Life With You

When Song Yuanqing was a small official, Lu Fangqi was already very famous. She was a teacher at the Faculty of Humanities at the University of Political Science and Law. Because of her excellent conditions, the people who chased her really ranked from the second ring to the fifth ring. However, she still chose to stay in The best time to marry Song Yuanqing.

From the time she was pregnant with Song Xi, she had an obvious reaction to morning sickness and was unable to work at all. At that time, the University of Political Science and Law only had three months of pregnancy leave at most. There was no way, Lu Fangqi had to resign and become a full-time wife at home.

Song Yuanqing ran across the government house every day, and sometimes had to go back to see her when passing by the door, so Lu Fangqi felt sad and worth it. Before Song Xi was born, she said, "If it's a boy, it's called Le, a girl. It’s called joy, peace and joy, just a lifetime of happiness and happiness."

Before Song Xi was five years old, the whole family atmosphere was particularly harmonious and warm. At that time, Song Yuanqing had a low official position. In addition to normal work, he could spend the rest of the day with his wife and children. Therefore, Song Xi still had a relationship with Song Yuanqing and Lu Fangqi in his childhood. A picture of playing together.

Song Yuanqing is very ambitious and has great ambitions. He is destined to be unwilling to be just a little trouble in his life. So as his career started, Lu Fangqi was happy for him, but also gradually felt that there was less and less time with Song Yuanqing. Sometimes it lasted more than a week when he was on a business trip, and he was so busy that he didn't even have time to make a phone call. She missed him, maybe only from the TV news.

She can’t complain like an ordinary woman, because she knows that her husband is not an ordinary person, he has his career and has his revenge, so for a long time, Lu Fangqi has been trying to suppress herself, trying to adjust her mood, and let herself Can adapt to today's life.

But such an approach not only didn't make her feel better, it made her even more confused. Why should we get married? Is marriage just for the official wife who is the envy of outsiders? Over the years, Song Yuanqing's official position has been rising, but her happiness is getting worse every day.

She became accustomed to his going out early and returning late. She was accustomed to working as soon as he got home in the study. Sometimes she didn’t care about food. She was used to two people lying on the same bed without talking. She was also used to all the things. Happy, yes, she is used to it, but unhappy is also true.

Lu Fangqi began to feel panic. The panic was nothing else, but she gradually couldn't feel the love between Song Yuanqing and Song Yuanqing. She was married because of love. The rest of her life is long. She can't imagine repeating it year after year. Such a life, she would go crazy.

She tried to chat with Song Yuanqing to see if he could spare some time for this family. She didn't need to be the wife of a high-ranking official. She hoped that she would be happy as before, with a family of three.

But the result was obvious. Even if Song Yuanqing agreed with her lips, she couldn't be satisfied at all. Lu Fangqi lived through such a depressed life for seven years.

For seven years, she had fantasized about forbearance and forbearance, maybe it will be good soon, but if there is no good, Song Yuanqing's official can only get bigger and bigger, and the time he can allocate to her can only be less and less. She had thought of divorce more than once, but looking at Song Xi, Song Xi was still very happy. She only needs to see her father occasionally and know that he loves her.

Maybe this is where love is different from other feelings. Lu Fangqi knew that Song Yuanqing hadn't derailed or didn't love this family, but she didn't feel that he loved her. Just like before, she had to make time to look at her.

Lu Fangqi has been suffering from depression for more than two years. She has been secretly adjusting. For a while, she felt particularly uncomfortable. She went to the hospital for an examination. It turned out that there was a tumor in her head, which was not well positioned. The operation was risky. She listened. After being very calm, it can be said that there was no fluctuation or crying.

When I got home that day, everything went as usual. I called Song Yuanqing and asked him if he would be back tonight to finish the meal. Song Yuanqing had an appointment, so she ate with Song Xi. During the dinner, she suddenly asked, "Xiao Xi, you love Dad. Do you love your mother more?"

Song Xi replied casually while eating, "Want to hear the truth or lies?"

Lu Fangqi said: "The truth."

Song Xi said, "Love my dad more."

"why?"

"My dad is so busy, he didn't forget to bring me gifts on business trips. Shouldn't the key man support the whole family upright? My dad is the pillar of our family, and in my heart he is at the same level as Superman."

The first person Song Xi admired was Song Yuanqing. This was also related to Lu Fangqi's early education. She felt that all emotions must have a sense of ritual. Whether his wife or children, she should worship Song Yuanqing.

She taught very well. In Song Xi’s heart, Song Yuanqing was perfect, because he was so busy, as long as he squeezed a little time to accompany him, it was precious to Song Xi. On the contrary, Lu Fangqi was there every day, Song Xi took it for granted. .

In Song Xi's heart when he was young, Song Yuanqing worked hard to raise the whole family so that she and her mother could live a life of worry-free food and clothing. Who is he not a hero?

There are so many last straws that crush the cow. Lu Fangqi’s decision to divorce Song Yuanqing is not impulsive. She can’t explain to Song Xi at that age what love is. Moreover, everyone’s definition of love is different. Lu Fangqi just thought When Song Xi grows up, you can tell her face-to-face: "Mom wants to be a good example for you. Life is your own. Only you know if you are unhappy. Never embarrass yourself."

But Lu Fangqi did not expect that she wanted to be a good example, but the ending was to disappoint Song Xi.

She and Song Yuanqing dragged on for two to three months from filing the divorce to completing the formalities. During the period Song Yuanqing was able to recover, but Lu Fangqi was determined. Song Xi was the last person in the family to learn the result. She had no right to speak. Knowing it is a foregone conclusion.

At the age of eleven or twelve, he was ignorant and ignorant, and Song Xi somehow defined Lu Fangqi as a person who abandoned her husband and abandon her daughter. Perhaps Lu Fangqi didn’t say the reason, or Song Yuanqing didn’t sleep in the middle of the night. She had seen Song Yuanqing shed tears when she was smoking silently, so she asked with red eyes, "Why is mom leaving?"

Song Yuanqing said: "Your mother is not happy here."

It may be this sentence that made Song Xijue in his youth, Lu Fangqi is too irresponsible, what does it mean to be unhappy? Where are you unhappy? She left when she was unhappy. Will the rest of the people be happy?

Song Yuanqing rarely mentioned Lu Fangqi to Song Xi because she felt that she was still young, and she couldn’t understand what she said. Later, I don’t know how long, maybe half a year later, she accidentally learned that Lu Fangqi had a new boyfriend by her side. It was completely exploded, and all the causes and consequences were cleared up. She nailed Lu Fangqi to the moral framework of unfaithfulness. She resisted with indifference. Every time she saw Lu Fangqi’s sad eyes, she would feel happy, but happiness is only momentary. The pain lasts a lifetime.

From then on, Song Xi isolated the word mother from her life. She said she didn’t want her mother. She said that she and Song Yuanqing depended on each other for all these years. When she knew that Song Yuanqing had approached Dong Lijun, for a moment, she felt that the whole world All alone, she was the only one.