M E M O R I Z E

“Of course it's a story…. Our sole wasn't born with a disability. And even though I was really pure and pretty since I was a kid, it wasn't quite like this. ”

At last, the story of An-hyun and An-sol's past begins. I was curious for a long time, but I decided to suppress it for a moment. It's not just about listening to a story and ending it. Based on An-hyun's story, we should capture a clue to solve An-sol's problem. Because I didn't know where the clue would come from, I needed to listen carefully to a word.

I calmly reformed and took an attitude to listen closely.

“Bro, my house used to be like this. It was a family that lacked nothing. Father who goes to a prosperous workplace, Mother with a gentle personality. And I'm a little bit timid, but still a good brother bru, who's always running around in trouble. Literally ordinary.... It was a family that you could see everywhere. But there was only one problem. ”

If so, Ansol's mental disorder was acquired, which was likely caused by certain factors.

I nod quietly, then listen to what follows.

“It was one day. I came in late at night to play, and my father and mother were arguing very hard. You son of a bitch. Why, you little bitch. to come and go with this kind of swearing. ”

“That's a little harsh. Why are you fighting like that? Was there ever a disagreement? ”

“No, it's all your fault. He looked like a normal father, but he was touching gambling and rowing. My mother found out about it, and eventually she got a divorce. ”

An-hyun was blindfolded to think back then. Of course, a family disagreement is something that anyone would have experienced once. But considering that, his voice is creepy. It felt like I was telling someone else's story.

“So you were divorced then? Is that why Ansol was shocked? ”

“Hahaha.... No, it's not that simple. No, it would have been better if it had been then.... ”

Ahn Hyun shakes his head with a silly smile for a moment, then slowly said.

“You're not divorced. I was on the verge of a divorce, and my father finally admitted his guilt and emptied out. There was, of course, a condition that we would never gamble or roar again. ”

“Good for you.”

“Thank God for that. By the way, brother, will you leave me the dog habit? ”

“... Are you replacing your hands again? ”

“Yes, but he didn't touch gambling, or rowing, as you promised. Instead, he turned his hand into stock. ”

'Almost addictive.'

I kicked my tongue in. I don't know much about stocks, but I heard from an acquaintance that it's a losing game unless it's the top 1%. And don't ever do it.

I opened my mouth quietly.

“I shouldn't have stopped that, either. ”

“Maybe my mother didn't know.... I don't know, but what would I know? I just sat in front of the computer, and I looked at this weird graph, and I thought, oh, you're working hard. By the way..."

An-hyun sighed heavily and said, even though she thought about it now, it was ridiculous.

“I thought it would be a bit quiet, but I had to look at the red differential pressure tickets that were smeared on the house one day to figure it out. It turned out that he owed a lot of money because his stock failed. The last gamble, the rowing incident, was fortunately cut before it exploded, but it was a real stock-fixing situation. Did you know that a normal, ordinary family is really rich in moments? ”

After that, Ahn Hyun paused. And I slowly looked up at the night sky. Suddenly, his eyes were open again. His eyes light up as if he was recalling something.

Soon, Ahn Hyun's gaze fell to me, and I slowly opened my lips.

“Still, I remember clearly. ”

“ ……. ”

“The day I sat on the street.... He didn't say anything. She was just walking around with her mother, me, Sol. But I didn't give up hope until then. But he's still my father. It can't end like this. Even if it's the worst, we can start again... However, even the hope of his father's words... He stepped on it.”

“Why?”

“The Han River was the place where we arrived, the Han River. And I got up on my bumpy leg, and he said, Let's just jump out of here together. ”

As soon as I heard that, I shed a deep tear. It was an act that did not seem like a normal father to me. I wondered if he was mentally impaired, too.

Did you notice my thoughts, Ahn Hyun said with a bitter smile.

“Isn't it funny even if you think about it? But it's true."

“… so what happened? ”

“Maybe if I jumped out of there, I wouldn't be here right now. My mother went crazy again. You're crazy. I asked you where you were taking me, and you brought me here to make all this noise. Why are you trying to kill me and my babies? If you want to die, die alone. We will survive like evil... ”

At least An-hyun's mother was a normal person. If Father and Mother had done the same thing in pairs, the brothers and sisters might not have really seen it here.

“Anyway, that was the beginning of hell. Honestly, what happened to my family was like a drama, right? ”

“Drama... ”

“Yes, drama. That's what I thought. But the walls of reality were cold. If it was really a drama, it would have to be a dramatic reversal, but it was getting harder and harder. ”

“No one to help you? ”

“I did. But once or twice, I kept opening my hands, and my relationships were ruined. Phew…."

An-hyun's voice, which was dry, was slowly getting wet. When I was talking about my father, I was relatively depressed, but I didn't think about my mother. Soon, he raised his hand and began to steal the eye area. I used to squeeze my eyes out, yawning whether I didn't want to see her crying, but I knew that wasn't the case.

I don't feel comfortable forcing me to say things I don't want to say. But there was only one thing I could do for both of them that I had begun to do. No matter how long it takes, you never give up, no matter what form you take, you see the end. In fact, I wasn't sure it was out of my hands, but I was going to try as hard as I could. For the sake of this sister, and for me.

“Ah…. I'm sorry, bro, but I have to tell you something about solly, but I've got a lot of useless family history. ”

“No. None of this is useless. I never thought of it that way. The night is long and there's still a lot of time left. ”

An-hyun nodded, exhaling deeply. Then the liquid in his eyes drips down. Whether he knew it or not, he opened his mouth in a low tone.

“The debt keeps piling up.... Relatives are cut off.... At home, each other gradually disappears.... It's been two years since you did that. Eventually, something happened. ”

“Something happened? ”

Ongoing Ahn Hyun's tone contained a slight tremor. The process so far may have had an impact, but I thought it might be a true matter now.

And the moment I thought about it, Ahn Hyun's words continued to surprise me quite a bit.

“Yes, my mother killed herself. ”

“ ……. ”

For a moment, the silence subsided. I had no idea that An-hyun's father would have killed her himself.

“It was Wednesday... When I came home from school, my mother was home on weekdays. And suddenly he wants to go out with me...? Yes, it was good. My brother and I went out with him, and it's been a lot of fun. She went to the zoo that Brush loved, and bought him a lullaby... But... but... ”

An-hyun could no longer speak. The tremors in his voice were getting worse, so there was no discernible difference whether he was speaking now or crying.

Soon, Ahn Hyun, who was swallowing his neck, barely began to speak.

“My mother has business to attend to, and she asked us to go in first. So I'm going home with my sister... All of a sudden, Solly says, I'm too anxious. Let's go find Mom. ”

“What? Suddenly... Ah.”

“At first, I wanted to say something, but then I remembered what my mother said just before I broke up. Hey, Sola. I'm sorry. But, no matter how hard, no matter how hard, we have to live well together...? And as soon as I thought about it, I just ran. But…."

However, Ahn Hyun turned his head as if he didn't want to talk anymore. Seeing that he said the word "Haman", I could only imagine what happened after that, so I was heavy with my head.

A little silence flowed and Ahn Hyun opened his mouth to see if he had just calmed down.

“Funny thing is, do you know how you killed yourself? He jumped into the Han River, where his father had asked him to die two years ago. ”

“ ……. ”

“That was an unbelievable shock. For you, for me, for Sol. I don't know how much I resented that. And maybe... I think Sol's mental illness started there, too. ”

“Hmm?"

After raising his eyes, Ahn Hyun replied with a calm look.

“After the mother's funeral, she suddenly started talking to herself. An empty room with no one in it, but we're talking alone... You're muttering silently by yourself... The house has completely changed since my mother killed herself. Until then, I was still a family with muscles, but I was completely broken. I don't think I can handle that loss. ”

“Ha. So what did your father do? ”

I tried to be as objective as possible, but even though I felt myself, my voice was filled with subtle anger. It opened its mouth with a big frown, whether An-hyun was the same as well.

“I don't know. Me neither. But one thing was clear from then on. I had a lot of drinks and a lot of drunkenness, and it was a lot of reflection. All I do is insult my mother, and if I bleed all over it, I will punch and abuse her... ”

“What? Punching and abusing? ”

“Yes, I told you. I found out later that my father had a mental illness, too. I have a serious schizophrenia.... ”

“Suicide?”

In An-hyun's curved life, which keeps bursting out, I was about to collapse beyond ridiculous circumstances.

'What kind of life have these people lived...?'

An-hyun looked at me bitterly and knocked the bottle completely empty.

“I got hit pretty good, but he hit his own brother a lot. Do you know why? Solly looks a lot like her. ”

“I really…. What the hell... But I didn't want to insult him because he's my father, but he's completely insane. So you just stood there and watched your brother get hit? No, I couldn't. I could have reported you. ”

“Yes. But then... I just gave up, too. No, I hated being in the corner. Even at school, I started to get all squeaky.... I hang out with the bad guys. It was just... it was. I wanted to. I didn't want to mind my own home. So Sol was being bullied at school, and he didn't even know he was crying because he was struggling. Back then, everything was just a hassle. ”

Ahn Hyun said in a very regretful tone. I tasted it for a while.

You don't have to say anything else. It was literally Ahn Hyun's veil. I pulled a lotus candle out of my arms and asked myself,

“My father killed himself? ”

“… Yes. ”

“Did you jump, too? ”

“No. They found him dead on the side of the road, if he couldn't handle himself. ”

You can't handle yourself? '

What he couldn't handle on his own. An-hyun shook his head. Then he looks very worried whether to say this or not, and soon he looks down on the floor. Then I opened my mouth in a quiet voice.

“On that day, the poison house was quiet. ”

“ ……? ”

Suddenly, I felt anxious because of An-hyun's sudden words that had been going on for a while. He drenched his lips with a sharp needle and said right away.

“Have you ever done that? Suddenly you want to study. Suddenly you're sober. That day.”

“Ah. I see what you mean. ”

“Yes, that's it. I did it that day. I had not been home for more than two weeks at a time, but I felt poisonous that day. ”

“Is that why you went home? ”

“Yes, I went into the house... It was so quiet, it was so weird. And as soon as I opened the door, I saw my brother collapsing in the room. The uniform was severely torn, and the face and body were so messed up they couldn't recognize it, there was blood everywhere. ”

The moment I heard that, I felt suffocated. No way...?

“Did Ansol...? ”

“Brother, don't make that face. I didn't get what my brother thought I did. Torn clothes are for insubordination, and a lot of blood. ”

Acknowledging my anger, Ahn Hyun immediately explained. I asked urgently.

“So what happened? ”

“For now, I called 119. I wanted to kill my father right away, but I thought saving Solly would be the first thing. ”

“So.”

“And…. Fortunately, I was able to save his life. But her mental illness was completely exposed there. ”

“Showed up? ”

In my question, Ahn Hyun nodded once.

“Yes.”

Then I spoke in a powerless voice.

“A few days later, Sol woke up, and he didn't recognize me. ”

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