Days after Breaking up with My Ex

Lin Ya walked to the edge of the pavilion, raised her head slightly, reached out her hand, and let the snow fall on her palm. Her expression looked particularly lonely, and there were many lights that I could not see through.

I sighed. I don't know what Lin Ya was thinking. Why wouldn't he believe me?

I'm not in a hurry, nor is Lin Ya. She's as stubborn as I am until dawn.

Not long after, our takeout arrived.

The delivery guy was a young man who looked at us strangely, as if he were looking at two lunatics. Who was staying in the pavilion in the cold and snow?

After that, Guzheng and I opened the takeout and started eating in the snow.

I said another word and left, but Lin Ya refused. I didn't say anything more, so I ate the rice in the bowl.

It was so cold that it was really nice to eat a hot meal, but I had to think about how to hide it from Lin Ya during the meal.

"Do you remember the time we got stuck in an unfinished building on the way to a barbecue?" Lin Ya asked me.

I nodded. When I was at home, I was still thinking about it, and I didn't know why Lin Ya suddenly remembered it.

But there was a similarity. The last heavy rain, this time it was drifting snowflakes. There was no one but us, and there was no end to silence. It was just a few of us last time, but this time it was me and Lin Ya.

"Why did you say that?"

"You said it was great then, didn't you?" A heartfelt smile appeared on the corner of Lin Ya's mouth. She seemed to be immersed in the past and said with a smile, "Although she was afraid at that time and felt terrible, but in retrospect, she felt very beautiful, very pure, very simple, very warm."

Lin Ya's words also brought back memories of the past.

That was an unforgettable night!

It was a stormy night, thunder and lightning, and a night where people hid in their homes with their doors and windows closed and didn't dare to go out. The five of us spent the night hiding in an unfinished building, only relying on a pile of firewood to keep us warm.

We didn't sleep that night, just sat there chatting, playing, singing, and crazy...

There was no one around, and we were especially unscrupulous. Everyone was even singing in the rain, singing with the sound of rain, and everyone's face was shining with excitement.

Sometimes we were crazy, sometimes we were quiet, talking about entertainment, gossiping about our lives...

The feeling of having friends and lovers by your side makes you happy to think about it.

Then, instead of mentioning me and Guzheng, Lin Ya suddenly started talking to me about the past and didn't know what was going on in her head. We just talked about the past and ate takeout, as if both of us had forgotten what we were going to say.

"I still have a video to shoot on my phone. Just the phone I gave you. Did you see it?"

"No." I didn't know that the video from that time was still in the phone Lin Ya gave me. I really wanted to see it when she said that.

"I remember that day you sang a song, Emil Chau's" the forgetful grass," right?"

I can't remember what song I sang, because I sang a lot. Lin Ya said that I thought about it and remembered that I did sing this song.

I nodded.

"You can sing it again." Lin Ya said to me.

I didn't understand why Lin Ya suddenly wanted to listen to this song, but I hummed softly.

"Let the weak ones know cruelty, face the cold of life, and the people they love reluctantly, often have no fate, who really takes who seriously, who cares for who, who is the only one, the scarred innocent soul, has long denied that there is any god, a beautiful life, a kind person, heartache, heartache, heartbreak, too insignificant, come and go, you and I met, It's better to look at each other and smile faintly, forget about the worry grass, forget about it. How much do you know in your dreams? Somewhere in the world, somewhere on an island, somewhere in a year, somewhere in a day, somewhere in a hug, the grass by the green river, quiet and so on..."

In the open sky and earth, there seemed to be no sound, only the song of "The forgetful grass" was floating, floating with the snowflakes in this world...

I'm not a good singer. I like this song. When I go to school, I play it over and over again on my mp3 player. I wrote down the lyrics by hand and learned them many times.

I just sang quietly. Lin Ya listened quietly. She looked up at the snowy sky and her eyes were glistening with snow.

She seemed to be intoxicated with my singing, or in that song, and I felt as if the melody of this song also appeared in my ears. As I hummed softly, I seemed to understand why Lin Ya wanted me to sing this song again.

While I was singing, the scene of that day came back to my mind. For some reason, the scene of the grey sky and the dark sun became so beautiful in my eyes that I could clearly see the smiles on each of them.

"This song is so beautiful!"

Lin ya looked up at the sky and murmured. There was a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, as if it was more beautiful and bright than the crystal clear snowflakes.

Then she looked at me again, sighed slightly and said, "Remember? In the past, when we had a setback, we would always listen to this song. I don't know how many times we listened to it. Every time I hear it, I'm not so sad anymore. I want to continue. Life is like this. Most of the bad things happen. But we're still here today. You always say that we've been through such a difficult time in the past. What are you afraid of now? As long as we're together, what obstacles can't be overcome?"

I could tell that Lin Ya was still 100 % unwilling to believe that Guzheng and I were really together, and she was still willing to believe that there was something to hide.

I have to say, Lin Ya was right!

I shook my head and said, "This is not a difficult thing. The lyrics are still singing. Who really takes who seriously? It's better to smile at each other and forget about it. After so much experience, we will always change."

"Is it because of Ding Ge?" Lin Ya frowned.

I shook my head.

Lin Ya was also unwilling to believe it and said, "It's impossible. Ding Ge is so obsessed with being with you. How can she..."

When I heard Lin Ya say that, I felt a piercing pain in my heart!

"I'll call Ding Ge." Lin Ya took out her phone.

I stopped her in a hurry. The problem was that I had nothing to do with Ding Ge. I quickly said, "It's not about Ding Ge. It's about me."

"What is it?" Lin Ya was bound to ask the same question today.

"That's what happened. I was with Guzheng." I stood up in frustration, feeling like I was about to die. I stood up, took a few uncomfortable steps, and said, "Ding Ge and I used to love each other deeply, but that's all in the past. The past can only stay in the past. It's hard to get over the past. We live in the present because of the past. We can't be together, so I'm with Guzheng."

I said so much in one breath, and then my teeth started to chatter and my body began to tremble.

"When did you get together?"

"After you left."

"Do you love her?" Lin Ya asked.

I didn't know how to answer, and I was stunned for a moment, but I gritted my teeth and replied, "Now say that love is too heavy. Anyway, there must be feelings, right?"

"Do you love ding ge?" Lin Ya asked again.

She stared into my eyes, but I was ashamed.

I turned my head and looked at the lake outside the pavilion. Countless snowflakes fell on the surface of the lake. The lake rippled and was especially beautiful. Occasionally, they fell on the ice outside and piled up into a white.

I don't think I can completely deceive Lin Ya after all. I love Lin Ya. I can't hide from Lin Ya. Her eyes are really too vicious. The reason she doesn't believe that I'm with Guzheng is because she knows my feelings for Ding Ge.

"Answer me!" Lin Ya shouted.

I opened my mouth and something seemed to be stirring in my throat. After a while, I smiled bitterly and said, "Is there any point in saying this?"

"Is it interesting? Do you think it's interesting?"

Lin Ya yelled at me. She looked tired and sat down. She put her hand on her temple and looked a little painful, as if she had a headache.

I wanted to say something, but I felt ashamed to say anything to lin ya.

She didn't yell at me anymore. Maybe she was desperate. The light in her eyes dimmed a lot. The wind blew mercilessly, and the snow seemed to drown the whole world. Lin Ya's hair was blown into a mess. She held her hands in front of her chest. It was an indescribable pain.

My lips trembled, but I couldn't say a word. It was all my fault. How could I comfort Lin Ya?

I rested my arm on the bench and stared blankly at the lake and the snow. I didn't have any intention of appreciating their beauty or taking out my phone to take a picture of the snow. I just couldn't help but think how wonderful it would be if I could be like that snowflake.

The beautiful scenery in front of me did not ease my mood at all. Instead, the cold air made my body stiffen a lot. When I spoke softly, there would still be a thick breath in the air. I didn't know how we could stay here, thinking that we should never freeze Lin Ya.

So I turned to lin ya and said, "Girl, let's go back. It's too cold!"

However, Lin Ya shook his head stubbornly and said angrily, "I'm not going back."

"Girl, can you see the truth? Ding Ge and I are really in the past. We can't go back." I said in a particularly distressed voice, those words, like a bullet shot at my body, leaving me riddled with holes!