A Wave Of Desire

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Ocean

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I couldn't believe what Makai was telling me. He wanted to leave. He wanted to go home. Why? For what reason? What possible fucking excuse could he have for running away like that?

I'll tell you why? I know what his fucking reason is. He didn't want to be stuck in a room with me for the weekend. He didn't want to have to be in the same room as his new girlfriend's ex.

He probably thought that fucking tramp would be pissed if she found out about him being anywhere near me. Knowing that two faced piece of rotting cunt sludge she probably would be furious. Why the fuck should I care though? It's not like I wanted to be anywhere near Makai anyway. I couldn't care less what he did or didn't do or where he fucking went. But he better not be running home before the goddamn swim meet. I don't care if I win every race or not. What was most important was our school winning. I know most people go into swimming because it's more of an individual sport and not as much team oriented, but I still want our school to win. Whoever it was that finished first.

In my anger I had ended up storming out of the room and down the hall to the stairs. I needed to take a walk to cool my head and calm down. I shouldn't have yelled at him. I shouldn't have let it bother me so much.

I don't know why I got so emotional. The whole forsaking the school thing aside it really didn't matter to me did it? He could do as he pleased. And what the hell did he mean when he said that me winning is what matters most? That's fucking crazy. Doesn't he want to win? Isn't he trying to be the best all the time?

I just didn't know what to do when it came to Makai anymore. I found myself sitting on a bench outside of the hotel trying to think. The thoughts that went through my head were confusing me. It was like I wanted to be with Makai.

Wait, no! That sounded wrong. Not with him with him, nothing like that. Just, you know, to be friends with him and hang out with him. I haven't really given the guy a proper chance at all. I need to give him a shot though, right? I needed to see what he was all about. Who knows, he could end up being a really good friend of mine in the future.

I thought about the possibilities that a friendship with Makai could offer. Training with each other. Helping each other do stretches so that we didn't cramp up after swimming. Going to the beach to talk. Rubbing some sunscreen on each other since we were both pale and didn't want to burn.

Thinking about smoothing lotion across Makai's toned, athletic body was making me remember my dream from that night on the beach. The Makai from my dream had been so nice. That Makai only wanted to be friends with me. He didn't want Brittney at all. Why couldn't that be real?

I heard someone walking toward me but I didn't know who it was nor did I care. I just tried to stay lost in my thoughts as I fantasized about possible futures. And I still couldn't stop thinking about that kiss from that dream either. It wasn't just what we talked about that had been stuck in my mind. That kiss seemed so vivid and real. Why would I have a dream where I pulled Makai in for a kiss like that? I had barely kissed Brittney like that for crying out loud.

Whoever it was that was walking toward me sat next to me on the bench and pulled me out of my thoughts. I'm glad that I hadn't gotten too excited from my thoughts because when I looked up I saw that it was Ryan who had sat next to me.

"Hey, Ocean, didn't expect to see you out here." I saw that Ryan had a bag from the store out front and was probably just heading back to his room with his load of snacks and drinks that he would binge over the next two days.

"Yeah, I just needed to get some fresh air." I tried not to show what it was that I was really feeling.

"Hey, you're bunking with Kai, right?" He was pulling out his phone as he was talking. "I just got a video sent to me today that I have to show you. It's fucking hilarious man, I am not kidding. It's the funniest thing that I have seen in a long damn time."

I watched as he pulled up a video that was in his messages and started it playing. He angled the screen toward me so that I could watch it. The volume was already turned up as well so I was able to hear the video as soon as it started playing.

The video opened up on a scene outside of that little restaurant downtown that I liked. It was the one with the outdoor seating along the side and front. Whoever was filming had obviously wanted to record what was happening because they thought that this scene was going to play out differently. Sitting at the table in the video were Makai and Brittney. I immediately thought it was probably their first date but the words didn't match up with that.

"Do you want to know who I am interested in now?" Brittney was putting a lot of her effort into being flirty as she said that.

"Not really." Makai looked like he was ignoring her and eating his food.

"It's you, silly." Brittney giggled girlishly and I just wanted to vomit. How did I ever like that shit?

"Not interested." He really was ignoring her.

"Haha, that's funny. I am always with the best swimmer in the entire school, and that's you. You're so amazing and wonderful." She was trying to flatter him and luring him in.

"Again, I'm not interested."

"What do you mean you're not interested?" Brittney was pissed off now. "I am always the one guys like you want."

"Then you've never met a guy like me before." There was anger in Makai's voice as he snapped at her. "What kind of low life breaks up with their boyfriend because he didn't win the race at a swim meet? What kind of trashy bitch would not only do that but do it while that boyfriend is at the hospital recovering from being sick and injured. That just makes you pure trash." Makai had gotten to his feet while he was yelling at her. After he called her pure trash he just turned around and walked away. From what the video showed he never looked back.

"Man, Britt got burned." Whoever was recording was laughing while he was holding the phone. "Serves that fucking bitch right if you ask me."

I was in shock as the video ended. I couldn't believe that. That was not what I expected at all.

"I thought they were dating? What's with this?" I know that my eyes were wide with shock as I said that.

"No man. Like I tried to tell you before. I saw them but it looked like they were fighting. They're not together at all. I didn't know that he had called her trash, that was fucking epic and spot on in my opinion. Kai is a pretty cool guy if you ask me. I mean, did you see how he was basically sticking up for you?"

"Yeah." I was having a hard time comprehending this right now.

"He's a true friend to you, Ocean. Don't know how you earned that already when you have been an asshole most of these past few weeks. Still, Kai is loyal to the team don't you think?"

"Yeah, he must be."

"Alright man, I'm heading back. You should go too. Coach said the pizza was going to be here soon."

After that Ryan got up and walked back into the building. I was still frozen in shock. It was like my mind was trying to fit all of this new information into what I thought I already knew. I didn't understand this at all. Why did Makai want to leave if he was standing up for me? Why did he act like he was mad at me for some reason? None of this made any sense to me at all.

I tried to contemplate it all while I walked back toward my room. At the time, I wasn't even nervous about the fact that I was going back to the room with Makai. I was way too distracted by what I had just seen to be thinking clearly. My mind was nothing but a tangled mess of mixed up thoughts and emotions.. I didn't know what Makai was truly thinking or feeling anymore than I knew what it was that I was truly thinking and feeling about him.