Autodoll wa Kuchita Sekai de Yume wo Miru

Lydia, while waited for Yuuyami, wanted to made the world inside her dream beautiful.
At present, there was nothing in that dream world.
Mere infinite space was spreading in all directions. Same as iris dream, that she had the other day. A pale-pink room with size of universe.

“Both, sky and earth, uh-huh.”

She muttered and pictured it in her head.
Lydia now was in a lucid dream. In that kind of dream, the one able to comprehend that they dreamed.
Thus, one could manipulate their dream to some degree.
Instantaneously, world was completed just as Lydia imagined.
In refreshing sky blue a white clouds were like cotton candies. Well, next step – a withered land.

“If it’s the same as outside, wouldn’t it be a little lonely?”

She used her imagination again.
Since she directly linked to creation, field of flowers, in extent as far as eye could see, was completed.
Countless irises were blooming on the ground with size of universe.
With nod “Uh-huh” Lydia laid down.
She thought, that if she was in reality she would’ve suffocated from smell of these flowers.
A few seconds passed as she waited.
Virtual Yuuyami, that Lydia had prepared in advance, have projected.
She approached ー Lydia rapidly stood up and launch​ed a big smile.
Yuuyami, caught by surprise, shoot her eyes open, however, it took a long time for her to do so.

“Ah…ah…”

Yuuyami tried to spread both of her arms, nevertheless the movement was sluggish.
There shouldn’t be issues with connection. Lydia wondered if problem was that Yuuyami haven’t actually boot up.
Even so, that didn’t matter.

“Welcome to my dream.”

Thereupon, Lydia smiled again.

“Th…nk…ah.”

Yuuyami, with utmost effort, tried to say something.
Nevertheless, the words weren’t come out properly.
Lydia put her index finger on her lips and said: “Shhh.”
Seeing the movement, Yuuyami closed her mouth.

“It’s been a long time. Even so, Yuuyami hasn’t started up properly hitherto, you understand what I’m saying?”

Lydia tilted her head.
Yuuyami nodded slowly.

“If it’s true, I’m glad. After this, I’m going to startup Yuuyami, however I’m going to give you advise, in order for you to not to break, Yuuyami. Is this okay?”

After Lydia asked, Yuuyami nodded again.

“First of all, it’s not just emotions which Yuuyami can’t handle.”

Yuuyami tilted her head slightly.

“Likewise you didn’t understand it. Consequently, you fell down.” Lydia laughed a little. “Right? The emotions born in Yuuyami are love. Thus, what you couldn’t handle was urge which accompanies the love.”

Yuuyami didn’t move, with her head as yet tilted.

“Although it’s my conjecture​, I don’t think it’s incorrect. I realised my love when I kissed Yuuyami. And then, perhaps, Yuuyami also recognised her loved to me at that moment.”

Yuuyami slightly nodded.

“Uh-huh. And after that, in Yuuyami must have been born a various impetuses.”

Such as strangle someone until they would be on verge of death, however Lydia didn’t said that.

“Perhaps, the impulse was full of contradictions. I like her, I want to hug her tightly, with all might and main. However, if that’s going to be done, she’ll break. Even so, I want to do that. Perchance, there could’ve been a desire to break me.”

Yuuyami blinked slowly. Lydia, just like that, wholly perceived a meaning of her behaviour.

“And Yuuyami tried to control that impetus, however couldn’t. That’s right, Yuuyami. Because even humans couldn’t control it properly.”

Lydia made one step forth, to approach Yuuyami.
And took a deep breath.

“Well then, the conclusion. Entrust yourself to that urge.”

When Lydia said so, Yuuyami tried to open her mouth.

“No.”

Lydia put her index finger on Yuuyami’s lips.

“No objection. Believe me. Accept the impulse. Don’t resist. You can do everything you want to do, Yuuyami. We are inside of the dream, so I won’t break. Therefore, you can show me your love.”

Lydia smiled and moved her finger away.

“If you understood, nod once.”

However, Yuuyami didn’t nod.
Lydia sighed.

“You’re scared, right? I understand. Nevertheless, I will be alright, it’s truth. Do you not believe me?”

Yuuyami turned her head to the right and then to the left.

“Uh-huh. Will that be alright? I’ll listen.”
“…hing…e…ight?”

Lydia stood on tiptoe and reached her hand out. And then, stroked head of Yuuyami.

“Everything will be.”

A line that Yuuyami told Lydia the other day.

“Nod, if you understood. After that, I’ll reboot you.”

This time, Yuuyami nodded.
Lydia separate her hands from Yuuyami’s head, and raised three fingers.
First bended, second.
One more, the index finger.
And then, she also bend index finger.
At that moment, body of Yuuyami leapt backwards.

“UwaaaaaA!”

Yuuyami groaned painfully.

“Don’t resist. Accept your fears. Accept your urge.”

Lydia opened her arms,
The following instant,
Yuuyami embraced Lydia.
If they were in real world, Lydia would have been already dead. With that kind of power, Yuuyami hugged Lydia.

“I’m sorry, Lydia. I’m so sorry.”
“I’m fine. I’m totally fine. So don’t apologize. Do what you want.”
“I, almost, murdered, Lydia.”
“Yet, I’m alive. There’s no problem.”
“I’m not able to control myself.”

Yuuyami put even more strength. If it wasn’t a dream, Lydia’s bones would’ve been smashed and her internal organs broke.

“You don’t have to. I’m alright.”

Lydia made a tone as gentle as she could.

“Thank you very much. I wanted to hug Lydia with all my strength.”
“Uh-huh. I’m glad.”
“It doesn’t hurt? Is it painful?”
“I’m alright. Since this is a dream.”

Lydia lied.
However, in order for her to not realise, she gently answered so.

“It’s good. Then…”
“Then?”
“I want to kiss.”
“Alright. I want to do it either.”

Lydia smiled when she said that.

◇

Rapha was always monitoring situation of the two.
Events from the Dream Server also were showing on display in ３D graphics.
Accordingly, simultaneously​ with reboot, she found out that Yuuyami hugged Lydia.
At that moment,

“Does it painful!?”

a warning appeared on the display, which indicated Lydia’s vital and brain conditions.

“Why!? The dream so realistic!?”

Rapha promptly typed a command for forced termination.
However, clasped fingers, that were about to run on holographic keyboard.
Wait until the last moment ー Lydia’s words were repeating over and over in Rapha’s head.

“Onee-chama… what was that, the last moment?”

You wouldn’t die in a dream. There wouldn’t be problems with her body, it was just an illusion of pain.
However,

“These values, it must be painful to death…”

no one would blame her for screaming and crying. That was the level of pain.
However, as Rapha was monitoring, in the Dream Server Lydia behaved very calm.
For that reason, Rapha desisted from forced terminating.
If Lydia was crying, she would put an end to it without hesitation.
And then,
３D Yuuyami draw her face close to ３D Lydia and overlapped each other.

“What is it? Did she headbutting her?”

However, it wasn’t a pain, that Lydia’s brain had an illusion of, but pleasure.
Reading it numerically, Rapha came to comprehend what they were doing.
Concluding it with an instant dyeing in bright red the face of Rapha.

“Ki, kikiki, kiki, kiss!?”

◇

Yuuyami felt as her mind has calmed down.
The emotions runaway, the impetus to break her, now withdrawn as a lie.
That what it mean, to accept your own feelings.
The more you repudiate a dread, the greater it spread.
The more you opposite your emotions, the larger impetus would become.
And finally, the more you struggle to control it, the more your feelings will entangle and mess up, when, in conclusion, there wouldn’t be another choice but to fall or die.
Into that spiral, Yuuyami has fell.
Yuuyami quickly let go of Lydia, who she was yet hugging.

“Are you alright?” Asked Lydia.
“Yes. Thank you, very much. I’m feeling normal.”
“I’m glad.”

Lydia exhaled in a large manner.

“I wish I had accepted it earlier.”

When Yuuyami said so, Lydia nodded.

“That’s right, however in the real world, if Yuuyami entrust herself to impetus, I’ll die. Therefore, it will be fine here.”
“In a dream?”
“Right. Yuuyami’s dream. My dream.”
“I never thought that I, an Autodoll, someday would dream.”
“That’s a reason why the world is fascinating.”

Lydia laughed.
Yuuyami considered Lydia as the one who fascinating, not the world.
She couldn’t have imagine to receive the help in such a method.

“Apropos.”

Yuuyami inspected her body.
Moved her limbs, bend waist.

“Hmm?”
“This body…”
“Ah, er, it’s a container I made, so that you wouldn’t get confused in my dream.”
“Right, I could have predicted that.”
“Uh-huh.”
“However, the chest is one size larger.”

Yuuyami declared during touching her bosom with both hands.
It wasn’t uncomfortable, nevertheless she was a little worried.

“Aah, that’s.” Lydia nodded. “For now, take your hands off it.”
“Like this?”

Yuuyami did exactly what she was told.

“Yes. The size of your breasts is a little bigger”
“A little?” Yuuyami tilted her head.
“because I did that.”

Lydia ignored the question Yuuyami.
And then, she embraced her tightly, while burying a visage in Yuuyami’s bosom.

“I see.”

Yuuyami gently hugged Lydia. After that, caressed her head and said these words.

“I’m truly, truly grateful to you, for what you did.”
“It’s all right. I will continue to help you again and again.”

For a while, the two were silent, it felt as if time had stopped.
And even if it really stopped, surely neither of them would care.
Yuuyami missed the sensation of Lydia,
while Lydia was also yearning to feel Yuuyami.
After eventually,
a few words
were spoken by Yuuyami.

“I love you, Lydia.”

A new, wonderful emotion.

“Me either, Yuuyami.”

After Lydia replied, silence fell between them again.
Any further words were unnecessary.