This thing about me becoming a girl

It is similar to the kind of secret small base that was built when I was a child. It is unrestrained. Not only can the external troubles not enter, but when encountering troubles, you can come to this place to pour them out.

It's a great place, so Shangshan has often come here these years. Even though he knew that it was the most obvious choice to pretend that the apartment didn't exist, he couldn't give up.

Facing that woman for a long time and pretending to be extremely doting made Shang Shanmu feel resentful and angry all the time. If it wasn't for this place, he might have been unable to bear the day-to-day depression. I'm a little nervous.

You may even forget your original intention and become truly obedient.

But fortunately there is such a place where he can clear it in time so that he can remember it.

How do you say that?Hatred is the driving force that stimulates people to move forward.

Shangshan felt right.

As long as he sees Bei Daojiu's face, he will remember the unbearable shame that ordinary people who often wake up from dreams can't bear.

The cause of this shame is Kitajima Jiu, the woman who held the knife.

Just thinking of Shang Shan will fill my heart with boundless haze and resentment.

For both Bei Daojiu's and that woman's.

And Bei Daojiu has been "paying off debts", and that woman is almost there.

That's why he was in a good mood today, he didn't come here to vent his troubles as usual, but the visitor was nearby, and he suddenly remembered after leaving.

During this period of time, he never thought about this apartment. After all, it went smoothly, so naturally he didn't encounter anything worthy of coming here.

Today I suddenly remembered and stopped by, as a short break.

After all, he has been busy during this time and has no time to rest, but only the rest here can make him feel truly happy, in various senses.

It's just a pity that Bei Dao Jiu is not here tonight, and he doesn't have that extremely cowardly cheek to satisfy Kaesugi's sadism.

Although he didn't come to tonight to be sadistic, but just looking at it can make me happy.

As for poor?I'm sorry, Shangshanmu never felt that there was anything pitiful about Bei Daojiu, nor did she feel that there was anything wrong with her behavior, it was all because of her own fault.

Even if Bei Daojiu didn't know what happened at all, he just silently endured the suffering that befalls him for no apparent reason.

She didn't do anything wrong at all, but disasters kept coming to her one after another.

In the end, the reason is because she is too weak, like a dog's tail on the side of the road, with a low life, anyone can step on it.

However, no one has ever explored why this dogtail grass is so cheap and weak.

Just like you can't understand why those poor people are so miserable, why don't you stand up and resist at least there is a chance.

In fact, why don't they not understand you? With such a good fate, you can stand on a high ground and persuade yourself to resist.

After all, the environment and encounters affect people's behavior. In severe cases, even thoughts are imprisoned tightly, like a strong shackle, even if it is just a piece of wood, they dare not break it.

Who knows whether it will become better or worse after breaking it, at least it is still alive.

Bei Daojiu is such a person who just wants to maintain the status quo. Although she will be beaten and scolded, she has been used to this kind of thing since she was a child. The doctor who visited the doctor the next time explained that it is only a few steps away from becoming mentally ill, which is normal, after all, it has a medical history of more than 20 years.

But she also felt that it didn't matter.

She has been taking medicine, but she has always been out of the sight of the North Island crow, and only the dark and narrow storage room knows her anxiety.

Maybe it's already serious, but for Bei Daojiu, if he maintains the status quo, at least he can still be with Bei Daoyue. He keeps everything in his heart and doesn't affect Bei Daoyue. Together, isn't that all right?

And if you resist, no one knows whether it will develop in a good or bad direction.

Not to mention that she didn't have the courage to resist, even if she did, what would she, an ordinary woman, do to resist a rich man's son-in-law?

Kitajima Jiu's expectations are few and easily met.

Shang Shanmu can eat less, it is better not to come, the crow can eat more meat, it is best to eat it, the crow can be healthy and gain weight is the best.

It would be best if I could earn more money, give Xiaoya good conditions to grow up happily, stay together all the time, and die before her in the end.

Of course, Uesugi doesn't know what Bei Daojiu is thinking, nor does he know what his actions have brought to her, and he doesn't bother to know.

Anyway, in his mind, it was all the retribution Bei Daojiu deserved.

It's a pity that Bei Daojiu is not here today, he can't enjoy the fun brought to him by that frightened little face with pursed lips, trembling expression, trying to control not to cry.

But even though she wasn't there, there was one more person.

The apartment is small with nowhere to hide except for the space in the kitchen toilet storage room.

Ever since Shang Shanmu came in and sat on the sofa, the North Island Crow has not moved until the door closes.

She lowered her eyebrows, her cold and delicate cheeks were as pale as water, and her dark eyes were calm.

Bei Dao Crow overestimated herself. She once thought that she could maintain a calm mind when facing Shang Shanmu. Only with calm can she not make mistakes due to impulsiveness.

But that was just a thought, she still overestimated herself.

Just as she once said, during this period of time, the North Island crow has become accustomed to all the senses of the body, unlike at the beginning, it is not clear about the limit of movements it can bear.

With a knife, even if Shang Shanmu has a strong body, as long as he is within three meters of him, everything will be over.

But this is unrealistic.

Just controlling the hands and feet that wanted to go to the kitchen to open the cupboard at this time, Bei Dao Ya almost tried his best to suppress it.

But even with such psychological ups and downs, her expression was still cold, extraordinarily cold.

From the position where Shangshan is sitting on the sofa, you can see the North Island Jay inside the gate.

The passage of time did not bring too many marks on his cheeks, but on the contrary, there was some unspeakable temperament in his handsome appearance.

He looked at Bei Dao Ya, his own daughter, with some vague influence.

A layer of very thick bangs, the temperament is very gloomy, and the waist can't be straightened no matter what.

But that's clearly not the case now, has something changed during this time?

Even if it is his own daughter, he has never cared about it. Perhaps the only use is to tie Bei Dao Jiu. Every time he just mentions where his daughter is, Bei Dao Jiu will immediately become extremely obedient and not cheat. He was beaten obediently without crying, and sobbed in a small way.

It's very useful, but it's just this useful thing that showed its minions to me last time.

Uesugi still remembered that night when he was about to slap Bei Daojiu, the hostility that erupted from that thin figure sent chills down his spine.

It was like being in the forest at night, with the feeling of erect hairs of an unknown bared-toothed beast staring at his back.

Shang Shanmu knew very well that Bei Dao Ya wanted to kill himself at that moment, but he didn't take it to heart.

There are many people who deserve to be tabooed by Shanmu, but among them there will never be a thin and powerless 16-year-old girl who seems to be able to poke her fingers.

What can you do if you hate yourself?

Even if he faced himself with a knife last time, could that thin body that would break at a single break bring any danger to himself who has been exercising all the year round with a knife?

No, Shang Shanmu didn't feel that the North Island crow could bring her any threat at all.

On the contrary, it’s okay to hate yourself, the more you hate, the better. Slowly experience this feeling of being extremely hated but powerless. It’s all because of your mother’s fault.

He leaned on the sofa and looked at the silent North Island Jay in the door, with teasing eyes.

If it was the past, when Bei Daojiu was not around and no one could vent, Uesugi would not mind letting his "daughter" feel the fear from himself that he had never had before.

But today, as he said before, he was in a good mood, so he didn't bother to pay attention.

Originally, he just wanted to take a break along the way. After all, he had to face the face that he wanted to tear apart when he returned home. It might affect his mood. Tomorrow is a very important day, so he should relax his mind.

Shang Shanmu is in an excellent mood at this time.

I have swallowed my anger for more than ten years, bearing the hatred and shame that are biting my mind all the time, isn't it just for tomorrow.

Bow down, I have been a dog for more than ten years, just for tomorrow.

Tomorrow's appointment can be said to be the brainchild of Shang Shanmu's dedication.

Once he took office, the old man had already let go, and he would climb up quickly until he got revenge.

Everything is going forward according to the plan, and I will finally take revenge, and I will come to Sawamura and ride on the heads of those who looked down on me at the beginning.

And now more than half of this plan has been completed, which took him 16 years.

And all the conditions for the completion of the remaining half have been prepared. As long as you take office tomorrow, you will be able to realize your ambition in a very short period of time.

Isn't that something to be happy about?

Shangshanmu is very happy, extremely happy, he has already opened up all the relationships, except for the old man, there is nothing that can stop him from taking office now.

And after taking office, he will do well, and will not let people pick out any faults.

Just like what he said to the vice president of Banqiao Senhua yesterday, business will be very good on June 6, especially good, including before the president has not been promoted in a short period of time, Banqiao Senhua Huadu is the bank with the best business in Tokyo.

This is all the confidence brought by his connections for more than ten years.

As long as he spends the most important part of the plan tomorrow, no one can stop him until his ambition is realized.

No, it should be impossible to stop it, unless a meteorite falls on Banqiao Senhua tomorrow.

But is it possible?impossible.

But in other words, so what if there is?The result is still the same.

Since the old man said to give himself a chance, he would definitely do it. As long as he didn't make a mistake and didn't grasp it well, without Banqiao Senhua, he would still give himself West Bridge Senhua and Nanqiao Senhua.

Tomorrow is the result of all his hard work and expectations, so he does not allow any mistakes.

And during those two months, any factors that might have affected his appointment had been ironed out.

Hatred and ambition .. all blood will soon be satisfied.

Just thinking about the rewards of years of hard work, Shang Shanmu feels happy after a long absence, and when he closes his eyes, his mind is full of tomorrow's scenes, so he naturally doesn't bother to pay attention to Bei Dao Ya.

He needs to relax, adjust his mentality, and use his best appearance to present the highlight moment of his life tomorrow, taking a shortcut to the top.

He leaned on the sofa and closed his eyes to rest, while Bei Daoya stood in front of the door without moving, speaking, or changing his expression.

After more than half an hour, Shang Shanmu looked at the time on his watch.

It's time to go back. I have to go to the bank at six o'clock tomorrow. I can't be late for the first handover.

There was a smile on the corner of his mouth, and then he got up and walked towards the door, walked past Bei Dao Ya, and opened the door to leave without even looking at her.

But at this moment, Bei Dao Ya followed up, and he turned his head when he heard the footsteps.

Bei Daoya stood in front of the door with a thin and thin body, expressionless and silent, just quietly looking at the back, as if watching him leave.

Her pitch-black eyes didn't fluctuate, didn't fluctuate, they were as dead as if there was nothing but darkness at the bottom of the lake.

Shang Shanmu glanced at her, then turned around and entered the stairs and went downstairs.