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I really didn't know. Sarah's past was a pity, but what does it matter if she hates it and throws it away? Baek Hyun was genuinely thinking about it, and Sarah opened her mouth, staring at Baek Hyun's trembling face.

“Me, I'm a bad guy. ”

This response was unexpected at all. This does not mean that Sarah's expected reaction was unique. She thought that Baek Hyun would be silent for a while, and after the silence, she would pass on her comforting words. Perhaps you feel a little resentment, but you won't reveal it openly because of the nature of the white man. However, he thought that he would have a sense of distraction in the future, contrasting with what he knew about Sarah and what he heard about her.

Even so,

I will not be disappointed As a battleship, I learned a confession I had not told anyone. I was comforted by someone I really liked. If he had a distraction for himself, he would try to get rid of that distraction. But what does it matter?

“You said you couldn't help it? ”

Baek Hyun frowned and replied.

“I know what you did was bad, but you had to do it, didn't you? ”

“That's... but...”

“Nor did you have the power to refuse. As soon as I was born, I was entrusted to a place called that church, Saint... No, I became a witch candidate. After that, you were forced to kill with a knife? ”

“Uh, uh. ”

“What, all those bastards? Oh, I do. They worship witches who have made the whole world die. ”

Baek Hyun grunts and raises his hand to Sarah's head.

“I know you hate that past, but there's no reason for me to hate you. I don't know you from the old days. You were Sarah Frost, who met you in the palace a long time ago, and now you're Kim, who's sniffing around saying," Don't like me. "”

“... are you really... okay? ”

“Uh, nothing. What else did I say? What have you done with it? ”

Baek Hyun laughed because he was ridiculous. At the same time, I was able to understand. If you have such a past, it makes sense to be emotionally depressed in Medellín and to hate Drave, a Pure Saint's fanatic.

“I had nothing to do with it. Only if I think differently about you and hate you, that's me, motherfucker. Don't you think?”

It wasn't the response I expected, but it was enough to make Sarah cry. Sarah cried again because she was so dumb.

“What else are you crying about? ”

Baek Hyun chuckles Sarah's snotty head with a smile. As long as I was sleepy and self-loathing, Baek Hyun's words reassured Sarah. However, my tears quickly stopped because I cried too much before. But her emotions didn't calm down, so Sarah snorted with tears that didn't even come out. Whenever he did, Baek Hyun pulled the tissue from the dining table and wiped Sarah's tears. Thanks to this, the table was filled with tear-washed tissue.

“Are you okay now? ”

“... hmm. ”

Sarah replied in a snoring voice. Until earlier, I was standing in the kitchen making dinner, but I didn't feel like eating any tea. Sarah does not clean her stubborn head, sneezes at her nose, and looks at her face.

“Why?"

“... can't you tell me one more time?” What “? ”

“I'm not throwing it away. ”

“I'm not throwing it away, I'm not throwing it away. Hey, and there's nothing you can do but throw it away? ”

Jorge answered because he couldn't beat the horse. When I heard the grumbling, Sarah laughed like a fool.

“Still, I'm afraid of that. Ferreha always said she wouldn't throw it away, but she left me. ”

Every time I talk about Pereha, Sarah's eyes darken. For Sarah at the time, Ferrera was her only friend and sister, and she was no different from her parents. Being abandoned by such a creature would have been the most traumatic thing in Sarah's past.

But isn't that the least of your reactions?

“Haven't you met him since? ”

I was conscious that it was a sensitive question. Sarah's shoulders twinkle as she asks carefully.

“Nothing.”

It was not an answer that required consideration. Sarah shook her head and replied. But even this time, the reaction is pale. Betrayal would be as great as what you considered to be your parents. Or is it too much time? If there is such a thing, the hatred of the past should also have fallen.

“But, perhaps... Ferreira didn't abandon me completely. ”

There was no apparent self in the answer. However, no matter how much I thought about it, I was only Ferreha.

“My body was ruined because of the muteness and muteness, when Pereha and the children were no longer back. I went out of the house to live somehow... but it didn't last long either. Not long ago, I couldn't move. ”

I also heard that story from Wang Chul-hwa. MYANGHYANG Shin has both the genitals and the genitals in one body since birth, and the more she grows, the more the genitals and the genitals become huge. If you don't have the means to control it, your body explodes and dies.

Sarah's body began to recoil at the age of fifteen. Originally, less than half a year later, Sarah had to burst into pieces and die, and she was still alive and brought to the monastery on the seventeenth day. It was a miracle. The obsession with wanting to live made Sarah live that much longer.

But can you live with that? No matter how ambitious you may be, it is not permissible. A man's body cannot live by concentration alone. To live, you have to eat, drink, cheapen, and sleep.

“When I couldn't move, I... still wanted to live, but I had no choice. I couldn't move, I couldn't eat, I couldn't drink. ”

It's the most horrible memory. Empty room. In a room full of the smell of pus and sickness, I am completely accustomed to that smell, and I can't even feel it. The dying body complains of hunger, and the throat is too thirsty to speak.

You wanted to die like this. In such a miserable way. In this world, I was born with this body. I couldn't have imagined anything clearly, but there would be a better life. A little more ordinary and enjoyable... it was unfair and furious to die without ever doing anything like that. So I wanted to live longer, but there was no way.

All Sarah could choose was to end this bloody hunger, thirst, the powerlessness of an immobile body, the fear, the pain, all of it as soon as possible.

“So I drew my wrist with a knife. ”

“What?”

“What else could you have done? I wanted to see the blood spill. It's the real end. I was unfair and angry, but I was happy and comfortable on the one hand. What happens when you die? When I asked you a long time ago, Pereha told me: If you die, you can be reborn in another world. Actually, I was expecting that. The other world would be a better world than Proa, and I don't know what I'd be born of, but it would be better than I am now. ”

Spilling blood faded my mind. I did not take it by force It hurts, it's sleepy, it's like you're finally asleep. Sarah lost her mind.

“He's not dead. ”

Of course I did. If Sarah had died there, nothing would have come to the monastery. I will be led to a commandment I don't know where, meet chlamydia, pass through the door of my previous life, take a terrible end of life, and start a new life.

But Sarah is right in front of me. Born in Proa, led to a monastery, and came to Earth. Her pessimistic suicide failed.

“When I opened my eyes again, I thought I was dead. Because you spilled that much royal blood. But he's not dead. The ceiling I saw just before I lost my mind opened my eyes and I saw it again. ”

But a lot has changed.

The stench that filled the room seemed to have washed away. Dumpster from the past and dirt that was pushed away on one side. The rags that wiped the pus. A discolored, rotten bandage. There was not a single such ‘dirty' thing left. Dirty, dirty things that could be cleaned up in the room were all sorted out.

“There's something new that didn't exist. White bottles, flowers in them. ”

I don't know what flower it is. It wasn't even a very fragrant flower. But the petals were still alive, even though they were broken and plucked.

“Even the bandages that wrapped my body were changed into new ones, and the slashed hands... didn't move very well. By the way, there's a bandage around that wound. I looked up a little bit, and I saw the ointment. ”

Right next to the vase, there were ‘bread’ that was properly shaped, not crumbs or torn pieces. Dried meat that was rarely eaten. Not long ago, there was a bottle of milk and water.

“Someone cleaned the room, brought me something to eat and drink, grinded my bandages, healed my wounds.... who would have done that to me? ”

There was only one person Sarah could think of. There was only one name that Baek Hyun recalled. Pereha.

Because of the guilt of being forced to throw it away.

“Ever since then. I want to die thinking it's time I run out of food and drink, the room gets messy again, and I can't take it anymore. ”

Pereha used to go there. The flower of the sycamore vanishes, and new flowers are plunged. It was supplemented with food and drink. The room became clean, and Sarah's bandage was changed to new.

“I'd rather be with you again, wouldn't I? ”

If I could come to you every few days while I was asleep and take care of you as much as I do, I'd rather stay with you.

“I thought so, too, but I guess Ferreira wasn't. Did you not see me..? Or we couldn't even throw the other kids away. Maybe he did. That's why they came to see me, secretly. ”

Sarah did not personally confirm that the person she was looking after was Pereha. I wanted to meet him somehow, so I left a crooked letter, and I tried not to fall asleep. There was no reply to the letter, and no matter how long it took, Sarah Ferrero did not come to me while she was sleeping.

“The flowers of the vase kept changing. With another flower every time... fresh. Ferreira always, when all the flowers came around the withers, she dumped the withered flowers and put the other flowers in. ”

It's like saying, never die, never live. Sarah squeaks her fingers and mutters.

“But that didn't go on either. When I was seventeen... I wish I'd left you a letter. Then I wouldn't have expected it. ”

Ferreira hasn't come to me since some point.

There's nothing left to eat and drink. Even though all the flowers in the vase were withered. Even if you wake up, wake up, and repeat, the room was intact. After all, Sarah was forced to accept it. Finally, and, now come. Ferreha completely abandoned himself.

“I just wanted to cut my wrist one more time. ”

Shallow enough not to die. After I fell asleep like that, Ferreira didn't go. The scars on the cortex were swollen, and I was hungry for more blood.

“It's the real end. Ferreira completely abandoned me, and it doesn't matter what happens to me. Actually... that's what I was so excited about. Ferreha was too good to me. ”

There was little resentment or betrayal in Sarah's voice to say so. Rather, there was only self-help. Pereha always received only help and consideration. Sarah didn't really do anything to Pereha.

Immediately before his life was cut off, he was led to the monastery.

“If Pereha hadn't abandoned me, I... might have gone back to Proa. ”

Sarah raises her head and says blankly.

“It's true that I want to see you again somehow. I want to... repay you. Then he would be dead. Proa was dying, and that was something I couldn't do. So...”

“There's nothing wrong with you. ”

Baek Hyun shakes his head and says,

“... Pereha may still be in that world. ”

Sarah nods and mutters. It was also one of the reasons Sarah embraced self-loathing. No matter how abandoned, the affection and consideration that Ferreha had received was not the same. But instead of Proa with Pereha, Sarah chose Earth with Baek Hyun.

“Everyone will. I can get out of a dying world and go to another world, and who's going to come back to that terrible world? ”

I didn't want to see Sarah gloomy. Baek Hyun said with a hug on Sarah's shoulder.

“There's nothing wrong with you, so don't blame yourself too much. The problem is that the witch who first destroyed the world...”

Wait a minute.

You're missing something, aren't you?

Baek Hyun hastily stopped saying what he was saying. He hurriedly recalls the memories he saw and heard. What are you missing? Sarah's past. A dying world. The reason is witch. The witch of society has polluted the world's water. Because of that, Sarah's world was cursed to death. The earth is increasingly polluted and gives birth to nothing, and the corpses and monsters flourish in the polluted land.

That's Sarah's hometown. 17-dimensional proa.

‘Pure St. is more unbelievable than a bloody lion. ’

I think I'm missing it.

Why can't you believe it? ’

When did you have this conversation? I remembered. I was joined by Yellion and Carpago. With the help of Lei Lung. I lost my mind, and then I opened my eyes at the Neolithic Mountain in Lei Lung, China.

‘Pure Saint destroyed his own world. ’

Lei Lung said that about Pure St.

"How do you believe in such evil? ’

Evil God.

Since then, Baek Hyun has kept his distance from Pure St. And by now, I knew how ugly and hypocritical Pure Saint was. I learned that she has an uncertain power and has a relationship with the drinker of the cannabis.

A world destroyed by that evil spirit.

‘I don't know exactly what happened, but it's true that the 17 dimensions that she ruled were destroyed by Pure St. ’

Oh, yeah.

The world that Pure Saint destroyed was the proa.

‘That's why Pure St can't be trusted. ’

Baek Hyun turns his head and looks at Sarah.

Sarah suddenly stares at Baek Hyun, who has cut off her horse, blinking her red eyes.

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