This thing about me becoming a girl

Thinking of this, Ryo Higurashi spoke after carefully organizing his words.

"Although I really want to say something to keep you in your original intention, but as a human being, when you are in different positions and looking at different scenery, your mentality will always change, which is inevitable.

After all, it is impossible that your initial goal is to earn 1 yuan, but when you earn 1 yuan, you will stagnate, right?Because when you have 1 yuan, you will also have new goals.

So the original intention is actually very vague, and its function is more like chicken soup, a chicken soup that wakes people up and makes them think. "

She said this slowly, with a serious expression, and her face was full of mature and flowing traces of time.

"Forms will change, and people will also change. It is impossible for someone to stand in the same psychological position all the time. There will always be many, even uncontrollable changes due to various things.

And such changes can be divided into big and small, such as big ones, changes in personality, and small ones, changes in behavior and handling of things.

And the question you are asking now, probably only you know the answer, whether it has changed, which aspect has changed, and whether you like such a change. Since you will think about it, if you don’t like it, it’s a big deal to like it Develop that aspect. "

Higurashi Ryo explained it like this.

"So, in my opinion, you just need to remember what you were feeling, what you were thinking, and what you wanted to achieve when you made such a decision in the first place. ,Will suffice."

"Such a statement can be regarded as the original intention, but in fact it can't be counted. After all, the original intention will be changed, and the feelings in my heart at that time will be remembered no matter what."

Higurashi said so.

When Bei Dao Ya heard the words, he was thoughtful.

666. Some Can't Recognize Theirself

It's late at night.

But even in the middle of the night, the streets and alleys in the downtown area are still full of people coming and going.

After all, today is a very special day.

After twelve o'clock, it is the first day of the new year.

And on such a day, how could it be possible for people to be able to fall asleep peacefully with excitement and excitement.

On the street in the downtown area, Bei Dao Ya was walking here, looking at all kinds of passers-by in front of her, in fact, she also forgot how long it had been since she walked in the streets like this.

Every time I am in a hurry, I will not stay in a certain place for too long, I ride in a vehicle every day, and travel through various places in the city.

It was as if it had been a long time ago to see the faces of so many ordinary people so clearly.

After all, her eyes are always on the tall buildings, in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, overlooking the pedestrians on the streets of the city.

And the feeling is completely different.

At that high position, looking at these pedestrians, it feels like looking at ants running for their lives because of desire, as if they are detached from above, looking at all living beings below.

Do you remember the last time you walked the streets like this?A year ago, it should be a year ago, Bei Dao Ya can't remember clearly.

She was wearing a black woolen coat, high boots, no ponytail, her hair was loosely scattered behind her head, her face was delicate and white, and her breath was cold and pure, which was amazing.

She has also maintained this high level of return.

In this moment alone, there were two or three people who tried to ask for contact information, although the results all ended in dismal.

She walked on the street like this, avoiding the pedestrians coming in front of her from time to time, lowering her eyes, as if she was thinking about something.

After dinner, she came out.

She didn't know where to go, she just arranged for the driver, wandering around casually.

While walking around, she wanted to come down and take a walk.

After all, she would definitely not be able to sleep after going back.

She thought about what Himu Ryo said at the dinner table before.

In fact, the root cause of her being so strange was the incident with the father and daughter of Xiusi Temple in the afternoon.

Bei Dao Crow does everything with an intention, and has a purpose to do this thing. There is no interest in it, and he does what he wants.

She is not a casual person.

But she didn't know, and she couldn't figure out why she arranged to meet the father and daughter of Xixiu Temple.

It was as if there was an inexplicable push that made her agree to this matter.

And to be honest, the meeting between the father and daughter of Xixiu Temple is not good for him, but has disadvantages.

After all, after seeing his daughter, he ignited the painful concubine Long Dounan, and it was impossible for him to leave Tokyo safely, and he would definitely make a fuss.

Because he understands that only by staying in Tokyo can he have a slim chance of saving his daughter, and once he leaves Tokyo, it will not be easy to come back.

And if Ryutoo Kanshuji hadn't seen Yoshisuji Izuru today, then he would be devastated, thinking that there was no way he could do anything else, and he would leave Tokyo.

After all, there is escape in human genes, and he will temporarily escape the status quo, not that he will give up, but will temporarily escape.

And this is undoubtedly in line with Bei Daoya's plan. It would be best if the Long Dou Nan in Xixiu Temple could not make trouble.

But if they met, the pain of Ryudonan of Yushuji would explode, and he also knew that he must not escape. Once he escaped his daughter, he would fall into the abyss. Then it is impossible to use any means to get him to leave Tokyo up.

The same is true for Jishuji Izuru.

After seeing Long Dounan of Yanxiu Temple and understanding his current situation, Yizuru of Yanxiu Temple will put all her hopes on Bei Daoya. In this case, if her father has an accident, she will also put The hatred that once wished to be turned into the same level, the hatred of the North Island crow.

This is of no benefit to the North Island Crow.

If there was no such thing as the father-daughter meeting before, then after Yushuji Yizuru became Tiansi, Bei Daoya, who had maintained a good relationship with her, would be useful to her sooner or later. After all, there are never too many contacts and chess pieces. .

So Bei Daoya was very puzzled, why did he do such a thankless thing.

It's okay if there is an answer, but the key is that there is no answer, even she can't figure it out, so she will be at a loss.

It doesn't matter if it is cruel or ruthless, but Bei Dao Crow's original purpose was to use Long Dou Nan of Yanxiu Temple to death. As for Yihe of Yanxiu Temple, it is also of great use value.

This feeling that he can't even control himself makes Bei Dao Crow really strange.

Even she began to doubt herself.

Did I also change at some inadvertent time?

She thought about what Ryo Higurashi said before.

The so-called original intention?

What is your original intention?

And if you insist on starting to calculate the original intention, when should you start?

Is it from the time of participating in the reserve dispute?Or when Shangshan was killed, or during that day, when the...woke up for the first time in the hospital?

Thinking about it carefully, it seems that Bei Dao Crow has never had any original intention, that is, the original intention of doing this thing was clear from the beginning.

Every time, she was forced by the situation.

For example, Shang Shanmu, did she have to kill him because of her strong desire deep in her heart?

Yes, there is also this reason.

But the more reason is that if you don’t kill Shangshan, then you and your mother will not be able to live in a stable environment. Shangshan may appear at any time and bring pain to your mother.

Therefore, Bei Dao Ya had to kill him, and he had to kill him before he took over, otherwise, after he took over, if he wanted to do something to him, the difficulty would only double.

That's why Bei Daoya planned to rob the bank until Shang Shanmu died later.

And what about participating in the reserve competition?It's the same, Bei Daoya hesitated for a long time, but in the end, it was forced by the situation. Without power, absolute power, it is impossible to live a peaceful life. You can only wait for the sky to fall and leave your fate in the hands of others Ants.

So if you think about it this way, it seems that the North Island Crow has no original intention.

It can also be said that having power and standing on a throne that will not be spread by blood is her original intention.

That being the case.. Then why am I at a loss.

Bei Daoya was puzzled, and for the first time, she also felt a little unable to recognize herself.

She walked alone in the streets of the busy city. Everyone who passed her was bustling with light steps. Everyone had a smile on their faces. The whole street was full of festive atmosphere.

And the thin and cold back of Bei Dao Crow is also particularly obvious, like a lonely, lonely, more like a lost traveler who is groping forward.

667. Cold Winter and Women

As the night got darker, Bei Dao Ya was still walking on the street, and he didn't know how long he had been walking.

I only know that the people around me are gradually decreasing, decreasing, like shadows that suddenly disappear one by one, and suddenly I can no longer see the trace, only the loneliness when I suddenly look up and find that the excitement is not there.

It was so late at night, and they naturally wanted to go home.

Although they will play in the streets to celebrate the festival, after all, they are family and will come home.

Bei Dao Crow didn't check the time, but he could guess it by looking at the deserted street. It was probably midnight.

There are only two or three pedestrians left on the street, perhaps because the North Island Crow has left the downtown area, but thinking of the excitement just now, looking at the desertedness now, it will always make people feel a sense of shock. lonely.

Sitting down on a bench to rest on the side of the street, Bei Dao Ya felt the howling cold wind and couldn't help tightening his collar.

Because the wind was blowing, maybe it was very cold, so the North Island Crow's complexion was very pale and dull.

She is still thinking.

Bei Dao Ya sat on the bench and didn't do anything, just remained silent for a long time.

She couldn't figure it out, and the more she thought about it, the more she couldn't figure it out.

But she always felt that it was important.

And at this moment, a few swaying, presumably the drunks who had drunk before were walking on the road.

And they also naturally saw the North Island crow sitting alone on the bench, as if something sad had happened.

After all, it's the New Year, sitting here like this, it's hard to avoid looking too lonely.

And the eyes of these drunks also brightened, perhaps because of the alcohol, they walked towards Bei Dao Ya.

Ah... What a cheesy drama.

The North Island Crow didn't pay much attention to it, because the result of their approaching like this was that they would be taken away before they got close.

After all, I don't know how many pairs of eyes are staring at them at this moment.

But at this moment, at the corner of the street, another woman suddenly walked out.

In her arms, she was holding a boy who was wrapped up thickly, about two or three years old, and she didn't know what she was doing when she came out in such a cold night, anyway, she walked in a hurry.