This thing about me becoming a girl

"Go away, from today on, I don't have your child, and I'm not your mother."

Hearing these words, Dagu Shashengshi felt extremely painful and complicated in his heart, and finally broke down and ran out of the house crying.

Dagu Jingzi, on the other hand, sat tremblingly and slowly on the ground, then took out her mobile phone and prepared to call the emergency number while she was still conscious, but for some reason, she stopped the dialing hand.

Finally, she put down the phone.

She began to recall that her own mother was really incompetent, too authoritarian, and too domineering. Now that she thought about it, there were really many problems.

She is also very tired, really every day, every moment, very tired.

Since the birth of the child, all her plans for the future have died, and she can only devote all her energy to the child.

I am no longer picky about my work, I am no longer too ambitious, I only want stability, I have never been on a trip, and the photos from the camera have stayed in that year, and they have not changed.

Everything in the past has been dusted, and I don't know when I haven't thought about the more perfect life I promised.

I am busy every day, but it seems that I am not busy with anything.

Everything about her was put on the Dagu Killing Stone.

Apart from this, she seems to have... nothing left, and no other goals.

It's really tiring.

She thought of what Dagu Shashengshi said, and what she once thought was correct, but now she thinks about it, there are many problems.

Perhaps, that child doesn't need himself, or it would be better if he doesn't have himself.

And she said something angry just now, and then she looked at the bleeding wound, and this kind of thing happened, it will be more difficult for him to face himself in the future.

It would be good for him to not have himself, after all, he has been putting a lot of pressure on him.

Dagu Jingzi already felt that her consciousness was beginning to blur. She held on, took out her mobile phone and typed a suicide note, then staggered to the bathroom and lay down in the bathtub, filling it with water.

Afterwards, enduring the pain, he cut a few more cuts on his body to avoid the cut on his stomach being too abrupt.

Then she closed her eyes and let out a long breath.

Quite tired.

Hope is a good long dream.

I just want to work hard on you, and continue to work hard to live, killing stone.

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As for the Dagu Shashengshi who ran out, he didn't know where to go, he was panicked and afraid, and he was in pain when his mother suddenly said that he didn't want him anymore.

In the end, he cried and cried, and fell asleep next to the electric pole. Fortunately, it was hot summer and the law and order nearby was relatively good, so nothing happened.

Then the next day, Dagu Shashengshi was found by the police and brought to the Public Security Bureau.

Her mother committed suicide at home.

Dagu Shashengshi's mind went blank, he couldn't hear anything clearly, and he didn't know anything.

The two policemen sitting next to him also looked at him with complicated eyes.

Not just that kind of sympathy, but an extra sense of pity and wanting to protect.

Because the police were checking Dagu Jingzi's suicide note and saw Dagu Jingzi saying that she was very tired and wanted to die, why was she the only one in pain.

In short, it’s just some cynical remarks, and maybe it’s because they are about to die, and they don’t care about it, and they also wrote about how they often abused Dagu’s killing stone. Let off steam, but also bask in the feeling, because it will make her feel the pressure is released.

Therefore, Dagu Shashengshi is also a victim in the eyes of the police, a poor child who was often viciously abused by his mother, and now he died suddenly. Looking at his current appearance, it must be very painful. After all, it is all his mother.

This also caused the police officers who knew the matter to feel pity for him.

And afterwards, I will try my best to help him deal with his destination.

But Dagu Killing Stone didn't know this.

I don't know that this is the last tenderness from his mother to him.

Dakui Jingzi didn't explain or apologize in the suicide note in the end. Her self-esteem was too strong, just like facing that man. She clearly loved her in her heart, but she didn't hold back or show weakness. Words that people misunderstand.

And now, it's the same, even though she felt guilty, she didn't give any explanation to the Dagu killing stone in the end.

But she didn't regret it either.

Just like when she was still in the early stage of pregnancy, she knew from all kinds of considerations that if she wanted this child, the future would be very difficult, and she might also experience a change in her mentality.

But she still wants it in the end, so she won't regret her decision.

She didn't regret it at the last moment, even if she did it all over again.

As for Dagu Killing Stone, he looked at his trembling hands with empty eyes.

His heart seemed to be empty.

It also seems that something has disappeared forever.

He didn't know what he had lost.

In this way, he lived in his grandfather's house in a daze, waiting for resettlement.

Unexamined, and lived every day empty-handedly.

He is immersed in this feeling every day.

What is the reason.

What was lost.

Finally, he knew.

Because I lost, if I didn't lose, then none of this would have happened.

All because I lost! ! ! ! ! !Just lost everything! ! ! !

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Time has returned to the present, and the Dagu Shasheng Stone on the beach grinned, looked at his open palm, and then slowly squeezed it tightly.

"What I lost, I will get back all of it."

Time flies, and four days have passed since the school trip.

Today is not a special day, but it is not ordinary either.

Because the National High School Kendo Tournament held in Fukuoka opened.

366. General

Time flew by, four days later, and half of the school trip was over.

These days, daily life is still going on. Every student is enjoying his youth, and is also happy to play his own role and leave his own footprint in this process of precious memories in the future.

As for the Bei Dao Crow, it is still the same. They actively participate in various activities organized by the school, take photos and record them carefully, and then send them to Bei Dao Jiu for viewing. Every day, they will have an hour of video call time to tell each other about their lives. things.

Although Bei Daojiu was basically chattering, Bei Daoya only nodded or responded in a brief tone, and seemed very quiet most of the time.

But she actually listened carefully to every word Bei Daojiu said, including the various exhortations that were repeated every day, and I don't know how many times she said them.

In short, time passed slowly like this, and Bei Daoya wanted to go back to tell the truth.

There were few things she cared about, but even less after leaving Bei Daojiu's side, so this school trip didn't bring her any feelings.

If it weren't for Bei Dao Jiu's strong request, maybe she wouldn't have come at all.

But despite this, she is also actively participating in school activities, experiencing things she has never experienced for Bei Daojiu, and recording them.

And it is because of this that many students feel strange.

Obviously, Bei Dao's classmates seemed to be wandering outside the class before, and it was really the first time to join the group like this.

Other than that, nothing special happened these days.

Oh, by the way, last night, the school also organized a cheering action for the three sophomores who were about to participate in the national conference.

It must have been the luck of the princes or something. In the end, the two girls who were going to the national convention boarded the plane amidst the cheers and cheers of the girls.

The reason there are two is also because Mari Aoi Sawamura seems to have left early.

After the meeting on the beach that day, Sawamura Mari Aoi seemed to have disappeared, and Morishita Nanako was also sighing, and went back to school the next day.

She didn't find Mari Aoi Sawamura either. When she returned to the campsite in the afternoon, Mari Aoi Sawamura was no longer in that room, and the wooden knife disappeared with her.

Maybe it was back in Tokyo, or maybe it had arrived in Fukuoka ahead of schedule to wait for the national convention. In short, after that day, Kitajima Crow never saw Mari Aoi Sawamura again.

And the pair of clean white canvas shoes still haven't been returned to her owner.

The next day was a rare good weather, bright and sunny.

And the girls from Zhichun's second grade department also got up early from their respective rooms, and then sat down in the lobby on the first floor, looking at the projection screen in front of them, and communicating with each other noisily.

Almost all the girls from the second grade department are here now.

The girls are here to watch the national convention and cheer!Although not at the scene, as long as the heart comes to it, it will be fine!

It is not a strange thing to support your own school, not to mention that there are three girls in Zhichun's team who are all from the second grade, so these girls will not want to miss watching it out of reason.

And the person in charge of this school trip also saw the thoughts of the girls, and set aside time in the morning without any arrangements.

The national conference is divided into men's team and women's team, which is divided into team competition and individual competition. It will take five days for all the events to be successfully completed, and these five days are competitions for top teams from colleges and universities across the country. , a total of more than 800 teams will appear on the stage.

The time is tight, so there will be no delays and unnecessary links, tense and intense.

The highest award of the competition is the "Jade Dragon Flag" hanging above the central rostrum of the venue.

The competition started as scheduled, and the live broadcast started smoothly, and the girls suddenly made a fuss.

"It's started, it's started!"

"Where is our school! Where is it!"

And Bei Dao Crow is also one of these girls.

She looked at the projected screen, which showed the Fukuoka Civic Gymnasium. The contestants lined up in a neat line and listened to the person in charge's speech.

Countless media reporters and hosts were broadcasting live, including scouts, or Internet celebrities, and so on. In short, there are various camera teams visible to the naked eye, and the flashes are constantly on.

And the auditorium of more than [-] people was also full, and there was a burst of cheers.

After all, the Jade Dragon Banner is considered to be the largest college competition, and it is the hallowed place in the hearts of countless kendo high school students.