My alternative life

At this point, Hong Lei has been crying, as if I was an executioner who killed her love and pierced her heart.

"I, when I saw you, I was very happy I never felt that way when I went to high school, college, and work with other men. "

Her face gently rubbed against my strong chest, smearing tears unevenly.

"Do you know how happy I was when you took me to your house for dinner again? I think I caught the shadow of love and finally understood what love is Because of you, I can't sleep every day... "

Her words made me sad. Alas, I didn't expect that Hong Lei should bear this strange and even incredible emotion silently for so many years

Unconsciously, I reached out to hold her. Although I didn't use as much force as I did to embrace Qiao xiao'e, Hong Lei's concave and convex body still fit with my body.

I Maybe it's the only way to comfort her.

Hong Lei cried, sobbing.

"Jiang Feng, Feng When I thought I had a chance to fight for my own happiness, Lanlan appeared. I saw you holding her, you look at her eyes You know, I really wanted to die at that time! "

I was surprised, "don't talk nonsense, how can it, you must be good, good..."

"Yes, I can't miss it. I've gone too far, but Jiang Feng, I tell you that I was really heartbroken in those days. Even when I met you, I was just trying to smile."

Her words made my heart ache again and again. I can't imagine how Hong Lei has been suffering in the past ten days.

Looking at his favorite man holding another woman, looking at me and LAN LAN laughing, and then I have to bite my teeth and rack my brains to help me solve the death of my brother-in-law case

She Well, maybe I couldn't do it at all.

"Later, I couldn't find you. I called my uncle and found out that you went to Mordor, and you and Lanlan seem to be over!"

She has been crying, crying my tears are about to fall.

"I thought, your love is over, can my love begin? I, Hong Lei, am not a third party However, when I was full of longing, you told me to help your little sister-in-law and run a school for her children OK, I like you and adore you. I deserve it. I do. But But

She finally couldn't go on, holding me and crying.

Finally, the corner of my eye was moist. I was moved by her.

Speaking of all, the women I have had a relationship with, whether they are still in the spiritual level or have negative physical distance contact, Hong Lei, if compared with others, must be one of those who love me deeply and help me a lot.

Lin Fen doesn't talk about it, but Hao Ru, LAN LAN, Qiao xiao'e and maybe Ma Xin. These women who have had that kind of relationship with me can't compare with Hong Lei's help to me.

For them, it's strange that I always seem to pay for them.

It can't be said that Hao Ru and xiao'e's sister-in-law don't love me, and they don't love me deeply enough, but they can't help me as much as Chen Qian, Hong Lei, Mo Zhi and even Yan Ran in life and career

But why can't I accept them?

I don't understand, no, maybe I understand. The answer is, I really can't pay these debts

I don't dare, and I don't want to cross the thunder pool easily, so that my emotional world will never be peaceful and doomed.

Gently touching Hong Lei's hair, I said in a warm voice, "don't cry first, OK? You cry like this Well, I'm suffering, too! "

"You feel bad? Jiang Feng, can you? Will it be because of me? "

Hong Lei raised her head and looked at me, letting tears flow freely on her flowery cheek.

"Yes, I feel bad..."

Holding her, we sat by the bed, silent and no longer talking.

I don't know how long it took until Hong Lei leaned on my shoulder to stop crying. Then I said, "Hong Lei, my Jiang Feng is not as good as you think, I really Well, I've had more than one woman... "

"I don't care!"

She said immediately, "that's the past tense, isn't it? You and LAN LAN are over. You don't have a formal girlfriend now That Qiao xiao'e, I believe you won't marry her. You can't be together forever! "

"But..."

"You want to tell me you can't leave her alone, right?"

"Well!"

Although I can't bear it, I still directly answer her questions. At this time, I can't cheat her feelings, let alone disrespect my own feelings.

"Well, you can take care of it, you can take care of it, I agree, you can't take care of it!"

Hong Lei starts to cry again. It seems that Hong Lei has been crying since she entered the hotel room

"But I care about her, you Ah, I don't know how to say that no one will be so selfless about feelings. One day you will not be able to stand it... ""You mean, you, you will be like her in the future, won't you! You're going to go to bed and have sex, aren't you

"I..."

I'm about to collapse. How can I answer this question?

Yes, it can't, it will hurt Hong Lei, but if I answer no, isn't it cheating?

"Woo woo You, you, Wu Wu ~ ~ "

Hong Lei stopped talking and broke into tears again.

At this moment, I deeply felt that I was at a loss.

I can only, can only look at this girl who is deeply in love with me, crying in front of me, but can not, dare not give her a most basic commitment.

At last, Hong Lei rubbed her tears with the skin of my shoulder and said to me with a miserable smile, "Jiang Feng, actually, I have refused to go abroad arranged by my family. There is no room for maneuver! I come to you today, just want to tell you my feelings for you! It's just that I didn't think that we still have no fate, no matter what Hong Lei did to you. You, you don't have me at all... "

"No, it's not like that. I'm..."

"You, you what? You have me in your heart, don't you? You say? You said it

I Biting my teeth, I dare not look at her, quietly squeeze out three words from my teeth, "sorry..."

"Oh Hehe, OK, sorry, that's very nice

But she laughed, "do you always say sorry to each other when you refuse a woman? Then pretend to be helpless and shake your head to push her away from you. Then you can indulge your emotions and find those women who don't need to be single-minded and responsible for them, and live a life of your own free will? "

Her words, let my heart suddenly tighten, I, I am such a person?

Can't it be said that Hong Lei, to the point, said the emotional trend that I never seriously considered or even dared not carefully ponder?

I Jiang Feng, the reason why so many women have an intersection, or even ambiguous relationship, it is from this gloomy psychology?

I Is it really a man who doesn't want to be responsible!

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