This thing about me becoming a girl

He really hates himself, why is he so incompetent, why does he let his daughter go through such a thing, why is it because of himself! ! !

"why!!!!"

His veins were exposed, and he roared and smashed his fists on the floor without any rules. After he slapped himself, he started to slap himself, and after he slapped himself, he started to bite his fingers indiscriminately.

It's kind of crazy.

He really couldn't bear it, his daughter had to bear everything because of him, but he couldn't do anything.

Nothing can be done! ! !

Just thinking about it, he felt that every blood vessel in his whole body was about to be torn.

He can only vent crazily, like a lunatic, this is an emotion he can't suppress.

He really hated himself.

I hate myself so much! ! !

The attic was full of crashing roars mixed with crying.

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Smooth driving on a black vehicle in the road.

Bei Dao Ya sat alone in the back row.

She didn't choose to send Yusuji Izuru back in person, but was escorted by Koizumi.

It's night, and the streets of the city are lit with bright lights and snowflakes of catkins.

Looking out the window, Bei Dao Crow's expression was dull.

Her heart was in turmoil, and it started when Yuxiusuji Yihe begged herself, from gaining insight into the thoughts of Yuxiuji Longdounan.

For some reason, it came suddenly, inexplicably, and kept rising and falling.

It even made her unable to calmly think about the problem.

More importantly, she didn't know what caused it.

Looking out the window at the city street.

Along the way, the streets outside are always bustling with pedestrians, brilliant neon lights are flickering, and signs of celebration are hung in every place and storefront.

There is a smile on the face of every pedestrian, which is joyful and satisfied, perhaps because they have a better vision for the next year, or perhaps because they are satisfied with the current gathering with people around them.

In short, they are all happy, walking happily on the street, happily appearing in the eyes of others, and happily under the white snow. Perhaps these snowflakes are warm and memorable for them .

And at this moment, they seemed to be waiting for something.

Suddenly, a long and distant bell sounded suddenly, even in this urban area, it could be easily caught by the ears.

"Boom".

It started. Every year on New Year's Eve in Japan, 108 bells will ring at the same time in various temples, large and small.

According to the legend of Buddhism, there are a total of 108 afflictions in a person's life, and the 108 bells are ringing to get rid of the corresponding 108 afflictions.

At this moment, all the streets and alleys, wherever the sound of the bell could be heard, simultaneously lowered their volume, allowing the sound of the bell to echo in their ears.

The snow was getting heavier, and it confused people's eyes.

Also bewildered the eyes of the Bei Dao Crow.

This scene couldn't help but remind her of last year.

In the street under Sensoji Temple, the smiling mother is enough to melt the snow in an instant.

She was circling under the snowflakes, and the fluttering skirt of her kimono flashed back into the eyes of Bei Dao Ya.

That's right...why don't I think of my mother on a day like today...or...when else, my mother only occasionally appears in my mind.

Bei Daoya withdrew his gaze from the window, looking at his slender fingers and white palm.

She tried to explore what she was thinking, but she couldn't get an answer.

What happened to yourself?

Have you changed yourself?

If it were yesterday, it would be impossible for Bei Daoya to have such an idea. Her will is firm, and even if she gave birth, she can firmly deny that she has changed.

But at this moment, she was a little uncertain.

It's not that she doesn't want Bei Dao Jiu anymore, she can still clearly feel her love for Bei Dao Jiu.

But this love... seems to be blocked by something.

what is itIs it ambition?

Now, is he really still doing these things for his mother?Or...is it purely for climbing the pyramid of power, for ambition...?

Or, for my mother... just an excuse I made?

Inexplicably, the North Island crow felt a little cold, and felt a little strange to himself.

She is shaking.

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As if he didn't feel the passage of time, when Bei Daoya came back to his senses, he found that he had arrived at his house in the Baihechuan residential area.

She slowly regained her calm, or forcibly restrained herself to calm down, regaining the calmness that seemed not to pour any emotion into anyone or anything, the deadly calmness.

She got out of the car and returned to the house, but at this moment, the maid who came to meet her said.

"Patriarch, Master Higurashi has been waiting for you for a long time..."

After 1 minute, she walked to the dining room.

Inside is Higurashi who is dozing off, and there are many dishes on the table beside her.

Some of these dishes have lost their luster, as if they have been heated two or three times.

Perhaps hearing the movement, Higurashi Ryo rubbed his eyes and woke up.

She looked at Bei Dao Ya, then at the time, and then smiled.

"Fortunately, it's only 12 o'clock in ten minutes, and the big dark day hasn't passed yet, so it's still a year-end party!"

664. Year-end party

Big dark night, 11:49.

On the table in the room, there are many dishes, judging from the presentation and delicacy, they don't look like those made by the dining room in the house, but more like home-cooked dishes.

At this time, these dishes have already lost their temperature and their color is no longer bright, as if they have been placed here for a long time.

And on the chair beside him, there was Ri Muliang who was dozing off with his chin resting on his head and his head still tilted down a little bit.

In fact, there are no such chairs in this old traditional Japanese-style dining room, they are all cloth seats, and the chair that Ryo Higurashi is sitting on is probably just moved here for the convenience of her dozing off.

There was no makeup on her face, but plain makeup, which completely exposed the traces of time on her face, with many wrinkles, and her skin was no longer shiny, but dull and yellow.

The maid opened the sliding door respectfully, and Bei Daoya looked at the situation in the room.

Perhaps because he also heard the movement, Ri Muliang's hand resting on his chin was not stabilized, his head dropped suddenly, and he woke up with a start.

She raised her head, her eyes were still a little sleepy, she looked around, as if she didn't realize it, and she forgot what she was doing sitting here.

But the haze was only for a short moment, and after she stretched, she woke up.

At this time, she also saw the North Island crow at the entrance of the house.

She glanced at the time, then smiled with relief.

"It's okay, it's not past twelve o'clock, it's still a year-end party!"

She looked at Bei Dao Yadao.

"Work hard, come quickly."

After that, she was ready to reheat the dishes.

Seeing this, Bei Dao Crow asked.

"Is this all for me?"

Higurashi Ryo said of course.

"Of course, otherwise, who else is there? But let me tell you first, I haven't been in the kitchen for a long time, so don't blame me if it doesn't taste good."

Hearing this, Bei Dao Ya was silent for a moment, and probably understood.

Ri Muliang should have prepared the dishes in the afternoon, and then waited for the Bei Dao Ya to come back.

Thinking of this, Bei Dao Ya saw that he had already cooled down and was being served by Ri Mu Liang to prepare the heated dishes, said.

"You could call me earlier, there's no need to wait so long."

Hearing this, Higurashi looked at her with an expression of indifference.

"It doesn't matter, after all, you are very busy with work, and I happen to have nothing to do, so just take it as a thank you gift for being able to live here.

Don't look at me like this, I'm a very considerate woman. "

The corners of her mouth were curled up, her tone was full of casualness, and her expression was very calm.

She really didn't feel any emotion because Bei Dao Ya came back so late.

After all, she is not an unreasonable woman. Although she doesn't know what Bei Dao Ya is doing, she is definitely very busy, so she didn't call Bei Dao Ya to urge her or anything. Work is important.

After finishing speaking, she said again.

"Come on, stop standing there."

Not long after, all the dishes on the table were heated and served.

Because he was in a hurry, he was in a hurry, and at this moment he looked at the time again.

11.57.

Fortunately, there are still 3 minutes, and the dark day has not yet passed.

Immediately, she sat down with a smile and looked at Bei Dao Ya.