Days after Breaking up with My Ex

After Ding Ge sent that message, there was no movement. There was no longer a call from dinger on my phone. But I don't know if Ding Ge really pressed the wrong button or what?

This mystery may never be known.

In the next few days, Guzheng did not look for me. As I expected, even the cheerful girl had a reserved side.

And Old Gao's contract for the fish pond was finally settled, which meant that I finally had a job. In the evening, my best friend was also my boss, Old Gao, who was preparing a dinner for us. Hu Zi Li Xiaowei and I, as well as Lin Ya, and Old Gao's new girlfriend, Wang Mengmeng, booked a private room in a big hotel.

The atmosphere was very happy. Everyone was in pairs. Even Lin Ya, who was alone, didn't feel lonely at all. He was so happy and happy when he smiled.

After ordering a large table of food, it was quite luxurious and necessary wine. I seemed to have drunk too much unconsciously, although my consciousness was quite clear.

I looked at the other people on the table. Hu Zi and Li Xiaowei were still in love. They looked at each other with love and honey in their eyes. The couple who had been together for several years had developed a tacit understanding between them.

Old Gao and Wang Mengmeng were like glue. I realized that my worries were unnecessary. Wang Mengmeng and Old Gao were actually very good together. When I looked at the corner of Old Gao Wang Mengmeng's mouth, I would smile heartily. It looked like they were all very happy.

The food was delicious and the wine was just right. The table was full of noise and laughter.

I just don't know why, but I suddenly feel a little lonelier than ever, even though I've been single for more than a year. I don't think I'm a sentimental person, but at this moment, I really feel sorry for myself.

As I walked out of the hotel, a chill rose in my heart. I looked at the faint neon lights on the street, as if I had suddenly lost myself.

Although I could see the way forward, I still felt confused and numb, feeling that everything was cold and indifferent, even if there were dim yellow and soft lights shining on me.

I knew that I didn't drink too much. Old Gao drank more than I did. He sucked in the cold air deeply, which made me feel much better.

My body was somewhat indescribably tired, perhaps because of drinking. I leaned against a railing, propped my hands up, and looked at the speeding cars on the road.

I don't know when Lin Ya came to my side. She stood there looking at me and said quietly, "Why did you come out?"

"Blow the wind." I replied faintly.

"Are you unhappy?" Lin Ya asked again.

"No." The corners of my mouth twitched slightly. There was really nothing unhappy about it.

"Then why do you look so unhappy?"

"Is there?" I asked back.

Lin Ya smiled lightly, then sighed vaguely. She bent over, put her hands on the railing like I did, looked towards the road, and asked softly, "Do you feel lonely?"

Lonely?

What is loneliness? Is it lonely to be alone? What is loneliness?

Is it your company when you're lonely? Or a monster?

I smiled and shook my head, but instead of answering, I asked, "What, are you here to comfort me?"

"No!" Lin Ya's voice suddenly became cold.

I was slightly surprised. I didn't understand why she suddenly changed her breath. Lin Ya looked at me ruthlessly, and then a wicked smile appeared on the corner of her mouth. She said to me with some hatred, "I'm here to water you with ice water!"

I looked at Lin Ya and didn't understand what she meant by that.

But suddenly, I seemed to know what she was going to say.

My silent heart seemed to suddenly tremble. I turned my eyes to the road, and my eyes were blurry. Lin Ya's soft voice came into my ears clearly, "Ding Ge has a boyfriend!"

I know that sooner or later, our life will not be a novel. It will stop at a certain chapter. It will be either a breakup or an ending. Life will continue. The ending of the novel will be sad, but the reality will be heartbreaking.

Like a bolt from the blue, I couldn't help but tremble. Every cell in my body seemed to be boiling. I felt dizzy.

I finally felt the pain again. It was like a sharp blade cutting through my body. I didn't know how to describe the pain. It was unbearable.

Ding Ge finally has a boyfriend!

I opened my mouth and tried to breathe in, but it was hard to breathe, as if I suddenly forgot how to breathe. My face and lips didn't seem to belong to me. I couldn't control them.

"Really?"

When I said something, I found my voice so strange, as if it wasn't coming from my mouth, and I coughed twice.

Even if I were to disguise myself again, I still felt too embarrassed at this moment.

It seemed uncontrollable. My mind was filled with images of Ding Ge with other men. Although that man didn't even have a face, I couldn't help but think about it. The pain and pain in my heart were like waves, and I was like a small boat in the sea, crisp like an egg roll, and instantly ashes flew out.

Unconsciously, the hand on the railing exerted force, and I still pretended to smile. Although the smile should be ugly, I looked at lin ya and said, "Congratulations to her."

I love her so much, so naturally I want to congratulate her. I want her to be happy. I want her to be happier than everyone else. Isn't that why I left her?

But why is it so hard?

Why did some people not wish to bless her?

How selfish and dark am I? Countless conflicted bodies, weak and incompetent, as small as ants, powerless, just like a waste, I suddenly hate myself.

Lin Ya looked at me with disdain, and the tenderness in her eyes flashed away. Then she sighed, her voice softened a lot, and said, "Stop trying to be strong, okay?"

What else can I do besides brag?

Lin Ya wanted to comfort me. Her hand reached out to me, and I stopped her. I reached out to her, and then smiled foolishly. After a pause, I said, "It's good. It's good."

This was a good ending.

Ding Ge reaped happiness, and I ended up alone. Even I felt that the story should end like this.

Lin ya looked at me and said sadly, "Meng Xingyun, do you know? You are the stupidest fool in the world!"

I smiled bitterly, looked at the cars coming and going in and out of the hotel, and said, "Didn't you often call me a fool?"

"Why do you want to work at Old Gao's pond?" Lin Ya asked me.

"There's a lot of pressure to get a job. Let's get a job first." I said indifferently.

"Now we have a branch store in our studio. If you want to come, you can come as long as I say something. You used to study photography, and you're almost a teacher. If you come, I promise you'll be a photographer within three months. Isn't that what you wanted before? Why do you have to raise fish? Will you?"

"You can't learn."

"I wonder what you think? So you're willing to work with Old Gao or me? What? Do you feel wronged by following me? Or you won't be able to raise your head?" Lin Ya asked discontentedly.

"No." Sometimes, there are things that can't be explained.

"Then why don't you follow me?" Lin Ya asked again.

Instead of answering, I paused and asked, "How's your relationship with your boyfriend?"

Lin Ya frowned and asked unhappily, "Why did you mention him?"

"Nothing. This is about caring about your love life."

Actually, the reason why I didn't want to work at Lin Ya's studio was because of Lin Ya's boyfriend. Although we had never met before, I didn't even know him.

But his boyfriend was too small, because I was too close to Lin Ya, so I was a little jealous. So he secretly pressured the studio's boss, saying that if I didn't leave the studio, Lin Ya would be fired.

I think that Lin Ya's second-generation rich boyfriend has a lot of energy to talk to our boss, even though I always thought he was thinking too much.

Back then, Lin Ya and I were close because neither of us had a high education, were of the same age, had a similar family background, and worked in the same studio. Both of us started at the bottom, and inevitably had a lot to resonate with.

We understand each other's difficulties and know each other's efforts and hardships, so we take care of each other very much and are very good friends.

But that's all.

His rich second-generation boyfriend was too much of a heart.

In fact, the rich second generation wasn't Lin Ya's boyfriend at that time.

The boss came out personally, and I couldn't do it anymore. At that time, Lin Ya was also facing the critical moment of promotion. Naturally, I couldn't let Lin Ya leave the studio because of my selfishness, so I left.

I never told lin ya about this!

At that time, I didn't even know what I did, did I? If my departure allowed Lin Ya to stay in the studio and get a boyfriend who loved her, it would have been a perfect ending. But if the rich second generation had only played with Lin Ya, wouldn't I have pushed her into the fire?

But the result was good. As far as I know, it was actually Ding Ge who told me that Lin Ya's second-generation boyfriend loved lin ya very much, and he didn't pick flowers and break willows casually.

But to this day, I feel that his original approach was weak. In fact, he could directly ask the boss to kick me out without forcing me to choose, because the boss kicked me out because I had no choice at all.

I don't even know who the mastermind is if he doesn't show up. Now I just think he's petty.

"Are you still worried about yourself?" Lin Ya said angrily.