within Temptation

Chapter 83 Chasing Me Now

I put my hands on the wall by the street, bent over, and lowered my head.There was a turmoil in my belly, and everything was gushing out with my vomiting.

Shi Shanshan was standing beside me, holding my arm with her hand, and patted my back constantly.After a long time, I felt that there was nothing in my stomach to vomit, so I barely stopped vomiting, raised my head and gasped for breath.

Immediately, a bottle of mineral water appeared in front of my eyes, and I heard Shi Shanshan say, "Come on, have a drink."

I hummed, took the mineral water bottle, unscrewed the cap, and drank half of the bottle in one gulp.The cold water immediately cleared my drowsy mind.

Then the lucid thoughts came back to me.I turned around and leaned against the wall, gasping for breath, looking at Shi Shanshan, whose eyes were full of worry, with a wry smile, and said, "Shanshan, how did you find me?"

Shi Shanshan opened the bag in her hand and took out a pack of napkins.I took out one and gently wiped the corners of my mouth.At the same time, she said faintly: "I called your phone, but no one answered it. Later, someone answered, saying that he is the owner of the restaurant, and the owner of the mobile phone is now drunk in his restaurant, and asked me to come over and get you take away."

I smiled wryly again, and said, "Really?"

As I spoke, my hand subconsciously reached into my pocket and took out my Blue Mountain Tobacco.But it feels light and light, as if I have finished smoking it.Looking down carefully, sure enough, there was not even a cigarette in the cigarette case.

I helplessly crumpled the cigarette case into a ball and threw it on the ground.Looking around, I found that there seemed to be a small convenience store across the street, where cigarettes should be sold.

I struggled to stabilize my body, raised my feet, and was about to go to buy cigarettes.Shi Shanshan hurriedly stopped me and said, "What are you doing?"

I pointed to the opposite side and said, "Buy cigarettes, I've run out of cigarettes."

Shi Shanshan pushed my body, pushed me against the wall again, and said, "I'll go buy it, you just lean here, don't move around."

I smiled and said, "Isn't it? I'm much better now."

But Shi Shanshan ignored her, turned around, and quickly crossed the road and entered the small convenience store.

I had no choice but to let her go, and at the same time raised my hand and pressed my temples on both sides with my fingers.While rubbing, she thought to herself: I look like this, as long as Shi Shanshan is not too stupid, she should have already guessed why.It seems that not only can I not get Tang Xiaoru, but I will also lose her.No woman wants to see the man she likes suffer so much for other women, right?Even if Shi Shanshan liked me before, she would give up now, right?

I smiled bitterly, my heart filled with inexplicable sadness.I feel that I really don't have a girlfriend's life.It's fine, but I want to fall in love with a woman who shouldn't be loved.Now it's all right, not only is it painful, but even the happiness in front of him will fly away.

Shi Shanshan quickly ran back from the convenience store, holding a pack of red cigarettes in her hand.I opened the package directly, took out one and stuffed it into my mouth, and said softly: "Don't smoke such bad cigarettes in the future, it's not good for your health. Smoke less, smoke better, huh?"

At this moment, I could see clearly that what Shi Shanshan was holding in her hand was actually a pack of high-end Zhonghua cigarettes, and they were soft shells.I know that this pack of cigarettes is worth more than the two I usually smoke.

I quickly took the cigarette out of my mouth, and said distressedly: "Why did you buy such a good cigarette? It's too bad, it's all taken apart now, how can you return it?"

Shi Shanshan smiled lightly and said, "Why do you want to return it? I bought it for you, so you don't need to pay for it."

I said, "That doesn't work, your money is not money? Hurry up... Hurry up..."

"Hurry up? You bought everything, and you took it apart. If you don't smoke, you have to throw it away."

I was depressed for a long time, so I had to think in my heart, anyway, it is rare to indulge like this, so I should just indulge to the end.Isn't it just a pack of cigarettes worth more than [-] yuan? Compared with the discomfort in my heart, this little distress is really nothing.

So, I slowly put the cigarette in my mouth again, and at the same time took the whole pack of cigarettes in Shi Shanshan's hand, and said, "Forget it, it's a pity to throw it away. How much do these fireworks cost? Let me buy them." Yes, I'll give you the money back."

Shi Shanshan didn't speak at all, just looked at me in a daze.There seemed to be a slight sense of loss in her eyes.A little afraid to look into her eyes, I took out the lighter, lit it with a bang, and slowly put it on the cigarette.

A breath of thick smoke was inhaled into my lungs, and my body's energy seemed to have begun to recover.Shi Shanshan didn't speak, so I had no choice but to say: "By the way, what are you calling me for? Is the reception over?"

Shi Shanshan still didn't speak, my cigarette was almost half smoked, and she suddenly said softly: "Dai Yong, I'm sorry."

I was stunned, and said inexplicably, "I'm sorry? What are you sorry for?"

"I... I shouldn't have said that. I didn't expect it to make you so sad."

I was silent, and I understood in my heart what Shi Shanshan meant by saying this.I took another two puffs of cigarettes, I gave a wry smile, and pretended to be relaxed and said: "It's okay, just pass it, I'll forget about it soon, you don't have to worry about anything."

Shi Shanshan looked at me deeply, her eyes were so sad, she almost bit her lips and said, "Do you really... like her so much?"

I know it's impossible to hide this matter from Shi Shanshan anymore, and I don't intend to hide it anymore.Sometimes, it might be a relief to speak out what is buried deep in my heart.Although Shi Shanshan is by no means a good person to confide in, who else can I tell besides her now?

I nodded slowly, smiled bitterly, and said, "Yes, am I stupid?"

Shi Shanshan immediately looked away from her, but under the illumination of the street lamp, I still saw tears in the corners of her eyes, faintly shining.

I can't help but feel unbearable, no girl can stand the man she likes saying that she likes another woman.However, I don't want to lie to her even more.Moreover, it is useless even if I lie now, Shanshan is an extremely sensitive girl.Needless to say, she already understood everything.

So, I had no choice but to sigh softly and said, "I'm sorry, Shanshan."

Shi Shanshan suddenly turned her head back, tears had already quietly rolled down her eyes, she stared at me and said, "I'm sorry? That means, you know in your heart that I...I...I like you?"

I could only continue to sigh, and said helplessly, "Yes, I know."

"You know, still so... unrealistically liking Tang Xiaoru? This woman is simply not something you can get. You can never give her what she wants."

I shook my head with a wry smile, and said, "I know that too, but feelings are really something that can't be controlled."

Shi Shanshan's face was already full of tears.She didn't wipe it, but just looked at me, and said: "Then what are you going to do now? Today you have seen that Tang Xiaoru is Fei Jiahui's woman. This is almost an open secret in the entire Feiteng Group. No matter how infatuated you are with her, it is impossible to have any results."

I silently threw away the butt of the cigarette, slowly stood up straight, and said, "Shanshan, don't worry, I am not an irrational person. I know what to do. Tang Xiaoru, I will slowly put her I forgot. In fact, before this, I have tried my best to forget her. It’s just that the time is short, so I still feel sad. But, people still have to live, don’t they? I won’t spend my whole life for her happy."

"Then... what about me? You... What are you going to do to me? You know... I like you, but... I never thought about it..."

I slowly stretched out a hand, and gently wiped away the tears on her face, moved in my heart, and said softly: "Shanshan, people are not grass and trees, how can you be ruthless? We have worked together for so long , how could I be indifferent to you? The female college student said that I was a fool that day, and I understood your thoughts. Do you know? I was so happy that day, you are the only girl in this world who is really good to me For you, I made up my mind to forget about Tang Xiaoru. I originally thought that when Tang Xiaoru's shadow disappeared in my heart, I would boldly pursue you. But now... you all know that I like others, Is it possible between us?"

Shi Shanshan's body visibly trembled, her expression was very excited, she looked at me and tremblingly said: "Then I... then what if I don't mind? I... I don't mind who you liked, as long as... As long as...you forget her, I...I..."

I was stunned, I didn't expect that Shi Shanshan knew that I liked someone else, and she still didn't give up her love for me.Such deep affection really can't keep me from being moved by it.

My heart suddenly felt warm.I threw my hand on her small face and stroked it gently. Looking at this woman who loves me so much, I said, "Shanshan, can you wait for me? When I forget about Tang Xiaoru, I will come to pursue you." .”

Shi Shanshan's face, which I had just wiped dry, burst into tears again.She suddenly threw herself into my arms, hugged me tightly, and shouted: "No! I won't wait! I want you to chase me right now! I... I'm easy to chase, as long as you say something If so, I'll... I'm yours!"

(End of this chapter)