His Possession

I found myself lying down on the bed of my cabin. I don't how I reached here but it was probably Daniel who carried me to this place because I could smell his cologne on me. Daniel is a reputed doctor of our hospital. He finished his degree from foreign then came back in his country to help his people. He is the perfect example of patriotism . We have a lot of things in common as well in treating patient. I guess it's one the reasons we became such good friends.

He's tall, handsome, talented. He has every quality a perfect man should have. But our relationship was never more than friends but I know he awfully cares for me a lot which makes me the center of jealousy for other young female doctors of our hospitals.

I never cared about that though. I always told Daniel to find a girl for him. But he never listen. He says he's waiting for someone. That certain someone who he might never get but still he loves to wait because it is for her.

I did tell him to love someone who loves you not whom you love. But he thinks that one sided love is more special than any other kind of love in this world because only you have the right over this love, you are the one who loves more and your are the one who will love till the end. People might say you lost your love but he thinks he won the match of loving more, he won the match to love the other one with all his heart.

I don't argue with him about this matter because I never had any experience of love either. Love was just a word for me in dictionary. Never witnessed the romantic love in life. I was so busy in studies that I never got the chance to look around. Many flowers might have bloomed around me but I was unaware as I'm still now. I didn't change at all. Don't know where it will take me.....

Daniel had put my favorite daisies in the vase on my table and my orange juice pack for me. He well knows I love orange juice very well. The way he takes care of me surprises me sometimes. Why does he do all these? Just because I'm a good friend? Sometimes I make myself wonder if I'm the girl he's waiting for but I laugh it off as a joke inside my mind.

Maybe I'm too afraid to fall in love or I'm just not used to change.

I got up from my bed and took my juice pack with me on the roof. I usually come here for a fresh air after every operation. Spend some alone time with darkness and my thoughts.

The roof of the hospital is always vacant at this time,nobody comes anyways. Seeing the door open quite surprised me. I peeked inside to see if anyone's there.

Suddenly I saw a guy sitting on the edge of the railing and looking down. I would have screamed in some other time but that exact moment reminded me my past, the one I still try forget. The one which still makes wake up in the middle of night as a nightmare, my mom's suicide.

He was humming a song, a sweet song that my mom used to sing. She hummed the same songbefore jumping from the roof of our house that night, in front of my very eyes.

I froze but I guess the sound of juice pack falling from my hand has made him understand that someone is behind him which made him stop singing.

We both were standing silent and he didn't look behind at me either.

"Is it really necessary?" I said with my frozen voice.

"What if it is?" He replied in a musical tone.

"God gifted you this life. Don't u think you should gift him back by doing something which makes Him happy?"

"Murders happen right? Why do you think God takes away those innocent lives? If He has the right to take away His gift anytime, we can

also be a little selfish as well,don't you think?"

He looked back at me saying that while I was unable to answer his question.He wasn't wrong. There are different sides of God's wrath. After all we humans are weak, a doll in front of God. Our existence depends on Him as well as our future. There was no answer because if God can be selfish too sometimes why can't we?

I wonder if he was right or not.....

But to be honest I didn't wanna know I just wanted to believe what he said.

"So doctor!" He said getting down from the railing,"Do you believe in God?" His skin glowing on the moonlight. He seemed like fallen angel, the stories I used to tell my little patients seemed like real to me in that moment.

"Yes," I said in a cold voice still being confused.

"You won't from now on," He smiled devilishly.

"What?" I asked being surprised.

"We shall meet again doctor."

He left the place while I was still standing there being still.

He has dark blue eyes, the ones my mom had. I used to consider them the most beautiful ones until they became my nightmare of every night.

Who was he ? I asked myself without getting a reply. The cold night wind blew making me shiver.

I came back to my senses soon and came down. Today was a long day indeed.

"Grace!" I heard someone familiar calling my name when I was entering my cabin.

"Daniel?" I smiled just looking at him. He has a certain calmness in his face always which makes you forgot all the problems.