Falling In Love With A Broken Hearted Man

"That's all? Because I'm your friend?" He scowled like he can't believed what I just said.

"Of course! What would else that be? Friends don't kiss each other, dumbass!"

He pursed his lips after hearing what I said. "Raine, I'm not gonna demand after it, I just wanted to be your first kiss before other man could kiss you.."

"Oh my, are you sure that this is my first time?" My eyes widened at him. He was stilled to what I've said, his brows furrowed like he doesn't seem to know about it.

"What?" His jaw clenched.

"What if I tell you that this isn't my first time, huh?"

I haven't told him about Noah yet and I think I would go further if I tell him all the romantic things that we did before...

"I'll be very upset.." His face darkened and went closer to me. "That I'll kill that bastard who stole your first kiss,"

He seemed so annoyed which really obvious in his expression. Noah didn't even forced me nor stole my first kiss, because I was the desperate one between us before.

Of course, I admit how flirt I am for acting like that to him. But I didn't regret it. I was glad that I experienced it with a good person like him.

"Damn it. Is it really true?" Jacob's looking at me emotionally right now. Like he's expecting me to take back what I've said.

But I nodded, I don't want to hide things from him. It might lead into a disappointment. He's too good to me that I can't betray him. He's my friend and I value him so much.

"I had my first kiss with my first boyfriend, Jacob. I haven't told you because It was too complicated before.." I looked at him and flushed a guilty expression. I don't want him to think that I don't trust him. "I'm sorry.."

"You serious..?" He bit his lower lip.

I just wanted him to think that I don't hide things from him now. "Y-yeah.."

His breathing became odd and gasped like he doesn't like what he heard. Was he upset?

"Do you still..love that guy?" He sighed and licked his bottom lip. The pain in his eyes registered and I can't seem to look at it longer.

I immediately looked away and swallowed hard. Right now, I still don't know if I love him or not. I don't even now how I feel right now..

"I don't know.." I gave him a sincere look. "I'm really sorry for telling you only now.."

I really felt so guilty about it. For not telling him.. What would he think now? That I didn't see him as my friend and that I don't consider telling him about the things about me.. Oh god.

"What are you really sorry for, Raine?" My eyes turned to him. His eyes were so emotional that I can't predict what's in it. "Are you sorry because you didn't tell me about it or because you know how I feel?"

I was confused to what he asked. I just stared at his face and recall what he said, but..damn, I can't really figure out what he means by that..

"Can we just forget this? I don't want to talk about it anymore," I looked away. I didn't want him to see my reaction.

"Do you see me as your friend, Raine?" He suddenly asked.

I was a bit startled but I immediately smiled. "Of course, Jacob. You're so nice to me and I value you as my friend so much,"

He stared at me for awhile before nodding. He stood up and smiled but it's not as wide as he always do that's why I suddenly felt worried. "Let's go,"

And before I could speak, he already offered his hand to me. Well, he seemed okay with it too so I just returned it with a smile too before taking his hand.

We went back to the company after that and Jacob became more silent that time. He seemed like he's thinking something so deep, so I just let him do that. I didn't want to interrupt him though.

"I'm fine here, you don't have to walk me there," I was talking about our office. But I didn't expect him to nod. He smiled at me before pressing the button up to his floor.

I was left hanging there, thinking about the odd things that I saw in him today. He's not like that though, he's always cheerful and I was so annoyed by him everytime. But now, he's like a freakin' mysterious. That guy's up with something.

But since it's none of my business, I just let him handle it in his own. I believed that he would ask for my help if he can't take it anymore. I'm willing to help him and I would welcome him with my arms.

"Congratulations!"

I was so happy that our internship turned out well. It's already past 1 week since the last time that I attend my last internship. It was all worth it. All my hardship turned out well this time.

My friends also throw a part for me inside our apartment and I'm actually surprised about it. It's quiet late, but I still appreciated it. They worked hard earning their time just to lent it by doing this.

"Thank you guys!" I giggled and hugged them. Although, Jacob isn't here but I'm still happy because the girls are complete.

He said that he's doing some business today so he can't also try to hang out with me. Seriously, I was closed to punch that bastard. I don't know but, he seemed like avoiding me.. I'm not sure but, I think he's just using all the excuses just to run away from me.

It hurts inside, I also missed him but that freak was missing in action. He always hide like a freakin' wanted!

"Don't worry, Jacob won't ever try to disappoint you.." Gia winked at me and we started to drink the wine that Jessy had prepared for us.

We decided to just drink here tonight so we can catch up too. They also bought me a cake which I really enjoyed right now. It was based on my favorite color; black and pink. I didn't know much they spent here but it's really beautiful!

I don't think I can eat this.

"Come on, taste it first Raine.." Sam insisted while wearing her cute smile.

"Wait," I took out my phone inside my pocket and opened my camera.

I wanted to post it on 'my story' so everyone can see this beautiful product. Oh my, it's really good and looks so delicious!

"The food will get frozen waiting you to finished doing some photoshoot o it, Raine. You're doing it for how many times," Jessy rolled her eyes but she's like mocking me.

"I just wanted to take pictures on every angle of it. You've made some effort preparing this guys.." I pouted and gave them a touched expression.

I really appreciated their efforts so much!

After a week that I was really kind of busy with my thesis right now, I feel like my head will going to burst. It's freakin' aching and I think It was already drained now! Oh god, I didn't see this coming.

I also undergo a sleepless nights just to justify and revised all the manuscript of my thesis. Seriously, I was really annoyed just by looking at my instructors criticizing my work. They're like looking for something to changed in my book. And fuck, this is getting annoying now!

"Are you okay babe?" Sam asked, she's currently having her rest now. She owns her schedule and I envy her right now.

"I needed to finish this," I sighed and looked at the manuscripts in front of me. It's so few, I don't think I can finish this just within this day..

"Your deadline isn't coming yet. Don't over stressed yourself girl, it's not the end for you.."

"I don't think I can fuction well anymore, Sam. I can't even concentrate.." I pouted, getting hopeless.

I haven't reached the half of my work and I'm already exhausted. Seriously, I was closed to crying but I'm just suppressing it. I can't believed this thesis would be this stressing.

"You can do that babe, you've gone so far. Why give up now, hmm?" She hugged me from behind and kissed my head. "Let's go shopping.."

I was about to get emotional, but then she mentioned shopping. I nearly pinched her waist for that. Oh god, she really kind of weird sometimes. How could she bring up the things that aren't related to our situation?

So damn weird, Sam..

I bit my lower lip to stifle a laugh. She might be upset if she knew that I'm laughing at her.

"Why? Are you that bored, so you're asking me to go shopping with you?" I arched a brow.

She chuckled a bit before standing up and opened my closet, "Jacob's birthday was coming and I think, you should get him a gift too.."

Oh my..

She looked at me with a playful grin in her lips. Damn. I forgot that his birthday will be this week and fuck! That brat doesn't seem to catch up with me anymore.

He's too busy hiding from me..

But that's not a problem since I'm going to his party soon. I'm really going to punch him even if it's his birthday. There's no exception from me.

Sam already bought a gift for him when we went to the men's apparel. I can't still decide what to give to him and it's making me stressed. I also planned not to give him a gift but Sam nagged at me like it would be a shame if I didn't give him any where he's my closest friend..

That's why in the end, I choose to buy him basketball ball which his favorite player's signature was engrave on it.

I smiled as I see the ball. I'm so excited to give him this, I hope he'll get to like it..

"Raine," Sam called. We're here at Korean restaurant inside the mall, we just decided to eat here just by now.

"Why?"

"Can I ask you something?" She seemed serious and nervous which sends a slight strange feeling inside me.

I bit my lower lip and nod. "Go on,"

She released a heavy breath before looking at me directly.

"How do you feel about Jacob..?" Her question pounded my chest. Shit.

"W-what do you m-mean?" I blinked and swallowed hard..

I have this feeling of what will she going to say but, I think it would be better if she say it herself..

"Do you like him?"

I bit my lower lip and looked away. My breathing becomes heavy which really made me it hard for me..

Oh god..

To be continued..