This thing about me becoming a girl

365. Opening of the Yulong Banner

"Why! Why you just can't! Why you are inferior to others! Why I use all the conditions to support you, but I don't get anything in return!"

Dagu Jingzi said to the Daguo Killing Stone who was touching tears in front of him with an unhappy face.

Looking at her son's appearance, she frowned even more.

"Didn't I tell you, don't shed tears easily, no one in this world sympathizes with your tears."

Hearing this, Dagu Shashengshi sniffed, and put his hands behind his back restlessly, but tears still flowed out uncontrollably.

Such a scene happened almost every night in Dagu's house.

For some reason, Dagu Shasheng Shi Tiansheng seemed a little stupid and knew nothing, and Dagu Jingzi seemed to have high expectations of him. Since childhood, he has been strictly demanding him, and he has to learn basically everything.

So this also led to the fact that Dagu Shashengshi didn't have any childhood at all, and he was under pressure far beyond his peers.

Dagu Jingzi looked at the obsequious Dagu killing stone in front of him, gritted his teeth, and hated iron not steel even more.

Why, why can't you be better, your identity cannot be hidden for a lifetime, sooner or later you will be found out, and then you will most likely return to that family, and you are an illegitimate child, facing such a situation, you must be good enough to be able to Let you have the right to choose your own destiny and life!

Unlike countries like the Celestial Dynasty, Japan has such a strict concept of illegitimate children, especially in big families. Even if they are illegitimate children, they will return to the family when they grow up.

So Dagu Jingzi knew from the very beginning that Dagu Killing Stone would most likely return to that family in the future, and he was just an ordinary person, without any power to protect him, and only if he was good enough could he have a better life. Only when you have more voice can you choose your own life.

After all, although they will be taken back, the targeting of illegitimate children is unavoidable no matter which country they are in.

Dagu Jingzi knew that she could not protect him, and could only look at himself.

But why, to be so disappointing.

Dagu Jingzi admits that he is so strict, and he does have other selfish motives. He really wants his son who is good enough to take revenge on that man in the future, and he really doesn't want to hear what people will say if his son is useless in the future. She was taught by an ordinary woman, that's why she was like this, and that man would look down on her, which was unbearable for her strong self-esteem.

In short, the combination of Daguo Shashengshi's life experience, his birth, and all other reasons made Daguo Jingzi treat his son so strictly.

But this doesn't mean that she mistreats or abuses Dagu Killing Stone, on the contrary, she has spent all her energy on him these years.

She hired the best teacher within her ability for Dagu Shashengshi, and enrolled him in the most expensive cram school. She would come as her family's children's education came, just so that Dagu Shashengshi could have better education in the future. With more power to choose your own life, you can pursue what you want, and for yourself to be worthy of the responsibility of being a mother.

Since she chose to be born, even if she didn't expect any good results, Shizuko Okuchi would not be ashamed of her choice.

So whether it is money or time, she has spent all of it on the Dagu Killing Stone, which has also caused her to neglect maintenance these years, and she looks a year or two older than her actual age.

But Dagu Shashengshi didn't know whether he was not interested, or what, no matter what he was learning, his progress was extremely slow, and even after spending so much energy and time, in some respects he was still inferior to the children who had just started learning.

This also annoyed Dagu Jingzi, and as for not looking so radiant, this is not one of the reasons.

Back to the present moment, he looked at the very expensive ballroom dance class for a day, but still danced to the pulpy Big Killing Stone.

"That's it, you go to bed early."

After speaking, she got up and left.

And Dagu Shashengshi, who was crying, watched the figure walk out of the room, and his slightly trembling arms finally stopped.

In fact, whether it is for him or Dagu Jingzi, the way the two get along is not like a mother and son at all.

As soon as Dagu Shashengshi saw his mother, he couldn't help trembling nervously, buried his head firmly, and dared not speak obsequiously.

This also stems from Daguo Jingzi's stern attitude and unsmiling attitude all year round, which led to this.

As for Dagu Jingzi, although she tried her best to restrain herself, every time she saw Dagu's killing stone, she still couldn't help thinking of that man and her frustration with her old love, which made her self-esteem and heart very painful.

So she also tried her best to minimize getting along with Dagu Killing Stone, so as to avoid the situation where she would vent her anger if she couldn't bear it one day.

And this naturally made Dagu Shashengshi think that it was because his mother didn't like him.

So despite his young age, Dagu Shashengshi actually has low self-esteem, whether at school or at home.

But in fact, he wants to stay in school more, because the mother he will face at home scares him.

This home is actually more like a prison cell to him.

The days are still going on, Daguo Jingzi still has strict requirements without giving up at all, wanting to train him to be good enough, in which there is the responsibility of the mother, but also her own selfishness.

But the Dagu Killing Stone is still like an elm, ignorant, no matter how much you pay, there is no response at all.

And every time I can see my mother disappointed, hating iron for not being steel, I don't know if it's because she hates herself, or the complicated look in Dagu's killing stone.

This also made Dagu Shashengshi feel painful. At a young age, he felt that he was useless, a waste, and nothing.

Until, he came into contact with kendo.

He doesn't know anything about it, but he is waving his fingers at the way of swords.

The owner of the kendo gym who is said to be very powerful said that he is a genius, an absolute genius, but he is stupid in other aspects, because all his talents are poured into kendo.

He was born for swordsmanship, so it is normal that he is weaker than ordinary people in other aspects.

Because this is balance, the balance given by God.

He didn't know much about the way of swordsmanship, but he remembered that when his mother heard the news, although she frowned and thought about it for the first time, as if she was not satisfied with the talent in this aspect, in the end, she still said .

"Yes, since you have talent, then develop it well."

This was the first time Dagu Shashengshi heard affirmation from his mother, an affirmation he had never had before.

He stayed where he was.

Since then, he has worshiped the master of the kendo gym as his teacher, and practiced kendo extremely hard, even though he was very young, but when others were resting, he was practicing, and when others were practicing, he practiced even harder.

This also made his master very satisfied, and other senior brothers also respected him very much.

After all he is a genius.

Everyone thought that his hard work was caused by his heart, or that he loved swordsmanship, but only he knew that he wanted to hear more affirmation from his mother.

Affirm himself, instead of looking at him with that disappointed look.

He is indeed very talented, and he is improving very fast. It seems that his talent in swordsmanship is too high, so he lowered his other aspects to maintain balance.

In short, his genius was gradually recognized by everyone in the Kendo Gym.

He also slowly regained his self-confidence, thinking that he was a genius of kendo.

Until, he met the little girl who was her age.

Just a second ago, she was like a doll, extremely delicate, but empty without joy or sorrow.

But in the next second, he just held the short bamboo sword, and for some reason, cold sweat began to break out on his forehead.

It was as if, facing the domain, the existence at the top of the food chain.

I couldn't resist at all, and I couldn't even see her swinging the sword clearly. I just remembered that when I realized it, I was so frightened that I sat on the ground and was cut, but I didn't know when it was cut.

He was obviously not injured, but he was so frightened that he couldn't even stand up, and his head was covered in cold sweat.

Immediately, the little girl put down the bamboo sword in her hand, and she fell to the ground freely, and then squatted down to look at the bee hiding in the stamen, with no expression on her face, not even anger.

But it was this little girl who just gave her a feeling that she couldn't resist no matter what.

Dagu Killing Stone couldn't remember what it was like afterwards.

All the people in the kendo gym knew that when he faced a little girl of the same age, he was slashed without even being able to resist, and he was paralyzed to the ground in fright.

"Is he really a genius?"

"I said, after all, he is still a child, so don't be so strict."

"But the other party is also a child of the same age as him, and she's a girl... um... didn't even resist, isn't it too much?"

In this case, although no one has ever said it to Dagu Shashengshi face to face, it will always happen in small talk.

Maybe they didn't have any particular malice in fact, it was just a gossip-like discussion.

But the Big Killing Stone is extremely uncomfortable.

Because the way of the sword is the only thing he can confidently hold his head up.

And this kind of words undoubtedly made him feel very frustrated.

A few days later, the doubts about his genius still existed, and he was also very uncomfortable.

Could it be... isn't he a genius in swordsmanship?

It's the only thing he's not good for, and he doesn't want to be denied it.

The first thing he thought of was his mother, he wanted her affirmation, or...comfort.

So after returning home, he mustered up his courage, explained what he had lost that day, and expressed the discomfort in his heart, and then looked at Dagu Jingzi expectantly.

And Dagu Jingzi said to be more mature and hard-headed, no matter what it is.

Seeing Dagu Jingzi's frowning and preaching tone, Dagu Shashengshi pursed his lips and lowered his head.

That's not what he wants to hear.

And after that, he also spoke in an unprecedented way, as if he was angry.

"I don't want to practice swordsmanship anymore."

Hearing this, Dagu Jingzi was taken aback for a moment, and then seemed to have uncontrollable anger.

"Why! Why are you always like this! Why don't you persist! You are obviously weaker than others in other aspects, why do you have to give up the only place where you are stronger than others, even talent!"

Listening to the angry reprimand of Daguo Jingzi, and the pain caused by other people's doubts and inner doubts these days, Daguchi's killing stone finally broke out.

"Mother is why! Why never ask me what I think! Why do you always force me to do things I don't like!"

Dagu Jingzi was stunned for a moment, and then became even angrier.

"Don't I know that you don't like these things! But life is not something you can do whatever you like, the pain now is for your future, to be able to do what you like!! Do you understand this!"

Dagu Shashengshi cried and shouted in pain.

"I don't want to hear this! I hate you the most!!! If you can disappear!!! How wonderful!!!"

After speaking, he swung his hand vigorously, and just hit the fruit plate on the table next to him.

The fruit plate was suddenly flipped over by the force, and a fruit knife lying inside was just inserted into Dagu Jingzi's stomach.

Dagu Shashengshi was stunned, terrified and at a loss, and his crying stopped suddenly.

Dagu Jingzi, on the other hand, had a painful expression, covering her stomach with trembling arms, looking at the blood flowing, she seemed a little unbelievable, but quickly regained her composure.

"What else do you say you will do? Even kill people and wipe the other side's skin."

She covered the handle of the knife with trembling hands, with an expression of unbearable pain, but her tone seemed to be just rubbing the skin, and then she said again.