Monster no Goshujin-sama

02. Doubt and Trust

Two.

The day after dawn.

"Sorry, let me hurry"

"No......"

I was getting new gear from Rose.

Protectors that protect the usual breastplate and lower body, and a big shield.

However, the shades are slightly blackened, which is something different than before.

Likewise, it's not as strong as the pseudo-Damascus steel sword made by Rose, but this also seems to be more powerful than before. If we can deploy it to all, we'll have some more fighting power.

Rose does a good job, as always.

I was ready quickly.

"Well. I'm ready. Time to go."

I spoke to Rose and Kato before stroking the surface of a clear jelly monster standing still like a figurine with my fingertips.

"Lily too. 'Cause I'm coming."

No reply.

……

Lily was losing consciousness to recover. This is like sleep in a human place, and while she does, she can't keep a pseudo. I "wake up" a few times a day, like yesterday morning, but her appearance, which looks sick, is a little hard to watch.

It's not like there's anything else in life, it's just a slime with tough vitality, and they're going to recover within a few days, but until then, they should stay calm.

"Well, I asked for the rest"

Copy that, sir.

"... Yes"

Say hello, and I will leave the Arakune's nest.

"Your husband."

Shortly before leaving the nest, Rose, who had just broken up earlier, followed him and called him to me.

I look back to Rose.

Have you forgotten anything?

"Your husband. Are they really going?"

"Are we talking about that again?

Since yesterday Rose has been opposed to my going out to explore the woods.

The death fight against the white Arakune was only three days ago.

That's just what happened, so I can tell you it's best for her to worry.

I just felt a little too worried going.

"We've already talked about this many times. I'm completely demobilized already. Don't worry. I'm not going to fall out of nowhere."

"I understand that..."

Rose showed a slight jam in words.

"There will be other, yes, for example, safety issues, right?

"So, what, you mean the safety of this Arakune nest?

Problems in terms of safety...... I see you disagreed in that sense as well.

But it was an overthought, too.

"I'm fine. If you have to, you can wake Lily. No matter what kind of monster you two come, you won't be late."

Originally, Lily and Rose were two men of war.

When I used to live in a cave, I put out Lily to secure food, and only Rose stayed and was on the escort. Compared to that, the nest now has both Lily and Rose names, so safety is increasing.

Currently, Lily is unwell, but that's not enough to withstand one or two battles.

"Besides, in the first place, there won't be many monsters in this Arakune nest"

Not many monsters lean against the white Arakune nest, which is a high monster. In other words, all the monsters that lean in have been eliminated over the years.

In a sense, this was the mechanism of elimination in evolution.

"I don't care about us."

Rose still ate down.

"What worries me is your husband."

"... that wouldn't be the kind of thing to worry about. My escort is High Monster. It's that white Arakune. A monster against her is not what she is."

As I said, I was a little suspicious.

They thought Rose's worries would go too far.

It is unusual for Rose to disagree with my policy in the first place. She is the type of person who, in one way or another, carries it inside her chest, even if she disagrees, to carry out directives that have been silently given down.

And yet how...

... No, or.

Hey, is Rose taking the real deal right now and 'this'?

"How can you disagree with me going out into the woods? Rose, are you hiding something?"

"... it"

"It's about you. You're thinking," Because it's not up to me. "Don't be weird. If you're ever dissatisfied, you can say it all. You're my family, and you're a dear companion."

Even though I urged her to, Rose seemed lost.

Still, as I waited patiently, she suddenly knelt down and bowed her head.

"I'm sorry. Your husband."

"What. What's up?"

"I know your husband's thoughts on his family. I think it's gratifying, and it's not where I want it to be, to do nothing about it."

Rose kept her head down and began to spit out in her own mind.

At the same time, the sorrow in her heart… and the likeness of shame poured into me at the same time through the path.

But for what?

Rose went on to answer the question I had.

"But I... can't trust that Gabella as much as my sister."

"... what?

This was an unexpected confession for me.

While I couldn't say anything, Rose took more words.

"Could you at least wait until either me or my sister is free to move"

What she's saying is, 'I don't trust you about Gabella, so put either yourself or Lily on the escort'.

I felt a little dizzy.

It was because I knew how serious Rose was.

"Is that the real reason I was against going out into the woods?

"I'm sorry"

When I asked, Rose lowered her head even deeper.

"Can't you forgive him?"

"... Yes"

"Right."

Oh, shit.

I was a loose end to this.

Rather, this was a matter of anticipation and desirability.

Lily accepted me so lightly that I was completely oblivious to the possibility.

Rose is not like Lily.

Her role is to ensure my own safety, and her essence is as a guardian.

I will not forgive you for hurting my husband.

That's how she is.

- I exist to protect your husband. For that matter, I don't mind this body or other wood chips.

That's what Rose once told me.

Protecting me is the only thing that matters to her.

Even if she can't forgive me for hurting Gabella like that, it's natural. Rather, it was something I had to adjust well around it.

"I'm sorry"

"Yes, there's no need to apologize again and again. I can't forgive you..."

I can't even forgive the students who hurt me in the colony.

Depending on what you think... they were panicking, it was an emergency, usually they were good citizens too, the situation was bad and they didn't do anything wrong... it's possible to think about it.

If it's just about thinking.

Though I don't think I can really think of that.

They were all dead, but I had no feelings of pity for their deaths, such as' If you die, you are all Buddha '.

A man's heart is a part of reason that exists.

Lily, another family member, allowed to talk about Gabella, but that's not why we're not even talking about Rose being narrower than her.

Lily prioritizes my mind, but Rose only cares about my safety in a more practical sense.

This is their individuality and a manifestation of her personality that should not be denied. At least, I don't want to deny it underneath.

If you're going to say it in addition...... it sounds like you're going to say something cruel, but Gerbera is totally bad on this one.

It is true that the white Arakune, the incarnation of tyranny, hurt us.

And just because she's revamped doesn't change her nature as a spider either.

I won't cover what I did once.

How much I regret it, the past will never change.

Of course, I believe in Gabella.

I want my family to believe in her, too.

But that's not why I ordered Rose to trust Gabella. That wasn't a true relationship of trust, and what was built that way was supposed to be completely separate from the relationship I wanted them to have.

Gabella had to win the trust she'd lost in the first meeting.

Nevertheless, this would not be so much to worry about.

Build trust with this one.

If building a relationship means building a relationship, can this one rather be considered the main road?

Even if I put myself aside... for example, it would be more exceptional for Lily to accept the light, once hostile white Arakune thing.

- Winning Rose's trust.

I guess the fast way to do this will still be to 'show Rose where I'm helping'.

In that sense, as it turned out, I was right to try to use Gabella as my escort out into the woods.

All Gabella needs now is a track record of trust.

If you have a track record, any day Rose will admit to her. Fortunately, Rose has a rational personality. It shouldn't have been so difficult for Garbera, who has already shown reflection, to be admitted.

Besides, the status quo should have been hard on Rose as well.

If Rose could do it, she wouldn't want to question Gabella, the same family.

Otherwise, I wouldn't have received 'shame' emotions from Rose's confession.

They're all right because they're willing to walk over to both of them.

I can't believe there's nothing wrong with one thing, as long as it's alive. The only way to solve a small problem is to solve it each time.

It would be my duty, the Lord, to help them do so.

I cut up a conversation with Rose, and I went out of Arakune's nest.

There, Garbera was waiting.

Gabella was folding her spider legs and looking up at the sky blurry.

It had been a little while since I was talking to Rose. She seems to have been fed a waiting list. I did something wrong.

"You kept me waiting."

"No, wait, wait, wait, wait."

Garbera had a slightly stiff look as she dropped her gaze at the sky.

I leaned my neck.

"Is something wrong?

"Ugh, um. What are you talking about?

Gabella turned her back on me when she rose up.

"Look, if we don't get there soon, the sun will go down. You'll be back by sundown today."

What she said, too, was good.

Though I had some doubts, I left Arakune's nest.

We were going through the woods encountering a worm-shaped monster called Stub Beetle.

Stub Beetle looks like a giant beetle, about seventy centimeters in size.

Thick outer shells cover the entire body, and its robustness is probably one of the best in this forest.

Huge, cone-shaped corners reminiscent of Lance are stubborn and never crumble with a slight or gentle impact.

What I'm good at is assault from the air.

This is a simple but powerful attack, with only one dead in the early days of the colony but to the expedition.

I hear the stub beetle we encountered noticed the enemy before this one. By the time we heard the feather, it had already risen high in the sky.

At this point, there's no way I could have had this guy in my family.

Obviously, Stub Beetle has indicated his intention to attack us, most importantly because he couldn't feel the presence of a path connecting us.

Stub Beetle flew for me.

It turns positional energy a few meters high into velocity, a bullet-like hit with a stubborn outer shell as a weapon.

To avoid it, Stub Beetle, a live bullet, comes in a change of direction after seeing this one. As it was, I was pierced through my torso, and it was even possible that my torso and lower body would cry apart after a moment.

I'll take care of it.

Stub Beetle flying at an inconspicuous speed, but Gabella, beside me, threw the thread so as to obstruct its path.

Whatever the yarn that sticks like Becca and Gum, the giant beetle tries to stick it into me, the original goal.

But it wasn't Gabella who would allow it.

"Mmm."

If you plump eight legs and pull the yarn with seemingly idle arms, Stub Beetle, who should be a power type monster, fell out of balance in a flash.

The path deviates and the flight that has lost control turns into a crash.

Stub Beetle's round body plunged into Garbera as he jumped irregularly across the ground, also adding to the pulled momentum.

"This is the way to go."

In a place called Aya Clash, Garbera stuck out one of the spider legs.

A thrust reminiscent of a master's spear blow stitched the outside shell of a stubborn supposed stubborn beetle gently through the ground.

Stub Beetle was silent as he shook his feet with fright.

"End of story..."

"No."

Afraid to confirm, I exhaled the breath I was packing.

I know what Gabella is capable of, but I'm still nervous when it comes to fighting as well.

I'm not used to exchanging lives.

"Why don't you take a break, Lord?"

Maybe I was tired on my face. Garbera has suggested it with a caring look.

"Right."

I thank you for accepting Gabella's offer.

Get your hips down on the spot.

When I ingested the moisture from the wooden water bottle I had brought, I sighed small. I had a little fatigue in my body as well as mental matters.

Before I even realized it myself, I might have been careful. It seemed like we should take a little more rest on the temples.

That's how Gabella called out when I was checking my condition.

"Lord Hall."

"Yeah?"

"I was able to pack."

"That's fast."

In the hand of Gabella, who has spoken, was the remains of a stub beetle wrapped around with spider yarn.

When she said "packing" she meant "packing" as it was, so that it was convenient to carry it, and because the contents could be "zero" when carried as it was, she wrapped the monster's carcass around with spider thread.

Why, then, are you deliberately trying to bring home the remains of a monster, a souvenir for Lily, who should now be resting in the Arakune nest.

She has the pseudo ability to change into a predatory creature.

Monsters that we have not yet encountered, i.e. Lily has never preyed on, will become her strength if fed.

It is not what it was meant to be, but this would be one achievement.

Not bad. If I can bring my new family home now, it's all hail.

"Okay, let's get out of here."

"Wait, wait, Lord."

I stood up bravely, but Gabella praised this.

"You would have just sat down. I wonder if I could rest a little longer. Lord doesn't have much strength."

"... it could be poor compared to you monsters"

When they say it in a way that's like a frail body, as a man, I feel a little hooked, but the other guy is a white Arakune. From her eyes, it wasn't weird how I looked more unreliable than a baby.

"Okay. Let's get some rest."

"Uhm."

And I sat down again, clawing on the spot.

Seeing it, he nodded satisfactorily, and Gabella sat down with eight broken legs.

……

From me, about three meters away.

"... not far away"

There will be two of us, and there won't be this sense of distance.

It was hard to talk about.

Normally, it was at a level where I doubt they hated me.

"Oh, really?

Gabella slipped her gaze clumsily.

It was obviously suspicious.

I just thought something had happened.

"Gabella?"

When I called out my name, my frightened, thin shoulders jumped.

"Hey, what is it?

……

"Ugh..."

As I stared, the girl's upper body nodded as if it were a white lily.

Apparently, he noticed. Honesty is a good thing.

"What happened?

When I asked, Gabella flickered.

"... Is the Lord good?

"What are you talking about?

When I showed incomprehension, she said in an awkward tone.

"The concubine… had just attacked the Lord's Hall last night. Isn't it a little careless to be alone with a concubine like that?"

If I had told you a word, it would have disappeared from this place.

"Gabella. You..."

So I picked up.

"You were listening to me and Rose, weren't you?

"Hey, what's going on!?

My voice was rubbing upwards, and my red eyes were swimming all over my eyes.

Whatever it was, it was too much.

This is no different than what I have admitted.

"You were listening."

And I sighed one, and walked up to her, who was turning away.

She was the one who shook her shoulders perfectly, but she didn't escape.

I just lean down like I thought.

"So you, how was it going?"

"... um"

Rose was against me going out exploring the woods with Gabella.

I heard that one, and Gabella seemed to be distancing herself from me, knowing Rose was suspicious of herself.

At the time we're out in the woods by ourselves, we just got a little distance and it doesn't make any sense... no. I don't know what to say anymore. It was something I knew she was clumsy. Otherwise, you can't make mistakes like that night.

The problem is that Gabella is taking it seriously.

Being depressed to this point would mean that she was originally willing to blame herself.

Apparently, once hostile to us was a huge burden to her now that she became known as Gabella.

Just a thought, I asked.

"Are you careless? What, is Gabella going to hurt us again?

"No way! That's not true! The concubine is truly grateful to the Lord!

After being freshly devoured, as I had always noticed, Gabella folded her legs and dropped her shoulders on the spot.

But when Lord Rose made sense, the concubine herself thought,

The sober appearance even seemed to have closed the large circle of flowers just because she was a gorgeous beauty.

"Concubines are dangerous. It could harm the Lord and His Highness. That's true..."

This is apparently a lot seriously injured.

That's how I confirmed it, and whispered my heart, my brow.

We are a small team.

We must therefore join forces to survive this world.

If the burden is too great, it may also create discord.

It is my responsibility to take care of my family.

If you want to add, I'm the one who brought her on my side, so you have to take good care of her.

Half of it is pre construction, and this is how depressed I am that I can't leave her alone.

But how did you cheer it up?

Before I conceived it, Gabella opened her mouth with a bend.

"The lords accepted my concubine. The concubine wants to be of service to such lords. I mean it."

Together, the fingers of both hands made Gabella feel slightly off her red eyes when she looked up at me.

"But it is. The nature of being born with it remains the same. The concubine still wants to have a monopoly on the Lord's Hall, and he wants to capture it.... No. You may feel stronger than you did yesterday."

With that said, his eyes wandering over him and her, under a clear red color, seemed to see the smoking admiration through.

"The concubine may soon hurt everyone who forgives and accepts the concubine. That's what the concubine is afraid of."

White Arakune, named Garbera, is a spider.

Capturing and tying her prey is an instinctive thing to do for her.

It's only natural that I want to do that, and this isn't like I can change anymore than she is.

… but.

To think so and whether or not to actually move into action is naturally not equals.

I think so, and I believe so.

"Don't worry, Gabella"

In the end, I decided to tell her what I thought.

"You will never hurt us again..."

There's a path connected between us anyway, and we're likely to find out where we've spoken lies and delusions. Then you should tell him your mind as it is.

That's what I decided.

"What makes you think that, Lord?

Was it surprising that I assured her that Gabella pounded the lower body of the spider and wandered.

"Lord Rose is right. I don't trust my concubine. And yet, how does the Lord seem to do that?

"Why... that's because I'm looking at you that night"

Gabella should have imagined herself that night spending the rest of her life alone.

Though it was only a short time, the time to tremble in solitude should have been felt many times as long as she had lived so far.

I know because I had the same experience.

That's why I think.

If it feels harder than anything, she'll be fine.

"You said, 'I'm afraid of hurting us'. If that's what you're feeling, you're fine. You will not betray our trust. 'Cause I guess so. You're afraid of a future that hurts us, because that's all you're taking seriously about us."

So there's nothing to worry about.

Gabella will not harm us by losing her desire.

Because she has something more important than that.

I believe in you.

I shook her sneaky hand dripping in front of Gabella's spider's body. If only my trust could be conveyed from here. I hope that helps her.

"So trust him some more in yourself, too"

"The main hall..."

Gabella stared at me without looking at me.

I thought, all of a sudden, I lay down my face.

And I was waved away, and I was amazed, and hardened.

"Ga, gabella?

"Ah, Lord..."

Groaning voice.

Gabella had her hands on her face and leaned down to hide her face with her long hair.

It just didn't make much sense to be hiding your face. Because the ears peeking were bright red, and even the noodles dewy by leaning were stained with Zhu.

"Gabella? How the hell are you..."

"Ah, Lord. Okay, I know very well that the Lord has believed in me from the bottom of my heart about my concubine, my family."

Gabella raised one hand and blocked my words from worrying.

"So leave it at that"

I don't know, I'm confused, and Gabella confessed in a small voice.

"... it's going to push me down"

"As long as it takes."

Convinced.

I thought the spider legs were loud.

Apparently, he's patient.

Argumentative execution is great, but there will be no more testing of her self-control on the disciples.

I was a big girl and decided to wait until she settled down.