Confession

Adults probably have been worrying about it for the first second, and will wipe away their tears and devote themselves to work in the next second. After washing his hands, Xu Sui went to the hospital to call, saying that her patient had a sudden onset of symptoms. .

Xu Sui turned off the faucet, took out a tissue, wiped his face and hurried back to the hospital.

As soon as he walked out, the winter scene was bleak, with only ice crystals on the leaves.

It wasn't until early morning that Xu Sui came home and fell asleep.

The temperature is not like what the weather forecast said. The warming up for a week, the warmth lasted less than two days, the cold air turned sharply, and it was invaded. On the third day, a blizzard began to fall in the north of Beijing. December officially arrived, indicating that 2020 is about to end. .

Xu Sui has been on night shift recently. Because of Blizzard, a bus overturned accident occurred on Chengzhan Road in the middle of the night.

At 5:32 in the morning, heavy snow flew outside, and occasionally the pine branches were bent and the snow fell on the ground with a "pop" sound. The operating room was quiet and silent, only the instruments made a slow, mechanical ticking sound.

In the operating room, Xu Sui was wearing a blue sterile gown and received a patient whose abdominal aorta ruptured due to a car accident. Even after staying up all night, a pair of eyes remained awake and calm.

"Suture the incision in the abdominal wall." Xu Sui said wearing a mask.

After the operation, Xu Sui took a look. The patient's blood flow in both feet was normal. He finally let out a sigh of relief, and said warmly, "Transfer to ICU for monitoring and treatment."

"Everyone has worked hard." Xu Sui breathed a sigh of relief, and a smile finally appeared on his face that had been strained all night.

"Doctor Xu, you have worked hard too."

Xu Sui walked off the operating table, took off the disposable medical mask and protective gloves and threw them into the trash can, stepped on the induction door of the operating room, turned left into the bathroom, washed his hands, changed into a white coat, and walked out.

Once a person's nerves relax, the body will feel sore afterwards. Xu Sui felt that his arms were too tired to lift up, and his shoulder and neck were also painful.

Xu Sui raised his hand and rubbed his neck, and was walking forward absentmindedly. Suddenly, a sturdy man with old clothes and curled sleeves came out in front of him. He had a green beard and a bald head. He used a pair of bloodshot eyes viciously. Staring at Xu Sui:

"Is Dr. Shen Linqing in the surgery room?"

Xu Sui raised his eyes and looked at the man in front of him. He was holding a card in his hand, enlarging it with red paint and writing-Doctor Devil, murder for life.

It's like a cry of blood.

The expression on his face was sad, but it was more of the anger of losing his relatives, and his whole body exuded a sense of paranoia.

The doctor-patient relationship is the most common and difficult to mediate relationship in hospitals.

"It's not time for work yet." Xu Sui replied.

After speaking, Xu Sui inserted his pocket and was about to pass the middle-aged man. Unexpectedly, the other party intercepted Xu Sui's arm, obviously irritated by her indifferent attitude: "What the **** do you mean?"

"Just two days ago, in your hospital, my old lady was a living person who said no, she was gone! I **** squatted during the day and night, and I didn’t see anyone. The surname Shen won’t hide, right? You have to do it today. Give me an explanation."

The middle-aged man pulled her forward, and Xu Sui was staggered and hit the wall, frowning with pain. He clenched harder and harder, and his tone was excited: "You all will pay for Lao Tzu!"

"Doesn't doctors save people? You call negligence, understand? A bunch of trash!"

"Led by Shen Linqing, he is a murderous madman!"

"I'm dead!"

The passing nurse screamed in fright and immediately called the security and colleagues to separate the two. Xu Sui was shaken by the middle-aged man for about ten minutes. He felt nauseated and he was almost vomiting.

Xu Sui was dragged behind the security guard. When the middle-aged man abused the medical staff and greeted their ancestors and his family, she finally spoke:

"Your mother was admitted to Puren Hospital half a month ago. The doctor made a wrong diagnosis because the family concealed the patient’s medical history. After the error was caused, the doctor re-designed the plan and tried his best to treat the patient. Passed away."

Xu Sui's voice is always not cold, and seems to be explaining one thing: "Doctors have the responsibility and obligation to do their best to save people, but there is no loss of life."

"Sorrow." Xu Sui retracted his gaze and left the hospital corridor with his pockets in his pockets.

Exhausted, Xu Sui went straight back to the office to make up his sleep. He fell asleep on his desk and had a dream. The face of the patient's family member in the dream coincided with the faces in the sealed memory.

The family looked at her and Xu's mother aloft, condemning and full of resentment:

"Your dad is dereliction of duty, understand?"

Xu Sui suddenly woke up from his dream, with a cold sweat on his back. It wasn't until she heard the small chats from colleagues around her that her thoughts gradually returned. It turned out that it was eight o'clock in the morning, and a new day had arrived.

Xu Sui hurriedly ate breakfast and went out to fill out the class form, but he did not expect to meet the teacher who had been taking him with him in the corridor, Director Zhang.

"Xiao Xu, just finished the night shift?" the other party asked her.

"Yes," Xu Sui nodded, looking at the director as if he had something to say, he took the initiative to ask, "Teacher, what do you want?"

"Your remarks this morning have all come to me. Why are you still directly talking to the patient's family?" The director hesitated for a while, and changed his tone, "Don't irritate him, especially now the doctors and patients When the relationship is so tense."

"Okay, I see, thank you teacher." Xu Sui said.

After the director left, Xu Sui put his hands in his pockets and thought as he walked forward. It is estimated that the teacher hasn't said the last half of the sentence yet, so he wants to mention that she has no compassion for being a doctor.

Xu Sui does not regret telling the true facts to the patient's family last night, nor is he afraid of deliberate revenge.

Because they did not neglect their duties, they have done their best as doctors.

In the afternoon of the next day, Xu Suizuo's surgical outpatient department, she was sitting in front of the computer, using the mouse to drag the patient's appointment page and time point. She glanced at ten lines and glanced over the web page. When she saw a certain name, her gaze was stunned.

Zhou Jingze, 28 years old, appointment time 4:30-5:00.

Why is he here?

Xu Suizheng thought secretly, and there was a sound at the door. Nurse He held a stack of medical records, retracted her knocking hand, and said, "Doctor Xu, it's about to start."

"Good." Xu Sui's voice was soft.

Sitting at the desk, Xu Sui patiently and responsibly received patient after patient. She lowered her head, the broken hair fell to her forehead, stretched out her hand and hooked it. At this moment, there was a rhythmic knock on the door.

"In." Xu Sui said.

After speaking, she raised her head and saw Zhou Jingze appear in front of her, with a loose coat hanging in her arms, her eyelids were slightly drooping, and her dark and narrow eyes seemed to lack a little light, but he still rushed to follow her. Picked the corner of his lips.

Xu Suixin contracted, she looked away and asked, "Why is it uncomfortable?"

"I was repairing the plane at the base a few days ago, and my back was smashed by parts." Zhou Jingze said lightly.

Xu Sui nodded and said that she knew that she checked Zhou Jingze's injuries. Fortunately, it was a skin injury. She gave him a medicine list and handed it over:

"Go to the window to queue up to get the medicine, come back and tell you about the usage."

"Well, thank you doctor." Zhou Jingze's voice was polite and regular.

After the person left, the aggressive, bitter breath also disappeared into the air. Xu Sui took a sigh of relief, leaning his head on the back of the chair, feeling that his chest was choked, and he couldn't breathe.

Xu Sui lowered her head and continued to write the case report. When she wrote a wrong word and was about to cross it out, a shadow fell over the table. She thought it was Zhou Jingze who had come back, without raising her head, and asked:

"I'm back so soon?"

No one answered, Xu Suiyin felt something was wrong, and when he was about to open the drawer to get the phone inside, the other party slapped her palm quickly, and Xu Sui Chi frowned in pain.

Before the person could react, the other party pulled Xu's follower up from the stool, clamped her whole body, and took out a fruit knife with his right hand and pressed it against her throat.

"What are you doing?" Xu Sui's tone was calm and his expression didn't panic at all.

But in fact, only she knows that a layer of sweat is already coming out of her palms.

The man snorted coldly and spoke word by word, with a vicious tone: "Of course you want to bury my old lady."

The man is a bald head, wearing a shabby blue down jacket, his body is strong, and Xu Sui can't move a bit when he is clamped by him.

"I locked the door for Lao Tzu."

The man put a sharp blade on Xu Sui's throat, and moved forward an inch in a demonstration. The white skin layer immediately seeped blood.

Xu Sui nodded, and the two of them walked in the direction of the door one after the other, with bald heads and serious expressions. They looked at the door warily, for fear that someone would knock on the door in the next second.

When Xu Sui took advantage of the tension in the opponent's nerves and focused his attention on the door, he slammed an elbow back, hitting the vital part of his heart, and let go with a bald hum.

She squatted down and fled in a hurry, her heart about to jump to her throat.

"Fuck, your mother, bitch!" The bald spit on the ground fiercely.

Seeing that Xu Sui's hand just touched the doorknob, his scalp was stinging, and the man grabbed her hair and pulled it back fiercely. He held a knife in his right hand and tried to chop her. Xu struggled hard.

The two of them made a quick "hiss" sound during the dispute. The clothes were cut fiercely, and the knife cut her abdomen. Xu Sui frowned, and slowly squatted down, feeling the blood constantly pouring out of the abdomen, and it was painful to say no. Come out a sentence.

She had just performed an abdominal surgery on the patient in the middle of the night two days ago, and today she was cut on her abdomen by the patient’s family.

The man's eyes blushed, and he picked Xu Sui's collar again to lift him up. The sunlight came over, folded on the blade, and folds out an extreme cold light.

When the bald man was about to hold the knife against Xu Sui's throat, a violent attack hit him. Someone kicked his hands and feet behind him. With a "slap", the fruit knife was kicked into the air.

Xu Sui clutched his abdomen, struggling to look up. Zhou Jingze didn't know when he appeared in front of him, his heart trembled, and he was wrestling with the bald man with his bare hands with a calm face.

Zhou Jingze slammed a fist, and blood leaked from the corner of the bald man's mouth. He was about to step forward when he made up another kick. Zhou Jingze subdued his bald head on the ground, stepped on the position of his chest, pulled him by the collar, and beat him to death.

He had a cold face and a thick gloom under his eyes, like an Ashura in hell, beating the murderer as he was dying, and he was unaware of the redness and bleeding on the back of his hand.

Xu Sui had no doubt that he would beat that man to death.

Xu quickly moved to the desk, panting and pressing the emergency button.

The bald man was beaten up with nosebleeds and his face was swollen and still laughed loudly. His eyes were staring at Zhou Jingze, strangely like a pervert. Suddenly, he threw a folding knife from his sleeve and pointed it sharply. Zhou Jingze's hand slashed over, and the dark red blood spewed out immediately.

Xu Sui's pupils shrank violently, and the whole person was irritated and fainted.

Twenty minutes later, Xu Sui woke up lying in the hospital bed, opened his eyes, and found that the colleagues were all around her, with a look of concern, and asked one after another:

"Doctor Xu, is there anything wrong with you? Is there any discomfort?"

"Doctor Xu, although the wound on your abdomen is long, it is very shallow, and it is not a major problem. Fortunately, it was not your hand that was injured."

"But it really chilled the hearts of our doctors, and the suspect has been arrested."

Sensitively catching the word "hand", Xu Sui's eyelids quivered, she struggled to get up from the hospital bed, affected the wound nerve, and frowned.

Xu Suiwan asked with a pale face, "Where is him?"

The colleague was stunned for a moment before he realized: "Is that the handsome guy who was just righteous and brave? I'm dressing up the wound next door."

"I'm going to see him." Xu Sui coughed, lifted the quilt and walked on.

Zhou Jingze was sitting on the edge of the hospital bed. At this moment, the dusk had completely disappeared, and there was pitch black and endless darkness behind him. He was biting the gauze on the back of his hand and wanted to tie a knot.

Zhou Jingze was staring down at the blood oozing on the gauze. Suddenly, a pair of white hands gently tore off the gauze he was holding on to his teeth. He let go and lifted his thin eyelids to look at Xu Sui in front of him.

Xu Sui lowered his eyes and was bandaging him.

"You go to rest," Zhou Jingze said, catching a glimpse of her silent and strange expression, and smiled casually, "I'm fine with this hand, it doesn't matter if I have something, and I won't be able to fly a plane in the future."

unimportant.

"Fart," Xu Sui said.

Xu Sui looked gentle and well-behaved, and suddenly screamed an swear word. He really didn't react. He laughed lowly, and laughed louder behind him, and even his chest was filled with a pleasant tremor.

Hey, how can anyone say swear words so cute and not lethal at all.

Zhou Jingze was still laughing, but Xu Sui's eyes gradually became wet. He lowered his neck and saw a pair of almond eyes reddening. He stopped the laughter and looked at her:

"Why are you like a faucet, eh?"

"I'm really fine, I just teased you," Zhou Jingze raised his eyes and said helplessly, "I really... there is nothing you can do about it."

After Xu Sui finished work, Zhou Jingze said that he would take her home, and said that she was worried about her alone. Xu Sui nodded and agreed.

Along the way, the two were sitting in the back of the taxi, and the gap in the middle showed their sense of distance, and they were relatively speechless. The scenery outside the car window went backwards, the warm yellow street lights and the dark red neon staggered past. There were a few times when Xu opened his mouth to talk, but when his heart reached his throat, he couldn't say anything.

When she reached the downstairs of Xu Sui's house, she opened the door and got out of the car. Thinking of something, she knocked on the window again and said, "I have an ointment in my house to reduce the scar. Come up."

"Yes." Zhou Jingze nodded.

The two came to the door of Xu Sui's house in tandem. Xu Sui opened the door and walked in. He pressed the switch on the wall and made a "slap". The warm lights poured out like the rising tide of sea water.

"You sit here first, I'll look for it." Xu Sui took off his coat.

Zhou Jingze nodded and sat on the sofa, Xu Sui was wearing a white sweater, pulling green rabbit fur slippers, looking for ointment back and forth in the living room and bedroom.

After about ten minutes, Xu Sui collapsed a little and said, "Strange, I obviously put it here."

"Sit down," Zhou Jingze stood up, put his hands on the sides of his trouser pockets, and raised his chin at her. "You can tell me a few obvious places, and I'll find them for you."

Xu Sui talked about a few places where he usually put things, sat down, and poured himself a glass of water. She took two sips, and after a while, Zhou Jingze hugged a medicine box with his finger and walked slowly in front of her.

"Found it?" Xu Sui raised his eyes.

Zhou Jingze did not speak. He squatted down on one knee, opened the medicine box, took out the gauze and medicine inside, and said slowly, "Wrap it up."

Xu Sui realized that she had been tossing back and forth just now, affecting the wound on her abdomen, and the white sweater had faintly leaked blood.

It turned out that he was going to get her gauze.

Xu Sui nodded, and rolled up the corner of the sweater with his fingers, revealing a white greasy waist and abdomen, and white gauze wrapped around the slender waist. Going up, he vaguely saw something similar to a tattoo in black.

When Xu Suiru wakes up from the dream, he reacts and immediately pulls his clothes down.

But it was too late.

A stronger brute force grabbed her, and a hand with distinct bones and clear blue blood vessels on the back of the hand covered Xu Sui's back, preventing her from pulling her clothes down.

Xu Sui lowered his eyes, stubbornly pulling down.

Zhou Jingze refused.

It was like a silent confrontation.

The wind outside the window was very strong, and the night was quiet, as if the end of the world was coming, and they were sitting in an indivisible boat. Obviously sat opposite, just looking around.

The nostalgia and obsession hidden deep in my heart, like a net, is hooked out.

It burns on the touch.

Zhou Jingze held a calm face, clenched her hand, and yanked up forcefully. With a "hiss", the clothes were completely opened, and his hand happened to be on her chest.

The white skin was exposed, and there were fine pimples. She has a tattoo on her ribs on the underside of her chest. A string of Greek has a letter Z added, and the outside is made up of a string of snakes and lotus flowers.

This is Zhou Jingze's young and frivolous tattoo on the back of his hand, with a distinctive sign of personal arrogance.

Xu Sui actually re-engraved it on himself.

She is obviously a girl who is afraid of pain.

Zhou Jingze remembered the night when the two of them had just been together in the university and played a frank game in the snow-capped mountains.

"It's me," Xu Sui stretched out his five fingers and shook in front of his eyes, trying to get Zhou Jingze back to his senses. "What is the more pity you think?"

"The tattoo on the back of my hand is washed off." Zhou Jingze said casually.

She silently wrote down Zhou Jingze's words, and finally said nothing, nodded.

The tattoo that regrettably disappeared on the back of the boy's hand has now appeared in front of him again.

Z&Heliotrope means being bright and being born in the sun. He wants to live bright and upright.

The tattoo on Xu Sui's rib is Heliotrope&ZJZ, which in Greek means always facing the sun and born towards Zhou Jingze.

Hope that the loving boy will always be enthusiastic.

Still love the boy passionately forever.

Tattooing a person's name on the most painful rib is the pious heart sutra of a girl.

Zhou Jingze couldn't tell the difference. He stared for a full minute, then looked again, his eyes were red, and he said dumbly:

"When was it tattooed?"

"Three days before we broke up." Xu Sui thought for a while.

Zhou Jingze thought for a while. Three days before the breakup, wasn't it his birthday?

It turns out that this is the birthday present she said to give him.

Wake up with joy, regret, and guilt as if it was lost and regained.

How many years did they miss?

And Xu Sui got this tattoo with what mood and expectation, but in the end all of them fell through.

So after the reunion, she hid her thoughts and retreated to a corner where no one could see.

Zhou Jingze looked at her with hot eyes, making her heart shrink, and his tone was slow, stating a fact:

"You like Lao Tzu."

"That was before." Xu Sui lowered his head and hurriedly took off his clothes.

Zhou Jingze stood up, approached an inch, and forced the person onto the sofa. The breath squirted his ears and itchy. He picked her chin up, his dark eyes locked her, and asked:

"Really, then why don't you wash it?"

The familiar Zhou Jingze is back again.

Xu Sui knocked off his hand, got up and avoided: "I find it troublesome."

As soon as they were together, Zhou Jingze stretched out his hand and dragged him back. Xu Sui ran into a pair of dark eyes.

He raised his hand to press her forehead with his thumb and looked at her with his eyes facing each other.

The rough fingertips pressed her forehead side by side, and Xu trembled with his breathing.

Zhou Jingze stared at her with heavy eyes, raging and scorching like a fierce fire.

Xu Sui's cheeks were hot when he saw him, he turned his face away, and looked away.

The man wanted to force her to look at him again, he turned her face back, and bit her posterior molar:

"I don't believe you don't feel it."

Without hesitation, he tilted his head and kissed it, the force was fierce, and his tongue was directly entangled in it.

Xu Sui was pressed against the back wall of the sofa, her neck leaned against the wall, and she felt cold. The other person leaned over, with a warm breath, his forehead was against his forehead, and his lips lightly touched its lips, as if charged through.

Xu Suixin flinched suddenly, wanting to retreat but unable to retreat, a kiss brought the person back to the past.

A drop of sweat dripped to the corner of the eye, the lacrimal gland was stimulated, and the last drop of tear slipped from the corner of the eye.

very familiar,

It seems that they have never separated.

In the end, she was sincerely convinced of what she wanted deep in her heart.

The fingers gently stroked his temples, a gentle touch.

It seemed to give a response.

Tree shadows swayed past the window, leaves fell on the ground, one car after another drove past, the car tires ran over, and finally fell to the ground. It seems that the wind is about to rise.

The interior is as warm as ever.

Zhou Jingze's movements stopped, her black eyes locked tightly, and the rough palms and the roughness of gauze rubbed her white cheeks.

Xu Sui shuddered in his heart.

The man leaned over her, tied her hands, and leaned over to stare at her in a gesture of absolute control.

He did nothing, just looked at her. Xu Sui felt a thin layer of sweat on his forehead.

The heating in the room was warm at first, and then slowly dry, but it was also very dry. In this kind of weather, she seemed to have returned to the summer when the two watched the football game together in Amber Lane.

It's also a very hot, but affectionate moment.

It was the sound of cicadas at that time, and now it is the sound of a whistle passing by the road opposite the downstairs, one short and two long.

Zhou Jingze looked at Xu Sui, only her eyes were reflected in her.

It seems that he belongs to her.

Xu Sui raised her eyelashes. The warm-colored chandelier on the ceiling was a bit dazzling. She raised her hand to block her eyes and was taken away by the man again.

Zhou Jingze stretched out the tip of his tongue and licked the tears in the corner of her eye, swallowed slowly, and then leaned over and gently pressed the tattoo on her ribs with his thumb.

The girl's straightforward thoughts were displayed before his eyes.

He leaned over and touched the small red mole next to her ear with his lips, and then slowly chewed. Xu Sui only felt a tingling around her ear and couldn't push it away.

Gradually, she gave up.

If you get close, you will be excited.

Zhou Jingze still refused to let Xu Sui turn on the light, and looked at her eyes with a occupant's posture.

Xu Suichang's hair was scattered, there was a girl's holy beauty, her eyelashes were tightly closed, trembling, and her cheeks flushed.

Silent temptation.

Zhou Jingze's throat rolled slowly, lowered her head, bit her lip, and said viciously:

"Bai Yushi, choose him or me?" Zhou Jingze stared at her and asked in a deep voice.

He still minded and jealous, seeing the intimate behavior of two people that day.

Xu Suishi didn't answer each other, otherwise it would be her herself who would suffer.

"Who do you think I am?" Zhou Jingze reached out and hooked the broken hair from her forehead behind her ears, and pressed her thumb again on her forehead.

Xu Sui did not answer, he continued to force her to look at him. With this terrible possessiveness, she patted his hand away and said reluctantly:

"Zhou Jingze."

She chose him in the end.

In the end, Xu Sui was exhausted. After all, he went through high-intensity work during the day, was injured again, and fell asleep in a daze. Zhou Jingze took her to the bathroom to scrub after smoking a cigarette. Even with the cushion, he was very careful, but the gauze on her wound still needed to be replaced.

The hot water was very hot, Xu Sui squinted, not wanting to move, just feeling comfortable.

Because Xu Suigang was injured and the water could not touch the wound, Zhou Jingze's scrubbing movements were very careful and rarely gentle.

But he was not idle either, he had to take advantage of this work and reasoned with her.

He just helped to deal with a wound, and wanted to ask for benefits, Xu Sui opened his eyes in disbelief, and then refused.

Zhou Jingze licked her ear with the tip of his tongue, and snorted lazily:

"It's been a long time since I had eaten meat."

The wind outside the window was loud, whirring, and the tall buildings were dark, only a small light was lit up here.

The world belongs to both of them.

The night is ups and downs, the wind is also intoxicating, and the concealed moon comes out halfway.

Seems like clouds and fog.

Zhou Jingze called to her again and again, word by word, as if he was serious and serious, and his voice was very rusty:

"One one, my one one."