This thing about me becoming a girl

"General! After all, today is a very special day, so I made some cooking. How about it, it looks very appetizing! At least in my eyes, it seems that my craftsmanship has not deteriorated! "

Looking at the dishes on the table, Higurashi Ryoshi said this proudly.

Beidaoya heard the words, but did not reply immediately.

It's been a long, long time since she has felt the feeling of someone cooking a meal and waiting for her to come back at home.

It's not similar to the cooking of Mariko Uesugi before, but some people will wait for themselves until they fall asleep.

"It might be delicious."

Bei Dao Crow said so.

Hearing this, Higurashi raised his eyebrows: "That's for sure."

Although she was almost fifty years old, she still had the expression of a young girl on her face.

"Eat quickly, if you can, say a [-]-word testimonial after eating, after all, this is the cooking I haven't seen for a long time."

Bei Daoya ignored her joke and moved his chopsticks instead.

To be honest, although Bei Daoya can't say that she has eaten all kinds of delicacies, at least in this year, her sense of taste has reached a very high level.

And these dishes are not delicious at the moment, and because they have been heated repeatedly, they have lost the blessing of the first cooking, and they are even a bit greasy.

But it has a very special feeling, and the North Island crow doesn't hate it when it is eaten in its mouth.

"It was delicious."

Hearing this, Higurashi Ryo also moved her chopsticks, feeling the taste of the food in her mouth, she said mercilessly.

"A brat who is good at lying is obviously hard to eat."

Even so, her smile was not shallow.

On the Zhuo burden table made of high-grade wood, ordinary home-cooked dishes are placed, and the two are enjoying the year-end party dinner on the evening of the dark day.

Seeing the appearance of Bei Dao Yajiacai, Himu Ryo couldn't help but feel a little absent-minded.

After all, thinking about it now, it seemed like she had never been like this before.

new year?Big dark day?Year-end party?In her eyes, this was just a blink of an eye.

After all, she doesn't have a family, or a lover, who can spend such a life together, never has.

This is her first time.

Subconsciously, Ryo Higurashi was in a trance.

It was very special. This kind of feeling also made her a little uncomfortable and a little nervous, but it was not bad.

she asked involuntarily.

"Any plans for next year?"

Hearing this, Bei Dao Ya looked up at her.

Seeing this, Ri Muliang said again.

"On the last day of the year, on the night of a dark day, isn't it the privilege of the elders to ask the younger generation about their plans for the next year?"

Ri Muliang also felt a little guilty, after all, she was only hearing the story, but she still had a confident expression on her face.

Hearing this, Bei Dao Crow thought about it.

Any plans for next year?To be honest, she didn't seem to have thought about it.

She has been burying her head in walking all this time, not wanting to suffer that feeling of incompetence again, with the goal of fighting for King's Landing, to be above everyone else, to control her own destiny, to control her mother's destiny, and to kill all those who reach out .

Assuming everything goes well, what should I do after the battle?

To be... the chief?

So what about after becoming the chief?What should I do?

It seems that I never thought about how far I would go before I would stop.

Until now, is he really still acting for the purpose at the beginning?

Bei Daoya couldn't help but think of how strange he was to him when he was in the car.

And Ri Muliang, looking at Bei Dao Ya who had been silent for a long time, seemed to have sensed what was on her mind, and said.

"It seems that there is something on your mind, so do you need a consultation? It's free, only tonight."

She said so with a smile.

665. original intention

"So do you need a consultation? It's free, only tonight."

Ri Muliang put down his chopsticks, looked at Bei Dao Ya, and said with a smile on his cheek.

Although she is nearly fifty years old, she can still see her slyness from her wrinkled face.

Hearing this, Bei Dao Ya looked at her and responded flatly.

"Why do you say that?"

Looking at Bei Daoya's appearance that he didn't intend to admit it, or that he might not realize his problem, Higurashi Ryo couldn't help but say.

"Don't try to lie, please, you've just written my thoughts on your face."

After she finished speaking, she thought for a while, and felt that what she said was not quite right, so she added.

"Although you keep a straight face at all times, it's enough for people not to see any emotions, but at least it's obvious now, it's too obvious to have a face with worries written on it!"

Ri Muliang, who has been in the society for decades, has a keen observation ability. When she just came back from Bei Dao Ya, she found that something was wrong with her. She was probably very heavy and a little dazed.

Hearing this, Bei Dao Crow remained silent.

It turned out that it was so obvious.

Yes, the North Island Crow does have troubles on his mind.

But the paradox is that even she herself doesn't know what's on her mind.

And the beginning of this strange state came about after arranging a meeting between Yizuru and Longdounan in the afternoon.

She couldn't help thinking of the feeling of being very cold and feeling strange when she was in the car.

Looking at Bei Daoya's silence, he thought she was Ri Muliang who had no intention of communicating with her, so she thought about it and said.

"Of course, if you don't want to say it, you don't have to say it. After all, I'm not the kind of woman who likes to make things difficult for others."

Higurashi Ryo is like this, she will not force others to say something, although she may be a little worried, but it is the same.

But at this moment, Bei Dao Ya suddenly spoke.

"Hmm..." It seemed that she didn't know how to address Higurashi Ryo specifically, so she only used the honorific title.

"Do you think I've changed?"

Hearing this, Ri Muliang was stunned for a moment, and seemed to be a little unresponsive. This cheap granddaughter who seemed to have always kept things in her heart would actually ask herself.

But Lengshen was only for a short moment, and she quickly responded.

"For example? What aspect are you referring to?"

Bei Daoya also put down his chopsticks.

"Compared to last year, do you think I have changed in any way?"

In fact, Bei Dao Ya didn't know why she said this to Ri Muliang. After all, she was not a person who liked to tell others what was on her mind, and she had never even told anyone about it.

Perhaps at this time, she just wanted to hear what this experienced woman had to say about it.

And Higurashi Ryo did not disappoint her.

After hearing the words, Higurashi Ryo raised his head and thought for a moment, and said.

"Ah... Is there any change? You ask me like this, and I can't tell why for a while? But I can probably understand the problem you are encountering."

She and Bei Dao Ya's calm eyes met, thoughtful.

"If you ask this kind of question, it means that you are doubting yourself in some way, so you are at a loss? Are you a little bit at a loss about what you have done and the way?"

After figuring out the essence of the Kitajima crow's problem, Higurashi Ryo thought with his chin in his hands.

She was really thinking seriously, after all, a person like Bei Daoya didn't seem like the type to casually tell others what was on her mind, so she didn't seem to let her cheap granddaughter down and get nothing.

"So, what happened that led to the denial of one's own value?"

she asked.

When Bei Dao Ya heard the words, he thought for a moment and shook his head.

"Probably not."

Higurashi asked again.

"Then you suspect that you have done something wrong, or because of something, your will has been shaken?"

Bei Dao Crow thought about it and shook her head again, but it was not over yet. After thinking for a while, she nodded again.

Seeing this, Higurashi Ryo probably understood.

The problem that my cheap granddaughter encountered should be the very words she asked.

In other words, if she feels that she has changed, it is probably because her thoughts, or subconscious mind, have changed unconsciously.

Although he didn't know much about it, Ryo Higurashi could also see clearly that Bei Daoya was a person with a strong sense of self, and it was almost impossible for outsiders to influence the decisions made by this kind of person.

Is this okay?Of course it is good, because their will is firm enough, and whether the will is firm or not is actually a sign to measure whether a person is good or not.

But again, such people often encounter a big problem.

That is self-doubt.

Perhaps for other people, when they encounter this kind of problem, they just look for the answer, or just flip through the article at random.

But this kind of people are different because their self-awareness is too strong.

Therefore, the problems faced by Bei Dao Crow now are simple and easy to say, and difficult to say.

Because of certain things, I questioned the path I took, or was at a loss.