Memorize

“I suppose it would be … . We are not a child with a disability since birth. It was really pure and very clever from my childhood, but it was not so. ”

Finally, the story of Ahn Hyun and Ansol begins. I was curious because I was curious in the past, but I decided to suppress it for a while. It is not just about talking and ending. Based on the story of Ahn Hyun, we should get a clue to solve the problem of Ansol. Because I do not know where to find clues, I needed to listen carefully.

I took an attitude of correcting my posture and listening carefully.

“brother. Originally my house. It was a home without one thing missing. A father who has a good job, a mother of mild character. I am a little bit shy but I am a good sister sole. Literally an ordinary … . It’s a family that can be seen everywhere. But there was just one problem. ”

Thus, ansol’s psychiatric disorders were acquired and were likely to be caused by some factor.

I nodded quietly and listened to the following words.

“It was a day. I came in late at night, and my father and mother were fighting very hard. You dog. Why this year. I have come to such a profanity. ”

“That’s a bit of a hassle. Why did you fight so far? Were there any disagreements? ”

No. It’s all my father’s fault. Apparently he was a normal father, and he knew that he was touching gambling and gambling. My mother knew that, and eventually I thought of divorce. ”

Ahn recalled that he had closed his eyes. Of course, the disagreement of the family would have been something anyone would have experienced at one time. But even with that in mind, his voice was creepy. It was like feeling the story of others.

“Then did you get divorced? So Ansol shocked you? ”

Hahaha No. Things are not that simple. No, I would have liked it if it was not then … ”

Ahn Hyun shook his head with a smile on his face for a while.

“You did not divorce. I went right up to the divorce, and at last my father acknowledged his mistake and spilled it. Of course, there was a condition that I would not gamble nor gamble again. ”

“Good luck.”

“It was good to be there. Yes, brother. Would you give me a dog habit? ”

“…Will you take your hands again? ”

“Yes. But as you promised, you did not touch gambling or gambling. Instead, he turned his hand on the stock. ”

‘I think it was almost poisoning level.’

I kicked my tongue inside. I do not know about stocks, but according to my acquaintances, I heard that it is almost a game, not the top 1%. And with the sound that you should never.

I opened my mouth quietly.

“It did not stop.”

“My mother did not know … . I do not know. But what did I know then? I just sit in front of the computer and see a strange graph, but I’m just working hard. By the way…

Ahn Hyun thinks now, but there was a sigh of relief when there was no word.

“I wanted to be a little silent, but one day I saw the red foreclosures at home and figured out the situation. Later I found out that my father had a big debt because he failed in stock. The gambling and gambling case last time I cut it off before it burst, but the stocks were inexcusable. Do you know? It is really a moment when a normal, ordinary family comes to Pungbaksan? ”

After that, he stopped talking for a while. And slowly I looked up and looked up at the night sky. It was snowy again. His eyes seemed to have a faint light as if reminding him of something.

As soon as Ahn Hyun ‘s gaze fell, he adjusted to me, and he slowly took off his lips.

“Still, I remember clearly.”

“…….””The day I sat on the street … . My father did not say anything. I just walked with my mother, me, and Sol. But until then I did not give up hope. He is still a father. There is no end to this. Even if it’s the worst, you can start again. . Well, the author of the father, even the hope of the end … . I was trampled. ”

Why

“It was the Han River that arrived with us, the Han River. And he climbed over the truss, and he said so. Let’s die. Let’s just jump here together. ”

As soon as I heard that, I sank deeply. It was an act that was not seen as a normal father. I doubt whether he or she has a mental disorder.

I noticed such a thought, and Ahn Hyun was talking with a bitter smile.

“You think it’s funny? But it’s true. ”

“…So what happened? ”

“If you jumped from there, you could not be here now. This time, my mother raced. You’re crazy. I did not know where he was taking me. Why are you trying to kill me and your cubs? To die, die alone. We will survive like a fool … ”

The mother of Ahn Hyun was a normal person. If my father and mother had done the same thing in pairs, the brother and sister might not have really seen it here.

“Anyway, that was the beginning of hell. To be honest, what happened to our family was like a drama, right? ”

“The drama … ”

“Yes. drama. That’s when I thought so. But the wall of reality is cold. If it was really a drama, there should be a dramatic reversal, but the situation got harder and harder than reversing. ”

“Did anyone help?”

“There was.” But it was once or twice again, because I had to open my hands again and there, everything was broken. Fuyu … ”

Ahn Hyun ‘s voice was gradually getting wet. When I talked about my father, I was relatively cool, but I did not think about my mother. Soon he lifted his hand and began to steal his eyes. I did not want to show a crying or yawning until I could not see it, but I knew it well.

It is not easy for me to forcefully say things I do not want to say. But the thing that started this thing was the only thing I could do for the two of them. It will take some time and end in any form without giving up. In fact, it is out of my ability to be myself, but I was going to try as much as I can. For this brother and sister, and for me.

Ah… I’m sorry, brother. I have to tell you about Soo-il, but I have a lot of unnecessary households. ”

No. No one is useless. I do not think so. The night is long and there is still a lot of time left. ”

Hyun nodded with long breath. Then the liquid in the eyes gently flows down. Whether he knew it or not, he opened his mouth in low tone.

“The debt continues to accumulate … . Relatives are cut off … . In the home, the words gradually disappear from each other … . How about two years? In the end, that’s when things started to go off. ”

“What happened?”

The subsequent tone of Ahn Hyun had a slight tremor. The process so far may have had enough impact, but I suddenly thought that it was a real work from now on.

And the moment I thought so, Ahn Hyun ‘s words made me quite surprised.

“Yes. My mother committed suicide. ”

“…….”For a while, silence drifted. I do not know if she was the father of Ahn Hyun, and I did not expect her mother to end her life.

“That was Wednesday … . When I returned from school, my mother was home on weekdays. And he suddenly told us to go out together … ? Yes! Good. My brother and I went out with good times, and I had a really good time playing for a long time. He also went to the zoo that he liked, and he bought jacobs. . “And?” By the way…

Ahn Hyun could not speak any more. The tremor of the voice grew more and more and it was not enough to distinguish whether it was talking or crying now.

As soon as she moved her neck, she began to barely speak.

“My mother told me to go see what we had to see first. So I’m going home with my sister … . Suddenly, Soli is doing that. I’m too nervous. Let’s go find her. ”

“What?” Why all of a sudden… . Ah…

“At first I wanted to make a sound, but suddenly my mother just said that she was breaking up. Hyun Ah, Sola. I’m sorry Mom. Still, no matter how hard or hard, you have to live well together … ? The moment I remembered it, I ran right away. Soon…

But, Ahn turned his head away from me. But as I said the word, I was able to guess what happened afterwards, and I was only ten thousand bucks.

A little calm flowed, and Ahn finally opened the door.

“It’s funny, do you know how you killed yourself? He jumped into the Han River. That’s where my father died two years ago. ”

“…….””It was a really big shock. Father, me, and Sol are all. I do not know how much I grumbled. And maybe … . It seems that Soli’s mental disability has also started since then. ”

“Umm . . .

As she glanced up, Ahn responded with a tender look.

“After her mother’s funeral, she suddenly started talking to herself. I do not have anybody but I do not have a conversation … . Do you quietly mumble alone? . The house has changed completely since my mother committed suicide. Until then, it was a family that was still scraping, but it was completely broken. I do not think I’ve been able to endure the loss. ”

“Ha. So what did your father do? ”

I tried to listen to it as objectively as possible, but even though I felt myself, my tone was filled with anger. It was also the same with Ahn Hyun, who opened his mouth with frown.

“I do not know. However, one thing is certain that it was a bad idea from then on. It was common everyday to get drunk and drink drunk. I do not know what to do … ”

“What?” Rape to punch? ”

“Yes. I told you. It changed. Later, after my father committed suicide, I found out that my father was also mentally sick. Serious schizophrenia … ”

Suicide

In Ahn Hyun ‘s curved life, which is constantly bursting out, I had to go beyond the case of no more.

‘What kind of life did you have? . ‘

Ahn looked at me with bitter eyes and knocked on a completely empty bottle.

“I was pretty fit, too,” he said. Do you know why? It’s like that. ”

“I do not … . Well … . I tried to do it because I was a father, but I’m totally crazy. So you were just watching your brother fit? No, I could do it. ”

“indeed. But then … . I just gave up on myself. No, I hated being in the house. I started to have a bit of a knot in my school … . I’ve been hanging out with bad guys. just… It was then. I wanted to. I hated writing home itself. So I did not even know that Soli was bullied at school, crying hard. It was just annoying at that time. ”

Ahn said with a regretful tone. I have had appetite for a while.

No other words are needed. It was literally the cloak itself. I took out a tobacco plant again in my bosom.

“Did my father commit suicide?”

“…Yes

“Did you jump in the same way?”

No. I could not stand it myself, I was found dead on the roadside. ”

‘Can not you stand yourself?’

I wonder what I could not bear myself. Ahn Hyun shook his head. I do not have to tell you this, but when I started to think seriously, I laid my eyes down on the floor. Then he opened his mouth with a quiet voice.

“That day, the toxic house was quiet.”

“……?”Suddenly I felt uneasy at the sudden expression of Ahn Hyun, who had just happened before. He wet his lips with his lips and he was right.

“Have you ever been like that? Suddenly you want to study, suddenly your mind is clear. That day. ”

“Ah. I know what you mean. ”

“Yes. That. I did that day. I have not been home for more than two weeks in severe cases, but I feel strange that I feel poisoned that day. ”

“So you went home?”

“Yes. I went home … . It was so quiet. It’s strange. And as soon as I opened the door, I saw my brother in the room. The school uniform was severely torn, and the blood flowed into the mess in a way that the face and body could not be recognized. ”

The moment I heard that, I felt a choke. No way.

“I do not know … ? ”

“brother. Do not make that look. That’s not what you think. The clothes are torn, they are rebellious, and the blood is a lot. ”

As soon as I realized that my anger was such, Ahn immediately gave a detailed explanation. I was desperate.

“So what happened?”

“I called 119 for a moment. I wanted to kill my father right away, but I thought it was best to save him. ”

So

And… Fortunately, I could have saved my life. But my sister’s mental disability is completely out there. ”

“You showed up?”

To my question, Ahn Hyun nodded once and said.

Yes

Then I was speaking with a weak voice.

“A few days later, Soli, with his spirit in mind, did not recognize me.”

============================ Late Works ==================== ======== I was worried about what I would say in the latter part of the day, and it has passed 40 minutes. In the meantime, I have read the latest comments, and there are people who feel that they are getting bigger. Haha, yes. This part will be finalized in the next meeting. And I’m going to move on to the next story, so please wait one more day.

It’s Monday. I would like you all to work hard and to have a refreshing Monday. 🙂 “Lilipple (335 times)” 1. Lonely Solo: First celebration. I seem to see you in the first comment. 🙂 2. Evil trembling: Thank you. You were a little heavy this time?

3. White Crow: I was really worried about that part. After all, the conclusion was that I had to spend more than a certain amount of fingerprints. I thought it was a bit odd to open the door of my heart.

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