I Really Didn’t Want to Be the Savior

Tong Ling is not good at speech.

With her current logical thinking, she cannot organize gorgeous rhetoric to arouse the emotions of others.

All her decisions come from instinctive judgments at the bottom of her mind.

Although she doesn't know what to do, she knows what is right, what is wrong, and what kind of strategy can be used to achieve what purpose under what kind of situation.

Tong Ling’s way of thinking about problems is both profound and simple, like a perfect logical judgment aid that has not been produced yet. She can always see the essence through the phenomenon at the fastest speed and make her The best choice within the limits of ability, like the monk after Buddhism sudden enlightenment, and the daoist of Myriad Laws Returning to the Origin.

Due to the change of personal thinking and the birth of freezing technology, Tong Ling found a second goal for her life outside of war, and met Chen Feng.

But seeing Chen Feng is still only her personal emotional needs, and her highest pursuit of historical responsibility is still to complete the expedition mission with the Unnamed Fleet.

From the moment she set foot on the Unnamed Fleet, Tong Ling's highest aspiration has never changed from beginning to end. Like Qin Guang, it has not changed until now.

The next second, a woman's voice sounded in the projection.

"Who am I? Who are you?"

The voice sounded cold and emotionless, but the listeners vaguely heard the smell of a lost lamb.

The mind capture team quickly gave answers, and the information was synchronized to everyone’s eyes. Whether it was the audience in the prison ship or other ordinary fleet members who had regained their freedom, they knew the owner of the voice. It's Tang Yingyu.

Tong Ling’s behavior is not the prisoner, but the mind capture group that has been studying Tang Yingyu’s psychological activities.

These people were dumbfounded on the spot.

"What's wrong, why can instructor Tong read Tang Yingyu's thoughts? We have only listened to the rustling noise for so many years. Why is it so?"

Someone is so depressed Shouted.

No one can answer him, just as no one can question why Tong Ling didn't say it earlier.

The unintentional acts without and cannot explain it to anyone.

Tang Yingku's words did not end there, but continued to unfold, and people's ears sounded one question after another.

"Am I the same as you?"

"What counts as alive?"

"Is it alive if I can move?"

"Can I live with people?"

"What is a person? Am I a person?"

"Why can't I be like you?"

"Is that wrong? I thought the training was very serious. Am I wrong?"

"Do you have love? I listened to my two staff members discussing marriage Things, is that love?"

"What is feeling? Can feelings make people make decisions that are not logical and rational?"

"Do I also have a chance to harvest love? Like you, watching your little baby grow up in the projection?"

"I don't know why, whenever I see other staff watching the projection of the little baby, the heartbeat will speed up. Humans raise their offspring by raising them in the projection first, and then suddenly one day, the little baby from projection to reality?"

"Are so many people working for my little baby?"

" I really want to say thank you."

"Will one day suddenly be able to meet a friend like everyone else and sit and chat quietly? The staff creates After a person who loves me is born, then I will not be so lonely in this universe? Sometimes I feel lucky, and sometimes I feel pitiful."

"I feel I’m sorry, although I know I’m not the same kind of life as these people. But I’m still sorry. I don’t want my children to die, so I have to take their lives. Humans created me, I like everyone, I don’t want to take anyone’s life. But I must let my child live. Otherwise, I really don’t know the meaning of my birth."

These are fifteen sentences in Tang Yingyu’s short life. It runs through her last words from the first babble to the last dying.

The audience felt sad inexplicably after listening.

Immediately afterwards, Tong Ling announced a large number of scenes that were accelerated many times.

People finally understand that Tong Ling's announcement is Tang Yingyu's memory.

Most of the screen is Tang Yingyu’s fantasy battle scenes. For several decades, she has never stopped the fantasy deduction in her mind since she was deprived of her training qualification to become a combatant. She completed the self-training of combat literacy in her brain fantasy and became a Peak warrior.

Unfortunately, until her death, she never got the chance to show her abilities on a larger stage, and she never touched real combat armor. Her talent was only a flash in the confrontation with the rebels, and then Fire of Life quickly extinguished.

Perhaps after many years, Tang Yinghu’s battle strength will become a folklore. It has been speculated and contrived by the world, and it has been described with added oil. It is believed that she might have been on the same level as Tong Ling, but she has a long life. die an untimely death and so on.

All of this is destined to be a fantasy.

Tong Ling shared Tang Yingku's life. At the same time, an old lady nearly 260 years old, the leader of the mind capture group, produced an analysis report three hours later.

The old lady quickly integrated and analyzed the scenes of Tong Ling sitting with Tang Yingku over several decades and came to a conclusion.

These two people are actually communicating all the time, but it is a way of communicating with unintentional people that others cannot understand.

The two are currently the only special individuals who can maintain the state of the unintentional while awake.

The communication between the two is not through words or physical actions, but collision and information exchange that occur at the level of the quantum storm of thinking.

The language of the two can be named spiritual language.

The white noise heard by the thinking capture team is in Tong Ling's brain, but it is a clear picture and language.

In these years, it was Tong Ling who taught Tang Yingyu human language and way of thinking.

Tang Yingyu's brain combat training is not a completely empty fantasy, and Tong Ling's guidance and correction are also provided.

Each time Tang Yingku communicated with Tong Ling, she would correct some of the problems in her brain training, and then she gave birth to some new ideas that belonged to her.

These thoughts are right and wrong. In the next exchange, Tong Ling will in turn absorb part of Tang Yingyu's correct cognition, and then point her to the wrong part.

Besides the fantasy of fighting, from time to time, there are scenes of Tang Yingku's daily life interspersed.

She seems to have learned a lot of new knowledge from Tong Ling.

She imagined that she was grazing under green hills and clear water, she also imagined that she was squeezing the elevator with folders in her arms in an office building, and she also imagined herself wearing a white coat and staring at the data in the laboratory. Wait for the picture, and walk in the sunset hand in hand with the other half with a fuzzy face.

But then, the other half of her fantasy disappeared, leaving her alone, curled up and squatting in space.

She looked up at the sky full of stars, and countless human feet walked past her on the surfboard.

She tried to wave to these passers-by, but no one responded.

At this time, she already knew the truth, she just looked the same as a human, but not the same race.

She felt the endless loneliness, and there was only one obsession with life in her heart, and she continued to live. If you are destined to die, don't let your own existence completely disappear, you have to leave something in this universe.

The final picture is no longer a fantasy, almost everyone has seen it.

She heard another voice in her body first, and knew she was pregnant, and then the door was broken.

She turned around, and it was Bill Creston's angry and distorted face.

...

After watching Tong Ling take out the embryo from her body, her unwilling consciousness finally sank into darkness in the comforting sigh.

In just one day's information, Tang Yingku's short life is very concise and concise.

This is a boring, monotonous life with almost no hope.

As a lonely individual in the universe, a single race, she has longed for many beautiful things and longed to live like a human, but as time goes by, she gradually Recognize the reality, break away from the self-constructed cognition of fairy tales, give up more and more unrealized dreams, and leave only the simplest pursuit-to let this lonely race continue to exist.

From then on, Tang Yingyu's life curve has only the backbone, no branches and leaves.

This is the thinking stage that any normal single-person adult intelligent life enters into adulthood and masters the correct cognition of the universe.

Just like those colonists who were still wandering around in the galaxy, trying every means to continue to live.

Among the colonists, there are individuals who reintegrate into human civilization, such as white elephants, and individuals who wish to change human form and leave their own traces, such as the ancestors of long-armed people. Individuals who endure constant weakness and divide themselves again and again in order to continue their lives. Even some reformers have determined that high temperature is more suitable for themselves to extend their lifespan after a lot of experiments, and turned to humans for help, and finally got into the lava planet. Individuals who live an extra day.

However, no matter how the reformers choose, there is only one ultimate goal, either to live longer by themselves, or to put the hope of living longer on others.

After reading Tang Yingku’s life memory, whether he was the first-generation fleet member who avoided a catastrophe, or the second third generation who learned that he would not be judged and had a chance to survive, all fell into a long period of time. silence.

People feel that compared to other people's colorful lives, Tang Yingyu seems to be the most desolate one.

Even the people who were forced to participate in the Nuwa project lived much better than her.

"Everyone." A low male alto broke the silence. It was Zhou Donglai who was supposed to be sleeping.

Due to his special self-positioning, after Solent Cage's mental disorder and the death of Oferos Cage, Zhou Donglai has now become the highest existing spiritual leader of the Free Will League.

However, in the minds of the crew supporting the expedition plan, because Zhou Donglai did not participate in the parliamentary coup and armed turmoil, and was still a student of Qin Guang, his reputation was not severely damaged.

Tong Ling is not good at using words to control people's hearts. Now Zhou Donglai's words have become the most important.

Zhou Dong said.

"Tong instructor wants to tell us. There are two kinds of so-called freedom, small freedom and big freedom. Small freedom is individual freedom. Big freedom is civilized freedom and racial freedom. Free race You can multiply freely in the universe, without being oppressed, without being threatened, without hiding, and without worrying about being destroyed anytime and anywhere."

"Little freedom is our free will alliance until now, believe oneself infallible Freedom. We want to do as one pleases. We refuse to accept the constraints imposed on us by the collective. We demand the freedom of personal choice limited by Supreme. But when our personal freedom conflicts with civilized freedom, we selfishly choose to indulge. "

"We doubt history, do not recognize history, use self-deception and self-paralysis, forget the strength of the enemy. We tell ourselves that the universe is so big that there will be a place to hide when we escape. In fact, we are wrong. Now, such a powerful child instructor is still ready to sacrifice. What qualifications do we have to say that we must be alive?"

"Even if we can really struggle on whilst at death's door in other galaxies, it can only be Because our fellow races in the galaxy have not given up resistance. The humans in the galaxy are pursuing true great freedom! All individual small freedoms must be built on the great freedom of races. In an old Chinese saying, it’s where there is No skin, Mao will be attached!"

"We are wrong, we have caused serious damage to the fleet, even if it is a capital crime, there is nothing wrong with it. But there is also an old Chinese saying that knowing mistakes can be corrected, and good will be great. . We should thank instructor Tong Ling for giving us the opportunity to reform."

"There are more than seventy years to reach the destination. As long as in the next journey, everyone can give up their prejudices and no longer Foolishly thinking, come up with higher work efficiency, no longer care about the so-called innate talent, the so-called amateur hobby, and keep telling myself that what I am engaged in is what I love the most and that I can achieve my full potential, so we also have Opportunity to remedy."

"In addition, I also announced one thing as acting commander in chief. All the staff of the original Nuwa project, as long as they can get the S-Rank potential evaluation in other fields, they will You can change your industry freely. At the same time, some people who have reached the upper limit of their personal potential in other fields can also participate in the Nuwa project from scratch at any time. Everyone in our unnamed fleet has the opportunity to be both a scholar and When warrior."

"When we set out, we selected the elite of the entire empire. Today, we will still be the elite of the elite!"

A message from Zhou Donglai to Tong Ling The shared memory of Tang Yingyu made a perfect supplement, and re-planted seeds in the hearts of the prisoners in the prison ship .

After the end of the doomsday suppression process, the prisoners were not released immediately. Instead, as Zhou Donglai said, everyone was retested with innate talent, and at the same time, they were provided with more comprehensive basic knowledge for those who wish to freely choose their careers. teaching.

But the amazing thing is that the number of practitioners in the Nuwa project has not decreased. Instead, more people are trying to start from scratch.

……

"teacher, the matter is over. This is the fleet loss report, you can take a look."

In Qin Guang’s room, Zhou Dong came A paper-based top-secret report was placed in front of Qin Guang, who had just awakened.

A long time later, Qin Guang sighed, "Ai, too many people are still dead, and our technology has stagnated for many years."

The development of things is very different from his original arrangement. No, he knew it would end in this way, but he thought that there would be fewer casualties and underestimated the extent of the loss of control.

The old Qin Guang rubbed his swollen temples, "It's my fault."

"teacher, it's not your fault."

" No, it’s the plan I made. I am the highest Chief-In-Charge. Of course, I should take the responsibility. I am indeed inferior to Marshal Tang Tianxin, let alone mention on equal terms with the sage. I didn’t count that there would be someone. To assassinate Tang Yingyu, if it weren't for the instructor Tong Ling to arrive in time, it would be all over. Moreover, if it weren't for the children's educators to read Tang Yingyu's memory, and then use Tang Yingyu's memory to increase your persuasiveness, our productivity would be more traumatized. Also, judging from the results, these things could have been avoided. I was paralyzed until now and ignored the importance of ideological construction."

Master and disciple are chatting, their communicator At the same time, a notice sounded.

General Solent Cage, who had just regained his senses, chose to commit suicide by drinking a bomb.

The master and disciple were stunned.