I Really Didn’t Want to Be the Savior

As a teenager, Chen Feng fantasized many times.

One day, the silhouettes of the biological parents appeared outside the classroom, calling their names.

Then I can leave this painful home and return to where I should be.

But day by day, he slowly gave up his extravagant hopes, became numb, no longer had illusions, and just wanted to get rid of the predicament by his own efforts.

He doesn't know how he feels about his biological parents.

Thank them for giving yourself life?

I should be grateful.

But why don’t you care about yourself, let yourself appear alone in a stranger’s house, and become a son bought by a stranger with money? Since I can remember, I don’t feel at all when I think of my parents. To the slightest warmth.

So, he knew it was wrong, but Chen Feng had some resentment towards his biological parents after all.

He hates the other party since he can't raise himself well, why should he be born?

Since I was born and I am lost, why don't you try to find me.

If it weren’t for me to be a little more stubborn, a little stronger, and a little more cold-blooded than an ordinary person, I would really just sink into the abyss and couldn’t break free.

This kind of youthful resentment lurked in his heart. He thought it had been forgotten, but now it was suddenly brought to his eyes by Lu Wei, making him lose control in an instant.

The impact of this deep-rooted emotion on him was even stronger than when he died as a human leader.

Now he can take on the important task of saving civilization, but for a while he is reluctant to face the pain of his youth.

Lu Wei understands his mood, even before taking out the paper bag, he has sketched this scene in the heart many times.

Chen Feng seems to be categorically "not looking", but on the contrary, she can smell a strong "human touch" from this overly detached genius of the same age.

Fortunately, you are not a fairy.

Five minutes later, Chen Feng opened his hands and said, "Let me see."

As soon as Lu Wei looked at your expression, I put the sealed document bag in Chen Feng Hands.

There are a few thin pages of paper and seven or eight reproduced photos.

Chen Feng didn't dare to look at the photos first, but first looked at the description of the situation on a few pages of paper.

The truth is very consistent with one of the situations he has guessed many times.

As for the past, Chen Feng still vaguely remembers something, but it is very vague. He can't think of the specific time and place, or even the appearance of people's faces and scenes.

He only knew that when he was very young, one day early in the morning, grandfather grandma put on her back basket, said she was going to sell vegetables in town, and then gave him to a young fellow from the same town for help. NS.

Then this young man took him around, probably to the village health clinic.

There is a small house near the health center. Many people are playing cards, and Xiaoyou also joined it.

The young man got a straight flush first, or something, anyway, it is a big hand, slaughter all sides, suddenly became interested.

Then the young man asked Chen Feng to play next to him.

But he is not fun, because no one cares about him, and there are no other children nearby.

Chen Feng is very boring alone and wants to find grandfather grandma.

He went to town once on Grandfather’s two-eight lap bicycle not long ago. He remembers that there is only one road to park the oil. The market where grandfather’s grandma sells vegetables seems to just walk along this road and go directly to the side of the road. You can see.

He decided to find grandfather grandma by himself.

He ran away quietly.

Five minutes later, he appeared at the T-shaped intersection formed by the village road dirt road and the national highway Payou road.

It's over, I forgot whether to go left or right.

Chen Feng wandered around for a long time and decided to go to the left.

Maybe... Maybe... it should be right?

...

In 1999, in a city center in a county in Shu Province, a boy squatted in a corner with a blank face.

He hasn't eaten for a whole day, stomach rumbling with hunger.

He was lost.

An "enthusiastic" Aunt took him to a bowl of noodles and said to help him go home.

He believed it.

When he came back to his senses, he had already appeared in a certain rural area thousands of miles away.

At the age of three, he fell into a great panic when faced with unfamiliar "parents", unfamiliar "relatives" and unfamiliar surroundings.

"You are not my father mother! You are not my grandfather grandma either!"

This is the first word he said with the middle-aged couple and others.

This sentence laid the tone for the first half of his life.

Sometimes Chen Feng regrets it himself. Why should I remember? Maybe it is better to know nothing.

Or you can be more clever, knowing that acting is to please others, and don't just say things wrong as soon as you come, then you can have a better life.

But this is too difficult for a three-year-old child.

What’s even more annoying is that he clearly remembered, but he didn’t remember in detail enough, and couldn’t remember where he was, so that after eleven or twelve years of age, he always wanted to pack his bags and set off, but he didn’t. Know where to go.

The world is so big that there is nowhere to be a home, but I can only go back in a desperate manner.

In a daze, he just grew up like this.

He is not quite clear what kind of life other people's children are living, only knowing that he has to work in the field since he was five or six years old.

When I reached junior high school, some of my classmates dropped out of school and went to work, but he wanted to study because the teacher said it was useful.

But in "home", there are reminders and scolds every day.

Said that he ate free meals and did nothing, the children of other people's families could go out to earn money and send money back.

He was good, knowing that he had read some useless books and raised a thankless wretch who was unfamiliar.

It cost you more than a thousand to buy you, you are losing money.

Chen Feng was cut off from the textbook fee and reduced the cost of living. Every meal is a luxury.

If it weren't for the teacher, who had good grades in his studies, he was thin and stunted, and often called him to eat at home, Chen Feng suspected that he would have died of malnutrition in junior high school.

As for the textbook fees, the Principal of the school paid him in advance, saying that he is a good seed and he has to study.

When I arrived in high school, things got worse. He couldn't get a penny again, and he wouldn't let his "home" back.

But the old man in the county senior activity center helped him a lot. He only needs to sweep the floor, help pour some tea while running up and down, accompany the old man to chat, and get pushed from time to time. You can get hundreds of pieces in a month without leaving a piece of armor on the chessboard.

But life is not all good. Chen Feng's relatively withdrawn character and poorly dressed clothes also made him suffer campus bullying when he entered the county town to attend high school.

However, after others have seen his desperate cruelty, they have stopped a lot, but isolated him, and will not easily die with him.

He has very bad interpersonal communication among his classmates. He has few friends, but there are also.

In the end, he succeeded in getting admitted to the 9Level 85 Hanzhou University with good grades, and embarked on a life that truly belongs to him, completely separated from that "home" in emotional terms.

Time flies, and it's now in a blink of an eye.

Chen Feng has hatred and love for this world.

His hate is very confused, because he really doesn't know who he should hate, but there is fire in his heart.

But his love is a clear goal. The teacher who helped him, those classmates who sometimes put vegetables and meat into his empty lunchbox, the old men of the senior activity center, Tang Shuang...

If it weren't for these people, Chen Feng didn't know who he would become.

His experience is destined to be a complicated person.

In the past six months, in addition to sending back a lump sum of money to his adoptive parents, Chen Feng has successively entrusted people to return to his hometown, which is not his hometown, and contacted someone who had helped him. people.

He told others that if they need help, he can help.

But most people tell him that it’s okay, no matter whether it’s difficult or not. We are having a good time. You have to organize a party when you have time. The big guys eat and eat together and just chat.

It is said that things gather people into groups, and the kindness of a young man becomes the cultivation of a young man when he grows up.

At a glance, Chen Feng’s character and experience helped him complete the process of selecting friends ahead of time.

So that Chen Feng didn't dare to say in a big way, if you are short of money, don't make troubles, and feel free to tell me boldly.

On the contrary, these true friends replied that it is vulgar if we have money in our emotions, but if we are accidentally exhausted, we will find you. Don't worry.

It's a pity that the old men who had the deepest friendship with him at the beginning have left several in the past few years. Chen Feng wanted to go back and see the remaining two old men several times, but Mr. He I have been busy until now, and I can only arrange for individuals to send some health products and small gifts from time to time.

People don't want it if it is valuable.

Including the classmates’ meals, he also stalled.

He has no home, these people are his "home", but there is no time to go back.

But now he finally saw his other home.

This is a photo of a man, with seven or eight points similar to him in the eyebrows.

The man looks like in his twenties. He is dressed in a green military uniform with dark skin. He smiles resolutely in the sun, and his eyes are concentrated, which reminds Chen Feng of his makeup photos when he is wearing military uniforms in the future.

The photo is the old-fashioned color photo of the old film. The color should be Lucky film.

"Really good."

He opened the second photo again.

This is a woman wearing a white nurse uniform. She is very beautiful and has a bright smile.

She was standing in the shade of a tree, and the light spots transmitted by the sun sprinkled on her face, making her a little bit unable to open her eyes.

Obviously, she was taking pictures seriously, but her eyes drifted to the left very hard.

On the left side of the screen, there are little feet wearing only Smurf socks.

"My mom is so good-looking."

He said.

The third photo shows a woman holding a child about two months old, standing side by side with a man.

The two adults are still trying very hard to put a smile on their faces in the sunshine, while the child in the woman's arms is open and crying, and the Smurf socks on his legs are particularly conspicuous.

Turning over another photo, it turned into two old people sitting on chairs, in the center of the photo layout, while the little child fell into the arms of the old grandma, still struggling.

The two adults stood behind the old man, the man's military posture was still straight, while the woman's eyes drifted down and fell on the child.

There are three or four photos taken when he was about one or two years old. There are a single photo of him, and there are also some photos of him who were doted by the two old men.

Although he is very young in the photo, Chen Feng can see his shadow in his eyebrows.