Life With You

Lu Fangqi knew Xu Shunping long before he got married with Song Yuanqing. Xu Shunping was also a teacher at the University of Political Science and Law and a foreign language school. The two were colleagues and good friends. In addition, Xu Shunping was also a ‘party department’, so the relationship between the three was closer.

Xu Shunping is different from Song Yuanqing. He has no ambitions and no courage. He has a crush on Lu Fangqi for many years but he dare not confess. He watched her get married and have children. Able to grow old together.

Xu Shunping knew that Lu Fangqi had a brain tumor. At that time, he didn't have any selfish intentions. He just wanted to try his best to find the best doctor to cure her disease. Knowing that the United States is the authority, he discussed with Lu Fangqi to go with him. In the United States, he was afraid that she would think too much, and he even figured out the way of retreat-he took the initiative to apply for external transfer from above.

Back then, leaving Night City was far away from the political center. It was a ‘undeveloped’ choice. If Xu Shunping stayed, he would have a better position, but he still decided to go to the United States.

Lu Fangqi hesitated for a long time. She didn't know if she could come back again. So before she left, she wanted to see Song Xi again. Song Xi's tender face was covered with silent rebellion, and she confronted her and chose to leave. the behavior of.

Lu Fangqi can't say anything. If such a choice is destined to have someone bear the result, then that person can only be her. She can't make the hero in Song Xi's mind become imperfect and adult emotional problems. There is no reason to ask a child to feel in advance.

In Lu Fangqi's heart, one day Song Xi will grow up and she will understand herself.

I left Night City and went to the United States. After the examination, the doctor said a lot. Lu Fangqi didn't care much. The only thing was that the doctor said that the location of the brain tumor was exactly on the memory nerve, and memory loss would definitely occur after the operation. phenomenon.

Lu Fangqi asked: "How far did it go?"

The doctor said: "You will gradually forget many things, many people, even your own relatives, even the people who appear in front of you every day, if you don't see them for more than a period of time, you will not remember them."

To put it bluntly, after the operation, it will be like ‘Alzheimer’s.’ Lu Fangqi didn’t even think about it, so she refused. Don’t forget, why would she choose to forget?

Seeing her resolute attitude, Xu Shunping lost his temper for the first time and said to her, "You will die without surgery!"

Lu Fangqi said with red eyes, "Forget everyone and Xiaoxi when I live, then what am I doing alive?"

Xu Shunping said: "If you can't remember you, please write it down in advance. If you can't remember me, I will always be by your side to remind you, who you are, who you are, and what you have had... Fang Qi Don’t be afraid, yours will never change. You have to live and live to see Xiaoxi grow up."

The last sentence made Lu Fangqi cry in the corridor of a foreign hospital. Song Xi made her weak, and Song Xi made her strong. She didn’t want Song Xi to have no mother at a young age. She wanted to live. Go back alive and tell Song. Hi, she can not love anyone in this world, anyone can let go, but her daughter will not change her death.

Before undergoing the operation, Lu Fangqi almost wrote a diary to record all the bits and pieces between her and Song Xi. She was afraid that the book was not safe. She also recorded a lot of voice and video tapes. Before entering the operating room, she also asked Xu Shunping, " When I wake up, you must ask if I still remember Xiaoxi. If I forget, you can show me the videotape and my diary."

Xu Shunping nodded, "Don't worry, I'm ready."

The operation went smoothly. After Lu Fangqi woke up, Xu Shunping also followed her instructions and asked: "Fang Qi, who is Xiaoxi?"

Lu Fangqi was very weak, but replied firmly: "My daughter..."

At that moment, Xu Shunping smiled and nodded, but tears fell down.

At that time, both Lu Fangqi and Xu Shunping thought that the so-called memory loss was just an exaggeration of the doctor's postoperative influence. After all, at the beginning, Lu Fangqi remembered everything, except Song Xi, she still remembered Song Yuanqing, and remembered every bit of the past.

However, Xu Shunping soon discovered that Lu Fangqi’s memory was diminishing at a speed visible to the naked eye. At first, she was afraid of forgetting. She would chant a lot of the past to him, and then she would repeat the things she said in the morning in the afternoon or evening. Xu Shunping heard it but couldn't bear it.

Slowly, Lu Fangqi would forget the diary and put it on the bedside table. Every time he reminded her, she would be extremely frustrated or even irritable. She was afraid of forgetting and fear of losing her memory.

The doctor found Xu Shunping in private and told him that Lu Fangqi could not withstand such stimuli after surgery, and it would be harmful to her recovery. Many things should go with the flow. Forced memory will only make her feel stressed.

So Xu Shunping took Lu Fangqi’s diary from the bedside table. He was testing whether she would remember it. At first, she remembered looking for it, because there must be something recorded on it. She couldn’t remember it. Gradually, she even looked for the notebook. The action will be forgotten.

Forgetting is a particularly scary thing, especially from the perspective of a bystander. However, Lu Fangqi can't remember the past, so he will no longer have a burden in his heart, and his body is slowly improving.

Xu Shunping is very contradictory. I don’t know which is more important between forgetting the pain and remembering the happiness. Every day with Lu Fangqi, he is also human and selfish. If she forgets the past, he will have the opportunity to come back with her. Ever?

Once such a thought appeared, it was like a greedy beast, gradually devouring all the disguised kindness and morality. Life is too short. He has missed a lot of time. Why can't he fight for himself?

Xu Shunping woven a past for Lu Fangqi, a past with Song Yuanqing but not Song Xi, so in Lu Fangqi's "memory", she had a marriage that was not happy, Song Yuanqing was just a vague impression in her mind, she thought If everyone breaks up peacefully, then there is no need to owe a debt, just keep each other well.

She married Xu Shunping and had children. Because of a bad memory, he needed to be with him from time to time. For her and her children, he planned to give up work for a while. He gave her the life she had longed for and was beyond reach, and he really spoiled her into a carefree life. People, forgetting is not scary, he will always remind her when he is there.

Xu Shunping works in the United States. Every year, as Lu Fangqi, he sends an email to Song Yuanqing asking about Song Xi’s current situation. Song Yuanqing remarries. He has long been relieved of Lu Fangqi’s departure that year. He just said that everything is fine and you can come back to see if you have time.

As he grows older, every time Xu Le calls Lu Fangqi’s mother, Xu Shunping’s face will appear in Xu Shunping’s mind. Lele’s mother should also be her mother. He wants to find time to have a showdown with Lu Fangqi until Song Yuanqing had an accident in China...