I Really Didn’t Want to Be the Savior

Seeing Chen Feng's sudden embarrassment, Zhong Lei is a little nervous.

She wondered if she was wrong, maybe she should lie and say it was all for you?

But she is not good at lying and finds it very uncomfortable.

Zhong Lei is a very simple person with a very straight personality.

She only liked music, and she couldn't hold anything else in her eyes.

The reason she likes music is because she has great dreams.

The root of her dream is naive and real.

"Leave something for this world."

Simply ten words.

Some people often put it on their lips, and then live a joke while talking casually.

Some people do it all their lives, turning jokes into myths.

Zhong Lei is the second person.

Chen Feng can attract Zhong Lei for three reasons.

First, Chen Feng's "music" completely hit her.

This is the reason Chen Feng thinks, but he does not know that this is not the decisive factor.

To attract Zhong Lei, talent alone is not enough.

Even if Chen Feng copied her own songs and resonated with her, it was not enough.

Wen has no first place, and Wu has no second place.

Being able to become one of the hundred thousand years ago in the art field where no one is convinced is something that is beyond ordinary people's imagination and even unreasonable, but she did it.

In the first timeline, she debuted as a pop singer, under the pressure of Zhou Ah with a humble status, she smashed a blood path on her own ability forcibly, and rushed against the current like a reckless hero.

After she became famous, she still had to face such and other difficulties alone without being attached to any forces, but she was fearless, and finally achieved such achievements, becoming an idol across the age.

Her stubbornness may be stronger than Chen Feng imagined.

She has a weird and absolute confidence in the bones and will not give up to anyone, including Chen Feng.

Even if she admires Chen Feng's creative ability so much that she even wants to be a teacher, she still wants to catch up or even surpass him.

She knows how Revered Master is, but she will not follow blindly, which is why she dropped out of school.

She will not indulge in the songs Chen Feng wrote to her, but will still be tirelessly chasing her own inspiration.

The second reason, Chen Feng saved her life.

The third point is the most important.

Zhong Lei smelled Chen Feng's sense of responsibility. It was like-minded like-minded, and it was much deeper than her.

Zhong Lei once asked Chen Feng, "Why have you been so busy and tired, don’t you want to rest." Feng got a conclusive answer.

Now, Chen Feng has not spoken, Zhong Lei waited for a long time, tilted his head and stared at him with a pair of beautiful eyes.

"Which...If you don't like what I say, I can change it. For example... it's all for you..."

Chen Feng covers his face , "Don't."

Death.

He thought about it again.

Chen Feng probed: "Then if I change my mind, let you stop creating now. As long as you promise me, we will get married right away, how about?"

Zhong Lei Frozen, "What are you talking about nonsense."

"No, I'm serious, this song is too difficult, I don't want you to waste your youth in vain."

Zhong Lei this I am puzzled again, "I can write when I am married? The two do not conflict."

Chen Feng shook his head, "No, this song is not a love song, it is sweet and sweet after marriage. Tired, how can I write such an atmospheric thing."

"You look down on me?"

"No!"

"Well, I can Pretend to agree to you, then get married, write quietly, and publish after we die. Isn't this the best of both worlds?"

Chen Feng was dumbfounded again.

Sure enough, I underestimated her, this is the real her, she is not so honest, and even the eight cows that have been identified can't come back.

"This..."

He thought quietly, as if this could be a perfect solution.

At this moment, Zhong Lei beside him suddenly let go of his hand, and turned around to hold the railing by the lake with both hands, faintly said: "Actually you don't like me, right? You used to get married before As a condition, I just want to use this to force me to finish this song, right?"

Chen Feng gave a thump in his heart and shivered, "I...I..."

Zhong Lei's tone sounded a little depressed, "You really look down on me."

Chen Feng turned his face away, suddenly he couldn't take it anymore.

Zhong Lei said again: "I don’t need any conditions for what I want to do. I’m just a little sad. You said I won’t lie, and so are you. In fact, I know from the very beginning. You don't like me. Conditional feelings, not real feelings."

"Yes...I'm sorry."

He said it.

Sure enough, lying is a difficult thing.

"I knew at first, so you don’t need to say sorry. I was not a likable temper. It’s good if you don’t hate me. No, you at first hate me "

Chen Feng shook his head, "No."

"You are lying again."

Chen Feng: "Well, there is a little bit, but It’s not serious either."

Zhong Lei: "What happened later?"

"I don’t hate it anymore."

Zhong Lei: "But you don’t hate me afterwards , And feel ashamed of me, which makes you uncomfortable?"

Chen Feng felt that he was completely seen through, "Yes...Yes. Why do you know this? Have you also studied psychology? "

Zhong Lei suddenly smiled again and shook his head sweetly, "I haven't studied psychology, but I have studied you. I don't understand what you have experienced, but I understand your mood Change. I know you better than anyone in this world. Maybe I know better than yourself."

Chen Feng: "This..."

Zhong Lei added: "Are you worried, will I hate you after I found out that you are using me?"

Chen Feng nodded, "Yes."

He is really Want to run into a ghost, or find a rope to hang yourself.

too terrifying.

Does she know everything?

I lied to her and I was actually playing with fire and burning myself?

Sure enough, there is no easy person who can singlehanded the history.

I was accidentally lost in her innocence and innocence disguised by her emotions, unconsciously, and kept exposing herself.

I was completely seen through!

What is she doing today, do you want to strip me naked?

Since she knew it for a long time, we were all married in so many timelines, this...

Chen Feng got the answer right away.

Zhong Lei: "In fact, your worry is unnecessary. I like you, it doesn't matter whether you like me or not."

Chen Feng: "Huh?"

"I just stopped talking, conditional feelings are not true feelings. Feelings are not exchanges. Whether you like me or not does not affect me."

Chen Feng waved his hands again and again," Hey no, aren’t you a celibate?"

Zhong Lei nodded, "Yes, because I thought I was impossible to like others in my life, and at the same time, I would not match up with people I don’t like. Right, so I plan to be alone for a lifetime."

Chen Feng wants to like her.

Zhong Lei spread his hands again, "Besides, you just don’t like me that much, you still have a little... right? I look good again, sing and sing beautifully, and love me so much now. You’re so gentle again, don’t you have to melt your iron heart?"

Chen Feng blushed, "Yes...it’s a little bit."

"It’s just a shame but guilt, right? "

Zhong Lei nodded: "So, be completely confessed. This way you will not feel guilty. Then you only need to use a little like to get all of me. In my life I will be very happy, even if I continue like this, I am also very happy, I just hope you can be a little more relaxed."

"Of course, no matter what happens next to us. I will complete myself. Everything that can be done, write what you want and what I want. I just said that you were angry when you looked down on me, but it is here."

This is her, who can understand everything , But let himself live so simple.

Seeing that Chen Feng is still thinking about it, Zhong Lei hooked his shoulder with another hand and shook it, "Also, you are really tangled, you always like to think about it in your mind, and you are very tired. . But, I’m only interested in you, understand? You’re more comfortable now, isn’t it?"

Chen Feng nodded, "It’s much better."

"Frankly Is it?"

"Frankly. But I have to think about where to start."

"Okay, I'll wait for you to organize the language."

Just at This time, Ryan came over there to say hello: "Chen Feng, we have to go back and rest first. When are you leaving?"

Chen Feng turned around and was about to talk, but Zhong Lei stared fiercely. Ryan glanced at him, "We have something to say! You are busy and you go!"

Ryan shrank his neck and ran away, weird.

Unconsciously it was past ten o'clock. There will be something tomorrow. The crowd dispersed one after another. Even the waiters left after clearing the scene.

Fatty Ou settled down in the guest room of Plucking House, and Uncle Long took care of him.

Song Siyu, after all, everyone is pretty, so he has to go home.

In the end, only a few people remained in the Plucking House, Lu Wei, Zheng Rou, fatty, and Uncle Long.

And the others are almost gone, Chen Feng and Zhong Lei returned to the small table in the middle of the courtyard and sat down.

There are also newly-changed snack nuts and drinks on the table, as well as a cup of warm tea and juice.

Chen Feng held the teacup and activated the human brain of the Galaxy. After thinking about it for nearly half an hour, he slowly lowered his voice and opened his mouth.

"My dream is real, not a dream."

Zhong Lei was amazed in his heart, but his face remained calm and only said: "You continue to speak, I will listen , Don’t worry about me. I’ll listen quietly."

Chen Feng nodded, "I have seen the future and experienced the future...many times."

Next, it was him all the way While speaking, Zhong Lei is listening.

She strives to keep quiet and be a perfect listener.

Zhong Lei was worried about him when he heard the thrilling place countless times and almost covered his mouth in exclamation.

But again and again I heard that he was really killed in battle, worrying that it became a reality, and the hanging heart landed again and again in a very strange posture.

She tried her best not to disturb Chen Feng's narration, but this long story sounded too boring.

He said this for four full hours, and the time came to 3:30 in the morning.

"This is probably the way it is. I have always kept these in my heart. At first I thought it was a dream, but I brought back your songs, and brought back other people's songs, and "Madman’s Conjecture Collection" and the Star Front Research Institute are making these things. The future has been changing, and I want to win once."

Chen Feng folded his hands and looked at her calmly.

Zhong Lei pondered for a long time, trying hard to digest everything Chen Feng said.

A long time later, she said: "Let’s start from the very beginning when you copied my song."

Chen Feng said: "Well, I want to tell you again Sorry, all the songs I composed for you were originally yours. I also sold your songs to many people. The feeling that I am your friend in your heart is an illusion. It is because the song is originally yours, you will Easily touched."

Zhong Lei nodded, "Do you think you are a shameless thief, not as good as I hoped, you have smashed me for many lives. Right?"

Chen Feng: "Yes, now you know it. It doesn't matter if you hate me, or hate me, or even if you don't believe it."

Zhong Lei's complex expression, ask again: "Really okay?"

Chen Feng folded his hands, "Actually, there is still a little bit, but I can't help it."

"You are really not honest."

Chen Feng: "Anyway, I have thought about it, maybe your feelings for me are hallucinations. I didn't dare to say before, now I'm sure you can complete "Morning Wind", I dare to say."

"Let me think about it first." Zhong Lei fell into a long thought, and his expression became solemn.

After a long time, she sighed faintly, "This situation is too brain-burning!"

Chen Feng shrugged, "Yes. But don't worry about other things. Just take care of our business. Even if you scold me or beat me, it’s fine. If this makes you happy, it’s fine."

"After all, compared to you, I was ordinary and humble. not worth mentioning, I don’t deserve you at all. I once lied to myself to be an actor for a lifetime, and took your favor with peace of mind, but I found that this incident made my mind confused and interfered with my judgment. I I can’t even figure out how to do the right thing."

Zhong Lei rubbed the temple and shook his head, "Wait, don’t talk, I’ll take it easy, my mind is a bit messy, so Stroke again."

Chen Feng is awaiting trial in panic.

Even if she spoke the love words nicely before, Chen Feng believes that once she finds that everything is an illusion, her heart will inevitably change.

After a long time passed, Zhong Lei said: "You tell me, why did you copy my songs at first? Make money?"

"There is a little of this purpose. Actually, I was originally It’s also very sorry, but you were too bad at me at the time, and I couldn’t be angry."

Zhong Lei: "So you robbed my work?"

"en. "

Zhong Lei smiled suddenly, "No surprise, this is your temperament. When you taught me to fool Lin Youde, I knew you were a pretty black-belly person."

Chen Feng was embarrassed and nodded, "Yes."

"What happened later? We all became friends, and copied my songs? Are you professional?"

Chen Feng: "Cough cough, I caught you copying because you are the best. Using your song to make you sing it will definitely be popular and the safest. I need to accumulate wealth as soon as possible, so I choose the safest and easiest way."

"Then our business has started. You and Fatty Ou are also on the line, and you copy me? You ride a motorcycle to the scene of the accident to copy, and you stand by the fire and play the guitar for me. For what?"

Chen Feng is even more embarrassed, "Because I found that you are too scary, no matter how I copy it, it doesn’t seem to have any negative impact on you, and the songs you write are getting more and more. Good. I hope to squeeze your potential and let you leave more things."

Zhong Lei: "For example?"

"The fire, self-burning, the music in the music box All the songs, including "Morning Wind" of course, are works you haven't created before. So is "Sleepwalking Virgo". I have heard it before, but you didn't give me a chance to copy it."

"I am a spontaneous type of leek. The more you cut the leek, the denser it will be, right?"

"Actually, I treat you as a sheep with hair restorer."

"I Kill you."

Zhong Lei hammered him a few times.

Chen Feng is confused, "Aren't you angry?"

"Of course I am angry."

"But you..."

Zhong Lei suddenly changed the subject: "You at first didn't plan to save the world?"

"Well, because I don't think I can do it."

"But then you still went "

"I just wanted to be a soldier and try to figure out how I died, and if I can live for a few more days. Who knows if I go, there is no way to look back."

"This is your character. Just like me, you dare not open your mind easily. Once you let others in, you can't get rid of it."

Zhong Lei took a sip Juice, say again: "You just said you went to war every time since the fourth time, right?"

"en."

"Every time you die ?"

"en. "

"Where are the friends in the barracks? Where are the others?"

"They are all dead, they have been dying."

"Ai, in your world, mankind has perished seven times."

"Yes, I am trying to prevent the eighth time from happening."

Zhong Lei suddenly asked softly: "Are you sad?"

"It's okay."

"A lie again."

"Ah ?"

"Want to lie to me? You treat me as blind? Can't you see that you are depressed all day long, and you have a galaxy hidden in your heart so worried?"

"Okay , I’m still sad."

"Can you tell me the story of you and your comrades in detail?"

"Okay."

She got it Tang Tianxin's existence was a bit savory at first, and in the heart secretly scolded others for being unscrupulous, but then she learned that the human mind in that era was in a controlled state, and it was reasonable to do everything.

Later, she heard that the daughters of Chen Feng and Tang Tianxin could not be born again and again.

Chen Feng's tone was very calm, as if he was a bystander, but Zhong Lei could detect his ups and downs in his trembling tone, but his tears could not stop flowing.

Chen Feng talked for another two hours, unconsciously the whole night passed, and the sky outside appeared to wipe a grey dawn.

It's almost dawn.

After listening, Zhong Lei turned his head and looked at the sky in the distance, and said in a low voice: "I can't imagine how you would sacrifice yourself again and again like that, and watch the person you care about die again and again. I made it through the blow. I tried hard to substitute, but I could only vaguely grasp that feeling."

Zhong Lei's chin lifted slightly, and the tears that seemed endless in his eyes began to flow again. stand up.

Chen Feng held her hand, "You don't need to substitute, you know it."

"If you don't substitute, how can I forgive you for having another one in your heart? People, and even children are about to have things."

Chen Feng: "..."

After a long time, Zhong Lei kept rubbing his eyes, "Secular concepts and reason are both I want me to hate her, but I can’t do it."

Chen Feng was silent for a moment, "Sorry for putting you into this dilemma."

"But I thank you Being frank with me also dispelled the doubts I once had." Then, she stood up abruptly and plunged into Chen Feng's arms, "You are too difficult. You should tell me earlier!"

She finally lost control of her emotions.

Chen Feng took a long time to pat her back, and she finally slowed down.

He asked again: "It's so incredible, why did you believe it so easily? Isn't this the most illusory lie of the worst scumbag ever?"

Zhong Lei Breaking away, cried and laughed and hammered him.

"Fuck you, if you were a scumbag, would you reject Lu Wei? And long before you started speaking, I made up my mind that no matter what you say, I will believe it."

Chen Feng looked at her happily, "Thank you."

Zhong Lei rubbed his eyes and patted Chen Feng's shoulder, "Thank me for what I did. You have worked hard."

"It doesn't get in the way, there is nothing to do, I have to stick to it."

Zhong Lei listened to his barely relieved tone, and remembered that he had been carrying a guilty conscience for most of the past six months. Feeling to face myself, to force a smile, and even to face my burning feelings.

Actually, he is very poor.

He is not afraid of death, but he can't stand the guilt of deceiving himself.

What a fool, you obviously love me too much.

Zhong Lei suddenly leaned forward and grabbed Chen Feng’s hand again, “I don’t know what kind of strangers we two are in the timeline of your first and second experience. After all, it is a future that I have never experienced before. For me, it does not exist."

"I don’t care about a future that doesn’t happen, I only care about the present. I only know that I would be impossible without you. In just half a year, I became who I am today. I have spent half a year walking the path that I could only walk in my life. Instead, I want to thank you."

Chen Feng looked at her Eyes, "Don't be like this."

"I want to ask you another question."

"What?"

"Did I like you before?"

"Didn't you tell me everything, we were not familiar with it before."

"Then do you think I like you now because of your talent or something else?" Zhong Lei said The word talent bites particularly hard.

"No."

Zhong Lei: "Everyone is a complete person, the so-called talent is only a part, no matter your talent is true or false, it is still only a part of you . If I really like you only because of your creative ability, then I will be no different from those women who want to find you to invite a song and throw in their arms."

Chen Feng is stunned, only childism Are you so good at self-guided strategy?

I... I am so good?

"Guess when I first found out that I might like you."

"When I rode a motorcycle to save you?"

"That's right. It doesn't matter whether you copy songs or not, right?"

"Yes."

"The unimaginable athletic ability you showed at the time was in Get it in the future barracks?"

"Yes."

"The time you saved Ryan was scarier than when you saved me. Training when you learn these abilities Did you work hard?"

"It was very hard at the beginning."

"What happened later?"

"Later I was too strong, and the people who trained me and The people who train with me are very hard, and they don’t work hard."

"Look, you are not so good at first, and you even want to hide and be an ostrich. But then you changed. You become nonsense. No matter how ordinary you are. I am attracted to you like this. But no matter what you are at any time, it is you. Perhaps this is your essence, but in the previous timeline, you have no chance to show it."

Chen Feng thought for a while, "You are right."

"Of course you are worthy of me."

Chen Feng: "Uh..."

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"Today I was under a bit of a shock. To be on the safe side, you will continue to move my future songs to me. I also want to see where my limits are. Then, I have to find something for myself. Pressure, you are still waiting for me. When I write this song, we will get married. How about?"

Chen Feng thought for a few seconds, "Okay."

Today he I confessed to Zhong Lei, but nothing has changed, only my heart is a lot easier.

Zhong Lei is indeed a strange woman, and cannot be judged by common sense.

He smiled happily and looked stupid.

Looking at Chen Feng's completely relaxed appearance, Zhong Lei also smiled.

If it is as you said, I was too indifferent in the past, and I finally passed you by.

That is my problem, not yours.

Life is like this.

Many women have been waiting for their True Fated Son of Heaven all their lives, but they can't wait.

When I was over 30, I had to go on a blind date while complaining, then numbly married and had children, or simply died lonely, and began to complain about the unfair destiny.

In fact, I have already met someone at some point, but I just missed it by accident.

I have missed you, just like Fatty and Song Siyu have missed each other.

Not this time.

Chen Feng, you are always changing.

Your changes have made me curious about you, and I always want to try to figure out the meaning behind your every sentence. The more you figure it out, the more unable to extricate yourself.

Now I like you better.

She stared at Chen Feng again, watching his silhouette continuously stretch under the rays of light in the morning sun.

She took a deep breath, thinking in her heart.

You have to go against the light to disperse the darkness, it is doomed to bear too much suffering alone.

The tone of your storytelling is very plain, but you must have wandered in loneliness and screamed silently in despair.

You will also be anxious that no one in the world can understand you, so you always cover up with a fake smile.

But from now on, I choose to believe in you, and you have to believe in me.

I will not let you stand alone at the end of civilization.

I will try to understand all your motives.

If I burn my life, it can be your help.

How can I not have a share of such a great mission?

I have no complaints or regrets, and I will never retreat.

Together we create more miracles in this era.

Believe in us, and you must also believe in your future self.

Just when Zhong Lei was in a daze, Chen Feng stood up, stretched his waist, and said: "Okay, I haven't slept all night, go and rest."

"en. "

The two wanted to go home directly. Didn't expect Lu Wei also ran out of the back room under the dark circles. He dragged them back and settled in their guest rooms.

Zhong Lei slept until the afternoon. When she woke up, Chen Feng, Lai En, Ou Junlang, Meng Xiaozhou, and Lu Wei were sitting around the courtyard.

The servants and waiters in the Plucking House were absent, so they should all be called home to avoid them.

"Wake up? You first wash your face and eat something, I have something to announce."

Chen Feng said to her.

Zhong Lei nodded.

Twenty minutes later, when people finally arrived, Chen Feng stood up.

He holds a fist sized stone in his palm.

"I’m going to announce some things below. I’ll give you a bottom line. No matter how unimaginable what I say, you don’t have any doubts. In order to prevent you from thinking that I’m bragging, I’ll give you everyone first. Have fun."

After finishing speaking, he picked up the stone and suddenly used his five fingers.

The stone bang cracks, and then explodes, dust flying all over the sky.