A Wave Of Desire

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Ocean

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I was still in a daze, sitting there on the bench as I watched the night sky. What the hell was going on? Why had I been led to believe that Makai was dating Brittney? Why hadn't someone told me the truth sooner? How come I had been misled?

Well, to be honest, I hadn't really let anyone tell me otherwise. Every time that anyone brought up Brittney or Makai I stopped listening. At first I thought it was because I was jealous and hurt because of Brittney. But, was that really it? Was that the true reason behind it? I didn't know anymore.

What I did know was that I was confused. I had not expected to see that video. I had not planned on having my view on the whole situation flipped on its head. And this just made everything that Makai said tonight that much more confusing.

Why was he going to leave if it wasn't for Brittney? Why was he willing to leave and not compete tomorrow if it wasn't because he thought someone was going to be upset with him for being anywhere near me? Wasn't that what he had been talking about earlier? Didn't he say something about him not being around me was all that mattered?

Maybe I had been right all along and he truly did hate me, he just knows how to hide it from most people. Maybe he was working on that issue and was doing his best to get along with me but didn't want to be forced into close proximity with me.

"GAH!" I grabbed my head and screamed my frustration into the night as I tried to stop the round and round that seemed to go on inside my head constantly. "What the hell?!" I yelled out again and inadvertently startled the four delivery drivers that were walking toward the hotel's entrance. "Sorry. I wasn't talking to you, just myself." I was embarrassed as they looked at me with angry and confused looks. I had fucked that up. Thankfully, they didn't have to know that I was on the receiving end of one of the pizzas they were carrying. I guess Ryan had been right, the pizza was almost here.

After the delivery drivers stopped staring at me and finished walking into the building I got up and went inside as well. I decided to take the stairs instead of the elevator, no need to ride along with them and make them more uncomfortable than I already had.

I climbed the stairs up past the second floor and straight to the third floor. When I made it to the door to the hallway, which was almost right next to the room I was sharing with Makai, I slipped out silently and went to head inside. That was when I realized that I had another problem.

I didn't have my room key and the pizza delivery people were already knocking on Coach Dickson's door.

"Shit." I whispered as I tried to gather the courage to knock on my door. I didn't know if I could bring myself to do it. I didn't know if I could manage to knock on the door and have Makai come face to face with me right now.

With my hand raised and my time running out I needed to make a decision. I was either going to be standing here when Coach Dickson and the delivery drivers filed down here to make their delivery to my room or I was going to force my hand forward and ask Makai to let me in.

The decision was a tough one to make. I never thought it would be this hard to work up the courage for something so stupidly simple. But it was. It was the hardest thing I could ever remember doing in my entire life.

The decision was taken from me though. With my mind still not made up, the door in front of me swung open. I wasn't prepared to see Makai as he looked up and jumped in shock when he saw me. 

"Oh, you're here." He didn't look happy at the moment. "I was coming to find you since I know that Coach will be here soon with the food. I didn't want you to miss out or get in trouble."

"I...I uh, I was on m...my way b...back." I looked down at the floor sheepishly, unable to look him in the eyes any longer. "I s..s..saw the delivery drivers show up s..s..so I, uh, I..I knew that I had to head b..b..back up here." I couldn't believe that I was stuttering so much right now.

"Oh, well that's good. Why were you standing out here? Why didn't you knock? Or you could have used your key."

"I..I..I forgot my k..key." I felt myself blush as I avoided his eyes and concentrated on my words. "I..I uhm, k..kind of left in a h..hurry and forgot to t..take it w..with me." Concentrating didn't help me much at all. I was still stuttering.

"Why are you nervous right now?" My head shot up then, shock exploding inside of me as Makai asked me that. I could also hear the coach and the pizza guys coming down the hall, getting steadily closer.

"I..I..I kind of emb..embarrassed m..myself in front of the p..p..pizza guys." I looked over my shoulder as they stopped at the door halfway between ours and the coach's.

"OK, well that sounds like it might be an interesting story. Why don't you get in here so they don't see you in here and we don't have to worry about any of you causing a big scene."

"I..I wouldn't cause a scene." In my anger I managed to only stutter once that time. At least I could control it sometimes.

"Fine, whatever, just get in here." I watched as Makai grinned and stepped aside so I could come into the room.

It felt weird, walking past Makai. We were very close, too close, as I passed by him. I could feel the heat coming off of him. I could smell his cologne, though I thought it seemed unique for someone to be wearing a cologne that smelled like that. He smelled like oranges and vanilla, it was different but I really liked it.

I could even smell the slight minty scent of his mouthwash as he exhaled toward me. It was a lot more than I had expected at the moment. I don't know what it was that I was thinking or what it was that my body was doing but the smells were very arousing. They tightened things in my body that I didn't expect.

It's just the scents, that's all. Nothing else. It was just the way that he smelled that intrigued me. It wasn't that I was attracted to him like that at all. There was absolutely no way that it was like that. I was not into him, I was just intrigued. I was not gay at all. Nope, fully into girls here.