"Pit" you for three lives and three lives

Chapter 30

Ari couldn't sleep all night.Listening to the rain hitting the sycamore, bit by bit.

When we woke up in the morning, the rain had stopped.The sky was still a little cloudy, and the ground was covered with broken leaves.Autumn in the south of the Yangtze River is over, and the weather suddenly cools down.The grass and trees are not withered, but there is also a bleak scene.

The wind was cool, so Ari put on an embroidered cloak and leaned on the building to look into the distance.

She had been upset all night, and now her mood has calmed down.

——The imperial decree refers to marriage, and it is also to the prince, so she can't go back on her word.Unless she dies, she can only be Sima Yu's person in this life—even if she dies, she can only be Sima Yu's dead person—whose family's ancestral temple has a plaque, and whose name has been entered into a family's genealogy. Pay attention.

Wang Lin, who belongs to Ah Li in small characters, is destined to have no fate with Xie Lian.

If she knew this was the result, what did she do to provoke Xie Lian?It was innocent who brought him close.

And Sima Yu, she just told him yesterday - this heart cannot be changed, she can't fall in love with her - as a result, she became his fiancee that night.What should he feel like?
Ah Li couldn't even tell who was more unlucky in this marriage.

But this is an era of arranged marriages. No matter how hard she tries, in the end, it's not her turn to choose who to marry.

Naturally, it was not Sima Yu and Xie Lian's turn to choose.

She had been blowing in the wind for a long time, and she didn't eat breakfast.I feel dull in the afternoon, and feel hot at night.

One illness lasted half a month.

Winter comes quickly.Smoke cages have been lit in each room.

Seeing that the twelfth lunar month is approaching, Ahri has been elected as the crown princess again. This winter of the Wang family is obviously going to be different.On the day of the reunion in La Ri, even the clan uncle who was guarding far away in Bashu rushed back.The busy year at home is even worse, so there are naturally more chores than in previous years.

Only Ahri was fine.

Nowadays, her mother no longer takes her to socialize outside.Because of her illness, the family didn't want to put pressure on her anymore. Compared with the control of her in the first episode, this time they are more indulgent and appeasement.

Naturally, she doesn't have to worry about dowry and the like.

As for the wedding dress, she had already embroidered it.It's just that the crown princess has the crown princess's custom, and she is destined to not be able to wear her own embroidery.

Ah Li didn't want to worry her mother, so she didn't want to be idle.When I have nothing to do, I often spend time in the study, pondering the seal characters on the bamboo slips that she doesn't know.Occasionally, I also find some copybooks handed down by my ancestors to copy.

In the afternoon of this day, when she was in the study to finish posting, when she realized it, the sky was already overcast.

The light in the room was dim, and even the words on the book were covered with dust.The time was originally peaceful, but now that even the incense has been burned, there is a more stagnant old feeling.

Ari sat among the bookshelves one after another, the surroundings were silent, and there was no living creature except her.For a moment it seemed that even she had become a character on the unturned pages.

Thinking about the reason why she came to this world, Ari actually felt that she was right in thinking so.

She froze for a while, then got up to light the lamp.

When she put the rubbings in her hand back into the cabinet, she saw someone reach out to pick up the book on the other side of the bookcase.

When their hands were almost touching, they both stopped at the same time.

Ari looked up, and saw Xie Lian looking at her quietly across a bookcase.

He has always been quiet—in fact, Ari has never seen him being noisy and irritable.The ancients said that a gentleman is as gentle as jade, and Xie Lian is that jade, gentle and firm.There is a kind of power in him, which can make people know that this person can be relied on when they see him. With him, you don't have to worry about anything.If even he can't do anything, then you don't have to worry, just accept your fate.

But this time, in Xie Lianwang's eyes, there was a torrent surging slowly and darkly.

——Childhood sweetheart, childhood sweetheart.There are some friendships that inadvertently breed out.It's just that a gentleman is upright, and he treats him with courtesy, without going overboard.That feeling flows slowly like water, without signs of surging.But who said that this feeling is not deep?
But suddenly he was stopped.The well-known good relationship, just in that sentence, became a private relationship that could not be announced.Just like the flow of water has nowhere to soothe, it can only overflow little by little.

Even a young man like Xie Lian was a little breathless.

At this moment, I suddenly saw Ari, and I felt a little bit overwhelmed.

Ari lowered her head, avoiding Xie Lian's gaze.

Xie Lian looked at her deeply, without avoiding it.

Ali stood there.silently waiting.She thought, in fact, this time, she could also leave it to him to decide.

Or it can only be left to him to decide - Xie Lian could not have been involved.

Her life is not equal to Xie Lian's.If she fails, she can make up the exam, and she can read the file again and again - although she is not happy.Xie Lian's life was a real life.So she can work hard for some things, but she can't fight for other things, she can only fulfill them.

This is very hypocritical.But she couldn't think of anything more reassuring.

After a long time, Xie Lian said: "There is no light in the room, I didn't know you were here."

The things that were about to arise in the eyes have calmed down.Not even the slightest strangeness in their voices, it was still the casual and friendly tone they used when they were talking and laughing when they were young.

This is also Xie Lian.

Ari replied in a low voice, "I came early, it wasn't so dark before."

Xie Lian nodded, and explained: "I came to Wang Yan to borrow books—he asked me to pick them up the day before yesterday."

Ari said, "Yeah."

The two fell silent for a moment.Xie Lian took down the book from the shelf, and Ari put the rubbings back in his hand.After a shelf, no one moved first.

It is undoubtedly inappropriate for the two of them to be in the same room at this time.

In the breathless silence, the two said at the same time, "You..."

Ari closed his mouth, Xie Lian waited for a while, and then continued, "It's snowing outside—rain and snow. The ground looks like snow, but it's full of ice water when you step on it. It's hard to walk."

Ah Li listened carefully, and sure enough, there was rain and snow hitting the window edge, making a muffled crackling sound.

But she still said, "I should go back."

Xie Lian was silent.

Ari walked past him in the aisle.

For a moment, Xie Lian wanted to stretch out his hand to hold her.That moment was infinitely long, and he could even count the light dust that fell on Ahri's shoulders in the air when he crossed his body.But that moment was so short.Just a mistake, Ari has already walked over.

Once you go, you will never come back.

He finally said, "Tomorrow is the fifteenth day." He stopped her way with his voice, "I said I would take you to the mountains to enjoy the moon. Are you still willing to go?"

Ah Li's footsteps stopped as promised, she turned around, and just looked at Xie Lian, "If you want me to go, I will go."

She knew very well what it would mean if Xie Lian really invited her.

And Xie Lian is also very clear about what Ari's promise to him means.

Hiring is a wife and a concubine.

As long as he opens his mouth, she can give up her honor as a princess and the royal family's protection for her, but she can't even get the title of Xie Lian's wife.

This is entrusting her life, honor and disgrace together, and this weight is heavier than her previous promise "I choose you".

At this moment, Xie Lian didn't think too much in his mind. For a long time, there was only one mountain and one river.He remembered that on a quiet afternoon a long time ago, she sat beside him so quietly and watched her go fishing. Because of her presence, the familiar scenery became fresh and interesting.He also imagined that on a certain cold and clear moonlit night, the sea of ​​clouds billowed on the mountainside, and the dew condensed on the green grass, she still stood beside him, just occasionally looked at each other and smiled, and she was very complete.

They can find a place to live in seclusion, and live in peace without asking about worldly affairs.At that time, honor and inferiority did not matter.

But the next moment, Xie Lian knew that he could not keep this promise.

He loves leisure and leisure, but he has no ambition of seclusion in his heart.As early as when his father died when he was young, he was destined to bear the glory and wealth of the Xie family.He must have a career to do.

Giving up this responsibility for Ari, he didn't know if he would regret it in the future.When he regrets it, he can go out of the mountain again, but what about Ari?
At that time, she didn't even get shelter from her family.Because she was the one who gave up first.She was just an orphan girl who was allowed to be manipulated, bearing the stigma of lewdness.

I'm afraid she will regret it too.

The identity of the Wang family's concubine is indispensable between the two of them staying together and loving each other.

Although this is cruel and utilitarian, it is the most exposed truth.

As Ahri expected, Xie Lian finally turned around calmly after this encounter.Those dark eyes just looked at her so softly, this time there was nothing between them, their eyes could reach directly to the bottom of the eyes.Nothing to hide.

Xie Lian said: "When I wrote to you, I didn't expect such an ending. I can't take you there, I'm sorry."

Tears gathered in Ari's eyes - Xie Lian is indeed a gentleman.They're just out of luck.He only remembered that he was the one who showed his favor to Ari first, but he didn't mention that it was Ari who gave him the purse first, so that all kinds of things happened in the future.

Restraining her tears, she only replied softly, "When I replied to the letter, I didn't expect this ending. I promised to break your promise, and I'm also... very sorry."

She was talking about the agreement under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree that day.

Neither of them spoke again.

Ari saluted, then turned around and opened the door to go out.

Ah Li had been out for a long time before Xie Lian walked to the place where she was standing and took down the rubbings she had put down earlier.

There is a plum blossom hairpin on the rubbing book, simple and elegant, it is the one he gave her earlier.

She returned it to him after all.

Ari came out from the room.There is a water viewing window outside, and it is not closed in winter, so it is very cold.The maid serving in the study is not on duty in this weather.

Because of this window, the room is not so dark, and the white sky outside can be seen.Sure enough, the rain and snow fell heavily, just like that in big balls.There was only a dull sound when it fell to the ground.

A thick layer had accumulated on the ground, and even the green bamboo by the window was bent over.The branches and leaves are connected into one piece.

Ari didn't wait for anyone to pick him up, so he took an umbrella from the basket beside him and walked into the ice and snow.

At this moment, she finally let go of the burden in her heart.

That's the end of her relationship with Xie Lian.

(End of this chapter)