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Chapter 161 He Yuan is dying? (7K2 chapter)

"I?"

He Yuan fell into silence.

"Actually, you don't have much feeling for her anymore." Senior Sister said.

He Yuan looked up at his senior sister, and said after a while, "Why do you say that?"

"If you still have feelings for her, you should be talking about her present, not her past... You will say that, which means that what you care about is only the previous experience. Or, what you like is just The one who liked her at that time was yourself. That self who worked hard, had clear goals, and was full of vigor." The senior sister said.

He Yuan was silent for a moment, and after a long while, he breathed out: "Yeah, what I like is just me at that time. In fact, what I miss is just that feeling, the innocent and pure me who used to be. I am very grateful for life. There was once such a person in my life, she let me know what I want and what I should want, instead of muddling around and muddling along."

"Then why are you running from her now?"

"Escape? Maybe. Maybe it's only when I really know what I want that I realize that it's impossible for me and her. She's too floating, like a cloud, I can't catch it, I can't hold it. I want The other half belongs to me, eating, drinking and having fun with me, laughing and laughing with me, instead of finding a goddess and keeping it at home. In fact, I am very sad. Many times, we don’t know what we really want What do we want, we always think that we are such a kind of person, but often after experiencing it, we realize that we are no different from others, the same philistine, the same vulgar. The reality of falling from the clouds Feeling, it's not that good." He Yuan shook his head.

After a while, He Yuan exhaled, and he became more relaxed: "Actually, I have always had a knot in my heart. I always want to be like the hero in the novel, to become very strong. After being extremely powerful, When I go back to her again, I want to see her sad and remorseful."

"But you are not such a person." The senior sister said suddenly.

"Yes, later I felt that it was quite boring to be like this. Why did she feel sad and regretful, because she was not with me? But, I gave up on her own initiative. I used to have a chance, but I Give up, why should I blame others for my own reasons? What's more, I really can't become so strong, I have no ambitions, and I rarely have desires. It was her who made me get to where I am today. In fact, I should be grateful to her. It's just that I really can't do it. I really can't stand in front of her and say with a smile, thank you for having such a you in my life. I think this is too hypocritical and not my style. .”

"If you can't do it, then don't force yourself."

"Well, I understand, it's just that I may have pursued perfection too much in the past. I always feel that no matter what happens, there must be a good ending in the end. But now I feel that the reason why people grow is not because of experience How many good things I have done, but how many bad things I have experienced, and I can still move forward. Therefore, sometimes regret is also an experience. It has taught me a lot, especially when I understand that many times, What you like and what you want are often not the same thing, just like there was a proposition before, if you were given a choice, would you choose to marry the person who loves you, or choose to marry the person you love.”

"Children only make choices, and adults want all of them." Senior Sister said.

"If you can choose to marry someone you love, and he loves you, that is of course the best. You are married to love. But this world is often not happy. For example, after you marry, have you considered Have you bought a car or a house, have you considered supporting your parents, have you considered whether to have a boy or a girl, have you considered... You see, this world is not always so perfect, and everything cannot be as you wish." He Yuan Slowly said.

The senior sister was silent.

"There are always many things in this world that require us to make concessions and compromises, and there are always many regrets. I remember watching a show before, in which the host asked the guests, saying why are you working so hard to make money? Then The guest asked a question, saying that I will offer 500 million now, and ask the audience to give me my girlfriend, how many people are willing to exchange. Many people raised their hands, the reason is very simple, for example, 'I may not earn in my whole life 500 million', 'Compared with a girlfriend, 500 million is still more difficult to earn', 'I have no money now, I hope to work hard with this 500 million, and strive to get my girlfriend back in the future'."

"I seem to have watched this show. I remember that a few people didn't raise their hands. The host asked the man why he didn't choose 500 million. The man said that 500 million is a lot, but the power of love is stronger. High, so he chose love instead of money." The senior sister added.

"Hmm, but what I remember is that when the host asked the boy's girlfriend, the girlfriend replied, 'Although your choice touched me, I still prefer the one who paid 500 million for me. man'."

"That girl is very honest, many girls dare not answer like that."

"When I was young, I didn't quite understand that girl's thoughts. I would think that girl was too powerful. I especially hated that kind of girl. She was the kind of person who could turn to another man for money. But after growing up a little , I began to understand her thoughts, even if her boyfriend really loves her, even if he really gave everything for her... But, as she said in the show, she thinks such a man is very naive. You have the time to love her, the motivation to love her, why can't you fight for her? Why some people can start from nothing, earn hundreds of millions of fortunes, and then kneel in front of their girlfriends and say they love her, while others can only lie at home, As a gnawing old man, what he said every day was how he loved her and gave everything for her. We are all adults, and sometimes actions are more convincing than words. "

"Maybe he just hasn't shown it yet, maybe he just lacks opportunities, maybe... well, I can't convince myself." The senior sister gave some examples, holding them up, and she laughed at herself.

She is the woman who once "heard love".

"So when the host asked the guest whether he could do what he wanted because he worked hard to make money, he replied, he said that he worked hard to make money, but he didn't want his daughter Friends, you will also face such a choice one day." He Yuan said slowly.

"Although it's not the first time I've heard this story, every time I listen to it, I have new feelings." The senior sister said.

"So, there are always various regrets in this world. Trying to become strong is just to reduce such regrets, but...it cannot be completely avoided. Especially, sometimes the reason you are strong is the reason you regret. "He Yuan shook his head.

After saying this, the two fell into silence.

After a while, He Yuan stood up: "Thank you, after chatting with you like this, I feel much better."

"Figured out?"

"There is nothing I can figure out, or I can't figure it out. I have thought about it before, but I just think about it again." He Yuan took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"Well, this can be regarded as a return gift from you who enlightened me before. Sometimes, if there is something, don't hold it in your heart, find a stranger, and talk about it wantonly when she is like a toilet. Don’t contact me either. It’s like a decade ago, idol dramas often performed this way, saying to write your troubles on a note, then put it in a drift bottle, and throw it into the sea. In this way, your troubles and dissatisfaction If you are happy, you will be taken away by the sea." The senior sister also stood up.

The wind in the park is very strong, and it will mess up her hair from time to time. She often has to reach out and stroke the bangs in front of her back behind her ears.

How far dare not accept this sentence.

I always feel that my sister has something to say.

"Thanks, I'm going back, how about you?" He Yuan said.

After this conversation, He Yuan felt much more relaxed.

In fact, he has not been entangled in this matter for a long time, it's just that he suddenly found out about her and his mood fluctuated a little.

Every time he thinks of her, He Yuan thinks of his past self.

Such a cowardly, incompetent, poor, and humble self.

What He Yuan can't face is never someone else.Just like what is said in the graphic novels in Secondary School, your opponent is never someone else, your opponent is always yourself.

"Me? I'll go back after playing for a while." The senior sister looked at the mad girl on the grass in the distance, smiling.

"Why do you have time to take her out to play today, your store is not open?" He Yuan asked casually.

"Oh, the store is closed." The senior sister replied.

"Closed? It's the Chinese New Year. Are you going to have a holiday? It's too early." He Yuan was a little surprised.

Although I know that some companies will have holidays in advance, but one month in advance, in He Yuan's eyes, it is a bit too exaggerated.

Besides, this is my hometown, not Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou. Even if someone wants to return home early, it will not be a month in advance. Most of the people working in my hometown are locals, and they are very close to home.

"Business is not good, closed early." Senior Sister said.

"Closed early, you mean..." He Yuan guessed something, but he was still a little uncertain.

"I won't do it in the future." The senior sister said what He Yuan wanted to say.

He Yuan swears that he really just finds a topic at random to avoid awkward conversations.

Who knew that a random topic would involve such an embarrassing matter.

In other words, senior sister's company is considered bankrupt.

He Yuan was silent, and it took him a while to say something: "Then what are you going to do in the future?"

"What should I do? Let's talk about it later. In order to open the store all these years, I have no time to take care of her. I want to take her out to play and spend time with her during the Spring Festival. When I come back, I will take some of the materials in the store. After dealing with it, let's sell the store." The senior sister has a relaxed face, and it can be seen that she has almost made up her mind.

He Yuan didn't know what kind of life a woman would live after losing her business as a single mother who had experienced a scumbag, had her property split, and brought a child.Don't say that there is a facade fee, the facade of my hometown doesn't have much money, even if it can be rented out smoothly, the monthly income can barely cover their expenses.

He Yuan has met single mothers before. He knows that the life of single mothers is not as simple as it seems in the eyes of ordinary people. Senior sister He Yuan also has such an ex-husband...

"If there is anything I can help with, you can tell me directly when the time comes." He Yuan sighed and said.

Now the economy is getting worse and worse. Although He Yuan has not gone to work, he can clearly feel the economic winter.

Fortunately, Senior Sister has her own house and a car, so she won't be displaced.He Yuan met some single mothers in BJ before, and to be honest, life was not happy.

"Suddenly being so nice to me, what are your plans?" The senior sister turned her head and looked at He Yuan with a sweet smile on her face.

That kind of sincere smile stunned He Yuan.

"Speaking of attempts... I really have something to ask for your help." He Yuan came back to his senses, and suddenly remembered another thing.He wanted to find his senior sister before, but because he didn't reply to WeChat last time, he was not too embarrassed, so he held back.

At that moment, he told his senior sister exactly what happened to Tang Duoduo.

After listening to He Yuan's words, the senior sister thought for a while and said, "I'll go back and ask about this matter. I'll come back to you when I have news."

"Okay." He Yuan nodded.

This kind of thing is very troublesome, if it is not done well, it is easy to get all over the place without talking about it.

"By the way, remember to check WeChat this time." Just as He Yuan was about to leave, the senior sister suddenly floated over.

He Yuan's heart trembled when he heard this, and after saying goodbye to his senior sister, he hurriedly fled.

After leaving the park, He Yuan found his car and drove home.

After returning home, He Yuan became lazy again.

A while ago, the temperature dropped suddenly, and people who were frozen couldn't do it. When he got up several times in the morning, He Yuan lay in bed and didn't want to come out. People who were frozen were almost moldy.

As a result, the sun has been out every day for the past few days, especially at noon, the sun is warm and very comfortable.He Yuan would pull up a chair, lie in front of the house, make a cup of black tea, cover a small blanket, and bask in the sun in the yard.

He Yuan was a little lazy today, so when he got home, he saw such a beautiful sun in the sky, without saying a word, he immediately made black tea, moved the small reclining chair, and sat in the door of the living room... um, it's comfortable.

It's not that He Yuan has a big heart, nor does it mean that Yuan Jing's incident just passed away.

It's just... Anyway, what can't be solved today, can't be solved tomorrow, so let's just let it go, and it won't affect your life.

And to be honest, this city is not too big or small.

The person I want to see can't be seen no matter how hard I look, and the person I don't want to see suddenly appears in front of my eyes with a "boom".

He Yuan himself didn't know whether he wanted to see her or didn't want to see her.Forget it, it won't be too late to worry about it when I actually see her.

Maybe it's because of the many things I have encountered recently, or it may be because I got up early today, or it may be because of the incident with Yuan Jing... In short, He Yuan feels dizzy today, I have a terrible headache.

He has already taken cold medicine for the past few days. Whenever he felt uncomfortable before, it was probably because he had a cold. If he took some cold medicine, he would be fine the next day.But this time was different. He Yuan had already taken the medicine, but he still felt very uncomfortable.

Is it because the weather is cold and the body automatically enters hibernation?
He Yuan thought lazily.

With his eyelids fluttering, he just lay on the chair and fell asleep in a daze.

……

He Yuan had a dream.

No, it must have been several dreams.

There are many pictures in the dream, many people, and many things.

He Yuan couldn't remember exactly what he dreamed of, but he felt very familiar.

The feeling of being separated by a layer of veil made He Yuan tickle, but it just didn't fully emerge.The only thing I still remember is the picture frozen on his feet.

He Yuan remembered that he saw himself wearing two shoes in his dream, two different shoes, the left foot was a yellow Martin boot, and the right foot was a shiny "Buling Bulling", like a black shoe inlaid with small diamonds. The pointed leather shoes are shiny.

He Yuan didn't know what this dream meant. He checked the Internet and found that he dreamed of wearing two shoes on his feet, which meant that the owner was in a stage of disagreement. If he was married, he might have an affair...

Seeing this, He Yuan turned off his phone and threw it aside.

What are you talking about, I am a new and good man, I have always kept myself clean... At least for the past two years, I have been diligent, kept myself clean, and rarely had contact with the opposite sex.How could such a good man cheat emotionally... Oh, the above mentioned married people, and he is not married yet.

Some messy things flashed through his mind, and He Yuan felt his head hurt even more.He tried his best to get up from the chair, followed every step, returned to the bedroom room, and lay down on the bed.

As soon as he got into bed, He Yuan felt dizzy for a while. He seemed to be hit on the head violently by some heavy object, and he almost couldn't lift himself up.This feeling is very similar to what he felt when he was in the company. He Yuan was suddenly a little worried. He couldn't be that thing in his mind, and something went wrong again, right?

He Yuan was shocked. To be honest, since he went to the hospital several times before for examination, the doctor said that he was in good condition. According to the current rhythm, he would probably recover, which made He Yuan feel relieved.Afterwards, He Yuan's attention was distracted by successive incidents, and he almost forgot that there was still such a thing in his mind.

If it is said that he had already made preparations before, even if such a thing really happened, He Yuan would be able to accept it calmly.

But now, he has stepped out of the shadow of death, and lives so leisurely every day. He has cats, Dodo, and a girlfriend... He still has a lot of things to do, and there are still many things he wants to do. He doesn't want to be like this now die!

He Yuan struggled to get up from the bed, wanted to change clothes, and went to the hospital for a checkup.

As a result, just crawling to the bedside, there was a "hum" in my mind, and it was dark.He Yuan couldn't hold on at that time, and when he missed, he fell off the bed to the ground with a "bang".

Before he fell into a coma, a fear suddenly rose in He Yuan's heart.

I... won't... just die...

……

Tang Duoduo had a very uneasy life today.

She always looks out habitually, for fear that if she is not paying attention, she will find those disgusting faces appearing outside the classroom window in a blink of an eye.

There was a parent of a student before, who chased him into the classroom, beat and scolded that student in front of all the students, and said loudly, "Why did I give birth to you such a bastard", the teacher couldn't stop him when he came over, The scene was once very ugly.

Later, gossip spread in the school, saying that the student seemed to be in a relationship, and was caught by the other party's parents, who sent the news to her parents, and then her father didn't care whether she was in class or not, and ran over directly... …

Tang Duoduo was in a trance when he thought that those people might chase them into the school and make a scene in front of everyone.She was thinking desperately, what should she do if she encounters such a thing, should she fight them directly, or leave the school first...

After thinking about it for a long time, Tang Duoduo still couldn't figure it out after school.

It wasn't until the school bell rang and Dapang and the others appeared in Tang Duoduo's classroom that she sighed, packed up her things, and left with Dapang and the others.

Since what happened last time, because she was worried about being retaliated by the other party, now Tang Duoduo went to and from school every day with Big Fatty and the others, and was protected by them.

But for some unknown reason, Xiao Xiao never looked for her.When she met her in the classroom, she acted as if she hadn't seen Tang Duoduo, and went about her own business.

This made Tang Duoduo feel a sense of loss while he was relieved.

The things that made her worry and fear before were suddenly solved like this, which made her feel very uncomfortable.

She originally thought that with Xiao Xiao's previous posture, the two of them would at least have a fight to the death.

Sure enough, I still read too many novels, and my mind is a little funny.

Tang Duoduo hid her thoughts and left the classroom without caring about the other students.

Although Xiao Xiao was solved, her popularity in the class did not improve because of this.On the contrary, because of being mixed with several "bad students" of Fatty, he was hostile by many people.

Territorial awareness in the school is also quite serious. Tang Duoduo "hooked up" students from other classes. In their eyes, it was almost like treason.

But Tang Duoduo didn't care, anyway, her relationship with other classmates was not very good.

Apart from……

Hey.

The more I think about it, the more headache.

Tang Duoduo followed Fatty and the others to the school gate.

Along the way, Fatty and the others chatted there, basically all kinds of games, heroes, novels, and so on.Tang Duoduo went in with his left ear and out with his right ear.

Anyway, she didn't understand, not to mention she wasn't interested in these things, and always felt that the boys who talked about games were very childish.

When she reached the school gate, Tang Duoduo suddenly worried that those people would block her at the school gate.So she paid special attention to it for a while, and felt that they were not around, then said goodbye to Big Fatty and the others, and quickly got on the bus across the street.

She felt that there were too many people going through the front door, and it would be bad if they didn't pay attention next time and were caught by them.Then, next time, just go through the back door. There are few people there, and if there are people, they can be found in time.

Thinking so, Tang Duoduo took the bus and wobbled all the way home.

Because it was the starting station, Tang Duoduo still got a seat and didn't need to stand on the bus.Although it doesn't matter even if you stand all the way, it is of course best to have a seat.

After getting off the car, Tang Duoduo made a deliberate circle with her schoolbag on her back, avoiding the old house of her grandfather, and returned to He Yuan's house.

She was really afraid of meeting those helpless people again like before.

Facing the group of white-eyed wolves, Tang Duoduo had to admit that he was really helpless.Just like what He Yuan said, just leave this kind of matter to him, and don't get involved in it yourself.

When she came back, it was already dark, Tang Duoduo glanced at the house, the house was pitch black, and the lights were not turned on.

You're not back yet, are you?
I remember He Yuan said in the morning that he seemed to be going to a wedding, and he didn't know when he would be back.I remember that usually weddings have lunch and dinner, maybe he is having dinner there now.

Tang Duoduo thought to herself, taking off her shoes and entering the house.

For some reason, Tang Duoduo felt at ease when he saw this room.

It's like a wandering person suddenly returning home; a wandering ship suddenly has a shelter from the wind.

Tang Duoduo has always felt that she is a very strong person, she can completely rely on herself, unlike other girls who need to rely on other men.

After experiencing what happened to her father, Tang Duoduo felt that there was no man in the world she could rely on, and the only grandfather she could rely on had already left.

Thinking of her grandfather, Tang Duoduo suddenly felt a little depressed.Fortunately, it was only for a moment, and Tang Duoduo recovered quickly.

To be honest, sometimes Tang Duoduo felt that she was cold-blooded, obviously her grandfather had left, but she only cried once, and since then, Tang Duoduo has never cried again.

Sometimes she also felt that she was very sad and panicked, but no matter what, even if the tears had gathered in her eyes, she just couldn't cry.

She felt that she had a disease, a disease called cold blood.

After putting away her schoolbag, Tang Duoduo didn't go upstairs. After fastening her apron, she prepared to wash vegetables and cook.

Although He Yuan was good at cooking, and he didn't ask Tang Duoduo to do these things.But Tang Duoduo always felt that she had to find something to do, otherwise she would feel uncomfortable all over.

After taking out the frozen meat from the refrigerator, Tang Duoduo put the meat on the cutting board to defrost.

Then she found some seasonal vegetables from the refrigerator, and took out two pieces of potatoes and a white radish from the kitchen floor... He Yuan may not come back today, Tang Duoduo is going to make it simpler, fry a potato shreds, and then use white The radish is boiled with bacon, just eat it simply.

In fact, she doesn't have much desire for things outside of her body. When she is alone, she eats very simple food - when she was staying at a relative's house, she often went home without food. Tang Duoduo always prepared bread and steamed buns, and ate them there by herself. .

Compared with those days before, Tang Duoduo is much happier now.

After steaming the rice, washing the bacon, and cooking it with the radishes, Tang Duoduo felt that it was still necessary to send a message to He Yuan, asking if he would come back for dinner, in case he came back?
But the mobile phone is in the bag, Tang Duoduo has to go to the living room to get the mobile phone.

While holding the phone, Tang Duoduo suddenly found that the door of He Yuan's room was open.

In the past, when He Yuan went out, he would close the door of his room to prevent the little guy from running in and peeing in his quilt.

I don't know why, but he didn't turn it off today.

Maybe forgot.

Thinking so, Tang Duoduo stepped forward and was about to close the door.

Standing at the door, Tang Duoduo casually glanced inside, and suddenly found a figure lying at the foot of the bed!
(End of this chapter)