This thing about me becoming a girl

In the afternoon, Bei Daoya, who got off work from the Chinese restaurant, returned to the apartment. After opening the door, she didn't enter it immediately, but looked at the two pairs of shoes placed behind the door.

Is mom back yet? It's early today.

She looked at another pair of black short high heels, so who is this again.

The people in the room heard the sound of the door opening, and immediately a pair of light feet ran over.

He was clearly at his own home, but Bei Daojiu looked a little reserved, and his eyebrows, which were usually as soft as cotton candy, were slightly raised, which showed that the owner was restless in his heart at this time.

After seeing Bei Dao Ya, Bei Dao Jiuli immediately stepped forward and took that cool hand, feeling the warmth in her heart, and she breathed a sigh of relief, feeling at ease.

At this time, another person came out of the living room. It was a middle-aged woman with thick makeup, which made people frown uncomfortably, with a thick face.

She propped herself against the wall, looking at the two people who closed the door with tired eyes.

Bei Daojiu held Bei Daoya's hand tightly, lowered his eyebrows, and his timid and soft voice was a little unnatural.

"Little Crow...this is your grandmother."

75. Sunset cool

Ri Muliang sat lazily on the sofa, staring straight at the high-scoring variety show on TV, but there was no expression on his greasy white face covered with thick powder.

Her body slouching on the sofa didn't seem to have the slightest slack and comfort, but more decadence.

Bei Daojiu's father passed away not long after she was born, and her second stepmother disappeared immediately.

And the woman on the sofa was the biological mother who abandoned Bei Daojiu not long after she was born and ran away from that family.

Ryo Higurashi was dressed in a cool, deep V black body-fitting dress, with a section of thigh exposed at the slit of the skirt, and she was not wearing shoes, and her feet with nail polish fell quietly on the floor.

She took out a box of low-quality women's fine cigarettes from her bag, crossed her legs and turned her head to ask Bei Daoya on the sofa next to her.

"Can I smoke?"

The hoarse and deep smoke voice is not harsh, but has a special charm.

Bei Dao Ya didn't speak, but glanced at the kitchen where Bei Dao Jiu was cooking with the door closed.

Rimu Ryo lowered his eyebrows and smiled lightly, obviously his pale face was covered with thick powder, but somehow he felt a little charming.

She got up and walked slowly to the window, opened the curtains and opened the window, then turned her head and said to Bei Dao Ya.

"I'll smoke it before she comes out."

Hearing that Bei Dao Ya didn't bother with this question anymore, but asked lightly.

"How long are you going?"

Rimu Ryo lit the cigarette, put it between his fiery red lips, lowered his eyebrows and took a light breath.

For Bei Daoya to be so straightforward, even to drive her away in person, Ri Muliang didn't react much, and his face was still pale, with a slight sense of depression lingering between his brows.

"Ah..." She looked out the window and wanted to see the scenery, but this was only the second floor, and she couldn't see anything. The goal was the roofs and tall buildings in the distance. The sky was not too blue, and her sight seemed to be lost. free.

"Soon, I just came to Tokyo to avoid the limelight and I haven't found a place to live yet. I won't stay longer. Let's go for a few days. I will leave when I find a place to live."

There was nothing to see outside the window, so she looked back at Bei Dao Ya after she finished speaking, and smiled softly.

"Don't worry, I know your worries, and I won't stay long to remind your mother of that not-so-good childhood."

Hearing that Bei Dao Ya didn't talk, and when she was about to get up and go to the kitchen door as usual, she remembered what Bei Dao Jiu told her to stay with Hi Mu Liang in the living room, so she sat down again and watched TV quietly.

Ri Muliang seemed to have discovered another scenery. She looked at Bei Dao Ya's pale and cold side face, and she didn't know what to think of. She didn't come back to her senses for a long time, and she didn't move. The thin smoke between her fingers formed a long section. unshed soot.

After a tiny cracking sound, a long strand of smoke fell on the balcony, was blown away by the breeze, swirled in the air, and finally disappeared.

Rimu Ryo glanced at the kitchen, and after hearing the sound of chopping vegetables on the chopping board, she threw the cigarette butt into the smoke extinguisher she carried, and lit another one.

"How are you doing?"

I don't know why she asked like this, obviously she is not a person who would ask such questions, because she thinks that even if others are bad, it doesn't have a good relationship enough to tell you.

Perhaps it was because she didn't have a good relationship with anyone that she didn't ask this question.

However, Ryo Higurashi did not know the current situation of their mother and daughter at all. The last time they met was when Bei Dao Ya was just born.

Hearing that, Bei Dao Ya tilted his head and glanced at her, then spoke calmly.

"Ah, very good."

She didn't ask back, and turned back to watch the TV after she finished speaking.

"Ah, yes." Ri Muliang smiled softly: "That's good."

For some reason, even with thick powder on her face, she still couldn't cover up her slightly wrinkled smiling cheeks, making her look a bit lonely.

She obeyed what she just said, and after smoking the second cigarette, she went back to the sofa and watched TV, and she didn't smoke again until she had dinner.

The living room was strangely quiet, the two of them never communicated, only the loud and lively laughter sounded from the TV.

When eating, Bei Daojiu did not show special enjoyment as in the past to arouse the lively expression of Bei Daoya's appetite, but pursed his small mouth, a little reserved, and kept silent.

Every time after feeding Bei Dao Ya, she would stretch out her clean little hands timidly again, shrinking and constantly probing, wanting to feed Ri Mu, but she was afraid of being scolded.

She was at a loss. Ever since she could remember when she was a child, she had never seen her biological mother. The last time she saw her was when Bei Dao Ya was just born.

She didn't know how to get along with her at all, and she was terrified, so she could only learn to please her father like she did when she was a child, expressing her obedience.

Bei Daojiu subconsciously wanted to please her again, Himu Ryo looked at her uneasy appearance, and her eyes didn't know what she was thinking.

After a while, she smiled kindly, and grabbed the piece of meat from Bei Daojiu's probing chopsticks.

"Is it for me?"

Bei Daojiu shrank his neck suddenly, and said weakly, "Yes."

Himu Ryo clamped it over and said with a smile, "Thank you."

Then the meat and rice were slowly swallowed by her.

After this experience, Bei Daojiu was not as afraid as before, but he only pinched Higurashi Ryo once or twice, fearing that too much pinching would annoy her.

Higurashi Ryo didn't refuse either, and ate them all.

After the meal was finished, after Bei Daojiu cleaned up the dishes, the three of them sat in the living room watching the high-scoring laughing variety show without talking much.

At night, Bei Dao Jiu sleeps in Bei Dao Ya's Puli, leaving Ri Mu Liang in his bunk.

Obviously, the tip of the nose is full of comfortable and pleasant smells. In the past, Bei Daojiu should have fallen asleep peacefully at this time, but I don't know why tonight, but he couldn't close his eyes for a long time.

It's two or three o'clock, Hi Muliang is lying on the floor, his eyes are still looking straight at the ceiling, looking at this small house of others that he has never owned in his life.

It's amazing, it's amazing that I can have a house in Tokyo, even though it's a little small, it's not something I have ever owned.

She couldn't fall asleep, so she murmured: "Are you asleep?"

I don't know who I'm talking to.

As if it was brewing, after waiting for a while, a weak voice sounded.

"Not yet..not yet."

Ri Muliang tilted his head, and in the dark night, a pair of cowardly soft eyes were also looking at her.

Higurashi Ryo just wanted to make a sound, but saw the North Island Jay with its eyes closed.

She smiled and whispered, "Then let's go out and have a chat."

After she finished speaking, she got up, put on Bei Dao Ya's previous pajamas, and walked towards the door with light steps.

After hesitating for a moment, Bei Daojiu got up and followed.

Outside the apartment, Hi Mu Ryo stepped on the somewhat rough concrete floor with bare feet, and put his hands on the guardrail, looking out at the lonely street with only street lights on and no one walking.

Bei Daojiu clutched his pajamas and put them aside, looking a bit cautious.

Higurashi Ryo lit a thin cigarette and put it in her mouth. She had already removed the frowning heavy makeup before going to bed.

At this time, her complexion was a little yellow and dull, and there were many wrinkles, but under the night light, she could vaguely see the beauty of that year.

The night wind was blowing gently, and the choking smoke of inferior tobacco in Ri Muliang's hands drifted towards Bei Daojiu next to him.

She slowly changed positions and stood on the other side of Bei Dao Jiu.

But as soon as he stood up, the wind blew in a somewhat annoying direction, and the shredded tobacco drifted towards Bei Daojiu again.

For this situation, Ryo Higurashi was not impatient or angry, and still kept a calm face, but extinguished the thin smoke that had just been lit.

Ri Muliang has long been used to this kind of unsatisfactory feeling that he seems to be against him everywhere.

76. The Last Cedar and the Night Before the Action, Not Seen in Two Months

In the corridor in the middle of the night, Ri Muliang put out the cigarette and did not throw it away, but pressed it on his lips to have a good time.

"Her name is Bei Dao Ya, right?"

In response to Higurashi Ryo's sudden utterance, Bei Daojiu subconsciously shivered, then nodded and said, "Yes."

After she finished speaking, she thought of something again, and added in a low voice: "I'm 16 years old..."

"Ah..." Himu Ryo sighed softly, "Aren't you 16 years old already? It's so fast, the umbilical cord was just cut the last time we met."

She seemed to have returned to that night again, when the nurse held an ugly baby with a wrinkled face, and let the pale, almost collapsed girl on the hospital bed hold the baby's fingers.

Looking at this scene at that time, watching Bei Daojiu being careful and powerless, holding that little finger gently as if treating some fragile treasure, the indescribable smile appeared on his weak and haggard face.

For some reason, looking at the little hand holding the smaller finger, Higurashi Ryo sent Bei Dao Jiu a lot of knowledge about baby care and postpartum care, and then ran away as if running away.

Obviously this was the first meeting with Bei Daojiu after leaving that man back then, obviously we met for less than an hour, and obviously wanted to leave after Bei Daojiu recovered.

But she really didn't have the courage to see that scene again. After leaving all her savings, she never returned to that hospital.

And so far she has not figured out why Bei Dao Jiu chose to give birth to this child back then.

The father is unknown, and I am still a young girl. It is difficult to support myself. Although the various subsidies for childbirth are barely enough to cover the expenses during pregnancy, what about the subsequent upbringing?

But at present, it seems that Bei Dao Jiu has successfully raised Bei Dao Crow. Higurashi Ryo admires her very much. At the beginning, the 17-year-old extremely introverted girl who couldn't even support herself did not know how hard she worked. Come this far today.

And the smell on his body is not stained with vulgarity, it is still pure, not like himself.

But she still couldn't understand what caused Bei Daojiu to give birth to this child. Although she only went to the hospital for an hour, she also asked the doctor. The doctor said at the time that Bei Daojiu knew that she was pregnant. Very broken, I really wanted to kill this child, but in the end I didn't know why I changed my mind.

So what is the reason?