Finally: I'm the only one left alone
Chapter 3 Chaos Again
Chapter 3 Chaos Again
01
"Jian Lening, how do you know Xu Yan? Which school did you go to for junior high school? Why didn't I hear about you when I was in junior high school?" During the break of military training, Tang Yu pestered me to ask Xu Yan about it. thing.
Tang Yu and Xu Yan have always been classmates in elementary school and junior high school, and the two families seem to have some connections.
I don't want people to know what happened between me and Xu Yan, but Tang Yu pestered me so much, I could only explain to her half-truthfully: "I used to be in Anxin Middle School, and Xu Yan came to our school to look for me. classmate, so we know each other."
I'm not lying, the facts are indeed like this, Xu Yan came to see Lin Jiarui.
"Are your classmates male or female?"
"male."
Tang Yu gave a meaningful "oh", squinted at me slightly with his long and narrow Danfeng eyes, remained silent for a while, then seemed puzzled, and continued to ask me: "Did something bad happen between you? Otherwise Why did you show that expression when you saw Xu Yan last time? Are you afraid of Xu Yan?"
I shook the hand holding the hat, took a deep breath, tried to find my normal tone, and replied: "My classmate and Xu Yan don't have a good relationship. There were some unpleasant things before, but it's all in the past." It's over, there's nothing to say."
"I see. It must be that Xu Yan came to your school to trouble your classmates, right? He has been fighting with people everywhere in recent years. He was not like this when he was a child. He was quiet and quiet, with a cute baby face. , probably because his younger brother was born!"
Tang Yu looked very understanding, sighed, and said helplessly, with a touch of sadness mixed with his delicate brows.
Probably because she felt that it was not good to talk about other people's family affairs, so she didn't go on, and I didn't ask, because I knew what she was talking about.
Lin Jiarui once told me about Xu Yan's life experience. Xu Yan's parents have given birth to another son, so the treatment he receives is of course different.
I have never had a good impression of Xu Yan. I hated him for a while, hated him for ruining everything, just like I hated all the people who left me that night, because of them, I can no longer act like a normal person. Live as innocently as a girl.
A girl may not be proud, noble, or outstanding, but she should live cleanly, but I am not clean anymore.
Until a few days ago, the appearance of Lin Jiarui made me realize that my so-called hatred is just a feeling when I lick my wound alone.
Everyone was right, including Xu Yan.
When he hurt me, he thought it was me who killed Tong Xingyu. He didn't know that his poor sister was already the same as his biological father, with terminal cancer and destined to die.
Xu Yan was originally a radical person, he hated and could only choose to hurt others to comfort himself.In fact, he is very sad. In such a family, as an adopted son, and his adoptive parents have a biological son, it is actually easy to imagine how he will be treated.Although on the surface he is a child of a rich family, he should not be happy in his heart.
Did that home give him warmth?If he did, why would he choose to degenerate, and why would he care so much about Tong Xingyu, his own sister?
If I say that I don't hate Xu Yan at all now, it's a lie, the hatred is still there, but it's not as deep as before.
Whenever I think of his insults to me, my heart always hurts, so I can't forgive, even if he is as pathetic as I am.
The assembly whistle sounded, and Tang Yu and I stopped chatting, and both parties seemed to be aware of the embarrassment of the atmosphere.
The military training lasted until sunset. When we disbanded and went to eat, people in the second and third grades of high school had already come out of the cafeteria one after another. Suddenly a familiar figure flashed in front of my eyes. Tang Yu next to him suddenly screamed as if he had discovered a new world.
"Ah! That's my classmate in the first year of middle school!"
When I was in shock, I saw Tang Yu waving his hands not far away with a face full of surprise, calling Lin Jiarui's name.
Then, Lin Jiarui's figure appeared in my dilated pupils, and he also walked towards us with surprise on his face.
"Tang Yu, why is it you? Are you in the same class as Jian Lening?"
I was very surprised why Lin Jiarui was in our school. He didn't look like he was passing by, but he looked like he had just come out of the cafeteria.
"Yes! You know Jian Lening! Oh, he transferred to your school when he was in the second year of junior high school, right?" Tang Yu asked me.
"Well, I'm in the same class as Lin Jiarui." I answered her honestly, then turned my gaze to the boy beside me, and asked puzzledly, "Why are you here?"
Lin Jiarui scratched his head, pulled me over, glanced at Tang Yu awkwardly, then lowered his head and whispered in my ear, "I'm studying physical education here. When I came out of that place, the senior high school entrance exam was over. Yes, I did not do well in the make-up exam, but I am good at sports, so I came here with some money from my family. In fact, I came here because of you, because I was afraid that you would be alone here. I didn’t tell you last time, I was afraid that you would ignore me, so I didn't say it, and I forgot to say it later."
Lin Jiarui was close to me, and I could still smell the body wash on his body. Looking at his outfit, I was surprised that he should have finished taking a shower.
But how could he be so fast, we just disbanded, don't we need military training in the physical education class?
My ears were warm, and I could feel Lin Jiarui's exhaled breath on my ears, and my face became hot immediately. As soon as I dodged, I saw Tang Yu looking at us and smiling ambiguously.
My ears were numb, and Lin Jiarui's words still echoed in my mind.
He said he came to this school because of me.
I suddenly felt very warm in my heart.
When he first transferred to our school, he jokingly said, An Xiaoduo and I are here, how could he not come?
But I always knew that he came for An Xiaoduo, but this time, he said he came for me.
I looked up at Lin Jiarui, he was grinning at me with a sincere expression.
After going through so many things, I believed it so easily this time.Lin Jiarui really wanted to guard me this time, guarding me like a true friend.
As he said - "I'm here!"
This time it is real, it really exists in this strange campus, and I can see his familiar smile just by looking up.
My heart, which had been lonely and empty for a long time, was suddenly filled, and I really felt very warm.
"Wow! There's something wrong with you two! Jian Lening, Lin Jiarui gave you so many things last time, right? Seeing that your face is blushing, I must have guessed it right! Tell me, are you two in that kind of relationship?" Huh?" Tang Yu leaned on my shoulder and said narrowly.
The eyes of passers-by were attracted by her words, I felt embarrassed and looked at Lin Jiarui dumbfounded.
Although I don't have a deep understanding of love, I have always made a clear distinction between love and friendship.
I knew from a young age that the relationship between me and Lin Jiarui was never love.
It's like I can wrestle with him without feeling awkward, but talking close to each other with his lips against my ears makes me feel uncomfortable all over.
We all know that the person hiding in each other's heart is not the other person.
The person Lin Jiarui likes has always been An Xiaoduo. From elementary school to now, it hasn't changed in so many years. Although he never mentioned it, I know that when he was detained for hurting Xu Yan because of me, An Xiaoduo After leaving with Qi Xuan, he must feel uncomfortable.
After guarding for so many years, An Xiaoduo still left with others.
and I?Compared with Lin Jiarui, how much better is it?
02
"Meeting is worse than meeting by chance. Now that the military training is not in class at night, Young Master Lin invites us to eat outside! The food in the school cafeteria is terrible!"
Tang Yu is a very enthusiastic person. After a few chats, he urged Lin Jiarui to invite us to dinner.
Lin Jiarui didn't refuse, he happily put his arms around Tang Yu's and me's shoulders, and walked towards the school gate.
Walking around the corner, we met a teenager who was on the phone.
"I won't reply this week, I have something to do. That's it, hang up."
The young man hung up the phone in annoyance, and slammed the wall hard. When he turned his head, he saw us, and his expression was stunned for a second.
Meeting Xu Yan again, the entanglement between us is destined to be difficult to resolve.
"Xu Yan, it's such a coincidence that I can meet you here too? My old classmate Lin Jiarui said he invited us to dinner, would you like to come together? One more person can't eat much, anyway, Young Master Lin is rich, right, Lin Jiarui?"
Tang Yu, who didn't know the situation, greeted Xu Yan warmly.
Lin Jiarui stood aside with a gloomy face, didn't speak, just silently put his arms around my shoulders, and tightly protected me against his chest.
I knew that he wanted to give me strength and worried that I would collapse when I saw Xu Yan, but he didn't know that Xu Yan and I had already met, more than once.
I calmly smiled at Lin Jiarui and told him I was fine.
The situation was so stalemate, Xu Yan looked at us coldly from the opposite side, looking at Lin Jiarui with a trace of resentment in his eyes, he hated Lin Jiarui for stabbing him with a knife.
I thought Xu Yan would refuse, but he suddenly raised the corners of his lips and chuckled: "Go, why don't you go? There is a treat, so don't eat for nothing!"
After finishing speaking, he came over, squeezed between Lin Jiarui and me, and smiled wantonly, as if the resentment on his face just now was an illusion, as if all the unhappiness that happened between us before did not exist.
Lin Jiarui chose a Sichuan restaurant near the school because Tang Yu wanted spicy food.
I didn't have too many demands on what to eat. Xu Yan didn't say anything along the way. Lin Jiarui had eaten before us, and when we met Xu Yan, he probably didn't have much appetite.
The three of us have our own concerns, but it's not easy to show it in front of Tang Yu.
Tang Yu excitedly ordered the menu by himself.
The seats are a table for four, which is not easy to arrange. Lin Jiarui and I sit in a row, opposite Xu Yan and Tang Yu.Tang Yu wanted to sit outside, so Xu Yan was squeezed inside, facing me. As soon as I looked up, I could see the young man's black and cold eyes. He was staring out the window, wondering what he was thinking.
I took a sip of boiled water and casually flipped through the menu on the table. Lin Jiarui was dragged by Tang Yu to discuss what to eat, and looked at me from time to time, with a wry smile on the corner of his mouth.
Tang Yu was unintentional, but it really embarrassed us.
Looking at the prices on the menu, I couldn't help but widen my eyes, and looked at Lin Jiarui worriedly.
The dishes in this restaurant are very expensive, and any one dish costs more than 50 yuan. Tang Yu came from a rich family, so naturally he would not think the dishes here are expensive, and with the mentality of killing Lin Jiarui, he attacked even more ruthlessly.
Although I know that Lin Jiarui's family is rich, I always feel that eating so much in one meal is not worth it.
"Tang Yu, that's all. Don't order any more. The four of us can't eat that much. Besides, Lin Jiarui has already eaten, so I don't have much appetite."
I finally couldn't help but stop Tang Yu who was not polite. Hearing this, Tang Yu glanced at me jokingly, closed the menu, and said, "Tsk tsk! He also said that there is nothing between you two, and now he is afraid that I will make him poor." , come out and stop it!"
"Don't talk nonsense!" I was a little annoyed, and my tone was unconsciously heavier.
Tang Yu was stunned for a moment, stopped laughing, his face was a little ugly, and he muttered: "Are you kidding, why are you so serious?"
I have always been a person who is not very good at explaining. This will annoy others, and I don’t know how to explain it. I just sat there blankly, drinking water with my head down.
I don't like people talking about things that don't exist.
The once dull atmosphere became more oppressive.
Lin Jiarui suddenly stood up from his seat, holding the menu in his hand, patted Tang Yu's shoulder with the other hand, and said with a smile, "Miss Tang is still a child who hasn't grown up yet. Be good! Brother treats you to ice cream .”
After that, he turned around and went to the service counter to pay the bill - the rules of this restaurant are different from other places, and the food must be paid before the bill is served.
Tang Yu was like a child, she was happy when Lin Jiarui coaxed her, she followed Lin Jiarui to the service counter, pestered him to eat ice cream, only me and Xu Yan were left at the table.
Maybe it was our previous dispute that aroused his interest, Xu Yan looked away from the window, played with the phone, and the corners of his mouth curled up habitually.I have never been able to understand his smile, I don't know how much coldness and warmth there is in his smile.
He said: "Jian Lening, you are still entangled with him, are you trying to force me to make you feel better?"
I pretended not to hear what he said, still drinking water with my head down.
Lin Jiarui said that he and Xu Yan used to be friends, and the struggle between them started because of Tong Xingyu, and because I didn't end well.
I don't understand why Xu Yan hates Lin Jiarui so much.
Tong Xingyu was not hospitalized because Lin Jiarui beat her, and Lin Jiarui paid the price for stabbing him, why is he still so persistent.
I didn't know until later that it was a matter of man's dignity.
Xu Yan told me that he is a man, and the last thing a man can hurt is his dignity.
Even if Lin Jiarui didn't hit his sister, isn't Lin Jiarui's behavior also hurt Tong Xingyu?He spent money to find comfort from Tong Xingyu, looking for love that An Xiaoduo could not give him, no matter how high-sounding the reason was, it could not conceal his selfish nature.He selfishly bought Tong Xingyu's self-esteem after being hurt by An Xiaoduo.This hurt Xu Yan deeply. As an elder brother, he actually asked his own sister to be someone else's girlfriend in order to make a living. This hurt him more than Lin Jiarui stabbing him with a knife.
When I think of Tong Xingyu, I always think of those eyes that are very similar to An Xiaoduo, but much purer than An Xiaoduo.I always think of that girl's innocent smiling face, and asked me naively: "Jian Lening, your grades are so good, can you help me calculate 15 yuan and [-] cents, if you spend ten yuan a day, can you How many years? My brain sucks and I can't count."
I suddenly felt sore in my heart, and my eyes were a little wet. It was not until Lin Jiarui stretched out his hand to push me that I recovered from the memory left by that girl.
"Jian Lening, why don't you eat?"
The boy sitting on the right smiled at me very warmly.
03
"This is delicious, Lin Jiarui, your ice cream will melt if you don't eat it, I'll eat it for you if you don't eat it."
Tang Yu snatched some of the melted chocolate double planets from Lin Jiarui's hand, with a smug smile on his bright face.
Lin Jiarui was not angry at all, and continued to pick up the vegetables slowly.
Except for Tang Yu who was talking alone, the three of us were very silent. Usually, she asked a question before someone answered.
"Xu Yan, why aren't you wearing a military training uniform? Don't you, like Lin Jiarui, also go to gym classes?"
With ice cream in his mouth, Tang Yu asked Xu Yan beside him inarticulately.
Xu Yan raised his head slightly, glanced at Tang Yu, then shifted his gaze to Lin Jiarui who was concentrating on eating, and said in a casual tone: "I was just stabbed with a knife and escaped from death, how can I have the energy to go to gym class? ?”
"You were stabbed? When did it happen? Why didn't I know? Where was it? Who stabbed you? What kind of hatred do you have with you?"
My hand holding the water glass couldn't help trembling, the glass fell to the ground and shattered into many pieces on the spot.I squatted down to pick it up in a panic, and my finger was cut just as it touched the shards of glass. Bright red blood oozed from my fingertips, but I didn't feel any pain.
"Let me come!" Lin Jiarui squatted beside me at some point, grabbed the paper towel on the table and wrapped my bloody fingers, and then picked up the glass shards on the ground.
I saw his thin back trembling too.
My eyes were a little sore, I blinked, I wanted to cry but I couldn't.
I feel so sad, so sad for all of us.
Tang Yu was still persistently asking about Xu Yan's matter, Xu Yan stood up from his seat, and smiled at Tang Yu: "Lin Jiarui is really right, Tang Yu, you are like a child, you believe everything you say. I'm full, so I'm leaving first. Thank you Young Master Lin for today, I'll invite you another day."
While Xu Yan was speaking, Lin Jiarui's cell phone rang.
Lin Jiarui glanced at the phone screen, was taken aback for a moment, then waved to us, and ran outside to answer the phone alone.
Looking at the back of Lin Jiarui leaving in a hurry, I felt inexplicably panicked, as if something was slowly passing away.
"Are you going to leave without eating? What a disappointment, I don't want to eat, let's go together. Jian Lening, do you still want to eat?"
Tang Yu grabbed Xu Yan who was about to leave, tilted his head and said to me.
I shook my head, looking at the table full of untouched dishes, I couldn't whet my appetite no matter what.
Tang Yu wanted to buy skin care products, so she took Xu Yan to accompany her, while I waited for Lin Jiarui at the door of the hotel.
Lin Jiarui was standing under the sycamore tree by the road, talking on the phone, with a nervous and joyful expression on his face.
The sky began to drizzle, and I stood under the eaves, looking at Lin Jiarui in the rain, and instantly understood who made the call.
Seeing that the rain was getting heavier, I bought an umbrella from a roadside stall, opened it, and walked towards the boy in the rain.
Even if she called, he didn't need to be so excited, even if it was raining, he didn't care.
I slandered Lin Jiarui's stupidity in my heart, but I couldn't help feeling sorry for him.He is so obsessed with obsession, just like me who was obsessed with obsession when I was a child, the "little eyes" who can forget his indifference and laugh instantly as long as Xuan Xuan looks back.
In some respects, I am so similar to Lin Jiarui.
"I bought it as you said, gave it away, and she took it too. She should be happy."
My walking steps stopped abruptly, and I stared stiffly at Lin Jiarui who went to the newsstand and continued to make phone calls.
I was standing five steps away from him, listening to his gradually hoarse voice, and the soft voice faintly coming from the mobile phone, the warmth in my body was gradually disappearing. The heart that was still full is slowly being hollowed out.
Before Lin Jiarui hung up the phone, I turned around in time and rushed into the non-stop rain with a blank face, leaving only one umbrella on the ground, which was turned upside down to hold the rainwater of the umbrella.
"Will your eye come back after it's healed?"
"Did you tell Qi Xuan about her? What did he say? Does he know that Xiaoyan likes him?"
"Xiaoduo, I feel a little tired. I know your heart is not on me, but I'm still waiting. If you don't plan to come back, just tell me. If I can't wait, I won't wait. I said to myself, just Wait for three years, if you don't come back in these three years, if no one wants the little eyes, I will take her."
"I think she is quite lonely, and I am also quite lonely. It would be nice if I fell in love with her when I was young."
……
It turned out that they all knew.
An Xiaoduo knew about it, Qi Xuan knew about it, they all knew about my being hurt by Xu Yan.
It was Lin Jiarui who said it. He told his beloved An Xiaoduo about the hurt I suffered on his own initiative. Did he think that An Xiaoduo would feel sorry for me because of this?
We are no longer the An Xiaoduo and Jian Lening we were when we were young.
An Xiaoduo who hates me so much, and An Xiaoduo who hurt me once, must be very happy after knowing this, she must think so: Look, Jian Lening, how pitiful you are, Qi Xuan doesn't want you, now even God all abandon you.Your parents don't know about this yet, do they?If you know, your mother must have a heart attack again, Qi Xuan also knows, but so what, will he sympathize with you?He is still treating my eyes with me in the United States.Jian Lening, you really failed!
Qi Xuan also knew, it was An Xiaoduo who told him, would he also think the same way: Little eyes, you are so dirty!
Yes, this time it was really dirty.
How could a boy who loves cleanliness miss me who is so dirty?
I ran desperately in the rain, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it hurt a little when it hit me.
I just wanted to cross the five steps and yell at Lin Jiarui, why did I tell An Xiaoduo all this?Why make me so miserable?Why expose my wounds to friends who have abandoned me?Why should I trample on what little self-esteem I have left?How do you want me to stand in front of An Xiaoduo and Qi Xuan with a straight back?How can I proudly announce to them that I, who was abandoned, can still live well without them?
The last thing Jian Lening wanted was An Xiaoduo's sympathy, and what she least wanted was Qi Xuan's pity, because those would damage her self-esteem.
04
I threw all the things Lin Jiarui gave me into the trash can, including An Xiaoduo's sympathy.
I'm glad I didn't use those things for the sake of the momentary beauty, otherwise I wouldn't forgive myself for giving An Xiaoduo the opportunity to look down on me.
Everyone in the dormitory was astonished by what I did, and Tang Yu was the most surprised. My sudden departure that day had always left her in doubt.
"Jian Lening, have you and Lin Jiarui quarreled? You have been avoiding Lin Jiarui these days. I find it very strange. Are you two having a conflict?" Tang Yu leaned into my ear and asked me.
I didn't answer her, I just buried myself in arranging my clothes, ignoring her question.
Seeing that I ignored her, Tang Yu immediately became angry. She is a young lady who is loved by thousands of people. When did she experience such neglect?Pretty face immediately stiffened, and angrily waved away.
"It's fine if you don't want to say it. What face do you give? I'm not the one who offended you. Do you think the whole world owes you?"
"Tang Yu, don't say that, Jian Lening must be in a bad mood." He Yiran and the others helped Tang Yu.
"Is she in a bad mood? I'm also in a bad mood, so should I show her face?"
As if I didn't hear Tang Yu's noise, I was still packing my things.
I am no longer the "little-eyed" person I was when I was a child and always quarreled and fought. I no longer like to quarrel and cause trouble. After what happened to Xu Yan, I don't even like to talk much.
I like silence, and I even hope to keep silent like this forever, finish high school for three years safely, leave here, finish college in a mediocre way, live in silence all the time, and bury my unbearable past in time in the mud.
"sorry!"
Tang Yu was still angry, the moment I packed up and was about to go out, I turned around and apologized to her.
Tang Yu froze for a moment, I had no intention of knowing whether she would forgive me, so I walked out of the dormitory with my bag on my back.
It was not until much later that I realized that it is easy to create rifts between people, but it is very difficult to eliminate them.
Today is the first holiday since the school started. I walked to the school gate with my schoolbag on my back, looked at the couples of father and daughter or mother and daughter walking together, raised my head, blinked my sore eyes, and looked at the vicious In the scorching sun, I seemed to see my father who was building a house for others on a 30-story high-rise building, and my mother who was sweating profusely in the dim workshop, but was still working hard.
I forced back the tears in my eyes, stood at the noisy school gate, and suddenly understood that there is a more precious feeling in this world than friendship and love, and that is family affection.
I am very relieved. Since the incident with An Xiaoduo, I have not caused any trouble to my elderly parents in the past few years. Parents who have always been looked down upon by others straightened up in front of other parents.
I feel very relieved that on days like this, I don't need to trouble them to pick me up, I can go home by myself without burdening them more.
I am relieved……
The only thing I feel guilty about is that I didn't protect myself well. When I was abandoned by everyone, I wasn't strong enough to protect myself from harm, so I lost myself and hid all my secrets.
I took a deep breath and told myself, Jian Lening, don't cry, your life has just begun, don't give up your future happiness.
God is fair, all the previous sufferings are paving the way for your future happiness.
I've always believed in that.
After walking a few steps forward, I heard someone calling me from behind. I turned my head and saw that it was Xiao Jingjing.
It may be that the electric tricycle was damaged by Xu Yan's car last time. Xiao Jingjing rode a battery car today. The car is very new, as if it was newly bought.
Looking at Xiao Jingjing's face flushed by the scorching sun not far away, my nose suddenly became sore, and I hurried towards the girl sitting in the car waving to me.
Jian Lening, why are you so desperate for friendship?You still have Xiao Jingjing, and that girl who has been with you for so many years but never left.What else do you have to complain about?
"Ouch! Girl, how much do you miss me? You're strangling me to death!" Xiao Jingjing grabbed my hand around her neck and said in a strange way.
"Jingjing, it's good to meet you!"
I let go of my hands and looked at the familiar face in front of me.
Xiao Jingjing opened her black and white eyes and smiled sincerely. I could see the crystal tears in my eyes from those smiling black eyes.
Xiao Jingjing looked a little flustered by me, stared closely at my eyes, and asked in a trembling voice: "Jian Lening, what's wrong with you?"
In the end, I couldn't hold it back, the tears came so violently, and recently, I seem to have become more prone to crying.
I hurriedly wiped away my tears, waved to Xiao Jingjing, turned my face away, and said with a smile: "It's nothing, I'm just too excited to see you. Didn't I tell you last time not to pick me up? So I thought you I won’t come, I plan to go back by car. When I see you, I feel very warm and touched. Jingjing, you are so kind to me.”
"Ouch! I thought it was a big deal! Jian Lening, when did you become so hypocritical? Hurry up and get in the car, it's so hot outside, go home early and feel comfortable!"
Xiao Jingjing rubbed my long hair, dumbfounded, and threw me a helmet.
I watched her skillfully start the car, my eyes fell on the exhaust pipe of the car, and I said in amazement: "Jingjing, this is a motorcycle, I thought it was a battery car!"
"How can the battery car's battery last long enough to take you home? Look, my car is pretty good, right? Don't look at the outside of the fuselage, it's actually full of second-hand goods. This is a second-hand car I bought from someone else. It was assembled by someone, saving money and practical." Xiao Jingjing said to me proudly.
I was sitting in the back seat of the car, looking at Xiao Jingjing's simple and bright smiling face, I couldn't help being moved.
I still remember the Xiao Jingjing who wanted to jump off the building because she didn't want to study. Compared with her memory, Xiao Jingjing now is more vivid and energetic.
Compared with her, Jian Lening at that time had disappeared without a trace.
Everyone has a different way to go, Xiao Jingjing's and mine are different, but this does not affect our mutual dependence.
I found that this is the friendship I want. I won't get angry with you just because of a few words, and I won't abandon you because of love.
If you treat me well, I will treat you well. If you are cold, I will give you a support; if I am cold, you will give me a padded jacket.
It feels so good.
When I was leaving, I looked back at the school that was drifting away, and saw Lin Jiarui standing at the gate of the school, staring at me from afar, hesitating to speak.
There was a black private car parked beside the boy, and someone graciously opened the car door for him.
I turned my head resolutely, as if I hadn't seen it.
05
When she was about to get home, she passed by a small vegetable market outside the shanty town. Xiao Jingjing stopped the car and said that she was going to buy some food for her father to drink.
I stood at the entrance of the alley with my bulging schoolbag on my back, guarding her new motorcycle and waiting for her to come back.
This place is mixed with fish and dragons, and there is a stock market atmosphere everywhere.
The passers-by are workers who are off work, old people who wander here to buy something, or housewives who bring their half-old children and carry a big bag to buy vegetables...
There are too many people of all kinds gathered here, but such a young man should not appear.
At the entrance of the alley, a young woman with white hair at the temples, about 40 years old, is sitting on a small bench selling the leeks grown at home.Squatting beside her is a very stylishly dressed teenager with a black and white plaid shirt and a pair of black harem pants. The chain on the pants hangs down on the ground because he is squatting, and the "Nike" logo on the sneakers very conspicuous.
The boy was facing me sideways, I couldn't see his face clearly, but I could vaguely see his straight nose, and the outline made me feel a little familiar.
The woman who looked much older than her peers kept her head down, quietly selecting her leeks, her movements were slow, but she chose very carefully.The boy squatting aside stretched out his white hand to help her choose together, but she opened it with a slap.
When she hit that hand, her movements became more agile, and the boy's back straightened a little, and he withdrew his hand stiffly.
After watching for a long time, I didn't see the relationship between these two people. I said they were mother and son, but the costumes of these two people were too different.The woman looked very poor, but the boy looked like a child from a rich family.
While I was thinking about it, my shoulders felt hot, Xiao Jingjing had already finished shopping and walked to my side, put her warm hands on my shoulders, and followed my gaze towards the couple at the entrance of the alley.
"Do you think they are strange? Do you know who that woman is?" Xiao Jingjing suddenly raised an eyebrow at me and said mysteriously.
I looked at her, shook my head, and asked, "Who is it?"
"Do you still remember when we were in junior high school, there was a classmate named Tong Xingyu in the school? It was the girl who fell in love with Lin Jiarui for a while. This is her mother. Not long after Tong Xingyu's accident, she sold vegetables here. The man next to her, I don't know who it is from her, he looks pretty handsome, he will come here from time to time to watch the woman sell vegetables. I heard from the fat man selling fish nearby that the boy is her son, but The woman said no. Who knows if it is!"
As soon as Xiao Jingjing's voice fell, I already guessed who the boy was, and my heart couldn't help but feel turbulent.
Xiao Jingjing didn't see Xu Yan turn her head, so she didn't know that the boy she was talking about was the one who crashed her car last time.
I didn't expect to meet Xu Yan here, in a vegetable market where he shouldn't be there.
After waiting for a long time, no one came to buy her leftover chives. Tong Xingyu's mother stood up from the stool, packed her things and prepared to leave.
Seeing this, the boy next to him hurriedly stood up and reached out his hand to help the woman's swaying body, but was pushed away.
"Don't come here again, I'll be annoyed when I see you!" the woman spat.
Hearing these words, the boy with his back to us stopped in his tracks.
"Little eyes, don't look, go back quickly, don't keep your parents waiting."
Xiao Jingjing pulled me into the car, and when the car left, I still couldn't help but look back, just in time to meet those tear-filled eyes.
For a moment, I forgot to look away.
Since we met, I have always felt that Xu Yan is the kind of cruel and cold-blooded person, he has no tears.
It is only now that I understand that some people are not crying, but they are not at the point of sadness.
The moment Xu Yan saw me, a trace of astonishment flashed in Xu Yan's eyes, and then he quickly reached out his hand to wipe away his tears, and returned to his previous proud appearance.
I turned my head silently, and looked away from his body, and landed on Xiao Jingjing's back, pretending not to see his fragility, his sadness that he didn't want to be seen by others.
I fulfilled his stubbornness, but inexplicably left a mark in my heart.
Xu Yan's stiff back when he was pushed away, and the sadness hidden in his black eyes reminded me of myself.
Both he and I were abandoned at birth. We have no choice about our fate, but neither of us is willing to give in.
Ever since I knew my background when I was six years old, I have always wanted to leave the shanty town.
And since when did he want to come back so desperately?
06
When I got home, my mother had already prepared the meals, and at the door of the house, I happened to meet my dad who had come back from work.
My mother said that I am boarding now, and it is rare to come back once, so I bought some good dishes.
"Eat more, look, you've lost weight again. You're so tanned in military training, and if you're still thin, it's ugly." Mom said, and gave me a piece of braised pig's trotter.
I looked at the sauce-red meat in the bowl and felt a little greasy, but I still ate it all in my stomach, and then smiled and called my parents to eat together.
My father, Old Jane, is still the same. He likes to gossip when eating. He is not as interested as my mother in my school affairs. He talks about the parents in the alley.
"When I came back today, I met Secretary Liu of our place. He said that our place is about to be demolished. I don't know if the money is calculated according to the head or the size of the house. Now the housing prices in the urban area are so expensive. If we demolish it, We need to find a house."
Dad took a sip of rice wine and said to us, his thin face flushed.
While chatting, I picked up a small crucian carp for him. Seeing this, he picked it up, took a few bites, spat out the thorn, and continued to say to himself: "Oh, I said it was going to be dismantled a few years ago, but now it's not I don’t know if it’s true or not. That kid even assured me that he won’t be named Liu if he doesn’t demolish it this year. But who would believe his words? He said last year that his surname would not be Liu if the house price went up again. It’s gone up, but his surname is still Liu.”
"Old Li's son at the entrance of the alley is about to divorce. The children are seven or eight years old, and the husband and wife don't want them. Why don't they have any more children? Now that I'm young, I know I'm comfortable. The daughter of Wang Dongshu's family is like that. What's the matter? Love, despite her parents’ objections, she followed a little ruffian, and there’s been no news since she went out. Today I saw Wang Dongshu’s wife talking about it to people, crying in the alley. It can't be like that..."
My mother and I listened patiently. He kept gossiping endlessly. Sometimes I was surprised. Are there really so many stories in this shanty town?
Dad's interest is getting higher and higher, probably because of the alcohol, his ears are flushed.
After I finished my meal, I sat aside and listened to him continue, while my mother smiled.
Looking at these two old but still lovely faces, my heart warms.
Although I have always wanted to leave the shanty town, I never want to leave this home because it is so warm.
When someone called "Old Jane" outside the house, my mother and I had already finished our meal, and my father was still gnawing most of the bone. My mother was washing the dishes in the kitchen, and I was cleaning the table.
"Old Jane, where are you eating? Where's your wife? My wife is a little unwell, and I want to ask your wife to give her a scrape."
Someone hurried in from the door, stood beside us and said.
The moment I saw the person coming, I involuntarily stopped what I was doing, looking at Grandpa Qixuan's wrinkled face, my thoughts suddenly went into a trance.
Didn't they go to America?When did you come back?
Qi Xuan's grandpa and grandma are back, what about Qi Xuan and An Xiaoduo?
My heart tightened, and I fixed my eyes on Qi Xuan's grandfather. I wanted to ask something, but I didn't ask.
What does it matter to me whether they come back or not?Jian Lening, what are you still nervous about?
"Isn't it small eyes? I'm at home too! Today is Friday, weekends are off. Old Jane, look at your daughter, she's really getting more and more beautiful." I didn't say anything, but Qi Xuan's grandfather saw it I, speak up first.
I nodded to him, found a stool from the side, and motioned him politely to sit.
My dad glanced at me, and said disapprovingly, "What is Peugeot! I've been a wild girl since I was a child, how can your grandson be so handsome?"
That being said, Dad winked at me triumphantly.
"Hey, what's the use of being good-looking, you can't see or feel it, as if you don't have this person." Grandpa Qi sighed, took a look at me, and continued, "Your little eyes are better. Well, I am obedient and admitted to such a good school. Unlike my Qixuan, who is now staying in the United States with An Xiaoduo, I don’t want to come back. After all, the United States is a place where young people go. I’m back. Although my son and grandson are all outside, there are neighbors here, and this old place is still popular. I’ve lived for most of my life, but I just can’t live without it.”
My hanging heart "thumped", and I felt an inexplicable sense of loss in my heart.
Turns out they haven't come back yet, I thought...
Ah!Jian Lening, what are you thinking?I just heard Lin Jiarui and An Xiaoduo calling on the phone a few days ago, knowing that they will not come back, how could they suddenly come back a few days later?
Since they left, how could they come back so easily? They are not Grandpa Qi and Grandma Qi. They are old and want to return to their roots.
But it's okay not to come back.
No meeting, no thinking, no embarrassment, no heart-to-heart.
Not coming back, fine.
07
When the eldest sister came to our house to look for Linger, my mother went to Grandpa Qi's house to help Grandma Qi scrape the patient's neck, and my father washed up early after being drunk and went to bed.
When she came in, I was alone on the desk in the bedroom doing my homework.
"Le Ning, didn't Linger come to your house today? When I came back from get off work, I didn't see her at home. I thought she was out to play, but it's almost seven o'clock now, and she hasn't come back yet. Has she ever been to your place? "
The hall sister was so anxious that her eyes were red, and her voice was choked with sobs.
I became tense with her, stood up from the stool, patted her on the shoulder to comfort her: "Did you go to a classmate's house to play?"
"I've looked for it, and the kids who used to play with her said they didn't see her. Nothing in the house was touched, and the neighbors said she never came back. I saw this on the pillow on her bed, happy Ning, do you think my Linger has run away from home?"
The lady in the lobby finally couldn't help crying, and with trembling fingers, she took out a small diary from her bag and handed it to me.
It was Linger's diary, which recorded the true emotions of an eight-year-old child written in immature handwriting.
"Mom comes home very late every day. It thundered today. I was scared by myself, but my mother was still at work and didn't come home. I hid in the bed and cried alone, thinking about when my mother would come home..."
"Today, Li Dongying's mother bought her a beautiful new dress. She said it would cost more than 200 yuan. I asked my mother to buy me a new dress, but my mother didn't buy it. My mother was stingy and never bought me new clothes. I rarely even buy snacks…”
"The second grandma told me, Linger, you were picked up by your mother. When I was eating at Aunt Xiaoning's house, some neighbors came over and said that I was picked up just like Aunt Xiaoning. They said with a smile, But I'm so sad, I was born by my mother..."
"Huang Weiwei said that she picked it up too, not born by her mother. I finally understood why my mother was so stingy and why she didn't love me like other children's mothers, because I was not born by her. Huang Weiwei said that she wanted to find her biological mother. Mother will buy her new clothes, and I would like to, but not for the new clothes..."
……
Many words in the diary are written in pinyin, but it can be seen that the child who wrote these words is very serious and very sad. There are many water marks on the paper of the diary, which seems to have been wet and dried by tears.
The hall sister cried like a helpless child, grabbed my hand, and said incoherently: "It's not that I don't love her, I take her very seriously, and I'm so frugal because of her. She has to go to school, and she will go to school in the future." From college. Why is this kid like this? Huh... How is she going to find her own mother? Why isn't she as easy as you are?"
I grabbed the hand of the hall sister and wiped her tears, my voice was a little hoarse: "Sister, don't cry, let's go to Linger first!"
"Where can I find it?"
"It will always be found, I will call some people to look for it together."
The hall sister is the daughter of the second uncle's family, and her name is Jian Muhua.When I was young, because of the loss of my mother, she and my second cousin stayed at my house since childhood, and they were not taken back until my second uncle married a new second aunt.That year, she went out to hang out with others, and met a gangster, who is now her eldest brother-in-law.The two walked together and finally got married, but life has been very difficult, she was infertile, and did not conceive a child until the age of 28, so she adopted Linger.
I was nine years old that year, and seeing Linger being carried back, a small, fleshy ball, I wondered if I was like this back then.
When I saw Linger, I seemed to see myself.
Since having Linger, the tempers of both brother-in-law and sister have changed, and they have become more mature and stable.For the sake of the children, the brother-in-law, who has always been idle, went to the construction site to work with others, and the eldest sister also took care of the children while going to work.In order to earn more money, she often worked overtime until very late, so naturally she didn't have much time to take care of Linger.
Linger is not like me. Before that incident happened when I was a child, I was quite outgoing, but Linger was different. She was introverted and precocious since she was a child. She knew a lot of things since she was a child. It can be seen from her diary that Linger Think more than other kids.
Linger ran away from home, this child must have planned for a long time.
At night, the entire shanty town is brightly lit.
After hearing this, many people came to help us find it together.
My dad woke up early, and my mother came back. Everyone held a flashlight and stumbled to find the little figure.
"Spirit ear—"
"Spirit ear—"
……
One cry, one sigh...
My eyes were filled with tears at some point, as if what I lost was myself, the half-old self...
Ever since I was a child, I have always wanted to escape from here, to leave this shanty town, but after all, I can't compare to a Linger who hasn't grown up yet.
Her departure was much more determined than mine, but also much more worrying.
After all, Linger is a child, no matter how precocious she is, she can't see through all emotions, just like she can't understand the love her cousin and brother-in-law have for her.
When everyone returned empty-handed, sighing with regret, and the first lady cried so hard that she almost fainted several times, Ling Er, who had been missing for most of the night, was finally brought back.
I didn't expect that he was the one who sent Ling'er back, let alone that this night was the beginning of a bad fate for Ling'er.
(End of this chapter)
01
"Jian Lening, how do you know Xu Yan? Which school did you go to for junior high school? Why didn't I hear about you when I was in junior high school?" During the break of military training, Tang Yu pestered me to ask Xu Yan about it. thing.
Tang Yu and Xu Yan have always been classmates in elementary school and junior high school, and the two families seem to have some connections.
I don't want people to know what happened between me and Xu Yan, but Tang Yu pestered me so much, I could only explain to her half-truthfully: "I used to be in Anxin Middle School, and Xu Yan came to our school to look for me. classmate, so we know each other."
I'm not lying, the facts are indeed like this, Xu Yan came to see Lin Jiarui.
"Are your classmates male or female?"
"male."
Tang Yu gave a meaningful "oh", squinted at me slightly with his long and narrow Danfeng eyes, remained silent for a while, then seemed puzzled, and continued to ask me: "Did something bad happen between you? Otherwise Why did you show that expression when you saw Xu Yan last time? Are you afraid of Xu Yan?"
I shook the hand holding the hat, took a deep breath, tried to find my normal tone, and replied: "My classmate and Xu Yan don't have a good relationship. There were some unpleasant things before, but it's all in the past." It's over, there's nothing to say."
"I see. It must be that Xu Yan came to your school to trouble your classmates, right? He has been fighting with people everywhere in recent years. He was not like this when he was a child. He was quiet and quiet, with a cute baby face. , probably because his younger brother was born!"
Tang Yu looked very understanding, sighed, and said helplessly, with a touch of sadness mixed with his delicate brows.
Probably because she felt that it was not good to talk about other people's family affairs, so she didn't go on, and I didn't ask, because I knew what she was talking about.
Lin Jiarui once told me about Xu Yan's life experience. Xu Yan's parents have given birth to another son, so the treatment he receives is of course different.
I have never had a good impression of Xu Yan. I hated him for a while, hated him for ruining everything, just like I hated all the people who left me that night, because of them, I can no longer act like a normal person. Live as innocently as a girl.
A girl may not be proud, noble, or outstanding, but she should live cleanly, but I am not clean anymore.
Until a few days ago, the appearance of Lin Jiarui made me realize that my so-called hatred is just a feeling when I lick my wound alone.
Everyone was right, including Xu Yan.
When he hurt me, he thought it was me who killed Tong Xingyu. He didn't know that his poor sister was already the same as his biological father, with terminal cancer and destined to die.
Xu Yan was originally a radical person, he hated and could only choose to hurt others to comfort himself.In fact, he is very sad. In such a family, as an adopted son, and his adoptive parents have a biological son, it is actually easy to imagine how he will be treated.Although on the surface he is a child of a rich family, he should not be happy in his heart.
Did that home give him warmth?If he did, why would he choose to degenerate, and why would he care so much about Tong Xingyu, his own sister?
If I say that I don't hate Xu Yan at all now, it's a lie, the hatred is still there, but it's not as deep as before.
Whenever I think of his insults to me, my heart always hurts, so I can't forgive, even if he is as pathetic as I am.
The assembly whistle sounded, and Tang Yu and I stopped chatting, and both parties seemed to be aware of the embarrassment of the atmosphere.
The military training lasted until sunset. When we disbanded and went to eat, people in the second and third grades of high school had already come out of the cafeteria one after another. Suddenly a familiar figure flashed in front of my eyes. Tang Yu next to him suddenly screamed as if he had discovered a new world.
"Ah! That's my classmate in the first year of middle school!"
When I was in shock, I saw Tang Yu waving his hands not far away with a face full of surprise, calling Lin Jiarui's name.
Then, Lin Jiarui's figure appeared in my dilated pupils, and he also walked towards us with surprise on his face.
"Tang Yu, why is it you? Are you in the same class as Jian Lening?"
I was very surprised why Lin Jiarui was in our school. He didn't look like he was passing by, but he looked like he had just come out of the cafeteria.
"Yes! You know Jian Lening! Oh, he transferred to your school when he was in the second year of junior high school, right?" Tang Yu asked me.
"Well, I'm in the same class as Lin Jiarui." I answered her honestly, then turned my gaze to the boy beside me, and asked puzzledly, "Why are you here?"
Lin Jiarui scratched his head, pulled me over, glanced at Tang Yu awkwardly, then lowered his head and whispered in my ear, "I'm studying physical education here. When I came out of that place, the senior high school entrance exam was over. Yes, I did not do well in the make-up exam, but I am good at sports, so I came here with some money from my family. In fact, I came here because of you, because I was afraid that you would be alone here. I didn’t tell you last time, I was afraid that you would ignore me, so I didn't say it, and I forgot to say it later."
Lin Jiarui was close to me, and I could still smell the body wash on his body. Looking at his outfit, I was surprised that he should have finished taking a shower.
But how could he be so fast, we just disbanded, don't we need military training in the physical education class?
My ears were warm, and I could feel Lin Jiarui's exhaled breath on my ears, and my face became hot immediately. As soon as I dodged, I saw Tang Yu looking at us and smiling ambiguously.
My ears were numb, and Lin Jiarui's words still echoed in my mind.
He said he came to this school because of me.
I suddenly felt very warm in my heart.
When he first transferred to our school, he jokingly said, An Xiaoduo and I are here, how could he not come?
But I always knew that he came for An Xiaoduo, but this time, he said he came for me.
I looked up at Lin Jiarui, he was grinning at me with a sincere expression.
After going through so many things, I believed it so easily this time.Lin Jiarui really wanted to guard me this time, guarding me like a true friend.
As he said - "I'm here!"
This time it is real, it really exists in this strange campus, and I can see his familiar smile just by looking up.
My heart, which had been lonely and empty for a long time, was suddenly filled, and I really felt very warm.
"Wow! There's something wrong with you two! Jian Lening, Lin Jiarui gave you so many things last time, right? Seeing that your face is blushing, I must have guessed it right! Tell me, are you two in that kind of relationship?" Huh?" Tang Yu leaned on my shoulder and said narrowly.
The eyes of passers-by were attracted by her words, I felt embarrassed and looked at Lin Jiarui dumbfounded.
Although I don't have a deep understanding of love, I have always made a clear distinction between love and friendship.
I knew from a young age that the relationship between me and Lin Jiarui was never love.
It's like I can wrestle with him without feeling awkward, but talking close to each other with his lips against my ears makes me feel uncomfortable all over.
We all know that the person hiding in each other's heart is not the other person.
The person Lin Jiarui likes has always been An Xiaoduo. From elementary school to now, it hasn't changed in so many years. Although he never mentioned it, I know that when he was detained for hurting Xu Yan because of me, An Xiaoduo After leaving with Qi Xuan, he must feel uncomfortable.
After guarding for so many years, An Xiaoduo still left with others.
and I?Compared with Lin Jiarui, how much better is it?
02
"Meeting is worse than meeting by chance. Now that the military training is not in class at night, Young Master Lin invites us to eat outside! The food in the school cafeteria is terrible!"
Tang Yu is a very enthusiastic person. After a few chats, he urged Lin Jiarui to invite us to dinner.
Lin Jiarui didn't refuse, he happily put his arms around Tang Yu's and me's shoulders, and walked towards the school gate.
Walking around the corner, we met a teenager who was on the phone.
"I won't reply this week, I have something to do. That's it, hang up."
The young man hung up the phone in annoyance, and slammed the wall hard. When he turned his head, he saw us, and his expression was stunned for a second.
Meeting Xu Yan again, the entanglement between us is destined to be difficult to resolve.
"Xu Yan, it's such a coincidence that I can meet you here too? My old classmate Lin Jiarui said he invited us to dinner, would you like to come together? One more person can't eat much, anyway, Young Master Lin is rich, right, Lin Jiarui?"
Tang Yu, who didn't know the situation, greeted Xu Yan warmly.
Lin Jiarui stood aside with a gloomy face, didn't speak, just silently put his arms around my shoulders, and tightly protected me against his chest.
I knew that he wanted to give me strength and worried that I would collapse when I saw Xu Yan, but he didn't know that Xu Yan and I had already met, more than once.
I calmly smiled at Lin Jiarui and told him I was fine.
The situation was so stalemate, Xu Yan looked at us coldly from the opposite side, looking at Lin Jiarui with a trace of resentment in his eyes, he hated Lin Jiarui for stabbing him with a knife.
I thought Xu Yan would refuse, but he suddenly raised the corners of his lips and chuckled: "Go, why don't you go? There is a treat, so don't eat for nothing!"
After finishing speaking, he came over, squeezed between Lin Jiarui and me, and smiled wantonly, as if the resentment on his face just now was an illusion, as if all the unhappiness that happened between us before did not exist.
Lin Jiarui chose a Sichuan restaurant near the school because Tang Yu wanted spicy food.
I didn't have too many demands on what to eat. Xu Yan didn't say anything along the way. Lin Jiarui had eaten before us, and when we met Xu Yan, he probably didn't have much appetite.
The three of us have our own concerns, but it's not easy to show it in front of Tang Yu.
Tang Yu excitedly ordered the menu by himself.
The seats are a table for four, which is not easy to arrange. Lin Jiarui and I sit in a row, opposite Xu Yan and Tang Yu.Tang Yu wanted to sit outside, so Xu Yan was squeezed inside, facing me. As soon as I looked up, I could see the young man's black and cold eyes. He was staring out the window, wondering what he was thinking.
I took a sip of boiled water and casually flipped through the menu on the table. Lin Jiarui was dragged by Tang Yu to discuss what to eat, and looked at me from time to time, with a wry smile on the corner of his mouth.
Tang Yu was unintentional, but it really embarrassed us.
Looking at the prices on the menu, I couldn't help but widen my eyes, and looked at Lin Jiarui worriedly.
The dishes in this restaurant are very expensive, and any one dish costs more than 50 yuan. Tang Yu came from a rich family, so naturally he would not think the dishes here are expensive, and with the mentality of killing Lin Jiarui, he attacked even more ruthlessly.
Although I know that Lin Jiarui's family is rich, I always feel that eating so much in one meal is not worth it.
"Tang Yu, that's all. Don't order any more. The four of us can't eat that much. Besides, Lin Jiarui has already eaten, so I don't have much appetite."
I finally couldn't help but stop Tang Yu who was not polite. Hearing this, Tang Yu glanced at me jokingly, closed the menu, and said, "Tsk tsk! He also said that there is nothing between you two, and now he is afraid that I will make him poor." , come out and stop it!"
"Don't talk nonsense!" I was a little annoyed, and my tone was unconsciously heavier.
Tang Yu was stunned for a moment, stopped laughing, his face was a little ugly, and he muttered: "Are you kidding, why are you so serious?"
I have always been a person who is not very good at explaining. This will annoy others, and I don’t know how to explain it. I just sat there blankly, drinking water with my head down.
I don't like people talking about things that don't exist.
The once dull atmosphere became more oppressive.
Lin Jiarui suddenly stood up from his seat, holding the menu in his hand, patted Tang Yu's shoulder with the other hand, and said with a smile, "Miss Tang is still a child who hasn't grown up yet. Be good! Brother treats you to ice cream .”
After that, he turned around and went to the service counter to pay the bill - the rules of this restaurant are different from other places, and the food must be paid before the bill is served.
Tang Yu was like a child, she was happy when Lin Jiarui coaxed her, she followed Lin Jiarui to the service counter, pestered him to eat ice cream, only me and Xu Yan were left at the table.
Maybe it was our previous dispute that aroused his interest, Xu Yan looked away from the window, played with the phone, and the corners of his mouth curled up habitually.I have never been able to understand his smile, I don't know how much coldness and warmth there is in his smile.
He said: "Jian Lening, you are still entangled with him, are you trying to force me to make you feel better?"
I pretended not to hear what he said, still drinking water with my head down.
Lin Jiarui said that he and Xu Yan used to be friends, and the struggle between them started because of Tong Xingyu, and because I didn't end well.
I don't understand why Xu Yan hates Lin Jiarui so much.
Tong Xingyu was not hospitalized because Lin Jiarui beat her, and Lin Jiarui paid the price for stabbing him, why is he still so persistent.
I didn't know until later that it was a matter of man's dignity.
Xu Yan told me that he is a man, and the last thing a man can hurt is his dignity.
Even if Lin Jiarui didn't hit his sister, isn't Lin Jiarui's behavior also hurt Tong Xingyu?He spent money to find comfort from Tong Xingyu, looking for love that An Xiaoduo could not give him, no matter how high-sounding the reason was, it could not conceal his selfish nature.He selfishly bought Tong Xingyu's self-esteem after being hurt by An Xiaoduo.This hurt Xu Yan deeply. As an elder brother, he actually asked his own sister to be someone else's girlfriend in order to make a living. This hurt him more than Lin Jiarui stabbing him with a knife.
When I think of Tong Xingyu, I always think of those eyes that are very similar to An Xiaoduo, but much purer than An Xiaoduo.I always think of that girl's innocent smiling face, and asked me naively: "Jian Lening, your grades are so good, can you help me calculate 15 yuan and [-] cents, if you spend ten yuan a day, can you How many years? My brain sucks and I can't count."
I suddenly felt sore in my heart, and my eyes were a little wet. It was not until Lin Jiarui stretched out his hand to push me that I recovered from the memory left by that girl.
"Jian Lening, why don't you eat?"
The boy sitting on the right smiled at me very warmly.
03
"This is delicious, Lin Jiarui, your ice cream will melt if you don't eat it, I'll eat it for you if you don't eat it."
Tang Yu snatched some of the melted chocolate double planets from Lin Jiarui's hand, with a smug smile on his bright face.
Lin Jiarui was not angry at all, and continued to pick up the vegetables slowly.
Except for Tang Yu who was talking alone, the three of us were very silent. Usually, she asked a question before someone answered.
"Xu Yan, why aren't you wearing a military training uniform? Don't you, like Lin Jiarui, also go to gym classes?"
With ice cream in his mouth, Tang Yu asked Xu Yan beside him inarticulately.
Xu Yan raised his head slightly, glanced at Tang Yu, then shifted his gaze to Lin Jiarui who was concentrating on eating, and said in a casual tone: "I was just stabbed with a knife and escaped from death, how can I have the energy to go to gym class? ?”
"You were stabbed? When did it happen? Why didn't I know? Where was it? Who stabbed you? What kind of hatred do you have with you?"
My hand holding the water glass couldn't help trembling, the glass fell to the ground and shattered into many pieces on the spot.I squatted down to pick it up in a panic, and my finger was cut just as it touched the shards of glass. Bright red blood oozed from my fingertips, but I didn't feel any pain.
"Let me come!" Lin Jiarui squatted beside me at some point, grabbed the paper towel on the table and wrapped my bloody fingers, and then picked up the glass shards on the ground.
I saw his thin back trembling too.
My eyes were a little sore, I blinked, I wanted to cry but I couldn't.
I feel so sad, so sad for all of us.
Tang Yu was still persistently asking about Xu Yan's matter, Xu Yan stood up from his seat, and smiled at Tang Yu: "Lin Jiarui is really right, Tang Yu, you are like a child, you believe everything you say. I'm full, so I'm leaving first. Thank you Young Master Lin for today, I'll invite you another day."
While Xu Yan was speaking, Lin Jiarui's cell phone rang.
Lin Jiarui glanced at the phone screen, was taken aback for a moment, then waved to us, and ran outside to answer the phone alone.
Looking at the back of Lin Jiarui leaving in a hurry, I felt inexplicably panicked, as if something was slowly passing away.
"Are you going to leave without eating? What a disappointment, I don't want to eat, let's go together. Jian Lening, do you still want to eat?"
Tang Yu grabbed Xu Yan who was about to leave, tilted his head and said to me.
I shook my head, looking at the table full of untouched dishes, I couldn't whet my appetite no matter what.
Tang Yu wanted to buy skin care products, so she took Xu Yan to accompany her, while I waited for Lin Jiarui at the door of the hotel.
Lin Jiarui was standing under the sycamore tree by the road, talking on the phone, with a nervous and joyful expression on his face.
The sky began to drizzle, and I stood under the eaves, looking at Lin Jiarui in the rain, and instantly understood who made the call.
Seeing that the rain was getting heavier, I bought an umbrella from a roadside stall, opened it, and walked towards the boy in the rain.
Even if she called, he didn't need to be so excited, even if it was raining, he didn't care.
I slandered Lin Jiarui's stupidity in my heart, but I couldn't help feeling sorry for him.He is so obsessed with obsession, just like me who was obsessed with obsession when I was a child, the "little eyes" who can forget his indifference and laugh instantly as long as Xuan Xuan looks back.
In some respects, I am so similar to Lin Jiarui.
"I bought it as you said, gave it away, and she took it too. She should be happy."
My walking steps stopped abruptly, and I stared stiffly at Lin Jiarui who went to the newsstand and continued to make phone calls.
I was standing five steps away from him, listening to his gradually hoarse voice, and the soft voice faintly coming from the mobile phone, the warmth in my body was gradually disappearing. The heart that was still full is slowly being hollowed out.
Before Lin Jiarui hung up the phone, I turned around in time and rushed into the non-stop rain with a blank face, leaving only one umbrella on the ground, which was turned upside down to hold the rainwater of the umbrella.
"Will your eye come back after it's healed?"
"Did you tell Qi Xuan about her? What did he say? Does he know that Xiaoyan likes him?"
"Xiaoduo, I feel a little tired. I know your heart is not on me, but I'm still waiting. If you don't plan to come back, just tell me. If I can't wait, I won't wait. I said to myself, just Wait for three years, if you don't come back in these three years, if no one wants the little eyes, I will take her."
"I think she is quite lonely, and I am also quite lonely. It would be nice if I fell in love with her when I was young."
……
It turned out that they all knew.
An Xiaoduo knew about it, Qi Xuan knew about it, they all knew about my being hurt by Xu Yan.
It was Lin Jiarui who said it. He told his beloved An Xiaoduo about the hurt I suffered on his own initiative. Did he think that An Xiaoduo would feel sorry for me because of this?
We are no longer the An Xiaoduo and Jian Lening we were when we were young.
An Xiaoduo who hates me so much, and An Xiaoduo who hurt me once, must be very happy after knowing this, she must think so: Look, Jian Lening, how pitiful you are, Qi Xuan doesn't want you, now even God all abandon you.Your parents don't know about this yet, do they?If you know, your mother must have a heart attack again, Qi Xuan also knows, but so what, will he sympathize with you?He is still treating my eyes with me in the United States.Jian Lening, you really failed!
Qi Xuan also knew, it was An Xiaoduo who told him, would he also think the same way: Little eyes, you are so dirty!
Yes, this time it was really dirty.
How could a boy who loves cleanliness miss me who is so dirty?
I ran desperately in the rain, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it hurt a little when it hit me.
I just wanted to cross the five steps and yell at Lin Jiarui, why did I tell An Xiaoduo all this?Why make me so miserable?Why expose my wounds to friends who have abandoned me?Why should I trample on what little self-esteem I have left?How do you want me to stand in front of An Xiaoduo and Qi Xuan with a straight back?How can I proudly announce to them that I, who was abandoned, can still live well without them?
The last thing Jian Lening wanted was An Xiaoduo's sympathy, and what she least wanted was Qi Xuan's pity, because those would damage her self-esteem.
04
I threw all the things Lin Jiarui gave me into the trash can, including An Xiaoduo's sympathy.
I'm glad I didn't use those things for the sake of the momentary beauty, otherwise I wouldn't forgive myself for giving An Xiaoduo the opportunity to look down on me.
Everyone in the dormitory was astonished by what I did, and Tang Yu was the most surprised. My sudden departure that day had always left her in doubt.
"Jian Lening, have you and Lin Jiarui quarreled? You have been avoiding Lin Jiarui these days. I find it very strange. Are you two having a conflict?" Tang Yu leaned into my ear and asked me.
I didn't answer her, I just buried myself in arranging my clothes, ignoring her question.
Seeing that I ignored her, Tang Yu immediately became angry. She is a young lady who is loved by thousands of people. When did she experience such neglect?Pretty face immediately stiffened, and angrily waved away.
"It's fine if you don't want to say it. What face do you give? I'm not the one who offended you. Do you think the whole world owes you?"
"Tang Yu, don't say that, Jian Lening must be in a bad mood." He Yiran and the others helped Tang Yu.
"Is she in a bad mood? I'm also in a bad mood, so should I show her face?"
As if I didn't hear Tang Yu's noise, I was still packing my things.
I am no longer the "little-eyed" person I was when I was a child and always quarreled and fought. I no longer like to quarrel and cause trouble. After what happened to Xu Yan, I don't even like to talk much.
I like silence, and I even hope to keep silent like this forever, finish high school for three years safely, leave here, finish college in a mediocre way, live in silence all the time, and bury my unbearable past in time in the mud.
"sorry!"
Tang Yu was still angry, the moment I packed up and was about to go out, I turned around and apologized to her.
Tang Yu froze for a moment, I had no intention of knowing whether she would forgive me, so I walked out of the dormitory with my bag on my back.
It was not until much later that I realized that it is easy to create rifts between people, but it is very difficult to eliminate them.
Today is the first holiday since the school started. I walked to the school gate with my schoolbag on my back, looked at the couples of father and daughter or mother and daughter walking together, raised my head, blinked my sore eyes, and looked at the vicious In the scorching sun, I seemed to see my father who was building a house for others on a 30-story high-rise building, and my mother who was sweating profusely in the dim workshop, but was still working hard.
I forced back the tears in my eyes, stood at the noisy school gate, and suddenly understood that there is a more precious feeling in this world than friendship and love, and that is family affection.
I am very relieved. Since the incident with An Xiaoduo, I have not caused any trouble to my elderly parents in the past few years. Parents who have always been looked down upon by others straightened up in front of other parents.
I feel very relieved that on days like this, I don't need to trouble them to pick me up, I can go home by myself without burdening them more.
I am relieved……
The only thing I feel guilty about is that I didn't protect myself well. When I was abandoned by everyone, I wasn't strong enough to protect myself from harm, so I lost myself and hid all my secrets.
I took a deep breath and told myself, Jian Lening, don't cry, your life has just begun, don't give up your future happiness.
God is fair, all the previous sufferings are paving the way for your future happiness.
I've always believed in that.
After walking a few steps forward, I heard someone calling me from behind. I turned my head and saw that it was Xiao Jingjing.
It may be that the electric tricycle was damaged by Xu Yan's car last time. Xiao Jingjing rode a battery car today. The car is very new, as if it was newly bought.
Looking at Xiao Jingjing's face flushed by the scorching sun not far away, my nose suddenly became sore, and I hurried towards the girl sitting in the car waving to me.
Jian Lening, why are you so desperate for friendship?You still have Xiao Jingjing, and that girl who has been with you for so many years but never left.What else do you have to complain about?
"Ouch! Girl, how much do you miss me? You're strangling me to death!" Xiao Jingjing grabbed my hand around her neck and said in a strange way.
"Jingjing, it's good to meet you!"
I let go of my hands and looked at the familiar face in front of me.
Xiao Jingjing opened her black and white eyes and smiled sincerely. I could see the crystal tears in my eyes from those smiling black eyes.
Xiao Jingjing looked a little flustered by me, stared closely at my eyes, and asked in a trembling voice: "Jian Lening, what's wrong with you?"
In the end, I couldn't hold it back, the tears came so violently, and recently, I seem to have become more prone to crying.
I hurriedly wiped away my tears, waved to Xiao Jingjing, turned my face away, and said with a smile: "It's nothing, I'm just too excited to see you. Didn't I tell you last time not to pick me up? So I thought you I won’t come, I plan to go back by car. When I see you, I feel very warm and touched. Jingjing, you are so kind to me.”
"Ouch! I thought it was a big deal! Jian Lening, when did you become so hypocritical? Hurry up and get in the car, it's so hot outside, go home early and feel comfortable!"
Xiao Jingjing rubbed my long hair, dumbfounded, and threw me a helmet.
I watched her skillfully start the car, my eyes fell on the exhaust pipe of the car, and I said in amazement: "Jingjing, this is a motorcycle, I thought it was a battery car!"
"How can the battery car's battery last long enough to take you home? Look, my car is pretty good, right? Don't look at the outside of the fuselage, it's actually full of second-hand goods. This is a second-hand car I bought from someone else. It was assembled by someone, saving money and practical." Xiao Jingjing said to me proudly.
I was sitting in the back seat of the car, looking at Xiao Jingjing's simple and bright smiling face, I couldn't help being moved.
I still remember the Xiao Jingjing who wanted to jump off the building because she didn't want to study. Compared with her memory, Xiao Jingjing now is more vivid and energetic.
Compared with her, Jian Lening at that time had disappeared without a trace.
Everyone has a different way to go, Xiao Jingjing's and mine are different, but this does not affect our mutual dependence.
I found that this is the friendship I want. I won't get angry with you just because of a few words, and I won't abandon you because of love.
If you treat me well, I will treat you well. If you are cold, I will give you a support; if I am cold, you will give me a padded jacket.
It feels so good.
When I was leaving, I looked back at the school that was drifting away, and saw Lin Jiarui standing at the gate of the school, staring at me from afar, hesitating to speak.
There was a black private car parked beside the boy, and someone graciously opened the car door for him.
I turned my head resolutely, as if I hadn't seen it.
05
When she was about to get home, she passed by a small vegetable market outside the shanty town. Xiao Jingjing stopped the car and said that she was going to buy some food for her father to drink.
I stood at the entrance of the alley with my bulging schoolbag on my back, guarding her new motorcycle and waiting for her to come back.
This place is mixed with fish and dragons, and there is a stock market atmosphere everywhere.
The passers-by are workers who are off work, old people who wander here to buy something, or housewives who bring their half-old children and carry a big bag to buy vegetables...
There are too many people of all kinds gathered here, but such a young man should not appear.
At the entrance of the alley, a young woman with white hair at the temples, about 40 years old, is sitting on a small bench selling the leeks grown at home.Squatting beside her is a very stylishly dressed teenager with a black and white plaid shirt and a pair of black harem pants. The chain on the pants hangs down on the ground because he is squatting, and the "Nike" logo on the sneakers very conspicuous.
The boy was facing me sideways, I couldn't see his face clearly, but I could vaguely see his straight nose, and the outline made me feel a little familiar.
The woman who looked much older than her peers kept her head down, quietly selecting her leeks, her movements were slow, but she chose very carefully.The boy squatting aside stretched out his white hand to help her choose together, but she opened it with a slap.
When she hit that hand, her movements became more agile, and the boy's back straightened a little, and he withdrew his hand stiffly.
After watching for a long time, I didn't see the relationship between these two people. I said they were mother and son, but the costumes of these two people were too different.The woman looked very poor, but the boy looked like a child from a rich family.
While I was thinking about it, my shoulders felt hot, Xiao Jingjing had already finished shopping and walked to my side, put her warm hands on my shoulders, and followed my gaze towards the couple at the entrance of the alley.
"Do you think they are strange? Do you know who that woman is?" Xiao Jingjing suddenly raised an eyebrow at me and said mysteriously.
I looked at her, shook my head, and asked, "Who is it?"
"Do you still remember when we were in junior high school, there was a classmate named Tong Xingyu in the school? It was the girl who fell in love with Lin Jiarui for a while. This is her mother. Not long after Tong Xingyu's accident, she sold vegetables here. The man next to her, I don't know who it is from her, he looks pretty handsome, he will come here from time to time to watch the woman sell vegetables. I heard from the fat man selling fish nearby that the boy is her son, but The woman said no. Who knows if it is!"
As soon as Xiao Jingjing's voice fell, I already guessed who the boy was, and my heart couldn't help but feel turbulent.
Xiao Jingjing didn't see Xu Yan turn her head, so she didn't know that the boy she was talking about was the one who crashed her car last time.
I didn't expect to meet Xu Yan here, in a vegetable market where he shouldn't be there.
After waiting for a long time, no one came to buy her leftover chives. Tong Xingyu's mother stood up from the stool, packed her things and prepared to leave.
Seeing this, the boy next to him hurriedly stood up and reached out his hand to help the woman's swaying body, but was pushed away.
"Don't come here again, I'll be annoyed when I see you!" the woman spat.
Hearing these words, the boy with his back to us stopped in his tracks.
"Little eyes, don't look, go back quickly, don't keep your parents waiting."
Xiao Jingjing pulled me into the car, and when the car left, I still couldn't help but look back, just in time to meet those tear-filled eyes.
For a moment, I forgot to look away.
Since we met, I have always felt that Xu Yan is the kind of cruel and cold-blooded person, he has no tears.
It is only now that I understand that some people are not crying, but they are not at the point of sadness.
The moment Xu Yan saw me, a trace of astonishment flashed in Xu Yan's eyes, and then he quickly reached out his hand to wipe away his tears, and returned to his previous proud appearance.
I turned my head silently, and looked away from his body, and landed on Xiao Jingjing's back, pretending not to see his fragility, his sadness that he didn't want to be seen by others.
I fulfilled his stubbornness, but inexplicably left a mark in my heart.
Xu Yan's stiff back when he was pushed away, and the sadness hidden in his black eyes reminded me of myself.
Both he and I were abandoned at birth. We have no choice about our fate, but neither of us is willing to give in.
Ever since I knew my background when I was six years old, I have always wanted to leave the shanty town.
And since when did he want to come back so desperately?
06
When I got home, my mother had already prepared the meals, and at the door of the house, I happened to meet my dad who had come back from work.
My mother said that I am boarding now, and it is rare to come back once, so I bought some good dishes.
"Eat more, look, you've lost weight again. You're so tanned in military training, and if you're still thin, it's ugly." Mom said, and gave me a piece of braised pig's trotter.
I looked at the sauce-red meat in the bowl and felt a little greasy, but I still ate it all in my stomach, and then smiled and called my parents to eat together.
My father, Old Jane, is still the same. He likes to gossip when eating. He is not as interested as my mother in my school affairs. He talks about the parents in the alley.
"When I came back today, I met Secretary Liu of our place. He said that our place is about to be demolished. I don't know if the money is calculated according to the head or the size of the house. Now the housing prices in the urban area are so expensive. If we demolish it, We need to find a house."
Dad took a sip of rice wine and said to us, his thin face flushed.
While chatting, I picked up a small crucian carp for him. Seeing this, he picked it up, took a few bites, spat out the thorn, and continued to say to himself: "Oh, I said it was going to be dismantled a few years ago, but now it's not I don’t know if it’s true or not. That kid even assured me that he won’t be named Liu if he doesn’t demolish it this year. But who would believe his words? He said last year that his surname would not be Liu if the house price went up again. It’s gone up, but his surname is still Liu.”
"Old Li's son at the entrance of the alley is about to divorce. The children are seven or eight years old, and the husband and wife don't want them. Why don't they have any more children? Now that I'm young, I know I'm comfortable. The daughter of Wang Dongshu's family is like that. What's the matter? Love, despite her parents’ objections, she followed a little ruffian, and there’s been no news since she went out. Today I saw Wang Dongshu’s wife talking about it to people, crying in the alley. It can't be like that..."
My mother and I listened patiently. He kept gossiping endlessly. Sometimes I was surprised. Are there really so many stories in this shanty town?
Dad's interest is getting higher and higher, probably because of the alcohol, his ears are flushed.
After I finished my meal, I sat aside and listened to him continue, while my mother smiled.
Looking at these two old but still lovely faces, my heart warms.
Although I have always wanted to leave the shanty town, I never want to leave this home because it is so warm.
When someone called "Old Jane" outside the house, my mother and I had already finished our meal, and my father was still gnawing most of the bone. My mother was washing the dishes in the kitchen, and I was cleaning the table.
"Old Jane, where are you eating? Where's your wife? My wife is a little unwell, and I want to ask your wife to give her a scrape."
Someone hurried in from the door, stood beside us and said.
The moment I saw the person coming, I involuntarily stopped what I was doing, looking at Grandpa Qixuan's wrinkled face, my thoughts suddenly went into a trance.
Didn't they go to America?When did you come back?
Qi Xuan's grandpa and grandma are back, what about Qi Xuan and An Xiaoduo?
My heart tightened, and I fixed my eyes on Qi Xuan's grandfather. I wanted to ask something, but I didn't ask.
What does it matter to me whether they come back or not?Jian Lening, what are you still nervous about?
"Isn't it small eyes? I'm at home too! Today is Friday, weekends are off. Old Jane, look at your daughter, she's really getting more and more beautiful." I didn't say anything, but Qi Xuan's grandfather saw it I, speak up first.
I nodded to him, found a stool from the side, and motioned him politely to sit.
My dad glanced at me, and said disapprovingly, "What is Peugeot! I've been a wild girl since I was a child, how can your grandson be so handsome?"
That being said, Dad winked at me triumphantly.
"Hey, what's the use of being good-looking, you can't see or feel it, as if you don't have this person." Grandpa Qi sighed, took a look at me, and continued, "Your little eyes are better. Well, I am obedient and admitted to such a good school. Unlike my Qixuan, who is now staying in the United States with An Xiaoduo, I don’t want to come back. After all, the United States is a place where young people go. I’m back. Although my son and grandson are all outside, there are neighbors here, and this old place is still popular. I’ve lived for most of my life, but I just can’t live without it.”
My hanging heart "thumped", and I felt an inexplicable sense of loss in my heart.
Turns out they haven't come back yet, I thought...
Ah!Jian Lening, what are you thinking?I just heard Lin Jiarui and An Xiaoduo calling on the phone a few days ago, knowing that they will not come back, how could they suddenly come back a few days later?
Since they left, how could they come back so easily? They are not Grandpa Qi and Grandma Qi. They are old and want to return to their roots.
But it's okay not to come back.
No meeting, no thinking, no embarrassment, no heart-to-heart.
Not coming back, fine.
07
When the eldest sister came to our house to look for Linger, my mother went to Grandpa Qi's house to help Grandma Qi scrape the patient's neck, and my father washed up early after being drunk and went to bed.
When she came in, I was alone on the desk in the bedroom doing my homework.
"Le Ning, didn't Linger come to your house today? When I came back from get off work, I didn't see her at home. I thought she was out to play, but it's almost seven o'clock now, and she hasn't come back yet. Has she ever been to your place? "
The hall sister was so anxious that her eyes were red, and her voice was choked with sobs.
I became tense with her, stood up from the stool, patted her on the shoulder to comfort her: "Did you go to a classmate's house to play?"
"I've looked for it, and the kids who used to play with her said they didn't see her. Nothing in the house was touched, and the neighbors said she never came back. I saw this on the pillow on her bed, happy Ning, do you think my Linger has run away from home?"
The lady in the lobby finally couldn't help crying, and with trembling fingers, she took out a small diary from her bag and handed it to me.
It was Linger's diary, which recorded the true emotions of an eight-year-old child written in immature handwriting.
"Mom comes home very late every day. It thundered today. I was scared by myself, but my mother was still at work and didn't come home. I hid in the bed and cried alone, thinking about when my mother would come home..."
"Today, Li Dongying's mother bought her a beautiful new dress. She said it would cost more than 200 yuan. I asked my mother to buy me a new dress, but my mother didn't buy it. My mother was stingy and never bought me new clothes. I rarely even buy snacks…”
"The second grandma told me, Linger, you were picked up by your mother. When I was eating at Aunt Xiaoning's house, some neighbors came over and said that I was picked up just like Aunt Xiaoning. They said with a smile, But I'm so sad, I was born by my mother..."
"Huang Weiwei said that she picked it up too, not born by her mother. I finally understood why my mother was so stingy and why she didn't love me like other children's mothers, because I was not born by her. Huang Weiwei said that she wanted to find her biological mother. Mother will buy her new clothes, and I would like to, but not for the new clothes..."
……
Many words in the diary are written in pinyin, but it can be seen that the child who wrote these words is very serious and very sad. There are many water marks on the paper of the diary, which seems to have been wet and dried by tears.
The hall sister cried like a helpless child, grabbed my hand, and said incoherently: "It's not that I don't love her, I take her very seriously, and I'm so frugal because of her. She has to go to school, and she will go to school in the future." From college. Why is this kid like this? Huh... How is she going to find her own mother? Why isn't she as easy as you are?"
I grabbed the hand of the hall sister and wiped her tears, my voice was a little hoarse: "Sister, don't cry, let's go to Linger first!"
"Where can I find it?"
"It will always be found, I will call some people to look for it together."
The hall sister is the daughter of the second uncle's family, and her name is Jian Muhua.When I was young, because of the loss of my mother, she and my second cousin stayed at my house since childhood, and they were not taken back until my second uncle married a new second aunt.That year, she went out to hang out with others, and met a gangster, who is now her eldest brother-in-law.The two walked together and finally got married, but life has been very difficult, she was infertile, and did not conceive a child until the age of 28, so she adopted Linger.
I was nine years old that year, and seeing Linger being carried back, a small, fleshy ball, I wondered if I was like this back then.
When I saw Linger, I seemed to see myself.
Since having Linger, the tempers of both brother-in-law and sister have changed, and they have become more mature and stable.For the sake of the children, the brother-in-law, who has always been idle, went to the construction site to work with others, and the eldest sister also took care of the children while going to work.In order to earn more money, she often worked overtime until very late, so naturally she didn't have much time to take care of Linger.
Linger is not like me. Before that incident happened when I was a child, I was quite outgoing, but Linger was different. She was introverted and precocious since she was a child. She knew a lot of things since she was a child. It can be seen from her diary that Linger Think more than other kids.
Linger ran away from home, this child must have planned for a long time.
At night, the entire shanty town is brightly lit.
After hearing this, many people came to help us find it together.
My dad woke up early, and my mother came back. Everyone held a flashlight and stumbled to find the little figure.
"Spirit ear—"
"Spirit ear—"
……
One cry, one sigh...
My eyes were filled with tears at some point, as if what I lost was myself, the half-old self...
Ever since I was a child, I have always wanted to escape from here, to leave this shanty town, but after all, I can't compare to a Linger who hasn't grown up yet.
Her departure was much more determined than mine, but also much more worrying.
After all, Linger is a child, no matter how precocious she is, she can't see through all emotions, just like she can't understand the love her cousin and brother-in-law have for her.
When everyone returned empty-handed, sighing with regret, and the first lady cried so hard that she almost fainted several times, Ling Er, who had been missing for most of the night, was finally brought back.
I didn't expect that he was the one who sent Ling'er back, let alone that this night was the beginning of a bad fate for Ling'er.
(End of this chapter)
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