A Wave Of Desire

**Ben and Ryan's First Morning Together **

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Ocean

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All night I had been wondering how Ben and Ryan had fared for the night. I didn't exactly think that they were going to have sex their first night but, if they did, that was up to them. When Makai and I got up it was kind of late, but our two friends still weren't up yet. I wonder if they had a late night?

Breakfast was ready and on the table by the time the two of them came down, both looking a little more exhausted than I would have expected them to be.

"So, did you enjoy your night?" I asked them with a smile on my face, I was just happy to see that they were still on good terms with each other.

"It was a good night." Ryan grinned at me then at Ben.

"Stop making them think that things happened when they didn't." Ben snapped at him. "Nothing happened, OK! We just talked all night and kissed a little." He blushed when he said that.

"No one said something had to happen." I knitted my brows together and looked at him with confusion. "I am just happy that you two are still doing good. I am glad that you're together, I think you will be happy together." I was giving them all of my support.

"Yeah, you guys looked great together last night." Makai threw in his support. "Speaking of, Ryan, how did you enjoy that kiss you planted on Ben? It looked to me like you have been wanting to do that for a long time."

"Yeah, it was amazing. I didn't even realize until yesterday how much I actually love Ben. I never put two and two together. But the moment that I realized it I stopped wanting to hold back. It was like a dam burst inside of me and I just needed to be with him. I am so glad that he didn't push me away."

Well, I guess things are going well for now. That was good. I would hate for them to go through all of that and end up not being able to come together in the end. I guess my views on things have changed a lot since I met Makai. I wonder if that is a bad thing?

The four of us hung out all afternoon. I think that Ryan just wanted to spend some time alone with Ben where he didn't need to feel like he had to hide things. I worried for a moment if his dad would accept him being gay. The same with Ben's parents. I don't know their parents all that well so I don't know how they will take their sons being gay. That was something that we would all have to wait to find out.

I tried my best to push the thought out of my mind while the four of us played video games and snacked on food that Makai and I made. It was a pretty good, albeit typical, day for us. It was what the four of us did whenever we hung out together. I was glad to see that this part of everything hadn't changed. Honestly, that part was a huge relief.

**Telling The Folks**

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Ryan

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I was happy to have spent the night with Ben. This was different than how things had been during previous sleepovers. This time I held Ben in my arms and kissed him tenderly. This time I actually understood that I was in love with him and that I never wanted to be apart from him for any length of time. Even now, driving him home and then going back to my place, I felt the painful sting of the separation, and that was just me going practically right next door to him.

I did lean over and kiss him before he opened the door to get out. That had surprised him, but in a good way. I was happy to see that he returned the kiss, even taking the initiative to slip his tongue into my mouth and slide his hand up to cup my cheek. It was a deep, passionate, and perfect kiss. I had never thought that things would be this good this soon. But I was happy about it still.

After Ben left, I drove the couple of driveways over to my house. I swear I felt like I was high. If this was what love was like, then it was no wonder that people wanted it so bad. And nothing that I had ever felt for the girls I had liked before came anywhere near this. This was something special and amazing. This was something that I needed to preserve and be proud and happy about.

"What the hell has you in such a good mood?" I heard my dad's voice call out to me and I practically skipped into the house.

"I'm just happy, that's all."

"Yeah? Why?" My dad wasn't the most pleasant person in the world. Most people tended to misunderstand him because he was a little rough around the edges, but he was a really good guy once you got to know him.

"I'm just in love." I grinned at him.

"Really? Isn't that what you say about almost every new girl that you meet?" He chuckled at his own joke as he grinned at me.

"This is different, Dad. This is something real and serious." I watched his eyes go wide with shock. I don't think he ever thought that I would be serious about someone.

"Well, damn son, I guess I am happy for you. Who is the lucky person? You gotta bring your new special someone over to meet me." I couldn't help but smirk at him.

"You already know them." I was all giddy now, ready to tell him all about how Ben and I were together now.

"Who?" He tilted his head in confusion.

"Ben."

He didn't seem to understand what I had said for a minute. He narrowed his eyes, knitted his brows, and tilted his head, all of them were signs of confusion and I didn't know why. What was there to be confused about.

"Say that again." He told me, a slight undertone to his voice.

"I'm dating Ben. You know, my best friend. We realized recently that we actually love each other. It was just something that I couldn't deny any longer. And I have to say, it's an amazing feeling. I tell you Dad, I couldn't imagine my life without-."

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING?!"

There was no warning before he started to scream at me. His voice was full of anger and rage, his eyes were dark and menacing. My dad just looked scary overall. I normally wasn't afraid of my dad. He had a temper but he rarely took it out on me. This, though, was not something that I expected.

"What? What's wrong?" I took a step away from him as I saw spit fly from his mouth. He was breathing so heavily that he actually looked like a bull about to charge or something.

"ARE YOU FUCKING TELLING ME THAT I RAISED A FUCKING QUEER?! WHAT THE HELL IS THE MATTER WITH YOU, BOY?! I WILL NOT LET YOU DATE THAT BOY! HELL, YOU WILL BE LUCKY IF YOU EVER SEE HIM AGAIN, OR ANYONE! I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL BEAT YOUR ASS FOR THIS."

"You can't stop me. With all due respect, Dad, I am eighteen years old, and you can't tell me who I can and cannot date." My anger level was rising as well, but I kept it in check. I was doing my best to keep my breathing level and my voice calm. It was hard, but I was managing it somehow.

"Fine, if that is how you want to play this." He grinned at me like there was something that he had liked about my words. "I may not be able to make you break up with him, but I can kick your sorry ass out of my house. Pack your shit and go. I don't ever want to see your disgusting face ever again. Go stay with that faggot of yours. Get the fuck out of my house!"

He meant what he was saying. I knew that was true. He was advancing on me, and his fists were clenched. I didn't want to fight my dad right now. He had probably been drinking again which meant that he would not stop until he sobered up. I wasn't weak, but I wasn't about to fight my old man either.

"Fine." I said the word calmly. I didn't need him anyway. I had a trust fund from my grandmother and my car had been a gift to me from my grandmother, which also happened to be in her name. I didn't need my dad because he couldn't stop me from taking what was rightfully mine. Huh, I wonder what my mom will say when she gets home to find me gone for good? 

Yeah, I was planning to use my trust fund for college, but I had scholarships from swimming and I had gotten some for my grades as well. School wouldn't cost me so much that I couldn't survive on my own. I would make this work. I would rent a place or crash with a friend until I went off to school.

I stormed up the stairs and packed as much as I could into the duffel bag that had been in the back of my closet. I then took my small travel bag that I used for school trips and away meets and packed that as full as I could. I took clothes but I also took everything that was important to me. I probably wouldn't ever get the chance to come back here and get more of my things later. This was going to be my only chance.

After I grabbed everything that I needed, I raced down the stairs and out the front door. I needed to go, to get away. I hopped into my car and was about to shut the door when I heard the sound of another door slamming.

At first, I thought that my old man was coming out to chase me or something, but it hadn't come from my place, it came from Ben's. He was carrying bags that looked oddly similar to mine.

"Ben!" I called out to him and started the car. I was almost immediately at the end of his driveway and waiting for him to get in.

When Ben slid in I saw that he had tears on his face. Who had made my Ben cry?

"What happened?" I asked him as I leaned in to wipe a tear from his cheek.

"My dad saw me kissing you before I went inside. He brought it up and my mom flipped out."

"Really?" I never thought that his mom would do that. Then again, I never thought that my dad would kick me out either.

"Dad is going to try to calm her down, but for now I am not allowed in the house. What am I going to do, Ryan?" Ben looked at me with pleading eyes. He didn't have money at his disposal like I did. He actually worked part time to earn extra money.

"I guess you will join me. I was just kicked out as well."

"Your dad saw us kissing too?" He was confused for a minute.

"Nah, I told him that we were dating. I was just so happy that he asked why, and I didn't want to hide it so I told him. He kicked me out though, so now I am on my own.

"I'm sorry, Ryan. I've ruined everything." He was about to sob again.

"No, don't say that. I love you and you love me. That is all that matters. No one messed anything up."

"We have nowhere to go." There was desperation in his voice when he tried to deny my words.

"We can probably go back to Ocean and Kai's." I grinned as I thought about it. "There is no way they will tell us to leave."

"Yeah, you're right." There was a ghost of a smile on his lips.. That's what I wanted to see.