within Temptation

Chapter 84

Being hugged tightly by Shi Shanshan, I was both moved and uncomfortable.What is touching is that she knows that I love others in my heart, but she is still infatuated with me and never gives up.The sad thing is that I don't know whether I should accept Shi Shanshan at this time. I only know that Tang Xiaoru still exists in my heart.I can't help it, I have one person in my heart, but I am in love with another person.

I didn't push Shi Shanshan away from my arms, but just sighed softly, and reached out to gently stroke the hair on the back of her head.After thinking about it, I whispered: "Shanshan, I don't want to lie to you. In my heart, I still like Tang Xiaoru. It's unfair to you to chase you at this time. Give me some time, please? I promise, Do my best to forget about her. When I will no longer be affected by Tang Xiaoru, I will be able to pursue you wholeheartedly."

Shi Shanshan suddenly raised her head in my arms, and said sadly, "How long will I have to wait? One year? Two years? Ten years or twenty years? Do you think it's so easy to forget someone you love? It's really that easy, it just means you don't love her at all."

I had no choice but to smile bitterly. To be honest, I don't know how long it will take me to forget Tang Xiaoru.If you can't forget it in this life, wouldn't it make Shi Shanshan wait her whole life in vain?But, is it really necessary to accept Shi Shanshan at this time?I don't even have the face to say I love you to her.Can such a couple still be called a couple?
Seeing that I didn't speak, Shi Shanshan suddenly said softly: "Dai Yong, I know, you don't want to hurt me, you can't have someone else in your heart, and at the same time have a relationship with me. But it doesn't matter, I don't mind. I Be confident, with my love, you will soon forget about Tang Xiaoru. I just ask you, don't reject me, let me change you, okay?"

I stared blankly at Shi Shanshan, and murmured: "Can you... change me?"

"Yes! I will be very good to you. I am confident that I will make you fall in love with me and never think about others again."

My heart skipped a beat, as if Shi Shanshan had persuaded me a little.Although I have never been in love, I also know that it is very difficult to forget someone I loved.If you have to wait until you completely forget Tang Xiaoru before accepting Shi Shanshan, maybe it will be too late by then.Since Shi Shanshan doesn't mind that I have others in my heart, why don't I try to let her change me faster?Perhaps, under Shi Shanshan's love, I will feel happy and fulfilled.Slowly, my heart will be occupied by her, and I will never think about Tang Xiaoru again.Besides, I didn't dislike Shi Shanshan, I even liked Shi Shanshan.Associating with her, I shouldn't feel any rejection.If it goes well, it is not absolutely impossible that I will fall in love with her.If so, why should I refuse?

Shi Shanshan saw that I was a little moved, and hurriedly said: "Dai Yong, if you don't believe me, then it's okay for us not to date. As long as you allow me to love you and don't refuse me to treat you well, you can also let me You quickly forgot about Tang Xiaoru. I have this confidence, I will definitely..."

Before she finished speaking, I had already made up my mind.Then let Shi Shanshan change me, no matter how stupid I am, I understand that Tang Xiaoru and I are impossible.Instead of suffering like this, it is better to invest in another relationship earlier.Perhaps, with a new relationship, I can quickly get rid of my fantasy about Tang Xiaoru.What's more, Shi Shanshan was originally the person I chose for lifelong companionship, but now I've just brought up the time with her earlier.Since she doesn't dislike me and is still willing to be with me, why do I have to wait until I forget Tang Xiaoru before accepting her?
Thinking of this, I interrupted Shi Shanshan directly, and said seriously: "Shanshan, I believe in you! In this world, only you can make me forget others. If... If you don't dislike me, then from now on Come on, be my girlfriend?"

Shi Shanshan was stunned for a moment, looked at me in surprise and disbelief, and murmured: "What? You...what did you say? You...you say it again."

I smiled and caressed the hair on the back of her head again, and said seriously again: "Shanshan, can you be my girlfriend? I promise, I will treat you well."

Shi Shanshan stayed for a long time, and finally smiled, very happy.Holding my waist, he jumped and shouted: "I...I promise! I promise you! You said this yourself, you can't go back on your word!"

I smiled and put my arms around her slender waist, saying: "Don't go back on your word! As long as you... don't dislike me!"

"How come? I... I've been looking forward to this day for almost a year! Dai Yong, Dai Yong, I'm so happy!"

Excited, Shi Shanshan suddenly stood on tiptoe, her small face directly in front of me.Before I could react, soft lips had already kissed my mouth.

In an instant, there was a bang in my head, and all thoughts stopped.

This...is this the legendary kiss?How many years!I have been looking forward to and longing for a kiss with a girl, and it finally came true!
In this regard, I have no experience at all, and I don't even know how I should respond to Shi Shanshan.I had no choice but to remain still, letting her soft lips press against mine tightly.

Then, her tongue rolled onto my tongue with great flexibility, and when the tip of her tongue touched it, it suddenly made a circle.

I was so shocked that I didn't dare to move, thinking to myself, kissing... can it be like this?
However, I haven't waited for me to taste the taste of this kiss carefully.Shi Shanshan suddenly withdrew her little tongue, and her head was already away from my face.But she saw that her cheeks were flushed, a little shy, and a little helpless: "It smells like wine, it smells so bad!"

I don't know what to say, but the taste of alcohol in my mouth is for sure.So, I just smiled and said I'm sorry.

Although Shi Shanshan didn't kiss me anymore, she didn't push me away either. Instead, she tilted her head and pressed it against my neck. After a while, she said softly, "Dai Yong, from now on, I'm your girlfriend now. I want you to love me, treat me well, and don't make me sad anymore. "

I stroked her hair with a smile, and said, "Of course, I will treat you well without your telling me."

"Well, that's about the same. Also, when I want you to be with me, don't think about Tang Xiaoru in your heart. Even if we're not together, you should think about me more."

I smiled wryly, thinking that this is just the beginning, has it already been stipulated that I am not allowed to do this or that?
Of course, girls always like to keep a tight grip on their boyfriends.I had nothing to say about this, so I nodded and said, "I promise you!"

Shi Shanshan smiled lightly, and quietly wrapped her other hand around my neck, saying: "Dai Yong, I'm so happy. You don't know, I've liked you for a long time. Wait Do you know how long I've been waiting for this day?"

I smiled and said, "We haven't known each other for less than a year, so it won't be longer than this, right?"

Shi Shanshan twisted her waist in my arms, and said coquettishly: "Isn't one year long enough? You're so stupid. Someone around you has liked you for so long, yet you can't tell?"

In my mind, I slowly recalled some things since I worked with Shi Shanshan.Some places that I didn't understand before, now I understand.However, I remembered something again, and couldn't help asking: "Since you like me, why do you always flirt with Wei Hai in front of me? I used to always think that you two were a couple. "

Shi Shanshan hastily twisted her waist again, and said in a hurry: "That's not all to attract your attention, to see if you will be jealous. I don't know that you don't react at all. I'm so disappointed!"

I laughed out loud and said, "You, you know I'm stupid, why didn't you tell me directly? If you had let me know earlier, maybe we would have gotten better."

"Huh! Huh! You have a good idea! How can a girl take the initiative to pursue a man? She doesn't have such a thick skin!"

"Really? Then why did you take the initiative to say it again today?"

"I...you...you hate it! How is today the same as before? If I don't say anything, your soul will be taken away by Tang Xiaoru. Remember, from now on, I won't allow you to run to her if you have nothing to do You are not allowed to say a word to her except for work! You have to promise me, do you hear me?"

I stopped talking, just looked up at the sky blankly, thinking in my heart: Is it possible?In the future, it is really possible that I won't say a word to Tang Xiaoru except for work?She didn't feel sorry for me, I like her, it's all my own sentimentality and wishful thinking.I have no reason to ignore her.Moreover, besides being my boss, Tang Xiaoru is also my friend.Between friends, how could it be possible not to speak?

(End of this chapter)