This thing about me becoming a girl

No matter what effort I make...it's all in vain...for a mother...there is never any freedom.

She was stuck there and never had time to leave, and it was impossible to leave.

"Kill me...kill me."

Mother murmured hoarsely.

"please..."

So strange... The mother's current appearance is really strange.

It's just that Li Yuanmu Wanhua looked at her, and knew... maybe for her... Only death is the only relief and redemption.

The only relief is death.

Uriharaki Wanhua didn't remember what kind of feeling he had when he picked up the stone.

It's just the mother's expression at that time, which is still vivid in my memory until now.

Perhaps because she knew that she was about to be liberated, there was finally a trace of agility in her eyes, some pity and guilt.

"You must live well."

Li Yuanmu Jiu died, and it was Li Yuanmu Wanhua who personally gave her relief.

It was the sound of stones falling on the face one after another.

Ri Yuanmu Wanhua's eyes were not focused at all, blood was stained on his numb and empty face... and so were his hands.

She just sat there like this for an unknown number of days before finally staggering down the mountain.

As she was walking, she suddenly started to run, and she began to cry out loudly, her voice was hoarse, and every nerve in her face was trembling.

At any time, she never cried like this, whether it was the first time, the second time, or the third time she was abandoned.

Because at that time, she at least had hope for the future.

But now, all of them no longer exist, and she doesn't know what else to do to have happiness.

She didn't know who she should hate, did she hate her father?Do you hate your mother?

The father is just for relief, and the mother is just for someone to make up for.

Both of them seem to have done something wrong, and they both seem to have done nothing wrong, and they are both dead.

It seemed that in the end, only she could hate herself.

The only person you can hate is yourself.

If I hadn't been too persistent, determined to maintain this family and be satisfied with my own false happiness, then perhaps none of these things would have happened.

I can't find a place to blame, I don't know who to hate, it seems that the only person I can hate is myself, this is the most desperate.

On the way down the mountain, Uranaki Wanhua lost all his humanity, emotions, sorrows and joys.

It was thrown on the road and scattered around in a mess, but she didn't pick it up.

Because she was in too much pain to bear otherwise.

This is the only way to make her feel better.

After going down the mountain, she found out and was taken to the hospital.

A few days later, she came to the former home and burned down the house.

It snowed heavily that day.

The rising ashes of burning houses collided with the falling snowflakes, merged and dissipated.

She looked at the burning house with the sound of crackling and cracking wood, with a blank expression on her face.

The firelight shone on her face, and she remembered what her mother said to herself before she left to live well.

Is this a wish for a blessing... or is it a curse?

A smile leaked from the bloodless face illuminated by the flames, but tears flowed from the corners of his eyes.

Of the three people who used to live here, two of them were liberated, and the only one left was trapped here forever.

It's not so much that it's burning as it is someone's life, dying.

682. Desires Are Not Available, Yet Pursue Hardships

These things that I thought I had forgotten a long time ago, when I recalled them now, Li Yuanmu Wanhua realized that they were so clear.

It's as if everything happened yesterday, and the many years in the process from yesterday are like slides without any meaning, and I can't remember clearly.

"Perhaps, it is quite pitiful."

Listening to what she said, Bei Daoya talked about another thing.

"It's you, Ryutou Nan of Jishuji has already left Tokyo, are you sure you don't do anything and give me the victory?"

"Sarcasm, who knows." Li Yuanmu Wanhua said this, with a lazy and tired expression.

At this moment, she has figured it out a little bit, and she has figured out many things.

The reason why she pays so much attention to Bei Dao Ya... Maybe it's because the two of them have something very special and imaginative.

She wanted to see what the North Island Crow would do.

It has always been like this before, including now, I just want to see what the life trajectory of Bei Daoya will be like.

What would she do in a similar situation?Will it be different from myself?

Just like the current bet.

In fact, no matter whether the coin at that time was heads or tails, Kitajima Crow would be the one who helped Kishuji Ryutoo leave Tokyo.

Because Uraharagi Wanhua knew a long time ago that Yushuji Ryutoo could leave Tokyo long ago, and the reason why he didn't leave Tokyo was only because of his daughter.

That's why until now, she still hasn't taken any action.

She just wanted to use this incident to prove something.

She also wanted to see if Bei Dao Ya would give up anything because of someone else's family.

Bei Daoya took revenge because of protecting his mother, bowed his head to himself because of protecting his mother, because his mother participated in the battle, and because his mother was advancing all the way in the struggle.

It was as if everything centered on her mother.

Uriharaki Wanhua has actually been paying attention.

Every time I think about it, what decision will Bei Daoya make?

Want to see if the North Island Crow will really be happy?

Including the current bet, maybe she just wanted to see what Bei Daoya would decide.

It was as if as long as Bei Dao Crow was still involved with Bei Dao Jiu, her every move would play tricks on her heart.

The two have different experiences and different personalities, but they have many similarities. Perhaps the biggest difference is that Kitajima Crow succeeded, while Satohara Mu Wanhua failed.

So from the very beginning, Li Yuanmu Wanhua was jealous of Bei Daoya, jealous of her being able to do what she once dreamed of, but ended in disastrous end.

Similarly... maybe she also thought about it, if she had the ability of Bei Dao Ya in the beginning... would she be able to succeed?

Urihara Mu Wanhua couldn't figure it out. She didn't know what she couldn't figure out, but she just kept posting about Bei Dao Ya, like a rascal who couldn't get rid of it.

Maybe...very annoying.

She just can't forget the past...

She thought of Uesugi Mariko's words before, what was she obsessed with all this time?

Maybe it's the attachment to these things that I have long forgotten, but never forgotten..

Because I don't have emotions, I want to see other people's emotions, hoping that others can give me some...

Ah...After thinking it through, Wanhua Satoharagi really felt quite pitiful.

I have been pursuing things that I have never owned, that are hard to achieve, and things that I can never forget.

She sipped the red wine, as lazy as she looked, and as tired as her eyes.

"Then are you ready to fight Tiansi hard?"

At this time, she naturally knew the news of the disappearance of Yixiu Temple, and of course who did it, including that someone arranged for many ferries to leave at the same time, just to prevent her own affairs.

Hearing this, Bei Dao Ya's expression was very flat.

"I'm...preparing to withdraw from the reserve competition."

The fatigue in Li Yuanmu Wanhua's eyes was even more obvious, because she knew that Bei Daoya had already made a decision in her heart at this moment, and she was going to stick to her idea, while she was still struggling to pursue it.

"Ah, what a surprising decision, but I'm not such an easy opponent to get rid of. I will chase you, and you who have lost your rights are simply lambs waiting to be slaughtered~"

To such a threat, Bei Dao Crow remained silent.

And looking at her appearance, Riharaki Wanhua also felt bored.

"It seems that you have made your own decision."

Hearing this, Bei Dao Ya just breathed a sigh of relief.

"maybe."

Immediately, she stood up and walked in front of Urihara Mu Wanhua.

"Can you stand up for a moment?"

Seeing this, Li Yuanmu Wanhua's mouth hooked slightly, and he smiled jokingly.

"Why, do you want to hug me and thank me? Thank you for letting you win the bet? Or do you want to beg me not to embarrass you in the future?"

However, Uranaki Wanhua still stood up.

But when she was still smiling, there was a sudden colic and stabbing pain in her abdomen.

Immediately, she fell to the ground, clutching her stomach, her delicate and fair face was covered with a thin layer of sweat because of the pain, her brows were trembling, and she involuntarily spit out some of the wine she drank before.

At this moment, her face was no longer as calm and charming as before, but a little embarrassed, but with a messy style.

Bei Dao Ya withdrew his fist and said.

"I wanted to do this a long time ago."