I'm a Walking Disaster With My Unwanted Virginity

We couldn't find tuna. 

So, we settled for salmon. 

Apparently, eating thinly sliced raw fish or raw meat was called Sashimi. Assuming you had some form of sauce to dip the stuff in, the stuff wasn't that bad. 

I didn't know such a thing was even a thing. I guess the world was a bigger place than I thought. 

Anyway, we started dinner. And though Elsa pretended like nothing was wrong, I could tell for a fact, she was faking it. 

Of course, she was. 

She was in pain.

Of course, she was. 

But I'd already made my decision and I had to stick to it. 

"Uncle isn't here?"

It was just us six and the bunny maid. 

"He went hunting. He'll probably be at the wedding along with the rest of our family," Mom said.

"Wasn't the church supposed to be a small church of an orphanage? So, bringing our whole family-"

Grandma grinned. "It'll work out."

Yeah, didn't seem like it would. 

But oh well. 

"Might I propose something?" Raea said. 

"What?"

"Never mind, we should talk later at night."

Was I missing something?

If she didn't want to talk about it, why even bring it up?

Judging by the looks Elsa was giving her, I had a feeling Raea had probably meant something, something I couldn't understand but the rest of them could. 

Oh boy. 

Anyway, the fish was actually good. Who knew I liked raw salmon!

***

I never really got to talk to Elsa. 

Or more like I didn't know what to say. She never really said much either. She pretended like it never happened. And I guess that was the right thing to do. 

Sigh. 

'But this room really is large.'

Our whole house was remade. It was still kept as a three-story building. But all the floors were expanded and the rooms were both larger and they increased in numbers. 

We had exactly four bathrooms, eight bedrooms, four guestrooms, one massive living room/ballroom, one dining, one kitchen, and lastly, one master bedroom on the third floor. 

And that master bedroom just happened to be bigger than even the last one. 

'Did they plan on throwing parties here or something?'

Even the bed was twice as large as the last one, and the last one was already bigger than a king-sized bed for crying out loud!

What was I supposed to do on this bed, have a wrestling match?

Knock!

"Come in."

Since Marg wasn't home today, I didn't bother locking the door. 

"So, we needed to talk." Raea walked in. 

She locked the door and came my way, standing just in front of the bed. 

"What?"

"So, the wedding's the day after tomorrow-" Her hands were fidgeting and she was nervous. 

"Just get to the point."

She cleared her throat and sat down on the bed. "Why don't you marry me and the others on the same alter?" She said, looking back.

To think, she'd suggest something like that.

Before I could say anything, she continued. "I know this is your and her special event, but, if something goes wrong, if-" She paused for a second. "I want to get married too."

Frankly, that was too straight. 

I sighed. "Sorry, but only Marg and I are getting married. I can't make a decision on this without Marg's opinion and I don't think she'd allow anyone else to get on that alter. Besides, I'd be marrying you sooner or later, so let's move on from that. Though that's assuming your feelings for me remain the same."

I'd thought about this. I thought about this way too much. And in the end, I made the decision. 

I planned on Marrying Enira, Selene, and Raea. 

Her breathing was a bit deep. "Well, I figured you'd say that."

She looked straight into my eyes. 

I was still lying on the bed. 

She was just there, a hand near my arm, her head just over mine. She'd leaned quite far. 

She pressed her lips against mine, her hands held my face in place. She had this strawberry scented perfume that made my insides slightly hot. 

She gently traced her hands down. 

That's when I stopped her. 

"Not, tonight."

Marg was away. And if I did something like this now-

"But she's not here. This is the perfect night!" Her voice was low, but her breathing was definitely heavier. 

Yeah but, I didn't really want to have this feeling of betrayal. 

Besides, just hours ago I'd turned down Elsa and-

I knew I'd eventually marry Raea. I didn't have feelings for her, that was true. But she had feelings for me. And lately, through interaction, I had taken a certain liking to her. And I had a feeling that was just the beginning. But we weren't on that level of liking to indulge in something like this. 

I tried to sit down but- "You're such a buzzkill!" Raea shoved me down on the bed and forced her tongue in. Her hands headed straight into my pants. "But that's what I love about you."

She was totally on top of me. Staring. Her breath, warm.

"Doing this won't make me magically fall in love with you."

She came closer. "Yeah but, it'll certainly get us closer," her breath fell on my ears. Warm breath. 

Her strawberry perfume was alluring but- it had a certain charm to it. 

And since she was sitting directly on my abdomen, my little buddy was slowly pressing up against her bottom. 

I guess I could lie, but my body couldn't. 'Since when I was so-?'

It only made her grin. She unzipped my pants and gave me a stroke. "Shouldn't you move your hands or something? I'm getting really lonely, you know." The way she said it though….

Ah, screw it!

Screw it all!!!

I had way too many things on my mind. 

But for the time being, I just wanted to forget it all and-

I squeezed her without undressing and just kissed her. 

There was no going back