First love after marriage

After replying to this message, I have a feeling that my world is getting gray.

I turned off the phone and completely threw my mobile phone aside. I have lost any impulse to touch my mobile phone again.

My mind is blank now. I looked at the ceiling for a while, closed my eyes and tried to force myself to go to bed.

I feel that everything outside has nothing to do with me now. I hear all kinds of sounds made by my parents after getting up, and I hear my father urging me to get up and eat breakfast.

I don't know why, all these things in front of me and these noisy voices seem to be in a different world from me. I think it's all very nothingness.

Is this the feeling of complete death?

I didn't sleep all day. When I was sleepy, the child was making trouble on the side. I felt a little awake, and the child was still making trouble around me.

It's evening to toss and turn. Today I'm not as out of control as last night. I prepare the food on time. When my parents come back, on the surface, I seem to be no different from before. I will chat and joke with my parents at the dinner table.

But as soon as I returned to my own room, the expression on my face automatically disappeared. I didn't sleep all day and night. I was really tired. After coaxing the child to sleep, I also went to sleep with her.

When I woke up the next day, I was completely awakened by a knock on the door.

I sat up and looked out of the window. At this time, it should be close to noon.

I didn't open the door for a long time, and the knock was getting louder and louder. It was particularly harsh. I cut my hair casually in the mirror and ran to the door.

A few short steps across the living room, I didn't dare to think whether Xiao Ziyu was outside. I tried to restrain myself from thinking about him, but I couldn't suppress it. I still wondered whether he was the one who knocked at the door.

Unfortunately, after opening the door, it was not Xiao Ziyu, but Zhou Han holding a rose.

Zhou Han came to my house. I was quite surprised. He didn't say he would come before, and he came with roses.

As soon as he entered the door, he gave me the roses. I took them from him with a smile. After greeting him into the house, I put those beautiful roses into the vase.

"Why are you here?" I asked Zhou Han curiously.

"Well, I heard that you are not in good shape recently. I came to see you!"

I have been busy before and after, arranging flowers and running around to pour water for Zhou Han. As soon as Zhou Han entered the door, his eyes closely followed my figure.

"What my parents told you?"

"Of course it's your parents, and your mobile phone has been turned off. It's strange!" Zhou Han said and shook his cell phone.

I smiled awkwardly: "forgot to charge!"

"What's going on? People who want to contact don't contact you anymore, so the mobile phone doesn't need to be charged? "

Zhou Han knows me very well. Although I didn't tell him about me, he was very sensitive to the reasons for my change, so he didn't disguise himself at this time.

I smiled: "yes, you're right. I broke up with Xiao Ziyu!"

Originally, I thought that breaking up would become my eternal forbidden word, but I didn't expect that I would tell Zhou Han so frankly.

"Huh? Since I broke up, does it mean I have a chance now? " Zhou hanchong raised his teacup to me as if he were toasting me to celebrate.

"I don't know. I haven't thought about it yet. Alas, the emotional things are too complicated. I'd better avoid it!" I smiled and sat aside.

Zhou Han smiled. Then he got up and sat next to me.

I was startled, my body subconsciously moved back a little, and Zhou Han directly followed up.

Behind me is the armrest of the sofa. There is no place to hide.

At this time, Zhou Han put one hand on the back of the sofa and the other hand on the armrest of the seat. He imprisoned me.

I have nowhere to hide. Zhou Han's face may be only two fists away from my face.

I stared and felt the cells all over me nervous. Zhou Han had done something to touch me before. Is he impulsive again now?

I looked at Zhou Han: "this is my home at least. You'd better be rational!"

"Did I do anything?" Zhou Han asked me.

I was stunned. Zhou Han really hasn't done anything special to me, but now this posture will always arouse people's imagination.

"You're too close to me!" I deliberately leaned back, so that I could stay away from Zhou Han, but in a moment, my whole waist was sore, and my body trembled badly.

But Zhou Han didn't care about me. He still kept his original posture. Maybe he meant that either you lean forward or you are so sad.

My waist really couldn't hold up. I went to push him, but Zhou Han had great strength. I didn't push him away.

I couldn't hold on. I had to straighten up. Although I was close to Zhou Han, I was at least not so tired.

"What the hell are you doing?" I frowned and asked Zhou Han.

"You broke up. Do you still love Xiao Ziyu?" Zhou Han suddenly asked.

This is an extremely sensitive issue, which I avoid very much.

"Love, I still love him. Breaking up is also a forced choice!" I admit it directly.

After hearing my answer, Zhou Han immediately released me. His body moved backward and naturally maintained a normal distance.

My feelings for Xiao Ziyu were like endless water, but then I had to pack all the water into a water balloon to prevent the water from leaking out.

But Zhou Han's words, like a sharp needle, suddenly pierced the surface of my sensitive and fragile water balloon. The fragile camouflage was punctured in an instant, and the deep feelings for Xiao Ziyu poured out.

"In fact, I have always loved him, and letting go is also a kind of love. Are you right? Sometimes the reality is in front of me, and you have to make a choice. I don't want to be an object of use for the disputes of the Xiao family, I don't want to be a bullet to attack Xiao Ziyu, and I don't want my children to be hurt, so I choose to let go! I also know that this is a very selfish choice, but I...... "

The more I say, the more uncomfortable I feel. I'm really wronged. I can't go on. I can only sob and cry.

Zhou Han looked at me with distressed eyes. He helped me wipe away my tears and then hugged my body.

I struggled hard to let Zhou Han let go of me.

But Zhou Han didn't let go: "Jiang Li, don't struggle. Calm down. Will you listen to me first?"

After struggling for a while, I was a little tired, and Zhou Han said he had something to say to me, so I might as well let her finish first. I calmed down.

"Jiang Li, let me help you free yourself from such a painful vortex, OK? Will you give me a chance and let me try? " Zhou Han stroked my head as he spoke.