If I Disobey the Duke

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Orphans were children who had lost their parents and needed help to secure their future, so it doesn’t seem to be a bad idea to most.

But…

“There is no way that would be possible.” Lily bit her lower lip.

He felt her physiological rejection.

Unlike her, who was drenched in her confusion, he was just calm.

“It’s pretty common in aristocratic families to do so secretly. The higher the status, the more illegitimate children there are.

“What if I want to get pregnant?”

The question jumped out like a wrongly pressed spring. She spat it out, but it was already too late.

His eyes were shut. Vlad was silent for a moment at her question. The voice that leaked out after a brief silence was tight, “I know a lot of women die during childbirth. For you… I can’t afford to have you go through something like that.”

The first thing that came to mind was that it was fishy.

During the period while his wife was on the brink of death, he realized it. The fear that she might disappear.

He shut his eyes tight. She wasn’t like that. She left herself on this land, and she was not supposed to go to a place where he could not reach her.

He didn’t want to go through the same feeling that he might go back to his devastated life again.

“If you still want to give birth….”

As he struggled to open his eyes, he saw her. Her eyes flashed with a certain shock and sadness. He looked into her eyes and he replied bitterly.

“You must be healthy.”

A grain of sand-like resignation rolled in his mouth.

A child of his blood. Just imagining it was terrifying.

He knew himself well. If he had children, they would be disgusted for the rest of his life. Just imagining it made his stomach ache.

But the work of the children was a secondary matter.

His only concern was his wife.

Even if Lily became as healthy as possible from her natural constitution, he would not be relieved.

“Vlad. I…” As she breathed in her breath, she immediately smiled faintly. “Actually, I don’t need anything like a child.”

Lily had a gut feeling.

That he would say that they would never have a child. That the child would never be happy.

There were enough children in the world who had fathers who did not love them, just like the two of them.

Moreover, what if, as he said, she even died?

A sharp sensation scratched her spine. If that happened, the child she gave birth to would live their whole life staring at their father’s back, who didn’t love them.

She couldn’t pass such a fate to her child.

“You are enough.” Lily clasped his cheeks.

There was no need to be swayed by the anxiety that her father had planted.

That was enough. She decided to think so.

“You and I. We live happily together.” She touched his lips with her hand as she stroked his cheek.

His body trembled. She met his eyes. There was hesitation in the gray depths.

He has not expressed his desires even once in the past three days.

Happily together.

Her words rolled around the tip of her tongue. After savoring it a few times, it seemed like it would become a reality right away when it came out of her mouth.

Now, she wanted to touch him.

She pressed fingertips to his soft lips.

“Happily…”

Lily witnessed vividly the sight of his gray eyes turning red.

It looked like a drop of red paint had fallen. Like the night sky, an alluring red light like a ruby ​​spread around the black pupil. An intense passion that could not be hidden even by a stone-like expression boiled like molten iron in his eyes.

Lily finally let out a hot breath.

The surroundings were quiet, but the nerves under her skin were tumultuous. As she simmered to the point of not knowing what to do, he gently wrapped his hand around her.

“…”

And he lowered her hand. It was a polite and outright refusal.

Lily’s cheeks heated up in an instant. It was the first time she had been so openly seduced and rejected.

Even if his eyes were still red. She was just confused as she knew what that meant. Even with his intense eyes filled with apparent passion, he was pushing her away.

She lowered her gaze as if she wanted to hide. Long, dark eyelashes hung downwards.

“…Until your body gets better. I better be patient.”

He was the one who had stopped himself from getting the better of himself for the past three days. Lily bit her lower lip.

Ticklish and sweet sensations simmered in her.

She turned her head away with peach stains on her cheeks. She licked her lips, and eventually, she muttered out in a whisper, “If I could… get well faster.”

“…”

There was the sound of something cracking in his head.