This thing about me becoming a girl

It's not that I'm afraid of death, I just don't think I should die for such a trivial matter.

Although I have received the same education since I was a child, I have been instilled with the value of treating everything as a battle, and going all out to fight for my own honor.

But Mari Aoi Sawamura doesn't think that honor is such a superficial thing. People in the clan seem to be fighting for prestige, and outsiders look at their own prestige rather than fighting for their own honor.

Sawamura Mari Aoi felt that what people in the clan pursued was not honor, but reputation.

The real honor lies in one's own heart, not in others' opinions.

Especially when she was a child, after one of her uncles performed seppuku for honor, Mariko Sawamura's doubts reached a peak.

She did not understand why she should inflict upon others the injury which the honor of her own faith had caused.

She just thinks it's not an honor, it's a twisted honor.

Honor cannot be sought, and any pursuit of honor is futile.

The young Sawamura Mari Aoi questioned the values ​​she had accepted since she was a child, and she was still a little panicked.

So she told her father.

But the imaginary scolding didn't come. My father just said that other clansmen pursue honors full of prestige, but you pursue honors that accomplish nothing.

You were born in the wrong era, and your honor, which used to shine, only hurts now.

But you are right.

Having been affirmed, Sawamura Mari Aoi went to another path, which is the same as Sawamura Bushido, but different.

Father called it "Knight's Way."

Aoi Xiaozheng is ignorant and doesn't quite understand, so her father guided her a lot.

But such a gentle father is now facing trouble.

So Sawamura Mari Aoi decided to meet her grandfather by herself.

Every other week, my grandfather would take one day to teach himself kendo, and the next time he taught himself would be tomorrow.

Sawamura Mari Aoi is full of energy!I am ready to show that I have improved tomorrow!Then let the grandfather forgive the father!

But thinking about how to show that she has made progress made Sawamura Mari Aoi feel a little distressed.

Because he was always beaten, no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't hold the sword in his hand for more than ten seconds.

It's been like this for a few years, it's like there's no progress at all.

But the strange thing is that it's not that there is no progress at all. The opponents who were barely fighting last year have been easily defeated this year. Those who were once regarded as strong have now been defeated one by one.

But when he faced his grandfather, he still seemed to be no different from when he first held the sword and was instructed.

The reason my grandfather gave for this was.

"Chivalry, the same noble spirit, you have a loyal and unswerving soul that is consistent with chivalry, so I will not stop you from pursuing it.

But the chivalry you believe in is false, vulnerable, and too easy to collapse.

You hold a sword for the chivalry you believe in, but your belief is a fake. Such a sword cannot face me.

When you understand the essence of your path, if you can shape the rebirth of your original heart, you will truly become stronger. Otherwise, it will be a short-lived fall and disappear from the public.

Thinking of her grandfather's words, Sawamura Mari Aoi slowly chewed on the half of the mousse left, and raised her face.

She still couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence.

She asked about her heart, thinking about her honor.

I just don't want to see weak tears.

Although this is an unrealistic honor, Sawamura Mari Aoi still pursues it as best she can.

96. Learn to protect yourself, mom

At the dinner table, Bei Dao Crow was eating dinner slowly, with her feet stretched out in the space under the kotatsu. She liked the warm feeling very much.

Because of the cold body of Bei Dao Crow, and even though it is already June, the weather will still be a little cold in the morning and evening, so Bei Dao Jiu has not removed the kotatsu for a long time.

But compared to the enjoyment of Bei Daojiu, the kotatsu in June was a bit too warm for Bei Daojiu.

Under the quilt, her legs were very close to those of the Bei Dao Crow, her smooth surface was stained with sweat, and her face was also glowing red.

Seeing her panting slightly, Bei Daoya said softly: "Remove the kotatsu, this weather is no longer needed."

"No, my mother likes this feeling very much. I am sweating while eating, and I want to take a long breath. There is an inexplicable and refreshing feeling, just like the atmosphere of the mountain pot."

After finishing speaking, she picked a piece of tempura shrimp for Bei Daoya who was sitting opposite, and then wiped the sweat-soaked hair around her ears, smiling brightly.

"And the wind is still a bit cold in the morning and evening, so let's wait a while before withdrawing."

The heat made her originally fair face glow with a bright rosy color. On her neck, fine sweat droplets also flowed on her neck. Coupled with a bright smile, she seemed to be able to smell the gentleness from a distance. Luscious breath.

In fact, it is quite hot today, there is no cloud, the sky is bright and dazzling, the sun hangs high all day long, and it feels hot to look at.

After all, it's June, and it's been a long time since the mild climate during the cherry blossom season. Although it hasn't reached the hottest time of the year, it's gradually approaching it.

In fact, Bei Dao Ya has mentioned to Bei Dao Jiu more than once that he does not need a kotatsu, but every time the answer he gets is that he will withdraw after a while.

Bei Daoya knew very well what Bei Daoya was thinking. He wanted to wait until she was sweating, and the weather was so hot that her daughter couldn't bear the heat before removing the kotatsu.

Because of the coolness of the body, the North Island crow can always feel the warmth more clearly when it touches warm things, and the skin it touches is numb and crispy, which makes people feel very comfortable and happy, so she also likes this kind of feeling.

Bei Daojiu is also very aware of this. Knowing that her daughter likes warmth, she will always sit on the sofa and watch TV quietly, holding a hot water cup, not drinking much, just holding it alone, just enjoying the A warm feeling in the palm of your hand.

This is also the reason why she didn't remove the kotatsu, she wanted to wait until the Kitajima Jako was sweating and showed that she felt that the kotatsu was a little hot, instead of taking it off when she just said it out like now.

During this period of time, watching her face covered with sweat every time she ate, Bei Daoya had mentioned many times that she would not use the kotatsu, but was rejected.

Bei Daojiu, who is soft-tempered, is always very stubborn every time it concerns himself.

But the sultry heat of the kotatsu didn't make Bei Daojiu feel bored, on the contrary, he was very happy.

Because she likes this feeling of devotion to her daughter, and feels that Bei Dao Ya is being taken care of by herself, so she can be very happy.

After all, it was because of the belief that "there is still a daughter to take care of" that she stumbled all the way to where she is today.

Bei Daoya saw the joy she showed in enjoying it, so after being rejected a few times, she didn't intend to mention it again.

Bei Daojiu kept looking at the dishes in the bowl of Bei Dao Ya, watching the food gradually piled up in the bowl, Bei Dao Ya had to upgrade the way of eating slowly, so as to destroy the food faster, so as not to get cold.

At this time, Bei Dao Jiu would always look at her with a face full of happiness.

She was waiting, waiting for the little crow to become fat, and by that time, the great sense of happiness would probably overwhelm her directly.

One of Bei Daojiu's wishes is to experience the feeling of rubbing her chubby face when Xiao Ya gets fat.

As for how much you want to experience it, it's similar to how some teenagers want to see the maid showing her fat times with disgust and indifference!

Just thinking about it, Bei Dao Jiu can be so excited that he can cook for days and nights.

But it's a pity that the little crow doesn't have a big appetite, so he can only raise it slowly.

fine!Bei Dao Jiu has a lot of patience!

Today, Bei Dao Jiu is also working hard towards the goal of realizing his wish!

She rested her chin and looked at the Bei Dao crow, as if she had already imagined the appearance of a chubby crow in her mind, and she couldn't help being immersed in her imagination.

The face must be soft when you rub it, and it must be comfortable to sleep with it in your arms. The most important thing is that it can become healthy.

nice~

She is really looking forward to it.

In fact, the most important reason why she was so obsessed with making the North Island crow grow meat was that the skinny little crow made her feel bad.

However, judging from the current food intake, although it is not large, it can definitely grow meat slowly!

And take care of your health, don't be too hasty, the doctor also said that you need to take care of the little crow's foundation slowly, in short, according to the current progress, one day you will definitely become a fat little crow!Maybe 130 is no longer a delusion!

Thinking of this, Bei Daojiu began to perform with great energy.

"Hey! This is delicious~ Little Crow also has one! Come on!? This one is even more delicious! Another one! Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!"

Bei Daojiu closed her eyes and held her cheeks with both hands, chewing her cheeks, her small face was full of blissful bliss.

Whenever she expresses excitedly that the food is delicious, the little feet in the kotatsu will kick back and forth a few times.

Feeling the little feet rubbing against his thigh again, looking at the food in the bowl, in fact, Bei Dao Crow could hardly eat any more, but seeing Bei Dao Jiu's full of interest, he couldn't say anything.

Forget it, let's eat some more.

At this time, news about Banqiao Senhua being robbed on June 6 was broadcast on TV.

After two days of fermentation, everyone in the country who has access to the Internet knows about this matter, and it is discussed everywhere, and the number of posts about this matter on the Internet is also increasing day by day, especially in the current situation where the police have no clue. This kind of discussion heated up more and more.

Hearing the news, Bei Daojiu's expression was unnatural for a moment, but he quickly returned to his original state.

"According to the police, the gang is likely to be a professional gang, with a clear division of labor and strict internal discipline. Just yesterday, the bodies of two suspected suspects were found, which added to the investigation of the case. Doubtful.

However, with the involvement of the Search Division and the Organized Crime Countermeasure Department, after two days of investigation, significant progress has been made, and relevant evidence has been collected. The police promised to bring this event that endangered public order to a perfect conclusion. The criminal finally They will be brought to justice and judged by the law. "

Then the TV screen switched to four different portraits.

"These four are members of a criminal gang, and the one wearing a skull hood is the leader of the robbers.

If you have seen this dress, or have seen their whereabouts, please contact the police immediately. The information you provide may be an important clue to solve this important case. "

The news ended here, and Bei Daojiu didn't show anything unusual, but his smile was a little shallower.

Bei Dao Ya asked, "You seem to have something on your mind, Mom."

Hearing this, Bei Daojiu immediately shook his head: "Why does Little Crow feel that way? Although you are worried about your mother and make her happy, you really have nothing to worry about."

The North Island Crow didn't respond to this, and his expression remained calm.

She also picked up a tempura shrimp for Bei Daojiu before she said softly.

"My mother is always like this. She always hides things from me. She hides in her heart and doesn't say anything. She doesn't reveal it. She bears it alone, thinking that it won't affect others.

I didn't blame my mother, because I know that my mother is a very gentle person, thinking about me in everything, but why not, I always miss my mother.

Just like my mother doesn't want me to hide my worries, I will tell you what troubles I have, and we can solve them together.

I am the same, I also want my mother to tell me the troubles, because in fact, the feeling of being unable to do anything is quite unpleasant.

Mom, you can trust me too, we are supposed to share everything, shouldn't we. "