Falling In Love With A Broken Hearted Man

"No, of course not," I immediately answered.

I never imagined myself being in a relationship with Jacob. I'm happy when I'm with him, he always makes me smile but.. I've never thought of having a feelings for him.

As I've said before, he's my type but I don't date my friends. And also it happened already with Daniel. He likes me but since me and Noah are in a relationship before and I don't have a feelings for him, I chose to reject his feelings.

Friendship is very important to me. I value my friends so much and if possible I didn't want them to be hurt.

But Daniel fell for me and I hurt him.. I never expect him to like me where I only thought of him as a friend. I promised myself before that after what happened to me and Daniel, I didn't want my other friends to suffer again because of me.

I think I wouldn't bear to know that Jacob likes me if ever. He's such a good friend to me and I also consider him as my family. Hurting him is like a torture to me.. He's so special that I can't hurt him in any way.

"But what If Jacob has a feelings for you? What if he's just hiding it because he's afraid that your friendship might be affected?"

And I didn't expect Sam to asked this kind of sensitive question. We were too attached to each other and he doesn't like to leave my side often. We became close that I wouldn't dare to ruin our friendship.

Now that Sam already asked about it, I can't help but to think about it too. I don't know what to do when he really does have feelings for me.. Oh god. It may become awkward for us and I would be conscious around him.. I didn't want that to happen, so I'm really hoping that he doesn't..

"I'll respect his feelings, but I'm not gonna return it.." I shook my head. I didn't want to lie to everyone and most especially to myself.

Lying will only make the situation worse. Jacob doesn't deserved to be hurt.

"Why? Because you still love Noah?" She asked sarcastically.

I didn't expect her to mention him!

"W-why are you s-suddenly bringing him u-up?" My voice stuttered, avoiding her gaze if possible.

"That's the only reason that's keeping you from falling with someone else, Raine,"

She stared at me with those piercing eyes and I just can't help but to pout at her. That's not the whole reason, but..one of the reasons..

"What?" She arched a brow. "Are you gonna deny it?"

"That's not the whole reason, Sam.." I sighed. She won't stop until I spill everything, damn.

"Than what?"

I rolled my eyes, "Do I really have to tell you?"

I mean, she's my best friend but can't she just look at the obvious? Jacob and I are friends for fuck's sake!

"Don't try to tell me that it's because of your friendship--"

"It is.." I cut her. Why? Isn't an enough reason for me not to date my friend?

"Raine! Even if you choose your friendship, you'll still hurt him in the end! Can't you even think what Jacob may think once you fall in love with someone else?" She hissed, she's trying to express her side with those furrowing brows.

"It will never happened, Sam. Why are you so advanced with it?"

"Because it's so unfair, Raine! You'll only hurt his feelings,"

"As if he really would," I chuckled. "We're not even sure if he likes me, Sam. Don't be so overreacting,"

"It's better to be advanced than being a dumb girl.." She focused her attention to her food and rolled her eyes.

I was a bit hesitated with what she last said, but I just choose to laughed and eat with her. She's really a bitch sometimes but it's okay. I am more savage than her.

"Jessy and Gia loves Korean food, right?" Sam suddenly asked.

"Uh, yeah. They both loved Ramen and Kimbap,"

She nodded and looked around. When she finally saw the waiter, she gestured him to come and ordered some food for the two bitches.

"Do you think, they're home now?" She asked but she still looked annoyed.

"Jessy told me that she'll go home early and Gia will only submit her report so I bet she'll also early," I bit my lower lip.

"Great." She mumbled before taking her face powder inside her bag.

She put it around her face and take out her red liptint to apply on her thin and plump lips.

"Let's go?" She said before taking the take out food with her.

We payed for it half-half because I didn't want her to be broke doe buying everything. She also told me to get ready and she'll dress me up when Jacob's birthday has come.

"Eat this, Sam bought it for you guys," I placed the food on the table and lazily went to the kitchen to drink some water.

"Wow! Is this all for us?!" Jessy asked with a happy tone. "Mmm.." I nodded.

"She suddenly thought about you and that's a miracle," I laughed to what I've said and drink some cold water from the refrigerator.

"Indeed a miracle," Gia agreed before laughing. "But she's sweet.."

They both giggled and started to eat the noodles. They're so much addicted to Korean dramas that they even adapted the different cultures of Korean like eating ramyeon and kimchi.

"This is really good, let's try to call Sam and say thank you.."

I immediately headed towards my bedroom to rest. I feel like I'm extremely tired today where we only roamed around those department stores and apparels. Maybe it's because I stood up for a long time.

It's been also bothering me if Jacob was fine tonight. He doesn't really speak to me and I badly miss him. Geez, why is he suddenly avoiding me?

Was he that mad because I didn't tell him about it?

I sighed for think about that. I didn't want this to occur longer. If he's going to attend our class tomorrow, I'll gonna ask him why he's avoiding me. It upsets me so much! That little brat!

But for tonight, I must sleep first. I can't let myself consumed with so much thoughts, that's not healthy.

"Really?! Why would he reject her? That's freaking Charlotte for fuck's sake! How could Jacob turn down a goddess like he--"

Yeah. Why Jacob turned her down when she already has everything? Or isn't he got attacked by his stupidity again?

"She's a bitch girl. And Jacob likes badass girls with great personality just like Raine!"

"Oh my god! Then, he might like her isn't he?!"

"Possible! He's very close to her right?"

"But Raine seems like she doesn't like him..? Am I only one who can see it?"

I swallowed hard as I heard other people's gossip about us inside this washroom.

"If they date each other, they would look good together! Raine looked like a badass but she's actually nice, I have talked to her once."

"Really? How I wish they would date each other, so that Charlotte will cry in envy!"

"I bet they wouldn't,"

"Why?"

"Of course, their friendship will be ruined once they break up. Stupid,"

"Oh."

"You know, we're going to be late. So let's go,"

I heard their footsteps away from the washroom after that. I didn't want them to see me, that's why I just waited for them to finished while I'm here inside the cubicle.

It suddenly bothers me about Jacob. I didn't know that people are also talking about us and worst, they're trying to link us together.

But I'm not in love with him..

Friendship is the only thing that I can offer to him if ever.. I bit my lower lip and immediately go to our classroom. When I stepped inside, everyone's already looking at me and whispering something that's why I just pretended not to hear them.

I hate it actually, but since I can still ignore it. I'll just pretend that I don't hear anything.

"Hey," Jennie sat next to me while I'm reading. "Hey!"

She tapped my shoulder which really distracts me from reading. I took off my earphones and face her. Marco also sat next to her while wearing their smiles.

"What's up?" I asked.

"You're famous now, huh?" Jennie grinned.

My brows suddenly furrowed, getting confused. "What?"

They both looked at each other and smirked.

"Everyone's talking about you and Jacob.." Jennie started.

"And?" I arched a brow.

"They think that you're the reason why he rejected Charlotte.."

They both giggled in front of me and Jennie even pinched my cheeks with her happy expression. Oh god. Why is everyone thinks about that?

"That's impossible guys. Me and Jacob are just friends." I rolled my eyes and my eyes caught him walking inside our classroom.

He looked so tired based on the sweat on his temples and forehead. I immediately went towards him while holding my towel.

"You're sweating.." I didn't wait for his answer, I immediately wiped his sweat.

He's going to get sick for doing this, damn it.

He bit his lower lip before looking away from me. But I just ignored that and finished what I'm doing.

"That's enough,"

He took off the towel on my hand but he's still holding my hand. I gulped and stared at his face, surprisingly.

I heard everyone's giggled and whimpers and it suddenly bothered me. I can also feel their stares that's why I decided to just walk out.

"N-not here, J-jacob--"

He immediately pulled me which caused me to leaned closer to him. Our faces was just a few meters away now I can feel my heart pounding so fast right now.

He smirked and held my cheeks. He pinched it in a light way which made me go back to my senses.

"Why are you so sweet, Raine?" He asked in a monotone but I can feel the pain in his voice.

"W-what?" I gasped.

"You're making it hard for me.."

He shook his head before leaving me there. He walked away and never came back after that.

Oh my god. Did I embarrass him too much?

To be continued..