Incurable Pain

Bai Xunyin received this message from Yu Luoyin on the way home.

No. 3 Middle School was over early today. In the afternoon, she and Amo went to a college tuition class to listen to a math class. After class, Amo said that they would go to her house for a meal, and Bai Xunyin agreed with a smile.

It's just that a message from Yu Luoyin broke all the good moods. Seeing his sentence "Downstairs in your house", Bai Xunyin frowned and he subconsciously paused.

"Huh?" Amo, who was holding a lollipop next to him, stopped with her and asked vaguely, "Why didn't you leave?"

Bai Xunyin was silent for a moment, then typed and told Amo: [Let’s go around and enter through the back door of the community. ]

No matter what reason Yu Luoyin came to see her or what she wanted to do, she didn't want to see him.

Every time I saw him, Bai Xunyin always felt that his heart, which he thought was frozen, had been knocked open. It was neither light nor heavy nor painful, but there was always such a crack.

In fact, she is far less indifferent than she seems, so it is better not to see her at all.

Meeting at school is inevitable, but privately...Bai Xunyin really doesn't want to have any intersection with Yu Luoyin.

Amo had no objection, and obediently followed Bai Xunyin around the back door to go home.

On weekends, Ji Huiying also had a holiday. It was very happy to see A Mo. I was even more happy when I heard that the two of them had good results in the exam. Zhang Luo wanted to make dumplings for them-A Mo likes to eat dumplings stuffed with pork and cabbage.

Bai Xunyin's preference for noodles is average, but because Bai Hongsheng likes to eat it and Ji Huiying always makes it, she is quite good at making noodles and making skin.

In the lively process of making dumplings, it was abrupt, and she thought of the message that Yu Luoyin had just sent.

In winter, a thin layer of frost has solidified on the kitchen windows due to the steaming heat, and the outside scenery cannot be seen clearly. Only the bottom layer is “Escaped”, which is clean and clear.

So immortal, Bai Xunyin squinted through this narrow floor, and he saw the slender and familiar figure downstairs.

They live on the seventh floor, and theoretically it is impossible to capture a person's shadow so accurately-but who made the afternoon in Ajun Hutong too deserted and the aisles downstairs too narrow.

People can see it at a glance, and even Yu Luoyin's school uniform can be seen clearly.

The message was sent forty-five minutes ago, which means that he has been standing downstairs at their house for at least forty-five minutes.

Bai Xunyin pursed her lips, retracted her gaze, and continued to roll out dumplings with no distractions. She thought to herself: Yu Luoyin is 80% stupid in this cold weather.

It's just that the process of making dumplings and cooking dumplings is unavoidable.

While eating, Amo exclaimed that Ji Huiying’s craftsmanship was in a lively atmosphere while shouting. Bai Xunyin looked at the half of the dumpling that had been bitten off from the plate, chewing on the taste.

It was as if everything I swallowed was choking in my throat.

After a long while, she stood up again and walked to the window—Yu Luoyin was still standing downstairs. After another half an hour, he seemed a bit unbearable now that he was lofty and immobile, standing leaning against the tree. His hands were tucked in his sleeves.

Bai Xunyin suddenly realized again that Yu Luoyin was really annoying.

She just wanted to stay away from him, she didn't want to witness his purely trying to toss herself up.

How is this different from self-harm? Didn't you mean to make her uneasy?

It's better not to read that message in the beginning.

Bai Xunyin's pale eyes retracted, he drew the curtains, and by the way, directly pulled Yu Luoyin's phone number into the blacklist.

She went back to the room after eating. She didn't look at the window again, and she didn't know that Yu Luoyin waited for three hours that day.

It wasn't until the sky was completely dark and the inlaid stars shone shiningly that he confirmed that Bai Xunyin really wouldn't come down.

Yu Luoyin took a breath and rubbed her frozen hands in embarrassment.

The little girl is really cruel.

It's just that he can now understand all Bai Xunyin's "cruel heart"-because he himself was more ruthless than her when he uttered the two words of gambling, and it was all for atonement.

The next day, Yu Luoyin still pestered her without skin and face.

When I was eating in the cafeteria at noon, Bai Xunyin had just found a place to sit down with the dinner plate, and a person sat next to him.

She turned her head in a little surprise, and saw the clear and smiling brows on the young porcelain white face.

Ignoring the sparsely populated cafeteria, Yu Luoyin said brazenly: "Classmates, no seats, do you mind putting together a table?"

...

"Then I think you don't mind." Yu Luoyin raised his eyebrows, holding his head in his hands and watching her smile.

Bai Xunyin frowned slightly, his first reaction was to stand up and find a new position.

"Don't bother." Yu Luoyin seemed to understand what she was thinking before she had time to move, and said lightly: "Anyway, I will follow you when you find a new position."

As he said, he took out a glass bottle of milk from the wide pocket of his school uniform, and he inserted a straw into it and pushed it in front of the white sound-seeking dinner plate.

The intention is self-evident.

Bai Xunyin couldn't help but miss Amo a little bit - it's a pity that the person who weighed more than his friends was pestering Sheng Wen today, and didn't come to the cafeteria with her.

She looked at Yu Luoyin helplessly, her eyes seemed to ask: What on earth do you want to do?

"I really don't want to do anything." Yu Luoyin murmured softly, his narrow black eyes were innocent and fragile, and he blinked: "I just want to eat lunch with you."

Bai Xunyin frowned, stood up and turned to leave the cafeteria.

The worst result is nothing more than skipping this lunch, nothing.

But if you eat with people you don’t want to meet, you will suffer from indigestion.

Yu Luoyin's gaze shifted from the girl's thin back to the food she hadn't had time to move, and he sighed in a daze.

He felt a sense of powerlessness for an instant. This was a sense of frustration that he hadn't felt in his eighteen years of life-he really didn't know how to chase Baixun.

Yu Luoyin had no choice but to make her irritable.

But he still wanted to do that. Lu Ying's words yesterday circulated in his mind all night, and Yu Luoyin really wanted to give Bai Xunyin's legendary'everything' care.

Bai Xunyin decisively abandoned the lunch in the cafeteria, and after returning to the classroom, he sent a message to Amo to help her bring back some food.

When Amo came back, she would eat the pork floss bread with clear water, and in order to save time, she ate a little bit of ‘gobbling’.

Amo sat on the stool beside him with his hands against his chin, and his big eyes blinked: "Baby, you haven't eaten yet? Didn't you go to the cafeteria at noon?"

Bai Xunyin waved his hand and made it clear that she didn't want her to mention this matter again.

She ate a loaf of bread three times, and she felt a little panicked in her stomach.

This thing is definitely not better than food, but fortunately it is quite full.

However,'snacks' can never be regarded as a decent lunch. If you don’t eat well at noon, you will feel physically exhausted after a high-intensity and tense study in the afternoon. Bai Xunyin feels it at the end of the afternoon class until the rest time between the evening self-study. Eyes are dizzy.

She only hoped that Yu Luoyin would not continue to convulse her appetite tomorrow.

But Yu Luoyin seemed to have been caught in an evil spirit, and he was once again entangled with her - and his energy was more enthusiastic than when he first met Bai Xunyin.

It seems like putting what I said before into practice, really wanting to ‘chase her once’.

Fearing to avoid it, Bai Xunyin didn't let Amo go to Shengwen, and took her to the cafeteria for dinner every day.

But even this couldn't stop Yu Luoyin, his face was almost as thick as a city wall, and every day at noon, even the old monk could eat at the table amidst Amo's yin and yang weird taunts, and he was content.

And not only did she dine together in the cafeteria, but also gave her food every day before self-study at night, and followed her on a bicycle after school to accompany her home...

Bai Xunyin was almost mad when he was entangled by him.

No matter what she said on the paper, Yu Luoyin remained indifferent. He didn't speak, but followed in silence, sometimes like a silent guardian shadow.

Even if Bai Xunyin said it harshly, Yu Luoyin just laughed. The set of tricks that had been used to coax girls with coquettish talk seems to have been lost, it's almost...

It seemed to have become a dumb like her.

"Dumb" Yu Luoyin pestered her all-pervasively and followed her behind her. The silence of the whole process gave Bai Xunyin the feeling of **** on the cotton when communicating with him, almost annoyingly wanting to scratch people.

"No, what is Yu Luoyin doing lately?"

A week later, even Amo couldn't bear the oppression of Yu Luoyin's "silent guarding" style. The strong change made her feel numb in her scalp, and she couldn't help but whispered to Bai Xunyin: "He is chasing Are you? You can’t break a fart for a day now, just follow your **** and watch the weird oozing."

It's pesky...who said no?

The tip of the Baixunyin carbon pen rested on the paper, leaving a long underworld unconsciously, and she gave a soft smile.

Now Yu Luoyin is completely abnormal. He keeps jumping on the boundary line that entangles her, making Bai Xunyin's nerves unconsciously strained, which is really tiring.

She would rather Yu Luoyin be the same **** and rascal as before, better than this disturbing ironing.

People are afraid of the word ‘habit’.

Bai Xunyin was afraid that Yu Luoyin continued to persevere, she would get used to him following without skin and face, in the canteens, teaching buildings, and the dark roads where she rode home after school...

She was really afraid that she would "sink" again.

But Bai Xunyin always remembered the big yellow dog story that Yu Luoyin told her, and reminded herself to review from time to time-only a dog can remember whether to eat or not, and she can't be an ignorant dog.

During the afternoon self-study class, Yu Luoyin was called to the office by Yu Shen.

The teenager leaned on the wall and watched the class teacher drank a sip of tea, then swallowed it and knocked on a pile of information on the table: "The volunteer survey in the class some time ago, you filled in Lan Da."

"Yes." Yu Luoyin was relieved when he heard that it was about university volunteers. He shrugged and said naturally: "Lan University ranks in the top ten in the country and is in the local area. Is there any problem?"

"The problem is not a problem, it's just..." Yu Shen seemed to be deliberately selling Guanzi, and he laughed slowly after a long time delay: "It's just that Lan University has a recommended place in our school this year."

Yu Luoyin was taken aback.

"How is it?" Yu Shen looked at him and asked meaningfully, "Are you interested?"

It is a good thing to be able to be sent, but it is a recommended place...

Yu Luoyin was silent for a moment before asking, "Teacher, can I ask if this recommended quota will consider me... does it have anything to do with my mother?"

"Stupid boy, are you so insecure about yourself?" Yu Shen couldn't laugh or cry, and rolled a piece of paper on the table to him: "This time, you are second in the school for the model test. Isn't the first one who intends to volunteer? Lan Da, who won't you give this place?"

Yu Luoyin picked up the paper thrown on him and took a look, unconsciously falling on the fifth-ranked "Bai Xun Yin" name.

I don't know where this stubborn girl wants to report.

For an instant, Yu Luoyin wanted to inquire about it.

In any case, a large number of recommended places cannot guarantee that he and Bai Xunyin will go to university.

On the contrary, after he accepted it, he didn't have to take the college entrance examination and would still be stunned, which might have caused Bai Xunyin to deliberately avoid enrolling him in a school.

Yu Shen was still chattering on the sidelines: "You fill out the form first, the rest..."

"Teacher." Yu Luoyin interrupted him, with a gentle smile on Qingjun's face, he shook his head and politely refused: "I don't want this place anymore."

Yu Shen was stunned, his voice almost split: "Why?"

Yu Luoyin thought for a while: "I can be admitted to Lan Da by myself."

"No, there is a recommended place now..." Yu Shen felt that he couldn't understand the jumping thinking of young people now. He sneered in amazement: "After you fill out the form, you are directly a student of Lanzhou University. Why do you have to do it yourself? test?"

Yu Luoyin: "I think."

"...Don't gag me." Yu Shen became serious, with a straight face: "This is a very serious matter. Are you kidding me now?"

"Teacher, why is this a joke?" Yu Luoyin smiled indifferently: "I just don't want to be recommended. You can give the place to the students behind."

Yu Shenqi's almost Qiqiao gave birth to smoke, life and death could not understand what Yu Luoyin was doing.

He said irritably: "The third person wants to save the province and does not consider Lan Da. If there are other recommended places, he will naturally be considered-not Yu Luoyin, what are you worried about others doing?!"

Yu Luoyin rolled his eyes: "Then fourth?"

Yu Shen: "The fourth is the same as the third!"

Yu Luoyin was able to finally ask what he wanted to ask, "The fifth?"

"Fifth? Bai Xunyin?" Yu Shen frowned and glanced at the top ranking list, and said irritably, "She is a disabled student and is not in the recommended range."

Yu Luoyin felt a bit of anger in his heart, and felt that he could not restrain himself: "Teacher, our school still engages in discrimination?"

It makes people sound like they want to smash the table.

"What is discrimination? Each school has its own different regulations. Is it your turn to worry?" Yu Shen slapped the table straight: "What you should care about now is your own transport!"

"No, teacher, I really have to break with you." Yu Luoyin clasped his shoulders, and relied on being lawless in front of the teacher. He criticized without any cover: "Is there no room for a dumb person to go to school?" Why can't it be recommended? The school is really discriminatory. I have to protest."

"...What's the use of your protest? This is not my rule!" Yu Shen listened for a while, and then said after a long time: "Furthermore, even if there is no such rule, Bai Xunyin is right. Lan Da has no intentions, her intention for ticking is Northern University of Technology!"

...

north? The far north?

Yu Luoyin was startled.

He whispered around and tried hard to inquire Bai Xunyin's wish from Yu Shen's mouth, but when he really heard it, his heart was empty.

Because Yu Luoyin never thought that Bai Xunyin wanted to go to such a far place, it was the north.

He almost left the head teacher's office, almost ‘lost,’ and finally Yu Luoyin did not accept the submitted quota.

When he returned to the classroom, the bell rang just after class. Yu Luoyin looked at Bai Xunyin, who was sitting steadily in place among the crowd of busy students—her back was straight, her slender neck slightly drooped, and she lowered her head to read. The appearance is quiet and serious, like a soft and graceful painting.

It's just that people have an urge to "disturb".

Yu Luoyin's jaw line tightened slightly, endured and endured, and still couldn't help but walked over and grabbed her wrist which was holding the pen.

Bai Xunyin looked up at him in surprise.

"Come out with me." Yu Luoyin took her up in a gentle and strong motion, with a soft but rapid voice: "I want to ask you something."

Bai Xunyin was pulled out of the class by him, and there were people coming and going. As long as Amo was not there, no one would sensitively notice this small corner between the two of them.

After walking straight to the safe passage that they had been to countless times, but hadn't been to for a long time, Yu Luoyin let her go.

Bai Xunyin stepped back subconsciously, his thin back pressed tightly against the big iron gate of the safe passage.

"Don't be afraid, I..." Yu Luoyin looked at the full guard on her face and only felt that her heart was pricked by a needle. It was painful and embarrassed. He reluctantly laughed at himself: "I won't touch you. With one finger, I just want to ask you a few words."

Bai Xunyin looked at him quietly.

In her quiet and clear eyes, Yu Luoyin asked firmly: "Do you want to go to Northern University of Technology?"

Bai Xunyin didn't expect that Yu Luoyin deliberately dragged her here to ask this, and he was taken aback for a while.

But after the recollection, she couldn't help but smile.

Yu Luoyin watched her smile, feeling his heart sinking inexplicably, "What are you laughing at?"

[Yup. ] Bai Xunyin always smiled, typing in response to him: [I have this idea. ]

"Why?" Yu Luoyin's voice was dumb, and he asked hesitantly and arduously: "The north... is so far away, isn't Lan Da bad?"

[not good. Bai Xunyin shook his head, and the words struck down by his slender fingertips: [Because you said before that you want to go to Landa. ]

During the sweetest time together, it was not that they didn't talk about which university they wanted to go to in the future.

At that time, Yu Luoyin had said that he wanted to stay in Lin Lan, because Lan Da was very good, but she was silent—because Bai Xunyin always wanted to go to the north to take a look.

Her thoughts have never changed, but at that time...In fact, she had shaken Yu Luoyin's saying, ‘Let’s go to a university’.

At that time Bai Xunyin thought that going to a university with Yu Luoyin, the feeling of getting along day and night was more moving than ‘volunteer’, but now it’s different.

She is going to the north and the school she wants to go to.

At the same time, she also knew that Yu Luoyin would not go to the north, and he had always been a person with his own persistence.

[Yu Luoyin, we will be separated sooner or later, and probably will never meet again after the college entrance examination. ] Bai Xunyin retracted his gaze and continued typing to show him, objectively and calmly every word--

[I won't accept you, so don't pester me either. ]

[Whether it is the words you said before, or following me silently now, I don't want it. ]

[I just want to prepare well for the college entrance examination and spend the remaining less than a hundred days in school. ]

[If you feel even the slightest guilt for me for betting on those two words, please stay away from me as compensation. ]

For the first time, Bai Xunyin said so many things to Yu Luoyin at once, giving almost no room to interrupt, but the purpose was to let him leave her world completely.

Yu Luoyin closed his eyes and couldn't say a word. He could only watch the girl's slender back open the heavy door of the safe passage, blocking all his sight with a bang.

It turns out that sometimes, all your efforts will be particularly futile.

——That is when the person you care about really doesn't care about you.