Days after Breaking up with My Ex

I never thought that I was the ultimate culprit!

It's all because of me!

Liu and Jiang were startled by my sudden actions, and Old Gao turned around abruptly. His eyes were filled with horror. It was obvious that he didn't realize I was here, and these words, I'm afraid he never wanted me to know.

But I still know what's wrong.

I finally found out the truth about his breakup with Fang Qingyu. No wonder Old Gao rarely mentioned this relationship to me before. He always played it down. He kept it from me!

"Xing Yun, why are you here?" Old Gao rushed towards me with a flash of fear in his eyes. He pulled me and said, "Get up, what are you doing?"

But I really don't want to get up. The more I think about it, the more guilty I feel!

Without me, Old Gao wouldn't have helped me, and he wouldn't have broken up with Fang Qingyu, so Fang Qingyu wouldn't have died.

I suddenly felt very dirty, as if I was no longer the same as before!

I clenched my fists and allowed my nails to sink into my flesh. Every cell in my body seemed to tremble. I gritted my teeth and said, "It's all my fault!"

"Xing Yun, this has nothing to do with you! Get up!" Old Gao reached out and continued to pull me.

How could it have nothing to do with me? I have an unshirkable responsibility for Fang Qingyu's death. Without me, Old Gao would never have broken up with Fang Qingyu.

I feel terrible. It's so hard. It's like there are countless bugs inside me that are biting my body.

I have never seen fang qingyu, but this girl was indirectly killed by me.

I slowly raised my head and looked at Old Gao. At this moment, the sun suddenly hid behind the clouds, and the pond was suddenly covered with a layer of shadow. I suddenly felt that even the heavens thought I was guilty, and I didn't deserve the sun's charity.

"Old Gao, hit me."

"What are you talking about? Get up!"

"You beat me up. I hurt you. I hurt Fang Qingyu!" My mouth trembled fiercely, and the cramps made me miserable.

"Can you get up quickly? I said it has nothing to do with you." Old Gao also shouted at me, "It's my fault! I didn't look for her. I wanted to look for someone who would find her, but I didn't."

But Old Gao's words couldn't comfort me.

I feel so ashamed, I have no face to face anyone!

When I had an accident, my parents raised money for me and begged many people. I broke up Old Gao and Fang Qingyu, and I hurt Ding Ge badly.

I hung my head and breathed heavily, so ashamed that I couldn't raise my head!

It felt like I was suffocating, and all I could feel was the veins on my face bursting.

At this moment, I suddenly felt that I was a tainted person, I was not worthy of Ding Ge, I was not worthy of happiness!

Jiang and Liu also walked up to me and advised me to get up.

Finally, I was pulled up by Old Gao. I looked at Wang Mengmeng again and said, "I'm sorry!"

Wang Mengmeng did not say anything. Her eyes were red and her heart seemed to be filled with countless thoughts.

At this time, Old Gao asked, "Where is qingyu buried? Take us there."

"Okay." Wang Mengmeng dried her tears.

We didn't say anything more. A few people went out of the pond together. Wang Mengmeng and little liu xiaojiang were in the same car. Old Gao and I were in the same car.

Soon, their car was in front and ours behind. Two cars got on the road and headed for Moon city.

On the way, I called Hu Zi and said that I was going to Moon city. Hu Zi asked a few questions worriedly, and I told him to come back.

Then, we passed by the flower shop and got off to buy some flowers.

More than two hours later, we arrived at a cemetery. Under Wang Mengmeng's guidance, we finally arrived at Fang Qingyu's tomb.

This place seemed to have been cleaned not long ago. Compared to other tombs, it looked very clean. Old Gao put the flowers he bought in front of the tomb.

Fang Qingyu's name was written on the tombstone, but there was no picture of Fang Qingyu.

Old Gao squatted down and stared at the tomb in front of me. I took a deep breath too, and there were countless sorrows in my heart.

I've never seen fang qingyu before. I don't know her. I can only imagine what she looks like. She was so young, but she was cruelly taken from her life.

What is destiny?

Can it be changed?

Would all my friends be happy and healthy without my accident?

I really want to say sorry.

But... What's the use?

It was quiet in the cemetery. The environment was very good. The trees were shaded and the leaves rustled in the breeze. I can only hope that Fang Qingyu will rest in peace. There will be no more sorrow and no more pain in heaven.

"If qingyu knew you were coming to see her, she would be very happy." Wang Mengmeng said softly.

Old Gao sniffled. I saw some tears in the corner of his eyes, but he didn't say anything. He just squatted in front of the grave in grief, motionless like a statue.

None of us bothered Old Gao.

Wang Mengmeng added, "I always thought that you didn't love qingyu at all. You just played around with her feelings. I really didn't know... I didn't know that you actually loved her."

"I'm sorry!" Wang Mengmeng lowered his head and said a heavy sentence.

Old Gao looked at Wang Mengmeng, Fang Qingyu's best friend, and the person he wanted to elope with for the rest of his life. His eyes were so complicated that they could not be described in any words.

Knowing the truth about their relationship, I could not help but sigh. The complicated emotional entanglement between them was really not something that could be explained in a word or two.

After so many experiences, the two of them still couldn't let go of each other and didn't know if they could continue their relationship.

I can't help but think about Ding Ge and me. After so much of our experience, do we still have the strength to love?

Sometimes it's not that I don't love you, but that I don't have the strength!

Wang Mengmeng said to Old Gao, "Plateau, say a few words to qingyu."

"Okay." Old Gao's voice suddenly became hoarse.

He cleared his throat and stared at Fang Qingyu's grave. After a long time, he said softly, "Qingyu, we meet again. But I didn't expect this to happen! I'm sorry, I know. It's no use saying sorry. I'll never forgive myself in my life. I... I have so many things to tell you. I thought you would be happy without me, so I didn't dare to disturb you. If I could, I really hope I never met you, or I know you, secretly like you, but you never know me, how good would that be? A girl like you must go to heaven, right? It must be. If you can't go to heaven, no one can. You're a good girl. I hope you can continue to be so happy, so pure, so optimistic in your next life. Then, have a perfect love. Never meet anyone like me again. Never!"

At the end of the sentence, Old Gao's voice could not stop choking. He buried his head in the shadow, trembling with suppressed emotion.

Wang Mengmeng, on the other hand, covered her mouth and couldn't stop her tears.

Liu and little jiang handed Wang Mengmeng a tissue. Wang Mengmeng wiped her tears. She whispered something to little liu xiaojiang. Then little liu xiaojiang signaled us to leave first. Wang Mengmeng wanted to talk to Old Gao alone.

I followed little liu and little jiang out of the cemetery, leaving Old Gao and Wang Mengmeng in front of the grave.

They haven't finished their work yet.

I did not chat with little liu xiaojiang, but was immersed in the sad situation in the cemetery. At this moment, my mind also changed a lot.

I don't want to be ashamed of anyone!

I really don't want to apologize to anyone anymore!

I've made too many mistakes, too many sins, too young and frivolous, too ignorant, too stubborn... I think I'll spend the rest of my life in atonement.

...

After a while, Old Gao and Wang Mengmeng came out of the cemetery.

We got in the car, and Old Gao sat in the passenger seat. He lowered his seat, closed his eyes and said to me, "Xing Yun, let's go."

"Not waiting for them?" When I saw Wang Mengmeng and the three of them still talking, I asked doubtfully.

"No need to wait." Old Gao's tone was calm, but I could feel the surge in his heart.

I didn't ask any more questions. Let Old Gao be quiet for now.

I started the car and left the cemetery.

The car began to drive smoothly to Pucheng. I didn't disturb Old Gao. He was lying there resting, but I didn't know if he was asleep.

After arriving in Pucheng, Old Gao said to me, "Get Hu Zi to drink!"

"Okay."

Hu Zi had been talking about drinking yesterday, but he didn't want to drag it to this day.

However, our mood has changed drastically from yesterday.

It was already more than three o' clock in the afternoon when I returned to Pucheng. I took Old Gao to my and Hu Zi's rental office first. I didn't want to be disturbed, and I wanted to get drunk with Old Gao.

I asked Old Gao to wait at home, then I went to the restaurant to pick up Hu Zi and brought the food and wine along.

When I got back to the restaurant, I told Hu Zi about the drinking and told Hu Zi everything about Old Gao and Wang Mengmeng. Hu Zi didn't speak for a long time after he heard it, and his face was hard to calm down.

Then Hu Zi and I went home, and the wine was specially prepared. We took out the dishes that had not been used for a long time and opened them. The three of us sat at the table, and I poured a glass of wine for each of us.

Then I raised my glass and asked, "How do I drink today?"

Hu Zi said bluntly, "Don't get drunk. If you drink too much, go back to bed and sleep. How about that?"

Old Gao didn't say anything, but he nodded heavily!

I took a deep breath, and without further ado, the three of them clinked their glasses and drank the first.

The wine hit every nerve in the body, and the taste in the mouth was incomparably spicy!

After pouring Old Gao a glass of wine, I asked Old Gao, "What are you going to do with Wang Mengmeng?"

Old Gao said expressionless, "That meeting at the cemetery should be our last meeting!"