deep in time

Chapter 31 (2)
The splashed water can't be recovered, and the other half of the broken teeth can't grow back anyway. How can the friendship that was torn once be restored to its original smoothness and cleanliness?
In this world, how many things make us powerless and feel that we are insignificant?The time machine of Doraemon, which was once sniffed at, now makes many people really yearn for it.

——If time can come back.

The boy stood blankly under the light of the white corridor until he heard a timid voice.

"elder brother……"

Who is calling him?The boy turned his head slowly, and one meter away from him, a thin and small girl with round eyes was biting her fingers and looking at him.

The weather has gradually turned cold, especially at night, and there is a lingering coolness in the air.But this little girl, who seemed to be only five or six years old, was still wearing a short-sleeved T-shirt, with sparse hair and a slightly pale face, with a look of panic and timidity, like a very easily frightened little rabbit.

A child who ran out of nowhere.

Looking at this poorly dressed and malnourished little girl, the boy felt a complex emotion in his heart, which seemed to be occupied by some kind of desolate tenderness.He squatted down, his eyes were parallel with the little girl: "Where is your adult?"

"My mother is in the fourth ward upstairs." The little girl pointed down with her finger, "Wrong, wrong, go to the cafeteria to make meals by yourself."

Only then did the boy notice that he was probably tired from walking. There was a blue three-layer plastic round food box under the little girl's feet. The sunflowers printed on the surface of the box were only faint traces.

"Go down and cook by yourself? Are there no adults at home?" The boy subconsciously said, "You are so good."

The little girl who was praised smiled shyly: "Father is gone, there is only one wrong person. Are you here to see mom? Brother Chen."

He clearly heard the word "A Chen", not some other boys' names like "A Bin" and "A Dong".

There seemed to be countless circuits buried in the body. At this moment, it was suddenly hit by a general electric current, and countless electric lights splashed out. In this burst of electric current, a heart seemed to be suspended in the darkness, surrounded by countless floating currents. surrounded by dust.

"You know me?" The voice trembled, trembling.

In that small, musty bungalow, the damp and cold floor brings the feeling of being wet, similar to a rainy day, which has been lingering in my memory and has never dissipated. The appearance of the little girl who was disgusted and deliberately ignored In fact, it took root in my mind early in the morning.

It's just that he doesn't want to admit it at all.

The entire corridor was silent, except for the sound of my suddenly heavy breathing, and the delicate voice of a little girl: "I know you, Brother Chen, my mother calls your name many times every day!" Occasionally, a kind of tenderness that is completely different from usual will appear on the face that has turned into a bitter philistine, calling softly "Achen, Achen", but after a while, it will be replaced by a painful and distorted look.

The most unforgettable thing is that when she came home covered in mud that evening under the heavy rain, when her mother gave her a bath for the first time, she suddenly burst into a very soft smile and told her: "Brother Ah Chen was so old He said he is a man." No matter what, I will never forget that when the clean and handsome brother Chen was kicked out by my mother, the tears in my mother's sunken eyes were like It was the heavy rain outside that kept falling, and the hands like chicken feet slapped her face vigorously, until the startled little girl rushed over to hug her mother.When the mother looked at the empty gate, her desperate eyes made the little girl cry with fear.

Because when my mother called the word "Achen", the kind of tenderness was too rare, like a ray of warmth in a barren and cold world, so I desperately remembered this scene in my mind.Because the desperation on my mother's dull and sour face gave me the illusion that "I will lose my mother in the next second", so naturally, I also took that completely unfamiliar person who I had only met twice before. People hide it deeply in their memory, and they think about him for a while every night, gradually, it seems that this boy has become a very familiar existence.When eating, when going to school alone, and when being bullied, I will silently call "Brother Ah Chen" in my heart.The cowardly little girl who is afraid of strangers can finally recognize brother Ah Chen standing in the corridor at a glance after imagining it over and over again.

"Is mom sick?" The boy unconsciously grabbed the little girl's shoulder.

"Well, mom said it didn't hurt at all, but I eavesdropped on the doctor's chat and said it was very serious." The little girl frowned deeply, and brother Ah Chen's hand grasped her shoulder too hard, a little It hurts, "The doctor said that my mother will die, but Brother Chen, what does death mean?"

The heart stopped suddenly.Fear passed over his head in an instant.Something was falling apart rapidly, and collapsed with a crash.

The boy pressed his empty and throbbing chest, not knowing where he was.

[Fives]
Compared with going out angrily, when Ji Hao came back, his face was still expressionless, but he was no longer awkward and in a state of ecstasy, which made Ji Nan, who had lived under the same roof for more than ten years, suddenly realize what was different.

The boy continued to maintain his reading posture, and sure enough, within a minute, the little boy, who couldn't hide anything from the bottom of his heart, coughed heavily.Seeing that his brother didn't look up, he walked over and took out the book in Ji Nan's hand, and shouted childishly: "Brother..."

"Hmm." The boy's face was sullen, but the smile actually reached his eyes.

"Guess who I met just now?" The little boy was beaming, and before his brother could ask, he proudly said, "How did you stop Cheng Lichen? Throwing a box full of mangoes to the chest of a tall boy" is told vividly.

The little boy felt an incisive pleasure in his heart.

He took revenge on the person who hurt his brother and protected his brother.

However, when his last coda was still lingering in the air, he found that his brother had lifted the bottle with his right hand and raised it high above his head in a funny way, and he had already opened the door of the ward and ran out.

It was only a few wards away, standing in the empty corridor, Ji Nan clearly saw the scene of Cheng Lichen crouching in front of the little girl, and then heard the conversation.

"Achen..."

He was already very close, but the half squatting boy seemed to be immersed in a small independent world, and he didn't find himself so close, and after calling him many times, all he saw was Cheng Lichen slowly looking up. Start with a pair of blank, unfocused eyes.

[six]
"Achen, Achen, Achen..."

Distant, tide-like voices echoed in the cochlea over and over again, and I don't know how long it took before I realized that someone was calling my name.The lax consciousness came back slowly, bit by bit.

Where are you?

Pale lights shone in the corridor.A large group of cold air hits the face.

Reflected in his pupils, Ji Nan was holding the bottle high in one hand, with the needle stuck in the other hand, shaking himself anxiously.

"Jinan, I'm sorry." Still said this sentence.

It was only a second of hesitation, and the boy with maroon eyes said very sincerely and sincerely: "Achen, I am very angry with you, but I forgive you." He did not say "I don't blame you at all" or "I understand how you feel" instead of "I'm mad at you" very truthfully.Those who know Ji Nan may be wondering why this manly man who likes to help others and is so sunny can do this. His mind is as broad as the sea, he never cares about everything, he thinks of others.You can't find the dark side in him, and you don't even understand why he can be so selfless.You can never be like him, so you can't help liking him, being attracted to him, wanting to be friends with him.

Ji Hao looked at his brother from the side, rubbed his eyes, and suddenly felt very proud.It's not the vain emotion of getting [-] points in the exam or clearing the most difficult game, but a real pride that fills the whole chest.

——My brother is really a great man, and he is the person I want to be in the future.

[seven]
The little girl, who was thinner than children of the same age, walked in front with ease.

Compared with the single ward where Ji Nan lived on the second floor, the large ward on the third floor looked crowded and dirty.

All kinds of voices can be heard, the sound of food chewing, coughing, and even a shrill female voice on the phone: "Do you want me to die early? My old lady will not take advantage of you black-hearted guy, we Just wait and see."

The boy stood in front of the door of the ward painted light green, his back was as stiff as an iron plate.

Ji Nan patted his shoulder lightly with the hand holding the needle.

The door was pushed open forcefully by the little girl.

A cramped world appeared in front of my eyes.

Six hospital beds in the shape of a "two" filled up the not-so-spacious space. In addition, the family members accompanying each bed brought folding camp beds, kettles, luggage bags filled with clothes, and piles of clothes. The fruit, facial tissue, and half-eaten bowl of noodles left on the simple bedside table, the whole space is like a dazzling white light, making people suddenly unable to open their eyes.

The exact time is six forty.

A sea of ​​white dust.

On the innermost hospital bed, a woman was lying alone, bowed and facing the wall. The white sheet covering her body was like a huge net.From where the boy was standing, all he could see was unkempt dry hair and a thin back.

The little girl had already passed quickly through the narrow aisle where toilet paper balls and disposable chopsticks were randomly discarded, and said hello to the family members of the patients in the same ward: "Hello, grandpa, uncle and aunt..."

"Well, you are so good, you went to buy food for your mother, right?" A middle-aged woman who was also tortured and deformed by life touched the little girl's head with callused hands, and asked pitifully, "Wrong?" Did you eat it by yourself?"

It's called "cuocuo". The pronunciation is very strange. The boy at the door didn't think of anything for a while, but he quickly associated this pronunciation with the word "wrong".

——It was a mistake that you came into this world.

The little girl had already walked to the hospital bed, and cautiously walked around to the side next to the wall. Seeing her mother's eyes wide open, she said softly, "Mom, you are awake. Let me tell you, brother Chen came to see me." is you."

Thinking that her mother would be very happy, the little girl showed a slight smile on her face, but that smile was scared back by Xu Meifeng's suddenly ferocious face.

Xu Meifeng grabbed her daughter's shoulders and pulled her closer to the hospital bed. Her face was distorted and she said sharply, "Did you tell him! How would he know! Where is he?"

(End of this chapter)