Incurable Pain

The evening self-study at No.3 Middle School ended at 9:30, and Yu Luoyin and the private detective who called him made an appointment at a high-consumption coffee shop not far from the school. They came straight after school.

I don’t know if the boy’s porcelain-white face was blown by the cold wind or what it was. It was bloodless, pale as a sheet of paper, and a deep hostility was condensed between the black eyebrows, which scared the adults in the suit on the opposite side. Jumped.

"Yu Shao, you are..." the man asked hesitantly, "In a bad mood?"

"It's okay." Yu Luoyin waved his hand with a deep tone: "Let's talk about it."

Three days ago, he contacted this private detective named Ren Yu through his own channels, and asked him to investigate some things-some investigations about Bai Xunyin's "past".

Yu Luoyin knew that he was a bit despicable, but the gentleman's approach could not save the girl, he had to be despicable.

"Yu Shao, this is the information about the girl you asked me to investigate."

Ren Yu pushed a stack of thin folders in front of Yu Luoyin, his expression dignified.

Yu Luoyin looked down at this folder and knew that this was the past of Bai Xunyin that he couldn't touch.

Then he rubbed his frozen hands and opened the folder with the round buckle thread wrapped around the mouth of the paper bag.

A few sheets of paper fell out of the document bag, filled with Bai Xunyin's life and past.

Yu Luoyin looked down, more serious than when he looked at the test paper, but the simple white and black letters seemed to be incomprehensible, and his expression became more solemn and serious.

His fingers were not consciously squeezing the paper, as if he was about to break a thin piece of paper.

Especially when he saw the line "Bai Xunyin's father Bai Hongsheng was chased for debts and fell to his death", his pupils quickly shrank—

"Yu Shao, Bai Hongsheng, the father of your classmate Bai Xunyin, is a businessman and he was a logistics business. Their family conditions were pretty good in the early years, but after the financial crisis and the stock market crash, small and medium-sized enterprises were all cannon fodder... The Bai family became cannon fodder. ."

"Bankruptcy, I owe a lot of debts. It is not enough to mortgage the house to the bank. In the end, I can only borrow usury to repay the debt." Ren Yu sighed: "It is said that when Bai Hongsheng was blocked by debt collectors and jumped onto the rooftop, his daughter , That is, Bai Xunyin was watching by the side."

Yu Luoyin raised his head fiercely, staring at him closely, "What did you say?"

"That year was after Bai Xunyin graduated from junior high school and took the college entrance examination. She and Bai Hongsheng were forced to the rooftop by debt collection, and then the ambulance came..." Ren Yu paused and said cautiously: "The injured was alone. , But two people entered the hospital, Bai Xunyin couldn't speak because of this."

In medicine, this is called post-traumatic stress disorder, also known as PTSD.

It was just what a little girl Bai Xunyin had experienced, and the blow she had to endure was too cruel.

The more Yu Luoyin listened, the darker his face became, and Ren Yu's voice became smaller and smaller unconsciously—he was silent in the end.

His voice was dumb, and he said solemnly: "Go on."

"Yu Shao, look at this page." Ren Yu was a little scared, but when ordered, he could only bite the bullet and continue to say. With a slight roll of his throat, he reached out and turned over the information in front of Yu Luoyin and continued to tell. —

"I checked Bai Hongsheng's debts at the time. Although it will become bigger and bigger like a snowball if you don't pay it back in time, it will not make it impossible to jump off the building to avoid it. So why did Bai Hongsheng jump off the building? I followed this reason to investigate. For a moment..."

Ren Yu is obviously a very reliable and serious person, not only investigating, but also looking for other details along the awkward clues. It's just that at this point, he is obviously a little embarrassed.

"Later I found out that those loan sharks felt that Bai Hongsheng couldn't pay the debts, so they thought, thought..." Ren Yu hesitated for a long time, and finally slammed under Yu Luoyin's deep stare: "So they wanted to Bai Xunyin rushed to repay the debt, and Bai Hongsheng may have jumped off the building for this reason."

Arrears are the same as grievances and grievances-people die and the lamp goes out. If Bai Hongsheng becomes an ‘incapacitated person’ or a ‘dead person’, the arrears will naturally disappear. This is a legal requirement.

When he died, no one could covet and dare to threaten and persecute his baby.

Bai Hongsheng used his own blood to give Bai Xunyin and Ji Huiying a safe and unburdened life.

This sounds a little awkward, but it was the best choice a father could make at the time.

Only for the young Bai Xunyin, he couldn't accept the fact that his father died for himself and jumped downstairs in front of her.

The extreme trauma spreads from the spirit to the sex, almost nothing unexpected.

Yu Luoyin listened quietly, the whole person was like an ice sculpture.

Under the extremely depressed aura, Ren Yu unconsciously broke out a cold sweat on his back.

"Where?" After a while, he said again, his voice hoarse, hesitating: "Where is the rooftop...where?"

"Here." Ren Yu heaved a sigh of relief and pointed to a picture on the paper: "The previous building of Heenergy Electronics was on the eight-storey middle floor of the east side of Jiguang District. The development of Jiguang District has fallen behind in the past two years. Heenergy Electronics moved last year. After that, the building was vacant."

Therefore, Bai Hongsheng jumped from the rooftop on the eighth floor. It was a miracle that he could save his life and become a vegetative.

Yu Luoyin stared at the mezzanine building above the printed black and white picture, his eyes deeper and deeper, with a trace of distress in his eyes.

This distressed emotion made his mentality involuntarily change from ‘sorrowful and angered’ to ‘want to make a mouthful of myself’.

Before coming here, he just remembered that he stood in front of Bai Xunyin this afternoon and said that he wanted to chase her once, but the little girl did not appreciate her, she sneered for two seconds and turned around, leaving only three words on the paper in the end. 'impossible'.

Even if he knew that he had done something wrong, the arrogance in his bones made Yu Luoyin still a little angry at this kind of merciless rejection.

But now that I saw Ren Yu, and after seeing Bai Xunyin's almost blood-stained past, Yu Luoyin only felt that his scalp was tingling.

On the one hand, Bai Xunyin was distressed, and on the other hand, he regretted what he had done before.

No wonder Bai Xunyin was out of place in the class before, as if she was separated from every classmate-because she might not be able to get close to the crowd at all.

And I finally opened her heart, dug out her sincerity, but abandoned it like a foot on the ground...

Yu Luoyin finally understood why Bai Xunyin would break up so decisively after learning the truth, as if the nine cows couldn't get back.

In his eyes, it was just a ‘joking bet’, but in Bai Xunyin’s eyes, it was she who had managed to build trust and sincerity to the outside world.

How **** is he? Yu Luoyin's face was pale, and his black eyes stared at the information on the table in front of him hollowly. For a moment, he felt a thin layer of cold sweat and dampness on the palm of his hand.

It took a while to slowly focus, and Yu Luoyin could not help but frowned when he saw a name on this document-Mu Anping.

There is actually Mu Anping in Ren Yu's investigation, which is really detailed, but this just shows that he is a ‘name and surname’ in Bai Xunyin’s past.

"This Mu Anping, his father and Bai Hongsheng are college classmates and business partners. The relationship between the two families has always been very good." Ren Yu saw that Yu Luoyin turned to Mu Anping's page and continued to explain: "Before the two families lived in the same community. Mu Anping and Bai Xunyin also grew up together. Both elementary and junior high schools are in the same school..."

Ren Yu stopped talking, raised his eyes and glanced at Yu Luoyin's face, swallowed unconsciously, and then continued: "Later, the Bai family went bankrupt and gradually drifted away."

The next thing is naturally self-evident.

It’s not a time when one party is in trouble and all parties support it. It’s ‘husbands and wives are birds of the same forest and fly separately when disaster is approaching’-many couples are still like this, let alone friends?

At that time, the Bai family owed a lot of money, and the snowball was getting bigger and bigger. Before Bai Hongsheng became a vegetative, he was a bottomless pit. Who would dare to help?

It’s not bad if you don’t fall into the trap, but you still count on others to give you charcoal in the snow?

Mu Anping's actions were swift and neat, for fear of being caught up by debt collectors. After all, they had also cooperated with Bai Hongsheng before and moved almost overnight.

As for Mu Anping, the so-called ‘childhood sweetheart’, who was a 15-year-old boy before the catastrophe, of course he would choose to follow his parents’ decision.

The friendship with Bai Xunyin is just a child's play, but because he'likes', he feels guilty and depressed when he sees Bai Xunyin, and he feels unable to lift his head.

After listening to this passage, Yu Luoyin knew that there was really nothing between Bai Xunyin and Mu Anping. Boys like him would never like Bai Xunyin.

But even if he knew about it, he couldn't be happy.

Because to the original Bai Xunyin, she was like a chapped traveler walking and blowing in the desert, she must be very eager for someone to give her a hand, even if it was just a sip of water for her.

But Mu Anping, as a childhood sweetheart with her since childhood, should have a natural trust and friendship between them, but he did not hesitate to leave because he was afraid of affecting himself... Bai Xunyin must have been sad at the time.

No wonder she is so insecure and believes no one, especially for boys.

I'm afraid that his behavior will be even worse. Yu Luoyin couldn't help but laughed at himself, his fisted finger bones glowing with tragic whiteness.

"Probably that's all." Ren Yu finally breathed a sigh of relief after saying all about the cause of the occupational disease. He even made a final statement to summarize: "Bai Hongsheng was saved a life after the accident and became a vegetative person. It is not a brain death. There is a possibility of waking up, because of this reason, although most of the debts owed by the Bai family have been cleared, the mother and daughter are still struggling to live in a small house, and most of the money is sent to the hospital. coming."

In any case, Bai Hongsheng is the thought of Bai Xunyin and his mother. No matter how difficult the life of the living is, the pillar in his heart is always given by the ‘dead’.

They still want to exhaust all their efforts to save the "pillar" of their home.

After Ren Yu left, Yu Luoyin sat alone in this cafe for a long time, constantly echoing what he had just said and the information in front of him, dizzy, as if about to explode.

His slender fingers rubbed his temples vigorously, and he couldn't help but burst into irritability.

Why... so difficult?

Before that, he had never imagined that a girl who looked gentle and strong would actually bear so much heavy past on her body. He could laughably think that the reason why Bai Xunyin was cold and blocked was that she was cold-eyed because of her dumbness. And bullying,'it's nothing more', it's ridiculous to take it for granted.

And these truths were like a cold big mouth pumping on his face, and Yu Luoyin felt a little breathless for a while.

After living for eighteen years, I will feel the feeling of ‘guilt’.

He didn't think it was important, he didn't care, the things that didn't matter were put on others, one after another was **** wounds.

Bai Xunyin had previously encountered Mu Anping's so-called childhood sweetheart but hides farther than anyone else's trash after the accident, and now he has encountered such a sweet-spoken trash that hardly deceives feelings.

She is so unlucky.

Yu Luoyin grabbed the glass on the table with his fingers, and poured half a cup of ice water into it.

Why do people like tobacco and alcohol? When you are bored, you want to let all memories fade from your mind for a short time. These two things are best used.

If you are dying, there will be addicts who go to **** du.

And those who can really wake up from the blow are the ones who have the ‘Gentleman Bone’ of Aoxue Hanmei.

Bai Xunyin is such a person. When he saw the slender figure of a young girl at school the next day, Yu Luoyin flashed this analogy unconsciously in his mind.

He closed his eyes, blocking his greedy gaze.

Today is Sunday, the school only has half-day classes and one afternoon break.

When Yu Luoyin was a child, there were enough supplementary classes in various interest classes. Since the age of fifteen, he has automatically cut off all "classes". Holidays are pure rest.

After leaving school, he drove away Li Yuan and others who said he was going to gather together like a dog, and took a taxi to Baoquan Road alone, where there is a psychology clinic.

Yu Luoyin opened the door and walked in, and whispered to the bewildered receptionist at the front desk, "Is Sister Lu there?"

Lu Ying, the owner of this psychology studio.

"Ah, are you looking for our doctor Lu?" The reception girl glanced up and down at Yu Luoyin's school uniform, and asked hesitantly, "Classmate, do you have an appointment?"

"No." Yu Luoyin paused: "Tell her, please tell her, my surname is Yu."

The receptionist dialed the inside line hesitantly.

Three minutes later, Yu Luoyin walked into the office inside as she watched in astonishment.

After opening the door, the middle-aged woman in a white coat sitting at the desk raised her head. Her lips were red and teeth were white, and she had a charming appearance. The eyes behind the lenses watched Yu Luoyin walking by with a bit of astonishment, and sat down in front of her.

"Luo Yin, why did you come here today?" Lu Ying got up and took out the paper cup and took him a glass of water, with a smile on her face, and said with some emotion: "You haven't been here for almost a year. "

Yu Luoyin smiled at the corners of his lips, looking like a simple and innocent good boy: "It's my fault, it's time to come and see you."

"Stupid boy, what are you talking about? It's a good thing not to come." Lu Ying sat back in her seat again, and looked at each other with Yu Luoyin's eyes-those eyes have a peaceful atmosphere, which makes people feel'relaxed'. Feeling, she said gently: "If you don't come here, it means you are fine."

Yu Luoyin smiled and said nothing, dark eyes gleaming with obscure light.

Lu Ying: "So what happened to you when you came this time?"

"Sister Lu, I'm not doing it for myself this time, I'm... I want to ask a question." Yu Luoyin thought about how to use his words, and drank half a glass of water before speaking slowly: "I have a friend who is witnessing it with my own eyes. I lost my voice after some unbearable pictures."

Lu Ying was taken aback: "Post-traumatic stress disorder?"

"Well, that's what you call it medically." Yu Luoyin nodded and asked frankly, "How to treat?"

"It's hard to say." Lu Ying pushed her glasses and explained clearly with him: "PTSD is very common nowadays. Most patients are self-closed after experiencing some terrible things or unwillingness to face them. Some people have lost their voice, and some people may have unconscious convulsions, psychological disorders, compulsive anxiety, various phobias...many kinds of reactions."

"Like you said, the loss of voice is actually one of the more serious ones, because it directly affects the functioning of the body's organs." Lu Ying analyzed everything to the point.

"I guess she should have seen damage to a very close or important person or thing. She wanted to scream in extreme fear, but she couldn't scream out because of the excitement."

Under Lu Ying’s soft voice, Yu Luoyin’s thinking seemed to have been brought back to the afternoon that belonged to Bai Xunyin’s "Nightmare" across time and space—

The girl's figure should be thinner and thinner than it is now, like a small white flower, and it can easily arouse the covet of the jackal.

In the end, her father protected her with flesh and blood, so that Bai Xunyin's skirt was covered with blood marks, which she couldn't forget even if she wanted to.

"I don't know the patient's symptoms, but it is not easy for this extreme traumatic disorder to heal." Lu Ying crossed her fingers, frowning and analyzing—

"It mainly depends on what the patient needs, or what he desires."

"Some people need meticulous care. They may be cured for a long time, and one day they will suddenly be able to speak."

"Some may require a certain amount of stimulation, but most people react differently."

"Different needs, different opportunities, and different recovery times. There are still people who may not recover for a lifetime."

…

Is it meticulous care? Yu Luoyin focused on capturing Lu Ying's words, and her long eyelashes trembled slightly.

After a long while, he said softly, "Thank you, Sister Lu."

After leaving the psychological clinic, Yu Luoyin directly took a taxi and reported the address of Bai Xunyin's home.

In any case, he really wanted a chance to compensate her.

On the way, Yu Luoyin sent a message to Bai Xunyin: [Are you at home? ]

But the phone vibrated constantly because of Fengyuesheng songs sent by Hupengou friends, and Bai Xunyin never responded.

Yu Luoyin frowned a little anxiously, until he got out of the car at the entrance of Ajun Hutong, his whole body was stunned by the harsh cold wind, and his inexplicable noisy heart only cooled a little.

He pursed his lips, lowered his head and continued to send messages to Bai Xunyin: [I'm downstairs in your house, can I see you? ]

After sending it, Yu Luoyin put the phone away and didn't plan to send a second one.

From now on, he won't force Bai Xunyin, if she doesn't come down...he will just wait.