Defeated By Love

Shunen raised his hand to cover the cheek he kissed, sniffed, and retorted, "It's not this..."

Her eyes and nose are red, like a wronged little rabbit. Because of this sudden kiss, Shunen's sad mood was transferred in an instant. He didn't know what to say. After holding back for a long time, he only said one sentence: "How do you kiss me."

Xie Ruhe tilted his head and asked, "Can't you kiss me?"

"It's not..." Shunen pursed her lips, a little confused, and suddenly couldn't remember what she just wanted to say to him. She averted her gaze, thought about it carefully, and said softly, "It's okay."

Then, she added sullenly: "But I'm too ugly now, don't kiss me now."

When she woke up, she felt pain in her face and neck. When she touched it, she could clearly find that half of her face was swollen. Even without a mirror, Shunen can imagine himself.

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe stared at her, her facial features were softened by the light, looking focused and gentle.

Shunen avoided his sight.

The next second, Xie Ruhe leaned over, lowered his head, and met her cowardly and inferior eyes. He paused, kissed her eyes lightly, and asked, "Didn't you just say that you can? Why did you regret it so quickly."

"..."

"No repentance." His tone seemed to be training a child, but he didn't show any harshness, more like coaxing and inducing. Xie Ruhe's lips moved down, pressed against hers, and said vaguely, "I want to kiss now."

Shunian did not want to sleep, and Xie Ruhe did not coax her to sleep.

Because of that intimate act, she no longer had that feeling of inferiority, and she no longer told Xie Ruhe not to fall in love with her as she did just now. She just sat quietly on the bedside and didn't say much.

I kept listening to Xie Ruhe talking to her.

Xie Ruhe is not a talkative person, he doesn't know what to say, and what he tells her at this time is also what happened when he was in France, most of which are boring and boring, and the idea and inspiration for song creation.

These contents are probably boring to her.

But he just wanted to divert her attention and stop thinking about those things.

This sudden encounter damaged Shunen's energy. At this moment, her eyelids were drooping, listening to Xie Ruhe's words carefully, but she seemed to be extremely sleepy. She didn't want to fall asleep, so she could only sit up straight again.

After thinking about it, Shunen stared at a certain place in the sky with some hollow eyes, suddenly interrupted Xie Ruhe's words, and took the initiative to speak.

"If you feel that you can't stand it anymore."

Xie Ruhe was stunned, his apple slid and did not speak.

Shunen finished speaking: "You can tell me directly."

"..."

"No matter what your decision is." Shunen didn't cry any more, rubbed his eyes vigorously, and said dumbly, "I will thank you very much."

Xie Ruhe immediately understood the meaning of her words and said seriously: "I won't."

Hearing this answer, Shunen was silent for a while, and suddenly mentioned something: "I should have told you before. I had a relationship with Xu Zeyuan before."

Xie Ruhe's lips straightened, and he hummed softly.

Knowing that it is not good to mention Xu Zeyuan to him, but Shunen's thinking is not clear because of exhaustion. At this moment, she just wanted to speak out all her thoughts, and tell him all the thoughts she had held for a long time.

"I was rescued by the police at the time and didn't go to school for a while."

"..."

"I was recuperating in the hospital." Shunen's speech was very slow, and he paused for several seconds after saying a few words, as if he was thinking, "Also, make a transcript. They will ask me again and again, I am How did I get caught, what happened this week, and what did Zeng Yuanxue do to me."

Xie Ruhe held her hand and listened quietly.

"A lot of people came to ask." Thinking of what happened at that time, Shunen suddenly got a temper and said dullly, "Why do I have to say it so many times? I told them why I kept asking."

Xie Ruhe said: "They are wrong."

"Then." Shunian continued thinking, "Xu Zeyuan came to me once during this period of time."

Xie Ruhe asked: "Come to comfort you?"

Shunen sniffed: "He saw that I was injured and felt unhappy. It seemed to comfort me, I don't remember it very much. I just remembered that he came just once."

"..."

"Later, I took care of the injury, and I went back to school." Shunen said, "I didn't know until I went back. During the time I was missing, my classmates in school were reposting me about this. People who knew me I basically know that, if I don’t, I also know that a girl from the broadcaster has been missing for a week."

"They all thought I was miserable and pitiful. After missing for a week, I was caught by a man, thinking I must have been raped."

Shunen explained calmly: "Then Xu Zeyuan came to break up with me."

"He told me that he knew I was brave and didn't care about these things. He said that I could face the police's problems calmly, and that I might be able to go to court without changing my face in the future. Hearing other people's rumors and rumors, I think it doesn't matter. "A layer of mist floated in Shunen's eyes again. "He said he couldn't. He admitted that he was cowardly and couldn't stand other people's eyes."

"But I'm not very brave." Shunen endured crying, "I am scared every day."

Every time she remembered, she felt very scared.

Thinking of going to court, thinking of seeing Zeng Yuanxue, Shunian never sleeps peacefully.

But she resisted the fear, and cooperated with the police and lawyers time and time again because she only hoped that Zeng Yuanxue would be sentenced to death. She couldn't accept the death reprieve or life expectancy.

It was the first time in Shunen's life that she hated someone so much.

As long as he still exists in this world, she cannot sleep peacefully every day and night, and she will be awakened when she falls asleep. Lest he would come back, drag her back to that dark house again, tortured in every possible way.

As long as he is dead.

Those fears should disappear with it.

Shunen thinks so.

But it didn't.

Despite escaping from hell, for a long time afterwards, due to mental problems, she lived by Zeng Yuanxue's side every day, and lived the week she suffered the trauma.

Those memories reappeared repeatedly, imprisoning her like a chain.

"Why do they say that to me." Shunen really couldn't understand. "I was not raped. I still feel sad to hear such words. But if I really get treated like this."

"Do they think I should be ashamed? But I am a victim, why should I be ashamed." She said with red eyes, "I was hurt, it's not my fault."

Why?

The ones who really should be ashamed are the perpetrators, those who put salt on the victims' scars.

Not her.

After such a long series of words, the strength of Shunen was completely used up, and the voice became duller and softer: "It was terrible when I was sick. If you want to separate from me in the future, you can tell me. "

The corners of Xie Ruhe's eyes were red, and he barely pulled the corners of his mouth.

"That's it."

"I could get better by myself before." Shunen seemed to be self-hypnotizing, "So you don't need to worry. I don't feel ashamed. I won't be shocked because you broke up with me. I will It's alright."

Xie Ruhe kissed the back of her hand: "I will accompany you to get better this time."

She did not respond again.

With his eyelids closed, he fell asleep frowning.

Xie Ruhe didn't say a word again, and smoothed her brows.

He sat next to her and looked at her quietly.

She was always brave in the Shunen in the memory.

She is not afraid of adult rebuke, not afraid of classmates teasing, not afraid of strange-shaped bugs, not afraid of walking alone at night. Except for the ghost that didn't exist, she had nothing to fear.

In the classroom, when she heard female classmates screaming in horror because of the sudden influx of bees, she never felt that they were making a fuss, nor did she find their fears incomprehensible because she was not afraid.

She will take the initiative to help them drive away the source of fear, and then quietly calm them.

Let them not be afraid.

After seeing the wound he was hit by Xie Ji with a cup, she wanted to tell Xie Ji that it was wrong to do so, even if it was clear that he might be hurt.

She still has no hesitation.

But she was also cowardly and timid.

She would cry with fear because of a pervert, get angry with him, seduce him with candy, and ask him to send her to school. She will be afraid of being hurt and carefully avoid the darkness of this world.

That period of fear only occupied a very small period of her long life.

But now, it has become her daily routine.

Shunen who loves the world.

From fearless to fearless.

Fearing that she would wake up in the middle of the night, Xie Ruhe didn't dare to leave, and sat on the sofa next to her for one night.

Shunian woke up at dawn the next day. She sat up, still in a bad spirit, as if she hadn't reacted, looking around blankly.

Xie Ruhe was awakened by her movement and opened his eyes. He has long hands and feet, and sitting on this small sofa all night is not very comfortable. At this time, he stretched subconsciously.

Shunian paused and asked in a low voice, "Why are you sleeping here."

Xie Ruhe didn't answer, and started a topic: "What do you want to eat in the morning?"

Shunen shook his head: "I'm going to wash."

She got up, suddenly noticed the clothes she was wearing, and after a long period of daze, she looked at Xie Ruhe blankly. Shunen's face blushed instantly, and he whispered, "You can't change my clothes..."

Xie Ruhe was also stunned, his ears became hot instantly: "No, I will ask my aunt to change it for you."

Shunen pulled her clothes down a bit, his expression a little awkward. But she was afraid that Xie Ruhe would misunderstand her meaning, and explained embarrassingly: "I didn't resist your meaning... I just think it's not good if I'm not married yet."

"..." Xie Ruhe looked away, "I understand."

One of them stood on the ground, and one half kneeled on the bed.

There was a stalemate for a while.

Shunen felt something was wrong, and added in a low voice: "I didn't hint that you want you to marry me..."