Flower on the ash

We both were now sitting in the car. I was feeling awkard to sit here silently when just a few minutes ago we were... so close. Alex didn't say anything else after we sat in the car and started to drive to drop me to my house. I rolled down the car's window and let the fresh air come inside. I was feeling really hot and weird but when the cold air hit my face I felt relieved. Time passed really slow in silence but surprisingly it wasn't uncomfortable. finally we reached my house.

Alex stopped the car in front of the house.

" Bye." I said to him before extending my hand to open the car's door. Alex grabbed my hand before I could open it. I turned and looked towards him.

" I will miss you tomorrow." he said with a serious face. I didn't know how to react so I took the initiative and pulled his hand upwards, towards my face and kissed the back of his hand.

" Then come back soon." I said. He was surprised by my action and sat their frozed. I quickly opened the door and said bye to him. I smiled to myself when I remembered his reaction to my kiss. He rolled down his window.

" I'll come as soon as possible. Bye." he said and drove off. I walked happily smiling like a fool towards my home when suddenly my smile dropped. My father was standing at the door looking at me. I don't want any drama now but I had a feeling that my good mood will be ruined.

" Good evening." I said to my father with a fake smile.

" Why Mr.Wilson always drop you off from work?" he started interrogating me.

" Because we completed our work at the same time and my home comes in his way so he offered me a drive." I lied to my him. My home doesn't comes in his way.

" Hm. You better be careful. Head in." he said and we both headed inside the house. I walked straight to my room and closed the door when I was in. 'Should I tell my parents that I am pregnant? Maybe I will when I go down to have dinner.' I thought to myself. As Alex had said that we are going to get married soon so it would be better to tell them now.

Minutes passed and it was already the time for dinner. I had already changed my clothes and went down to the dining room. I sat down on one of the chair and after few minutes my parents also joined me. Nanny was serving us our food on our respective plates and I thought it is the right time to tell them about my pregnancy.

" I ~" I just started to say but I my words were cut by my father's.

" We have something to say to you." he said looking towards me. " Me and your mom has decided to marry Sophia with Mr.Wilson. I have made an appointment with him for the day after tomorrow." he said and my words which I was going to tell him earlier got stuck in my mouth. I was completely shocked. But I composed myself.

" That's great." I finally managed to say. Even though I don't like my sister or step-mother I have no right to say NO to this marriage. Even if I'm pregnant with Alex's child there's no relation between us. All the things that happened was just a mistake. Whatever that happened only because we spend a night together and I became pregnant after that. If that didn't happen things wouldn't be like this.

" What happened? You were going to say something before. What is it?" my father asked me.

" Ah. Nothing. It's just that I have a stomach ache.I will skip the dinner." I said and stood up from my chair. I walked up to my room and flopped on the bed covering my face with pillow. I could feel a lump in my throat. I didn't know why I was feeling this sad. A tear escaped my eyes and rolled down on the pillow followed by more and more. I didn't know why I was crying like a fool feeling that I have lost someone who wasn't even mine from the start.

I didn't even realize when I was asleep while crying. Maybe I was pregnant and it made me more emotional. I opened my eyes and saw it was already dawn. My eyes were burning. I took small steps to the bathroom and looked myself in the mirror. I was looking all messy with red puffy eyes. I washed my face with cold water but my red eyes were still very evident. I took a cold shower to calm myself down. The cold water felt very nice on my hot body. I came out of the shower and wore black trousers with white shirt. I tied my hair in a ponytail and applied makeup on my face, a bit more near my eyes to hide my red eyes. I walked downstairs and saw Nanny preparing morning breakfast.

" Miss. You are up this early." Nanny asked me as I entered into the kitchen.

" Yeah Nanny." I said.

" You are all dressed up to your office. There's still two hours left for you to head to your work." she said looking at the wall clock.

" You didn't even eat properly yesterday night and look now at your eyes. Cried all night." she said surprising me. I did hide my red eyes well. How can she tell that I cried?

" Don't look this surprised. I have been looking over you since you were small. I know there's something you aren't telling us but I'm with you. You should go to visit you mom's grave today." she said caressing my head. I gave her a smile and nodded.