this is her spiritual pillar!Why can a girl endure four years of loneliness?What prompted her to bear the burden of humiliation and gritted her teeth to persevere?
That's because she firmly believes that her persistence and hard work will get a good reward.It is because of this belief that she did not give in and did not fall.Coming back to be with me was her sole purpose and motivation in life.

Moreover, I realized that because of this, she sanctified the love with me in her heart.It was no ordinary love affair, it was epic, it was legend, it was fairy tale.It was a beautiful dream that a young girl wove in her heart, incomparably noble and beautiful.

I can't imagine, once Fei Leina's dream is broken, and the only spiritual pillar that supports her persistence is destroyed, can she still bear it?
If you can't bear it, what will be the consequence?
As soon as I thought of the consequences, cold sweat broke out on my back.In case... that kind of terrible thing happened, such as Fei Leina couldn't stand the blow and went crazy, or committed suicide in despair...
No matter which one it is, then I have sinned deeply and cannot be forgiven!

If this is the case, how can I live?Where do I have the face to live?If I don't want to live anymore, what should my wife Tang Xiaoru do?
All of a sudden, my head was in disarray, and all kinds of thoughts scrambled, like a mess that couldn't be sorted out.

This is really the biggest problem I have encountered in my life. I really don't want to hurt anyone, but if I don't hurt anyone, this matter cannot be solved.But if it hurts too much, it is harming others and yourself.Not only will it fail to solve the problem, but it will cause an irreparable tragedy.

What should I do?God!Why?I will encounter such a problem?
Just when I was in great distress and pain, Fei Leina gradually lost her voice.I looked down, only to see that she had closed her eyes, smiling slightly, as if she had imagined the most beautiful scene and was intoxicated in it.

I had no choice but to shout in my heart: "Felina! Please don't be like this. The more you fantasize, the greater the disappointment will be. At that time, you can't bear it, and I can't bear it either! Be sober, look Open up a little bit! Without me, life still has a good place. Why bother to be so deep in it that you can't get it out?
Of course Fei Leina couldn't hear the cry in my heart.I don't know what she thought of, but the smile on her face became more and more cheerful, and finally she laughed out loud.

Then, she opened her eyes.Staring at me affectionately, he said softly: "Dai Yong, do you still remember the first time we kissed?"

Looking into Fei Leina's eyes, I naturally remembered the first time I kissed her.That heavy snow, that passion in the snow...

Involuntarily, tenderness surged in my heart, so I nodded and said, "Of course I remember!"

Fei Leina slowly raised her upper body, put both hands on my thighs, still staring at me, and said with a slight smile: "At that time, what were you thinking in your heart?"

I froze for a moment, turned my head and thought for a while, and said, "At that time, I felt incredible that I was actually kissing you. Beforehand, I never thought that you would actually like me."

Fei Leina's small face got closer and closer, and soon, her small mouth was only a few centimeters away from me.Her eyes began to blur again, and she murmured softly: "Then now... do you know why I like you?"

My heartbeat started to speed up.Feleina's face is so close, no matter how stupid I am, I still know what she wants to do now.In the past, of course I would not be polite, I would have hugged her into my arms long ago, and then kissed her little mouth fiercely.But now... I can only tilt my head back slightly, and call her as a reminder: "Felina!"

My reminder didn't work, Fei Leina has completely fallen into the longing for love, or in fantasy.She even closed her eyes, opened her small red mouth slightly, exhaled like blue and said, "Kiss me, even if it's the last time, okay?"

I... I just froze!

Even if it's the last time?What's the meaning?
Could it be... Fei Leina is ready to be rejected by me, planning to kiss me goodbye?
Looking at the small mouth right in front of me, my heart was suddenly tangled up.If... If this is the case, what reason do I have to refuse this kiss?
That's right, now that I have a wife, it's immoral to kiss anyone other than my wife.However, Fei Leina has made unimaginable sacrifices for me in the past four years.I have been ungrateful for not repaying her with love.Felena doesn't seem to be asking for my love now.All she wants is a kiss from me.If I refuse to satisfy her even with this, am I still human?
After only struggling for a few seconds, I resolutely put aside all distracting thoughts.At this time, it is superfluous to think about anything, if my kiss can make up for what she has done for me, even if it shouldn't be, I will do it!
So, I immediately reached out my hands to support her waist, lowered my head, and immediately kissed her deeply...

This kiss was not tender at all, but seemed a little crazy.Because as soon as the four lips met, Fei Leina immediately raised her hand to hook my neck, and pressed my head down hard.

I used to kiss Felena, it was always so sweet.But this time, it was like a war.Fei Leina turned out to be the main attacker, but I could only resist.

With Fei Leina's active attack, my posture with her slowly began to change involuntarily.At some point, she bowed her head and kissed me, and I could only lean back and accept it passively.

After kissing for a while, I felt that her whole body was pressed up, and I couldn't hold it anymore.The sofa in the private room is wide and open, and there is no place for my back to lean on.As her body continued to press on me, I finally couldn't stand it anymore and fell backwards.

After falling down with a plop, Fei Leina's body naturally pressed up.With the shaking of the sofa, she suddenly withdrew it, and supported her upper body with her hands.

At this moment, I thought she had finally finished the kiss and was about to get up.Just when I was about to get up with all my strength, I saw that she retracted her legs, got on the sofa, and even rode on me.She sat directly on my stomach unceremoniously, while leaning down and looking directly at me.There seemed to be an indescribable frenzy in her eyes, as if... I was her prey, and she wanted to devour me in one bite.

I started to feel bad, and while continuing to prop up my body, I said: "Felina, what do you want to do?"

But as soon as I propped up my body, Felena immediately reached out and pushed hard on my shoulder.With a plop, I had to fall down again.Moreover, when I fell down, her two hands quickly pressed on my shoulders on both sides, her upper body tilted, and she firmly controlled me, never giving me a chance to get up.

I simply stopped moving, looking at Feleina's slightly red eyes, knowing that she might lose control of her emotions, it's better not to offend her yet.So, I just looked at her calmly, didn't say anything, and saw what she wanted to do.

Sure enough, after a while, Fei Leina gritted her teeth and began to speak, saying: "Dai Yong, you have made up your mind not to want me, have you?"

PS: The annoying New Year's greetings event is almost over. Starting today, I will resume normal updates.As for my new book, it stumped me at the very beginning. Everyone said, in fairy tale novels, is it better for the protagonist to time travel?Is it better not to time travel?
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