A Wave Of Desire

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Ocean

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"How the hell did all of this end up happening? How did it get to this point?"

"That's what I would like to know." I had only been talking to myself, I did not expect that someone would answer me. Especially not this someone.

"W..what are you doing here?" The words stuttered for a moment on their way out. I snapped my head up, causing myself more than a little bit of pain in the process. Now that I was looking toward the door, I was staring into the face of the last person that I wanted to see.

Looking at his cold, anger filled eyes made my heart just about stop and my blood run cold. I normally wouldn't be this afraid, but I had no other choice right now. I was laid up, without the ability to move too easily. I had a cast on my arm, bandages wrapped around my head from the surgery, and I had wraps around my chest from the broken rib. I was in no state whatsoever to be fending off this psychopath.

"Look at that, you're scared of me." Justin grinned and sauntered into the room. I don't know how he managed to get here, or how he managed to escape police custody, but I really wished that he wasn't here. Dammit.

To make matters even worse, just as Justin was walking into the room, he shut the door behind him. He was cutting off my only avenue for help. And yup, sure enough, there went the lock clicking into place. This really, really wasn't good. What was I going to do now? How was I going to make it out of here alive this time?

"I..I'm not scared of you, Justin. I just don't want anything to do with you."

"Yeah, sure, that's all that it is." He sneered at me as he came closer to me. "You're a pansy ass little fairy that is scared of me. I know what it is. I know how you are. You're a little fairy that wants it from every guy that you see. Isn't that right, Ocean?"

"Hell no!" I snapped at him, anger bubbling up inside of me. "There is only one guy that I want. He is the only reason that I am gay. I love him and I don't ever want anyone else. If it wasn't for him, then I would still be chasing women. That doesn't matter though, because I have him now. I don't want you. I don't want any other man. Just Makai, just my.. my boyfriend."

"Just him, huh? No one else? What, is no one else good enough? Am I not good enough? I mean, what would it matter to you as long as you were being fucked, right. That's all that you want. That's all that a little fucking fairy like yourself wants." Justin looked crazed. Something was seriously wrong with him. I didn't know what it was, but I knew that he was not himself. This wasn't the Justin that I used to know. 

"No, Justin, that's not all that I want. You don't know anything about me. You don't know what it is that I want or what I need, none of it. So just leave me alone." I was raising my voice, hoping that someone would hear me, that someone would come and open the door.

"I know. I know exactly what it is that you need, Ocean. And I'm going to give it to you."

Before I could respond, or resist, Justin leapt at me and pushed me down on the bed. My head slammed down onto the pillow with such force that I cried out from all the pain that I felt. I also felt his hand clamp down on my wrist with enough force to instantly bruise it. Honestly, it almost felt like he was trying to break my wrist.

The moment that Justin's upper body slammed into my chest, I felt the screaming pain from my broken rib. The pressure of his body, the weight of it, was pressing down on me and causing the pain to be intensified nonstop.

"Ahh! GAHH!" I cried out as I tried to get Justin off of me. The problem was, I was still weakened from the earlier attack, the unconsciousness, and the surgery. Dammit, I had barely even been awake, and here I was being attacked by the same psychopath again.

"I'm going to give you what you want, Ocean. I heard you begging for it. You begged me for it every time that you invaded my dreams. Every time that I heard your voice. Every single time that I remembered the way you sang to me. I heard the way you begged me for it."

"I didn't, Justin. I swear I didn't. Get off of me. Leave me alone."

"No!" He yelled right into my face. "You made me this way. I wasn't gay. I didn't want men. I never once thought about this until you started begging me for this. Now, it's all that I can think about. It's all that's been in my head. I hate you for this, Ocean. I hope you know that. I hate you for this and I will never forgive you." He looked like he was on the verge of tears, but he was so angry as well. "I'm going to give you what you've been begging me for. I'm going to give it to you to make the desire stop. I don't want to want you. I don't want to be with you, but I can't help myself. I can't get you out of my head. Not since I heard you singing. So take it, Ocean. Take it and make it stop."

Justin seemed like nothing more than a crazed lunatic with how he was talking, but his words gave me pause. What was he saying? He couldn't get me out of his head? He blamed me because he heard me singing and now this is what is happening. What is he talking about?

I tried to think about it but that was when Justin pressed his lips to mine and forced his tongue into my mouth. The revulsion hit me then. It was full of anger, disgust, and revulsion. I didn't want Justin kissing me, I didn't want him touching me.

But I had to wonder about something. Was all of this actually my fault? Had Justin actually heard me singing and then became crazy like this? Did it just get worse and worse over time after that? Was that what had happened here?

I remember that Makai told me that my voice was captivating. My family loved my voice as well. But nothing ever happened to Makai or my family when they heard me. However, they already loved me. They might not be affected by it.

Was all of this happening to me because I am a Siren? Did.. Did I sing without remembering it and cast some sort of Siren song spell on Justin? Am I truly the one to blame for all of this?

I..if that were to be the case, then… then Justin would be just as much of an innocent victim in this as I was. Actually, he would be more innocent than me. Because, if I truly was the one to bespell him, then this is truly all my fault. Even if I didn't mean to do it, it's still my fault.

With enough effort and a lot of struggling, I finally managed to push Justin away from me. Finally, I could draw a breath and say something to him. Despite that fact, Justin was still trying to press his lips to mine.

"Wait, Justin, just wait." I tried to make him stop, to make him listen to me.

"No. I won't wait. I won't stop. I need to make this feeling go away." He was yanking at the hospital gown that I was wearing and his hand was sliding down the front of my body. I felt him glide across my naked crotch, shifting the catheter that was still inside of me and that, aside from disgusting me, hurt like hell.

"STOP!" I yell at him. Justin's hand didn't stop though, he just went lower until his hand cupped my balls and squeezed with a firm pressure.

"I can't stop. I have to make it go away."

How was I going to make him stop this? What could I do? What could I say to him to release him from this spell?

"I release you, Justin. I don't want you in my power anymore." He wasn't stopping. His mouth had found its way to my neck, and he was kissing and biting at me. "Stop!" I nearly cried the words, not wanting to experience this anymore.

If just telling him that I released him wasn't enough, then what was I going to do? What options did I have? I had to think. I needed to figure this out, and quick.

I had gotten us into this mess with my singing, maybe singing would get us out of it. 

" ♪- Stop this now. Neither of us want this. Stop this, please." Finally, I was getting through to Justin. He pulled back from me, sitting on his knees as he just looked at me. That also happened to be when I heard someone pounding on the door outside. Had they been there the whole time and I just didn't notice? It was possible. I was a little distracted. Still, I needed to keep going. I needed to release Justin from my Siren song. " ♪- Stop this, please. I don't want it any more than you do. Put me at ease. Get down and move away from me. Listen to my pleas. Listen to my voice. I want you to forget about this, please. I know you had no choice."

I was making up the lyrics on the spot, but they were working. When I asked Justin to get off of me and move away, he did. This was coming along nicely, if I do say so myself.

" ♪- I release you, Justin, I don't want this anymore. I release you Justin, my spell shouldn't be what you live for."

I watched as Justin's eyes clouded over for a second before he seemed to slump to the ground. He looked like he was lost and didn't know where he was. 

"I..i..it's over." He looked and sounded so relieved. "It's finally over." There was nothing less than pure joy in his eyes right then. "Thank you. Thank you, Ocean. Thank you for making it stop."

He looked at me then, his eyes so full of relief, and it was like he finally just looked at me for the first time. I watched as he took in the state that I was in. The torn gown, my exposed body, and most of all, all the injuries that I had sustained.

"Oh, God. I can't believe I hurt you like that. I'm so sorry, Ocean. I'm so sorry." He looked like someone had just destroyed his whole world. And that someone was me. "Please, Ocean, forgive me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry.. I'm so very sorry."