This thing about me becoming a girl

Sawamura Mariko didn't know that Kitajima Crow had chosen to end her life, but now that she knew it, and thinking about the time, she naturally understood the reason for her suicide.

During the symposium, when my father attended and spoke on the stage as the parent of an outstanding student, I wondered how the students from Bei Dao in the audience felt...

Sawamura Mari Aoi lowered her head, thinking of her running away in embarrassment after knocking down in the stairwell after the symposium.

It must be hard, seeing the shadow of my own and my mother's fear is someone else's gentle father... It must be hard, otherwise I wouldn't have chosen to commit suicide.

At this moment, Sawamura Mari Aoi had extremely complicated feelings towards Uesugi again. She couldn't tell whether it was blame or remorse, but in short, she hated herself very much.

Knowing that Kitajima Crow committed suicide because of himself, this kind of harm to the mother and daughter has never stopped, and the feeling that she is still harming the mother and daughter even if she doesn't know it has deepened the pain of Mari Aoi Sawamura.

From the very beginning, Uesugi’s death and abandonment of emotions were just a denial of her beliefs, but what really negated and distorted her own sense of justice was the suffering suffered by the mother and daughter.

Because she thought, if she knew everything before all this happened, would she attack Shang Shanmu?

She didn't have an answer, and while justice and faith withered, she also blamed herself for the harm to the innocent mother and daughter, so she suffered.

This also made Sawamura Mariko understand that the justice she has insisted on for many years is false, not because it was taught by Uesugi, but because she herself cannot achieve justice, she just puts on a shell of justice and acts Seeing things that seem to be just, are inherently false, and when encountering something that really needs justice to save, the vulnerable shell will be directly smashed.

She has never had justice, whether it is the way to know justice or what she has always insisted on, it is the same.

Sawamura Mari Aoi suddenly remembered what Kitajima Crow said.

At that time, what Bei Dao-san said about the defective paintings that were not emotionally invested was probably about herself...

Bei Dao, you may have noticed it from the very beginning...

Sawamura Mari Aoi didn't know what to think, but suddenly felt that she deserved it.

In fact, I have no right to feel pain at all, and these are not even a big deal, after all, people who are really in pain have never said anything.

Sawamura Mari Aoi suddenly calmed down, but hid the pain in her heart.

Nanako Morishita also saw her abnormality and said.

"Little Truth Aoi, I'm not telling you this to make you feel sorry for Little Bei Dao. I just want to say that what happened can no longer be changed, and all we can do is move forward."

With a gentle smile, she placed another gift box in Sawamura Mari Aoi's hand.

"Ah~ I'm so sorry, the teacher will have something to do later, so can I trouble Aoi to pass the gift to Xiaobei Dao? Please!"

After she finished speaking, she patted the head of the person in front of her lightly.

"Don't trap yourself in the past, go forward bravely, this is what everyone who cares about you wants to see."

To Nanako Morishita's gentle words, Mari Aoi Sawamura did not answer, she just looked at the small and exquisite gift box in her hand, and remained silent.

Whether it's mother, grandfather, aunt, or the current Morishita-sensei, why do you say don't care about the past...

Shouldn't I really care... I can't turn back no matter what.

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The fine rain continued to fall from the sky, and Bei Daoya rode the tram back to the apartment, watching the changing scenery outside the window.

Bei Daojiu got off work early today, and was already home waiting for Bei Daoya to come back.

After replying to Bei Daojiu's short message, Bei Daoya still sees through the thin rain curtain outside the window.

I just hope that the night of the fireworks festival will not rain.

The tram arrived soon, and Bei Daoya got off the bus and walked back to the apartment after walking for a while.

"I'm home, Mom," she said as she took off her shoes.

And Bei Daojiu poked his head out from the kitchen, speaking in a voice that could not help expressing his inner excitement with a high pitch and a low pitch.

"Welcome! Welcome~back! Home~!"

Then she said: "Is the little crow hungry! Mom can prepare to cook immediately!"

Bei Dao Ya glanced at the time, and it was only four o'clock.

"It's still early, Mom."

Bei Daoya said so, put on his slippers, and walked into the house.

Bei Daojiu felt the same when he heard the words, it was still early now, and if the little crow was hungry again after eating at night, it would not be able to grow meat, so he decided to wait.

She nodded: "Then just wait, Little Crow will watch TV first."

After speaking, she seemed to remember something, and ran to the bathroom excitedly.

Bei Dao Ya sighed, knowing that she went to try on the bathrobe again and turned around in front of the mirror.

Mom is really looking forward to the firework festival.

Bei Daoya took out the bento box from the shoulder bag and prepared to wash it now, otherwise her mother would never allow her to do it if she saw it.

After her left hand was injured, Bei Daojiu loved her so much that she really wanted to keep it in her mouth for the rest of her life, and didn't want her to suffer any pain.

Bei Dao Ya carefully removed the bandage and put it aside, cleaning the bento box.

The penetrating wound on the left hand has healed, but as the doctor said, in daily life, Bei Dao Ya can really feel the impact of the frequent dysfunction of the left hand.

The simplest thing is often sudden weakness, even when holding a book, it will suddenly become soft and the book will fall to the ground, let alone do any physical work with the left hand.

But luckily not all the time, just sometimes.

After washing the bento box, Bei Dao Ya rewrapped the bandage and returned to the living room.

At this time, the sound of meowing sounded, it was the white flour and grapes that had been almost forgotten!

The two cats were around Bei Dao Crow's legs, Bai Mian was quieter and gentler, just rubbing his head against his legs, while Putao was eager to jump up.

Putao has been three months old. At this normal age, she weighs about two or three catties. She weighs seven catties, and her body shape is almost as good as her mother's. She is too fat.

As always, Bei Daojiu insists that as long as there is more meat, it will be good. As long as the grapes are eaten, she will feed them vigorously. Fortunately, Bei Daojiu has been paying attention, so she didn't let her eat too much. After all, the kitten is Not feeling full.

And I took her to a pet hospital once, and after no abnormalities were found in the body caused by the fat, the North Island crow didn't care about her weight anymore.

Putao wanted to jump up, but because the North Island Crow was wearing a skirt, she didn't move for a long time. After all, after she scratched the North Island Crow's leg, she was severely taught by Bei Daojiu, so she has a long memory .

Bei Dao Ya filled their cat bowls with cat food, and then turned on the TV.

And Bei Daojiu turned around excitedly in the mirror for a while in the bathroom, and then came out to prepare dinner.

She was very excited, or rather excited for a while, especially excited, radiant, and never stopped.

For this, Bei Daoya only thought that he was looking forward to the fireworks festival, but besides that, there was actually another reason.

After all, it will be September 9 soon.

Bei Daojiu sneaked a peek at Bei Daoya, and Xiaoya didn't seem to realize it. This is great, and she can prepare for surprises with peace of mind.

Maybe the little crow will kiss me when he is happy!Little Crow hasn't kissed me for a long time!pity!

A silly smile appeared on her face again.

Dinner was ready, Bei Dao Jiu couldn't hold back his silly smile several times at the dinner table.

A dinner passed like this, and Bei Dao Jiu brought out a hot water basin.

As usual, he applied hot compresses to Bei Daoya's right waist every day.

In fact, Bei Dao Crow's ribs have healed, so there is no need for hot compresses, but Bei Dao Jiu still insists on it every day.

According to her words, it is necessary to recover to be perfect, healthy and healthy.

Bei Dao Ya lay on his side on the sofa, lifted up his clothes, revealing his smooth and slender waist.

And Bei Daojiu was seriously changing the towel and applying heat.

Time passed like this, getting later and later, and soon it was late at night, and the city fell into a deep sleep.

The Bei Dao Crow on the floor felt the movement, slowly opened his eyes, gently lifted the quilt, and looked at the blushing Bei Dao Jiu curled up in his arms, who was already sound asleep.

She still couldn't get rid of the habit of drilling the machine.

Bei Dao Ya smiled, then pressed his forehead against hers, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

The day in the Beidao apartment was so ordinary and warm.

218. Super Super Big University Bully

Perhaps it was because of the early morning after the baptism of the rainy night, today's sky is particularly bright, and the blue is so clear that it seems that you can't see the edge at a glance.

In group B of the second grade of Zhichun Senior High School, during the spare time after class, many girls crowded together in the aisle, looking up at the score sheet posted on the inner wall, laughing and chatting constantly, and the whole atmosphere was filled with youth and enthusiasm. All kinds of good smells mixed together.

Perhaps this scene was photographed and posted on the Internet, which is the ideal paradise for many people.

Today is the time to post the score sheet of the final exam at the end of last semester. Everyone has already known their scores. Now they are just looking at the rankings, and some people are making the last expectation. Ranked and such.

After all, this is a multi-school joint exam, and the deviation value obtained is taken from all the students who participated in this joint exam.

The gold content is very high.

The result this time also represents your status among all the students in the joint entrance examination of more than a dozen colleges and universities.

There were constant exclamations from the crowd.

In the classroom of Group B of the second year, Bei Daoya looked at the textbook in his hand, with a calm face, as if thinking, and did not pay much attention to the movement of the outside world.

In the classroom, there are many people watching her secretly. Although this is not a rare thing, special people always attract attention, but today, the eyes of those observing her are different from the past, with stars shining in their eyes , as if saying it's amazing~

Because this time is a multi-school joint examination, it is not only taken from the sum of students in one's own school as in the past, but is taken from the sophomore students of more than a dozen famous schools, so probably except for the national unified examination, it is the joint test this time. The test has the highest gold content.

But on the score sheet posted this time, there were only seven students with a deviation of 70 or more in Zhichun's second grade department.

And the North Island crow is one of them.

Zhichun ranked 4th, with a deviation of 77.8.

How to describe it, it is probably the top 0.15 of all the candidates this time, which is already the level of a super super university bully.

In fact, if it was just good grades, the eyes of these girls would not be so curious, but after all, although Bei Daoya's grades in the past were not bad, they were definitely not much better. Occasionally, the school could squeeze into the top [-] in the exam. Very reluctant thing.

As a result, I held back a big one this time!No wonder they were taken aback.

Bei Daoya also knew about his grades, but he didn't have any special reaction, after all, he had expected it for a long time.

She didn't feel complacent or inflated about the results. It was just a deviation value taken from the joint entrance examination with thousands of people. There was no national unified examination with less than 55 participants in the past. The deviation value obtained at that time was the one that really determined fate. towards the numbers.

She looked at the textbook, and the girls around her who were quietly sizing her up saw this appearance, and suddenly felt that it was not surprising that Bei Dao students seemed to come up with such a deviation value.

After all, Bei Dao didn't seem to have done anything other than study in school, and he didn't have any contact with anyone.