False Hero

(Eira's POV)

"So you want to leave the royal knights?" asked the squad leader of my royal knight squad. 

"Yes,"

"That's actually------ do you have any particular reason for leaving? did something happen? is anyone in the royal knight bullying you?" he asked, he looked particularly worried.

"No ---- nothing like that, I just wanted to choose a different path, that's all," I said.

His facial loosened as he said "Oh, I see. then I wish you good luck."

After leaving the royal knights, I trained for some months but I wasn't at peace of mind. Well, I never had "peace of mind" ------- but after my days at the royal knight, I was more confused about what I really wanted to do.

The "weak" are willing to be used by the strong and they also tear each other apart like animals. well, I don't blame them, they have to do it all for survival since without a strong background it's much harder to achieve a stable life. 

Once you achieve a stable life then you can give a stable life for the generation to come but achieving a stable life is a much harder task.

At some point in my life, I stopped using words like strong and weak since there is no strong or weak, there are just people with different circumstances. Some are born in a well of family and some or not. People adapt to the circumstances and survive.

After training for months I went out on a journey, I had nothing particular in mind. I just went from place to place, observed people and their lifestyles. This was a thing that I wanted to do with Grey...

There was this circumstance where I had to kill a group of bandits ----- I thought I didn't have it in me, especially after the realization that I had. The group of bandits ------ they weren't human, they didn't seem like on to me.

Everywhere they went, they killed, men, women, children, old and young, they killed everyone that they could get a hand on. Of course, they did opt to torture people first since they needed to take all and everything that a person owned.

They broke boys and girls, they used them until they were satisfied. 

(Author: Well bandits does have female members, lol)

I killed all of the bandits, that made me wonder ------- I mean, the killing I did of bandits was totally justified in my head. Their crimes were terrible and I felt no remorse after killing them, but then ----

Till what level is killing justified? how bad is really bad? killing for purpose is really justified? 

I had to keep going for Grey. I will keep going as proof that he once existed, I will become his existence. 

At the end of the day, I will become the queen of this kingdom. I will make everyone who was involved in the death -------- I will make them pay. 

I trained under the king, I trained under the god. I will keep going till I get at least one step closer to my goal.

"My human disciple! today is a happy day for me!" he was overjoyed, he was usually very much energetic but this time he looked legitimately happy.

I didn't ask why since I know that without even asking why he would still tell me what he really wants to say. 

"Ask why!" 

"Why?"

"Today I was able to see a vulnerable side to my fellow gods, it was amazing. Today I saw something that made me excited to my core "

I wasn't curious about what he was saying, but he looked like he wanted to say something more, so I asked the obvious question "What did you see?"

"A mortal! a little human ----- he would be around your age, but he was so much interesting. He had his way with words, he showed no fear in front of the gods. Even in front of nearly all the gods, he showed not the shred of fear. 

He promised that he would kill all the gods, can you believe it!!" 

He ----- my master, even after being a god, he had particular hate for gods. "I have no interest in the business of gods, it doesn't concern me."

His expression turned serious---- did I offend him. 

He spoke, this time his voice was not that of enthusiasm, he was serious. "Eira------ it concerns you more than you think. It concerns all of you mortals ------ its concerns all of you mortals. It would be a shame if this civilization were to ----- "

It was the end of the conversation, I didn't ask him much about the rest. 

I trained under him for months where I learned the update of two gods being killed, master speculates that it was the human boy who did that.

I was done with my training, it was my time to go back to my academy. 

Before leaving, I bowed before him as I said "Thanks master, these months of training were really helpful for me. Thank you for making me ------- strong."

He chuckled as he said "You were already strong, kid. All I did was guide you! you had a great spirit, even though that spirit to fight comes a deep vengeance and hate. But that is what makes you mortal special. Tell me Eira, what is it that you dream to do?" 

What do I dream of? it's the same as his dream, no it's not the same----- it's similar to his dream.

"My dream.... my dream is------ it is to make a world that Grey dreamt of. A world that Grey wanted to live in ------ I want to create such a world."

A smile curved up his lips. 

He was a man with giant stature, well he wasn't really a man. He was a god ------- god of blades.

"I see, that's a respectful dream. If you ever consider becoming my successor as the god of blades, you can always come back."

I left the place, I wanted to consider his offer but my place is with humans, I have no place in being a god.

{ Author: I am back, sorry for being away for so long.}