This thing about me becoming a girl

"It's so rare that you would drink alone."

Hearing this, Li Yuanmu Wanhua rested his chin lazily, blushing a little, shaking the wine glass with the other hand.

"Actually, I now find that it's good to be slightly drunk once in a while, but maybe I didn't want to recall many things in the past."

After saying this, Urahara Mu Wanhua looked at Bei Daoya and said in a warm voice.

"Elementary school girl... Do you think I look pitiful?"

Hearing this, Bei Dao crow said.

"Why ask that?"

Wanhua Yuanmu shook his red wine glass.

"Because someone described me that way today."

Bei Daoya tilted his head slightly and thought about it.

"Perhaps, it is quite pitiful."

Is Uriharagi Wanhua pitiful?Leaving aside her evil deeds for a moment, then she was a poor person, a poor childhood, a poor fate.

Just like the sunny doll that she once hung up, but it didn't make the weather clear. It was just vulnerable to the ravages of wind and rain, and its smiling face was full of wrinkles and broken.

Just like in her short life, every day was actually without sunshine and full of pain.

Maybe she is not worthy of sympathy, but she is indeed pitiful, and her experience has made her what she is now.

Hearing this, Urihara Mu Wanhua raised his head and looked at the snowy night sky outside the huge skylight above his head.

Maybe it's very poor.

She thought of the past.

She has no parents, or since she can remember, she has no impression of her biological parents.

All she knew was that she seemed to be adopted, or was fostered and given away.

In short, as long as she can remember, she has no biological parents.

It was in a rural place, very remote and remote.

At that time, I was called Kitajima Mimi.

The parents were very poor, so they were supporting themselves, but within a few years, the mother became pregnant.

Maybe it was after comprehensive consideration, maybe it was because Uri Logan was not likable, or maybe he didn't have the financial ability to raise two children at the same time. In short, the parents finally decided to abandon themselves and turn to raise their unborn biological child with all their strength.

That day, she went to the big city Tokyo for the first time, and her parents bought her a lot of food in the car.

She was very happy and excited, eating snacks she had never eaten before, and looking at the colorful world outside the window, which she had never seen in a small place.

Young people are always sleepy, and after being excited for a while, she feels sleepy.

But she closed her eyes, listening to the call of the parents, maybe there was a teasing intention, but she didn't open her eyes anyway.

After that, I heard the conversation between the parents.

They discussed whether it was good to do this, and whether it would be too cruel, but in the end they felt that if it was thrown in a place like Tokyo, someone would definitely adopt it.

After all, there are many rich people in Tokyo.

This is also their last kindness.

At that time, when Bei Dao saw Mei, he didn't know what it was like to forget, but felt very cold.

In the end, she didn't say anything, and let her parents carry her out of the car, let them put herself on a chair outside the station, let them say she would come back later, and Jianmei waited obediently for her vacation here. talk.

During the process, she didn't say anything, and even at the end, she said to her parents with a smile.

"Well, I will be obedient, father and mother remember to pick me up."

Hearing this, the mother seemed to be a bit unbearable, but she was still pulled away by the father.

Seeing the figures of the two drifting away, she finally couldn't help but shed tears.

She tightly covered her mouth, but she still didn't say the last sentence, don't leave me behind.

Then, she was discovered by the police and taken away, but no matter how much she asked, she didn't reveal anything about the past and kept her mouth shut.

Perhaps in the end, she also believed that the parents had some difficulties, so she was unwilling to cause trouble for them.

Then, he was adopted by Li Yuanmu.

She changed her name again.

Li Yuanmu Wanhua.

She began to try her best to please, to be a child loved by adults, very obedient, not to make any mistakes, and to feel panic when she made a slight mistake.

And maybe the mother named Jiu saw her uneasiness, so she said something like "Flowers bloom" to her.

Unlike the normal English translation of the word, it expresses the meaning in Japan that no matter what happens, we will always be family and will never be apart.

Maybe it's like that sentence, the more you are afraid of something, the more you will be afraid of something.

Not long after she was immersed in happiness, she discovered that her father would beat her gentle mother.

She stopped it, and in the process, she accidentally stabbed her father's thigh with a knife.

After that, she fled the scene with her mother and ran to a hotel.

She didn't feel afraid of anything, as long as her mother could be with her, it was enough. After leaving her father, it didn't matter as long as her mother could be happy.

As long as the mother is happy, it will be fine.

It's a pity that the mother can't leave her father... She would rather die than leave her father.

Mother.. couldn't stand being away from Father.

On that rooftop, looking at her mother who wanted to jump off the building, she understood this.

In the rain, she whispered the word Flowers bloom, but the mother seemed to hear nothing, full of despair.

I clearly said that we will always be together, I clearly said that no matter what kind of difficulties Flowers Bloom faces, the bond between family members will never be cut off because of anything...

She also understood that her mother loved her father more than herself, even if she abandoned herself.

So she.. was dumped again.

But mother can be happy too.

So she went back and made a deal with that father.

After that, the mother finally became happy and was able to be with her father every day.

The father, on the other hand, beat and scolded him, forcing him to admit that he was his mother's illegitimate daughter.

Said that as long as he admits it, then he will end all of this immediately, and even apologize to himself with death.

And she never answered.

Because she knows that once she admits that this does not exist, then her father will be relieved and will truly divorce her mother.

Does he actually care about the matter itself?No, up to now, my father just wanted to prove that he was not the one who was wrong...

For the "happiness" of her mother, she can't admit it and can only torture her father.

She wants to maintain the family and maintain the happiness of her mother.

As long as the mother is happy in this way, that is enough.

So every time she watched her father collapse and despair like he was crazy, she felt a little guilty.

After all, his father just wanted a divorce, but he also knew that his mother would commit suicide if he divorced. He was tied down, and his mother used this to lock him tightly.

The father is a very soft-tempered person, unable to make the decision that led to his wife's death on his own, so he can only prove that he is right, with legitimate reasons, and in the end, he is forced to become a lunatic.

But despite her guilt and sympathy, she never backed down.

Similarly, she also knew that her mother knew this, but she was just avoiding and pretending not to know.

It wasn't until one day that my mother went home and witnessed the scene of being beaten with her own eyes, and finally she couldn't escape.

The father didn't bother to pretend anymore, and asked his mother loudly.

The two had a fierce conflict. In the end, the mother, whose reason collapsed, stabbed the father to death with a knife.

She was like crazy, stabbing her father, and shouting in collapse.

"I also know that I was wrong! Why you just refuse to forgive me! I also blame myself for Xiongyan's death! I really didn't mean it! I really didn't cheat that day!! Why! Why you just refused to believe me! Do not forgive me!"

She lost her mind and shouted like this, and when she stopped, her father had already been stabbed to death.

But apart from the blood on his father's face, there was also relief.

Seeing this scene, my mother smiled, her face was full of ferocity, pain, tears, and smiles.

Yes, in fact, the mother has also gone crazy for a long time. She went crazy when her son died unexpectedly because of her own fault.

Immediately, as if she had lost all her soul, she dragged Urihara Mu Wanhua away from this place.

She kept walking, and she didn't know where she went, but she only knew that she ended up in a forest on a mountain.

Later, she also learned that this was the first time her mother and father met. At that time, the school organized an outing, and only her father found out that her mother was missing, so he went back to look for her.

His mother fell in love with him then.

In Yuanmu Wanhua's heart, he was actually very happy.

Because she thought her mother was free, and since she killed her father with her own hands, it proved that she had come out.

Even though her mother killed her father, she is not afraid, as long as her mother is happy is enough.

So in the future, my mother will gradually get better, and I will always be with her.

The two of them finally escaped the bondage of that house.

But it turns out that she was wrong.

The mother's whole body seemed to be dead, without any focus in her eyes, and she lost any soul.

She died a long time ago, and her heart has always been trapped in that place. She has never had any freedom at all. For her, the only relief is to die in this place.

It turns out...the only one who really longs for the future is himself.

Looking at her mother's empty eyes that seemed to be completely dead, she also understood...