I Really Didn’t Want to Be the Savior

In these photos, the expression of the old man has changed a little.

One of the two elders laughed happily.

There is another one. The two of them have tears in their eyes, but they habitually barely squeeze out a smile that is uglier than crying when facing the camera.

Chen Feng put down the photo, thinking of the few lines of description in the fact sheet again in his mind.

On September 15, 1998, Perfection completed the flood-fighting and rescue mission of the Sichuan-Shu Military Region... Company commander Comrade Chen Feng and health worker Comrade Liang Yun encountered a landslide on their way back home, and unfortunately died.

Since joining the military, the two comrades...now regarded as martyrs and awarded second-class merit...

In 2007, Chen Feng's grandmother Zhou Xianxiu passed away at the age of 65.

Chen Feng’s grandfather Chen Mo is still alive, living alone in Chuanshu County. He is 81 years old this year. In recent years, he has been in poor health and was hospitalized from time to time.

Recalling, Chen Feng's hand shook suddenly and unconsciously.

He fiercely turned his face away and looked towards the side.

Lu Wei did not disturb him.

Long time passed, Chen Feng put the materials back into the file bag, "Thank you."

"No thanks."

"Check this matter is useless A lot of effort, right?"

Lu Wei: "Well, okay, I'm not quite clear on the specific details. The suspect has also been caught, do you want to talk to her?"

Chen Feng thought for a while, "Forget it, it's all over."

"I've been curious before, I actually know your past. You are obviously not a soldier, but you are now Give me a strong military atmosphere, not the kind of recruits who have never been on the battlefield. And your temperament has been getting stronger and stronger. I thought it might be an illusion before, but now I know it. This is natural. "

Chen Feng nodded: "Perhaps. My adoptive father is also surnamed Chen, and he named me Chen Feng. My dad is also Chen Feng. Maybe... It's really a matter of heaven. Destined. He hasn't finished serving as a soldier. I will be here. I will not shame him."

"Save the province, you can't join the army now. If you want to go to the army, no one else will agree, you It’s better to continue writing your songs and do research."

Chen Feng: "I’ll talk about the next thing later."

Chen Feng remembered that he was there two times before. In the future, Pvt. Chen Feng's origin will be Shuzhou.

At that time, he was still a little bit puzzled. He was obviously not from Shu, so he couldn't get along with this place.

Now he understands, from the very beginning, fate is hinting to himself.

Lu Wei nodded, looked at him up and down, unconsciously said with emotion: "It's incredible, you are too angry this day."

Chen Feng haha ​​smiled. , "It's not entirely natural, it still has to be practiced. It took me a lot of life to practice it."

"Tell you! What happens when I haven't read your file?"

"Really, why don't you believe me if I tell the truth?"

Lu Wei didn't know whether to cry or laugh, "Let’s talk, how many lives?"

Chen Feng pretended to think seriously, "There must be hundreds of billions of bars."

Now Lu Wei's eyes have turned to the top of the head.

There is no way to take him, Lu Wei helplessly said: "Why are you driving again?"

Chen Feng: "I..."

I dare not say any more, He started to sullen his head quickly to prepare food, and at the same time he took out his cell phone to call Meng Xiaozhou, and asked Meng Xiaozhou to immediately book him a direct flight ticket to Sichuan and Shu.

"I can’t eat slowly with you today, sorry, I’ll finish eating early and go to Shuzhou to see my grandfather."

Lu Wei: "Then?"

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"Then I will buy a suite there and buy a private jet, and then I will come to Hanzhou when something happens."

Lu Wei was shocked, "Hi..."

"One day is a day. I am lost. The old man has been sad for 21 years. I want to make him happier."

However, everything is Chen Feng’s beautiful vision. It can't be achieved after all.

Fate has never been perfect, full of shortcomings of this kind.

When he arrived in Sichuan and Shu County, he went straight to the community where Chen Mo lived to inquire, only to know that Chen Mo had entered the ward of the county hospital again this morning.

Chen Feng quickly turned around and headed straight to the hospital.

Arrived at the hospital building. Others said it was on the fifth floor, but the elevator had just reached the third floor. Chen Feng turned his head and rushed into the stairs.

When he arrived at the door of the ward, he saw that the doctor and nurse had already stood outside.

He didn't dare to ask, the content of these people's conversations had already told him the answer.

Doctor: "He wouldn’t let me be with him, he said he wanted to be alone. The elderly really didn’t work this time."

The nurse rubbed his eyes, "Oh. "

The eyes of the other nurse were also red, "In fact, I thought Grandpa Chen was no longer good last year, but didn't expect him to come over."

"He said he had to wait for his grandson to come back, and didn't want to leave."

"It's been 21 years, how can I wait to get it."

" Three years old, don’t remember."

"I should be twenty-four years old now. If I can get it back, I’ll be back."

"You guys Say where is Grandpa Chen's grandson now? I have helped him repost Moments before, and it was of no use."

"Who knows. I also earned it, and I registered him online. ."

"Oh."

"Teacher Liu, what did Grandpa Chen just say?"

Doctor: "He said he was still unwilling , But I also know that there is no way this time, but I am a bit regretful and reluctant."

Doctors and nurses have seen a lot of birth, aging, sickness and death, and there will not be too many psychological fluctuations.

The story of Chen Mo Old Master is well known in the hospital.

About five or six years ago, Old Mister, whose health was deteriorating, became a frequent visitor to the hospital.

Many times the doctors thought that he could not survive. The martyr Orphanage and the funeral home were preparing for the funeral. As a result, he always miraculously regained his spirit and eased his life.

He can persist until now, all with one breath.

He always said that there are not many people in his family and there are no relatives.

If you go away, the baby will be found in the future, and you can't see anything. How sad?

I, Old Chen, was also an iron man with a gun back then. I was not afraid of the rain of guns and bullets. I said that if you don't die, you won't die.

Black and White Impermanence are afraid of me.

Everyone is also looking forward to this stubborn old man's dream come true.

But after all, time is the most ruthless blunt knife of Human World, and no one can match it.

No matter how strong the old man holds it year after year, half-steps into the Gates of Hell again and again, and then breaks free, there will always be a day when he has to surrender.

His hopes of accomplishing what he wants are getting diminished.

Now he is finally forced to give up.

Chen Feng swallowed his saliva and asked: "Is it Chen Mo inside? How is the situation?"

The doctor gave him a slightly surprised look, "Are you... …?"

"I am his grandson, Chen Feng."

Everyone: "What!"

Thirty seconds later, Chen Feng appeared Before the bed.

The old man didn't know that he had come in, and he was lying softly on the bed that was half shaken.

There are apples that have been oxidized and blackened for some time on the cabinet next to the hospital bed.

There is a bowl next to it, which contains the dumplings left over when Old Master woke up in the morning.

This has been his habit for many years, but it's a pity that he can't finish it this time.

The old man placed his hands on his chest, fingers interlocked, his head slightly tilted, his turbid eyes looked out the window.

The sun outside the window was just right, shining on the elm tree.

The breeze was blowing, and the branches swayed slightly.

Compared with twenty years ago, the old man’s face at this time has many more gully-like wrinkles.

His expression is plain, but his teeth are clenched tightly.

He was breathing hard, but his breathing continued to weaken continuously.

The frequency of the fluorescent beating on the heartbeat monitor next to him is slowing down by little by little, but as his chest rises every time he breathes hard, it will get slightly faster.

The old man who just wanted to be alone, ready to face death calmly and calmly, still refused to give up.

Chen Feng slowly moved in, cautiously softly, "grandfather, I'm back."

The old man turned his head abruptly.

He first stared at Chen Feng blankly.

The turbidity in his eyes quickly dissipated at a speed visible to naked eye.

An indescribable smile bloomed on his wrinkled and dark spotted face.

He opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but his mouth was ho ho ho, like thick sputum.

He seems to be speechless.

He raised his right hand abruptly and stretched it to Chen Feng's face.

The rough touch fell on Chen Feng's face like a knife, but he did not evade.

Chen Feng has a lot of words in his mind, but he can't always say it.

"Ho ho! Ho! Cough! Bah!"

The old man suddenly sat upright, then spit out sputum to the side, he turned his head and looked at Chen Feng .

He can finally make a sound in his throat.

His voice is like a Hong Zhong, and his smile blooms like a flash in the pan.

"Ha! hahaha! You are back!"

"Well, I'm back."

The old man stared at him with wide eyes, "No lie I, they didn't find anyone to impersonate you, you and your dad look like a mold."

The old man said while scraping Chen Feng's face with his hand.

"What is your name now?"

"Chen Feng."

"Also surnamed Chen?"

"en. "

"hahahahaha!"

The old man laughed wildly, his smile getting brighter and brighter, but two unstoppable tears burst into his eyes.

He quickly raised his left hand again, rubbing his eyes desperately, "It won't work, this shit is blocking your eyes, I can't see you anymore, I'll take a look more."

Chen Feng sat down next to him, "It's okay, I'm rich now and can treat it, grandfather, you get better sooner, let you see it later."

The old man shook his head again, "No need It’s enough. It’s enough. I understand it for myself. If I don’t leave, Yama will have to quit. It’s okay, I’ve had enough in this life anyway."

Chen Feng did not answer this.

The old man asked again: "Have you married? Do you have a baby?"

"Not yet."

"Are there any partners?"

"Yes."

"Then you have to work harder!"

"Yeah."

The old man gradually became Be even more excited, and loudly said: "Hey, I asked why, anyway, you are back, after I go down, I can have an explanation with Chen Family and your parents."

Chen Feng wants to say that you haven't gotten there yet, but it makes no sense to say such words at this time.

The old man came to touch his face again, "Baby, I have worked hard for you. You have suffered a lot, right?"

Chen Feng: "It's okay."

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"It's grandfather, I'm sorry, I shouldn't give you bastard, or you won't get lost."

"It's okay. Am I not coming back."

old man: "Well, it's not too late to come back, just right."

After saying this, the old man lay down suddenly, even scratching Chen Feng The hands of the face were also weak.

Chen Feng bit his lips tightly and pinched his hand.

He said slowly and weakly, but he was still teaching others, "Why cry? A real man, bleeding but not tears! Director Lin said, birth, aging, sickness and death are rules. No one can escape. I am not afraid of death, I am afraid that death is meaningless. Do you think I am happy now if I am not smiling?"

"But you cry first."

" I'm dying, what's wrong with crying? You are different, your life is still long."

"en."

old man: "Chen Feng."

"Yes."

"Actually, I shouldn't have preached to you as soon as I met. But when you were a kid, I didn't have time to teach you the principles of life, so I lost it. . I’m afraid it’s too late if I don’t talk about it anymore."

Chen Feng: "grandfather you say, I will listen."

"Remember, don't betray the person who treats you well, be a human being Do things with your conscience. Don’t hate your own destiny. Some things are destined. Look at me. After waiting for you for twenty years, I will be completely satisfied in these few minutes."

"en. "

"Your dad is a resounding man, and your mother is also a resounding female man. They did what they should do. Don't blame them for not taking care of you when you grow up."

"No blame."

"You are also a loud guy now. My old Chen Family is only an iron man. I can see something in your heart, a big thing, but it must Can hold it. No matter what you encounter in the future, think about my words."

The old man raised his hand again and hung it on Chen Feng’s neck, "I want I'm gone."

Chen Feng couldn't answer.

"But you really don't have to be sad, I don't regret it at all. What I want to say to you in this life is so much. Everything else is nonsense. It doesn't matter if you don't hear it. "

Chen Feng: "en."

old man: "Really gone."

The hand dropped.

The heartbeat monitor keeps beeping for a long time, making it very ear-piercing.

Chen Feng sat in the chair for a long, long time.

Grandfather is exactly the same as the most beautiful one he imagined.

But the time to get along is too short and too short.

So short that he didn't even react, he had already lost this happiness.

For a moment, he really wanted to charge ahead and ask Old Thief Heaven why.

What did you do wrong, you have to be punished like this.

But he reacted violently. In fact, there is no God in the world.

If he has to say yes, it is him.

He remembered the incredible heroism and unrestrainedness of the old man again.

I don’t know if the old man pretended to be afraid of being sad, or he was born so hard.

But this question will never be answered.

Is the old Chen Family only an iron man?

Chen Feng looked at Chen Mo with his eyes closed.

He may have seen something in his body that others can't.

Am I sure to be able to hold...?

The doctors and nurses outside filed in.

Chen Feng stood up, took off his hat, looked back at everyone, bowed deeply, "Thank you."

"Chen Feng!"

Someone recognized him at a glance.

Chen Feng nodded, "It's me."

Eight days later, Chen Feng quietly returned to Hanzhou.

He did not inform anyone except Lu Wei this time.

In the past few days, the well-informed Lu Wei called him from time to time, seeming to want to ask him about his situation and chat casually.

Chen Feng knew her purpose, and probably wanted to enlighten herself.

In fact, he personally felt that it was unnecessary. With such a chic and heroic grandfather, he wanted to be sad and sad does not raise.

After the burial, he planned to wait until after May 26 When I return to reality next time, I will return to Hanzhou. Stay here for a few more days and take a walk every day to relax and prepare for this action.

However, there was a slight change in Hanzhou. On May 22nd, he left after all.