Fifth personality SwanLake

Chapter 35: Joke [Extra] Only the mask can understand the clown's sadness (5)

The last person who really cared about me, died hahaha, died.

I looked at the contents of the letter in a frenzy, every word was piercing my heart, now, I wish I could tear this letter to pieces, why did you tell me this cruel result!why!why!Let me continue to lie to myself and wait, okay?
I feel like I'm going crazy.

Tracy is right, I am a little lunatic, crazy to think that my grandparents care about me and love me, and crazy to think that everyone will not leave me.

I wandered around in the orphanage in a bit of desperation, like a lonely soul wandering around.There is no purpose.

Sometimes I don't even know why I exist, what is the meaning of my life?I don't know, my existence is like an accident.

"Hahahaha. You are all dead. Doesn't it feel good to be damaged? You should also experience the retribution you have suffered for treating my robot like that!"

"I, I, I didn't do it on purpose. Don't come close to me, don't come over, blood is all over my body, I, I, I killed someone, I didn't want you to die. I can't control myself."

I suddenly heard Tracy's voice, my heart skipped a beat, my blood seemed to be frozen, Tracy, did she kill someone?
I hurried to the source of the sound.

Tracy was curled up in the corner. In front of her were the corpses of orphans. Her clothes were soaked in blood. There was also blood on her face, which had already dried up. It was shocking on her face. At this moment, she His eyes are scarlet like blood.

In her arms is a thing like a remote control, those small robots have been converted into humanoid robots by her, and those robots are also covered with blood, and their mechanical hands have been modified into sharp claws, which can be easily removed. A living life was strangled.

"That's all you damned! I feel disgusted to be in the same place with you." Tracy stared at the corpses viciously. "You put some cockroaches, rats, snakes and so on in my room every day, always like to tear my hair, tear my clothes, and splash me with disgusting rotten gravy, damage my robot, and make me whole I live in your shadow all day long, and I can’t sleep at night, which makes me unhappy, don’t you just want to drive me crazy? Yes, I’m crazy now, none of you can live.”

When I saw her like that, my mind went blank. The girl in front of me was really strange. Even though she was a little rude and unreasonable to me, at this moment, she was a real demon crawling out of hell.

Perhaps she noticed my gaze.She looked at me in horror, she opened her mouth to say something, but she still didn't say it.

She buried her face in her arms, and I saw her shivering.I was a little hesitant to go there, I was afraid that if she couldn't think about it, she would kill me too.But leaving her there alone doesn't bother me.

Jack, when did you take this girl named Tracy to heart?

I tried to walk as lightly as I could, walking in front of her, past the sickening corpses and blood-stained robots.

"Tracey," I said.She visibly trembled when she heard me call her name, "You said you were Alice, so why don't you treat all this as sleepwalking in Wonderland?" I continued, I didn't blame her, of course, I also I have no right to blame her, because I also feel that these orphans deserve death.

She raised her head, the scarlet color faded from her eyes, her blue eyes were clear, and there were tears in her eyes.

"Little Crazy Jake." Tracy realized what I had said to her before she finished calling her, and quickly changed her words.

I shook my head.

"Call me little lunatic, I'm already crazy anyway." I smiled, and Tracy also smiled when she heard it, but the tears still rolled down her face, "I said, one day Everyone will go crazy, won't they?"

I heard that crying and laughing hurt the most.

"If you feel tired of laughing, just cry, I won't laugh at you." I gently hugged her into my arms.

Even if you are covered in filth, I will hug you.

She was obviously taken aback, and then burst into tears in my arms.

She is strong on the surface, but she is so fragile in her heart, because I am no longer the same as me five years ago, and I can already understand her.

"Get out of here, this place is no longer safe for you, you killed my grandparents' experimental subjects, they will arrest you for experimentation, and life would be worse than death." I said to her in a deep voice.

"Where should I go? I don't have any relatives anymore." She said hoarsely, with a cry in her tone.

I am silent.

It took me a long time to respond.

"If you go out, you have half the chance of being alive, but here, your chance of being alive is equal to zero."

She broke free from my arms, her eyes were red, and she sniffed.

"What do you do, little lunatic? Don't your grandparents use you as an experiment?" Her eyes were full of worry, and I smiled.

"They won't use me as an experiment. After all, I'm their grandson. You will step on my shoulders to climb up this wall and then go out, okay? The door of the orphanage is locked all year round. You can't get out unless you get the keys from my grandparents."

I asked, and Tracy's tears welled up in her eyes again, "Okay." She said with a sob.

She wiped away her tears and tried to put on a sincere smile.

"You look uglier laughing now than crying." I teased.

After I finished speaking, I squatted down and let Tracy step on my shoulders. She was very light and thin, so I didn't feel very strenuous. I stood up slowly, and Tracy passed half of her body The wall, she climbed over the wall very easily.

When I heard the sound of her falling to the ground, my hanging heart was relieved.

"You are free." I leaned against the wall and said very sincerely, with a child-like satisfied smile on my face.

When you're gone, Tracy, I've got nothing to worry about.

"Thanks. My Mad Hatter," she responded to me.

"My pleasure, Miss Alice."

"Okay, Miss Alice, you should leave Wonderland and go back to your own world. You should be free."

"Well, the most powerful people are lunatics. So, Juke, you have always been the second most powerful in my mind. The first is my father. He is not a lunatic, he is a great Mechanic, I've always wanted to be like him."

We chatted for a while about her ideals and mine.

"Goodbye."

When I didn't hear Tracy's response, I felt deeply that I was really the only one left this time.

　It’s Your Majesty the Beauty: I’m a bit out of inspiration, so I can’t write so many words in a row, sorry to offend everyone / I’m actually fascinated by games and other fast-traveling novels

　　I recommend everyone to listen to the song Mad Hatter!It has a lot to do with this episode! !This song is so good!
　　


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